Dude, this is too bad

Chapter 34

The bathroom is too small, and two people can barely stand when they are close together. The warm water flows down, washing away the traces of love. The traces on the body can be washed away, but the taste of bone erosion branded in the bottom of my heart cannot be washed away. Lose.

"Why are you so thin!" Li Chengyu said dissatisfiedly, Lin Feng is thinner than before, the ribs on his chest are clearly visible, and the collarbone can be used as a wine glass, "What's the matter with you? Have a tendency to masochistic?"

Lin Feng turned behind Li Chengyu, wiped his back with a towel, and said while wiping, "No, I'm usually busy."

"I heard about the matter between you and Wang Fang." Li Chengyu didn't want to mention this matter again, but Lin Feng was obviously not having a good time. After the passion passed, he gradually calmed down, pretended to turn around and supported Lin Feng's shoulders, and said softly Asked: "You have something to hide from me, right?"

Lin Feng reached out to wipe off the water on Li Chengyu's face, and whispered pleadingly, "Let's not quarrel, shall we?"

"I won't quarrel with you, and I won't in the future, but you have something to tell me." Lin Feng's expression made Li Chengyu feel distressed. He hugged him to his chest, patted Lin Feng's back lightly, and said in a low voice : "Tell me, okay?"

Sitting on the sofa, Lin Feng returned to his usual appearance. His hair was wet, and his always pale face was a little red because of the recent bath. He looked much healthier. He folded his hands behind his head and leaned on the sofa.Sitting next to him, Li Chengyu stuffed a small sofa cushion behind Lin Feng's waist.Lin Feng couldn't sit still, and within a few seconds his butt was moving around, unable to settle down no matter what.Li Chengyu simply pulled out the sofa cushion, grabbed Lin Feng's head, let him lie sideways on his lap, and stuffed the sofa cushion into Lin Feng's arms, then asked, "Is it better?"

"En." Lin Feng responded, his eyes were empty, and he didn't know where the focus was. "I'm sick, do you know? Don't worry, it's not a physical illness, and it won't be contagious."

Lin Feng can always provoke Li Chengyu easily. In the past, Li Chengyu would have been eager to argue with Lin Feng, but now, he suppressed it and said lightly: "I'm never worried. If you are sick, I will be sick with you."

"I can see the future of others, do you believe it?" Lin Feng's tone suddenly became weird, "The closer the person is, the longer it will take to see them. For example, my grandma, I knew when she would see the future in high school." I can see clearly what the cause of death is; Wang Qiang, I only know him for a month, and I know he will be paralyzed in a year; Zhu Ting, I can see her after a few glances. To the scene where she committed suicide by jumping off a building half a year later; and Wang Fang, I don’t like her at all, I’m jealous of her, but I also pity her, I saw her future, in order to treat her brother and mother, she became a person who destroys other people’s love and marriage sinners. Do you believe what I say?"

"As long as you say, I will believe it." Li Chengyu said firmly.

"Really! Do you really believe me? Don't you think I'm a psycho? Are you talking nonsense and deliberately alarmist?" Lin Feng's eyes suddenly became moist, "You are the first person to believe me. I told you before There was one person, that person didn't believe me, he said I was a lunatic, and sent me to a mental hospital for talking nonsense."

He fell into contemplation. The things he thought he could forget, in fact, he couldn't forget them at all, and he couldn't forget everything. When similar scenes appeared, the things that were deliberately suppressed would emerge.But now Lin Feng's mind is much stronger than that of seven years ago, and he will no longer faint because of these painful experiences.

Lin Feng, a freshman in high school, was wearing a baggy sportswear and stood timidly in front of the physics teacher in charge of his homeroom. He chose to tell this secret to his most trusted teacher.His deskmate, that outstanding girl, who took the first place in every exam, will pass away due to illness a year later.

The astonished look of the physics teacher was vivid in his memory. He stared at Lin Feng like a monster, and reprimanded: "What are you talking about? You did it on purpose, didn't you? You want her to drop out of school so that you can get the first place. Lin Feng, you should use your energy on your studies, not on crooked ways."

"The teacher won't tell others about this, and you don't want to tell others. Go back and study hard. If I find out that you are talking nonsense, I will send you to a mental hospital for examination."

He has no parents, and he is not too close to his aunt. His only relative, grandma, is too old. He can only choose to tell the teacher, the person he trusts the most.

As a result, he was regarded as a villain, a villain with a strong jealousy, who came up with despicable means for a vain rank.

The girl died of leukemia a year later. Lin Feng went to the hospital to see her with the class teacher. On the way back, the teacher told Lin Feng that he still remembered what happened a year ago, but he still didn't believe Lin Feng. He said that Lin Feng was just a coincidence. Guessing right, he told Feng not to tell this matter.He warned Lin Feng that if he wanted to live in peace, he should not tell this secret, it was for Lin Feng's good.

Like many painful experiences for Lin Feng, this incident was deeply buried in his heart, but it didn't mean that he was immune to the influence of this incident.Since then, he has become suspicious and cautious. He no longer trusts anyone easily. He closes his heart and immerses himself in his own world.On the surface, he is just an ordinary poor college student who needs to run around for tuition and living expenses. He is positive, optimistic and motivated.In fact, his heart was extremely depressed, and he had accumulated too many negative emotions, and he couldn't find a channel to vent.

Until he met Li Chengyu, a person he liked very much and treated him very well.He longs for this relationship, but the kindness in his heart makes him miss it again and again. He blames himself and hesitates, so he pushes people away with quarrels again and again, and regrets endlessly after pushing away...

What happened to Wang Fang hit him hard. He tried his best to help her, and only asked her not to take the road of harming others and himself. Unfortunately, Wang Fang's choice disappointed him, like a pot of cold water in winter. Pour it down.During that most gloomy time, Wang Qiang and Su Qiang appeared, gave him a chance, let him find a sustenance.

Several times he had the urge to go to a psychiatrist, but when things came to an end, he backed down again.He can only use work to numb himself, so that he has no time to think about his psychological problems.

He has almost resigned himself to his fate, thinking that this will be the end of his life, he is in love with work, and wants to spend his whole life with busy work.As for Li Chengyu, that is the eternal guilt in his heart. This is God's punishment for him, and it is also a gift from God.

"I never expected that you would come back to me. I thought I would be alone all my life. People like me don't deserve love. You see, I can't do anything well. I lack the ability to communicate with others. I I have an extreme and pessimistic personality, can I bring happiness to others?" Lin Feng burst into tears, dissecting himself in front of the person he loves the most, showing his ugly and dark side in front of the beautiful love, what a cruel thing it is matter.But Lin Feng understands that if he doesn't get rid of this knot, the relationship between him and Li Chengyu won't go very far. Just like before, if he doesn't get rid of the crux, there will only be endless quarrels, and the quarrel will always be the surface of the matter. Can't touch the essence.

"You can, trust me. I'm very happy with you." Li Chengyu couldn't bear to look at Lin Feng's eyes again. He was like a helpless child. He grabbed Li Chengyu's life-saving straw. If he gave up on him, then Lin Feng would close himself tightly like before.

Lin Feng turned around and buried his head tightly on Li Chengyu's chest. Hot and humid tears wet his clothes and wet his soft heart.

It was in the afternoon that Lin Feng calmed down completely. The stomachs of the two protested one after another. He smiled embarrassedly and said to Li Chengyu: "Laugh if you want. Ten or ten people, and still lose their temper like a child."

Lin Feng's eyes were like two red and swollen little peaches, and the tip of his nose was also red. He looked at himself in the mirror and exclaimed: "How can I go out to eat like this? No, no, eat at home. You wait, I'll go Cook."

Li Chengyu hugged him from behind, put his head lightly on Lin Feng's shoulder, nodded his nose, and murmured: "What kind of food to eat! Just eat you."

Lin Feng smiled and pushed the man away against the wall, and said fiercely: "I was careless and let you get away with it once, don't be too arrogant!" After speaking, he gnawed his mouth on Li Chengyu's neck, and Li Chengyu looked up at his neck, looking Looking at the two people in the mirror, the corners of their mouths raised an arc, and they couldn't help laughing.

"Cooperate!" Before Lin Feng finished speaking, his stomach rang again inappropriately, and he pushed Li Chengyu away annoyed.

"You wash your face first, I'll heat up your breakfast, and we'll go out to eat when you think you can go out to meet people."

The afternoon sun shone warmly on his body, making the person sleepy, Li Chengyu played with Lin Feng's hair, and asked casually: "Lin Daxian, we are so close, we have become one, how many times have you seen me?" far future?"

Lin Feng raised his head. After his eyes were covered with hot towels, they were already much better. He closed his eyes and felt them. When he opened them again, his eyes were shining brightly. He looked at Li Chengyu happily and said, "I saw the two of us walking together."

It was indeed a beautiful picture, so beautiful that it was the first time Lin Feng rejoiced that he had this special ability: two white-haired old men, sitting side by side on a chair in the park, watching the children playing not far away , a leaf fell on Li Chengyu's shoulder, Lin Feng helped him pick off the leaf, Li Chengyu grinned at him with a toothless mouth.

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