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Shao Gan only felt that his face was hot.This job must be done by Mo Tong.They had pulled the hook at the beginning and agreed to study at Z University together.They also said yes to be best friends.He also seemed to have said - I will forgive you first this time, and it will not be so easy to forgive next time.Shao Gan seemed to suddenly understand the meaning of his words, and felt more and more uncomfortable in his heart.

It's about to be the third year of high school, and he has to concentrate on studying.Shao Gan feels that his current state is really sorry for Shao An, who works every day.Shao An changed jobs, and after the school project came to an end, he returned to his hometown.Before the summer vacation, I made a special trip to the school and told Shao Qian that I would bring some young people from the villages to work outside.By chance, he subcontracted a little project.

Shao Gan thought, he probably won't see Mo Tong this summer.But when I didn't see him for most of the summer vacation, I felt unreasonably annoyed.At first, the teacher who led the team was afraid that some students would not be able to complete the murals as required, but later found it reassuring to entrust the work to these three people, so he did not often appear in the church.

The newly built church is very tall, with large vaults and huge windows. The air circulation is very cool, but it is still a bit hot for them who keep their necks up.In addition, the paint used to paint the murals is not like the watercolor they usually use, and more acrylic ingredients make the whole lecture hall full of pungent smell.

When Mo Tong came over with a bag of popsicles, Shao Gan was standing shirtless on a high scaffold, earnestly drawing two excited saints near Jesus in "The Last Supper".He left the face blank first, but he really didn't have the courage to do it. He thought about waiting for the teacher who led the team to come over and see if he could make it up.Human expressions are the most difficult to draw.

Looking at it from Mo Tong's point of view, the window behind Shao Gan is a peaceful scene, and the bright sky seems to form a halo above his head.The situation is very similar to the painting he is drawing.Mo Tong looked up for a while, then turned to seriously look at the half-finished mural.It's quite satisfactory, it's enough to fool those who don't know how to paint.

It was Liang Shan who discovered him first, and he jumped up while still standing on the shelf to say hello: "Mo Tong, did you bring something delicious for brother?"

"Ice popsicle, red bean and vanilla." Mo Tong waved the bag in his hand to signal.

"Oh, what are you doing at home during the summer vacation? I thought you would come to play often." Liang Shan quickly got off the scaffolding, took it regardless of the taste, and watched the biggest piece stuffed in his mouth before patting Mo Tong on the shoulder. As a token of thanks.

"There are a lot of things to do every day." Mo Tong replied, and passed one to Liu Wei, and the rest was not awkward, directly hung on the scaffold where Shao Gan was, waiting for him to come down to pick it up.

"How busy can you be?" Liang Shan sneered, "Don't just hold your book and read it again, right? Don't learn it soon, you will make yourself stupid later on."

"I'm studying. I'm taking an English test. I'll see if I can go abroad?"

"Which pot did you come from?" Liang Shan Chi Liu Chi Liu sucked the popsicle in his hand, and asked inarticulately: "Which country are you going to come from? It's cold."

"Go to the United States." Mo Tong replied with a smile: "Actually, when I was recruited, my parents wanted me to go out, but I didn't agree. I think our place is better. But it doesn't matter now."

"Why, do you think it's better than our school now?"

"That's not true." Mo Tong chuckled.

Liang Shan beckoned from the people on the scaffolding, "Come down and eat a popsicle before continuing. Hey, Lao Ba is going abroad."

The scaffolding was a bit high, and Shao Gan couldn't see Mo Tong's expression clearly when he looked down.He seemed to be smiling, but why did he feel so depressed?Shao Gan didn't know what to say or what to do. He stared at the saints Thomas and Jacob in front of him for a long time, until Liang Shan yelled again, and then slowly came down.

Liang Shan handed him a popsicle, frowned and said, "Baby is going abroad."

"Ang." Shao Gan looked at the things in his hand, and took a bite out of his mind, "Good thing."

Going abroad is too far away for him. He has never thought that one day he will leave the land of China when he grows up.In his life experience, no one has gone abroad.But there is no doubt that if you can go out, you must be very good.Shao Gan felt that Mo Tong was indeed excellent.A very smart person, if he wants to, can get to the top of the grade; if he wants, he can draw well; if he wants, he can do many excellent things.

"When school starts, I may not go to school." Mo Tong didn't look at Shao Gan, and seemed to be talking about an unimportant thing, "I signed up for a cram school and took the exam before your college entrance examination."

"No, damn it, you took two popsicle sticks to say goodbye." Liang Shan called with wide-eyed eyes.

"Let me invite you to dinner." Mo Tong raised his chin at Liu Wei, "Let's go together."

"No, I'm not going to join in the fun of your old classmates' farewell banquet." Liu Wei waved his hand, "I'm still eating at the nearby construction site, and I'll just bring a chicken leg when I come back."

Liang Shan didn't say anything, looking at Mo Tong and then at Shao Gan, he always felt that something was wrong with the atmosphere.Mo Tong slid down from the beam of the scaffolding, "You guys continue to work, I'll go shopping around, and we'll have dinner together after you get off work."

"Okay. Okay?" Liang Shan looked at Shao Qian uncertainly.Seeing Shao Qian nodding his head, he stroked the hairy back of his neck and nodded, "Then, find a place to pass the time first."

Mo Tong moved out of the corner of his eyes and walked to the church door to look inside.With the backlight, Shao Gan's expression could not be seen clearly, but the popsicle in the man's hand was not eaten much, and the melted ice water dripped a small puddle under his feet.

Mo Tong did not go far. The protective net near the newly built church has been removed, but some construction waste is still there.He turned around for a while, and sat under the weeping willows beside the river in the opposite green belt, looking at the church gate that had turned black due to the light and shadow effect, his thoughts drifted a little far away.

Who can keep a childlike innocence?That was very lucky indeed.Such a person will not suffer setbacks and will live a smooth life.Mo Tong felt that he was not lucky. He went to check many books, foreign and domestic, good and bad.Unfortunately, I am one of such a group of people who are not recognized by people.But I am also very lucky that I can grow rapidly, and in the future growth, I can work hard to change the state of life, without having to become those who are gradually lost in struggle and self-blame.In a certain corner of this world, there must be a place suitable for him, where he can face the sea and experience the warmth of spring and the blossoming of flowers without discrimination.It doesn't matter if the person next to you is the one in the church or not.

Shao Gan couldn't finish the work behind him, he took a huge paintbrush and stirred around in the paint bucket, but couldn't start.Even though he was wearing an apron, his already whitish clothes were stained with lots of paint spots.Since I was not in the mood, I simply squatted cross-legged on the subrack.Subconsciously touched the pocket, suddenly felt very empty.

Liang Shan looked up at him from below, and said seriously: "Shao Gan, Mo Tong, apart from being a bit coquettish, he has no evil intentions. If he really did something to make you angry, you should let it go. Tell me, how many people in our class really make friends with each other, it’s not easy to have a strong buddy. Let’s say a soft word when we’re having dinner later, everyone’s going to go abroad. Maybe we’ll never see each other again in the future.”

Shao Gan was a little confused and didn't answer.Liang Shan walked over and knocked on the shelf under him, "Did you hear that? Don't be messy at the dinner table. In my opinion, if you hadn't scolded him in front of the whole class, the old eighth wouldn't be here for more than half a year." Ignore you."

Have the two been in a cold war for so long?Shao Gan suddenly jumped off the shelf, took off his apron and threw it aside, put on his short sleeves on the gloves and went out, and saw the person sitting quietly on the chair by the river opposite at a glance.Shao Gan didn't know what to say and what to say when he walked over like this.But it seems that if you don't do this, it will really be like what Liang Shan said in the future, and I'm afraid you won't be able to see each other for the rest of your life.

Classmates who graduated were originally their own things, but Shao Gan just felt that things shouldn't develop like this.

Shao Gan stood behind him, loosened and tightened his fists, and finally mustered up the courage to say: "Mo Tong, I don't look down on you. Last time I was in class, I'm sorry."

Mo Tong's mind was a little relaxed. When he heard the voice, he turned around, but he didn't hear a single word. He subconsciously asked, "What?"

"I said, I'm sorry, I told you to leave in class last time."

Mo Tong was stunned for a moment, then shrugged his shoulders and said, "It's okay, I forgot about it."

"No, that's not what I meant." Shao Gan went around, sat down beside him, rubbed the paint on his hands, and said slowly: "I don't know how to express it. I encountered many things at that time, and my mind was very messed up. , and very sad. But I didn’t look down on you because of that. We pulled the hook, we wanted to be good friends, and we went to the same university, I remember it.”

"I haven't hooked up with you to be good friends." Mo Tong smiled, "But it seems that you can't go to the same university anymore."

"Will you get used to it when you go abroad alone?"

"Who knows, I haven't been there before." But it can't be more sad than the current situation.Mo Tong leaned back in the chair, let his legs hang down on the swing, looked at the clear river in front of him and said, "Actually, I really like Xiangcheng, and I also like our school. Do you remember the first time we met? "

"When I came to take another test? You were playing basketball, with that kind of hair tied on your head, like a professional athlete in a magazine."

Mo Tong laughed, "It almost hit you at that time."

"Time flies so fast. Sometimes I don't even dare to think about it. I'm in the third year of high school." Shao Qian put his elbows on his knees, bent over there, looked at the ground and spoke with a smile, and looked sideways at the handsome man. Extremely.

Mo Tong looked at him for a while, and for a moment, the admiration in his eyes still showed accidentally.Feelings are like boulders and dust. When you like it, it is heavy. When you warn yourself not to like it, it floats like dust in every corner of your heart, and you can't clean it up.

Mo Tong felt that he really wanted to touch that face, as if it was just a perfect but thin painting in mid-air, as long as he stretched out his hand and poked it, it would disappear into his heart as he wished.But when the fingers moved subconsciously, the rationality told me, no, why let a person who doesn't like me go through this kind of psychological torture?Mo Tong simply put his hands from the sides of his body into his trouser pockets, continued to shake his legs and said, "You are really handsome."

Shao Gan glanced at him in surprise, seeing him smiling at himself, touched the tip of his nose embarrassedly and said: "You are also very good-looking, really, very clean." Shao Gan pointed to his face, "Eyes."

Mo Tong smiled, took a deep breath and said: "You are so handsome, I didn't like you first, but got involved with He Dong, really."

Mo Tong's words were full of self-deprecation and a touch of irony, and he fell silent after he finished speaking.After talking about turning the page, I still couldn't help but talk about it.Shao Gan also remained silent, and when Mo Tong felt that it was almost time to go back and call Liang Shan for dinner, Shao Gan pulled his short sleeve.Shao Gan kept looking at the ground, and said with some difficulty: "Why do you like men?"

"This matter is beyond my control." Mo Tong bit his nails, looked elsewhere and whispered: "I didn't do anything to hinder others, but I just liked the same sex. This is my own business. "

"Then your parents?"

"I will find an opportunity to tell them that we have a democratic family, and they will definitely be sad, but it won't be...except for this, I have already started working hard to be a good son."

Shao Gan suddenly felt that Mo Tong had actually grown up quietly when he couldn't see it. The little guy who would sulk if he didn't play with him, already knew how to think, for himself, for his family, and for his friends.Shao Gan couldn't tell what kind of mood he was in, and what kind of mentality he should have when facing him.After a long while, I stretched out my arm and hugged him, as if I wanted to confirm my words - I didn't look down on you.It's like comforting him - life will be fine in the future.

Mo Tong suddenly felt sad, looked into the distance and asked with a casual smile, "Will you fall in love with a boy like me in the future?"

Shao Qian didn't answer.He Dong had asked this question in different ways, but he didn't have time to think about it.There are so many things to be busy every day, how can there be time to think about such trivial matters?

"You just don't like boys, so don't look down on them like other people. It's other people's freedom to like someone. If you can't accept it, just stay away and don't comment." Mo Tong laughed, "I don't want to hear someone call me a pervert when I'm walking down the street holding my boyfriend's hand, but it's you when I turn around."

Shao Gan shook his head. Although he hesitated, he persisted in shaking for a long time. It wasn't until Mo Tong wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes that he turned around and said seriously, "How could it be? I won't!"

The author has something to say: Ella, coming home from vacation, she has been crazy for many days, and she dare not come up to read the message.

As for the abuse, the author just thinks that Shoujun can grow up after going through some things, and if two people are together, they will last longer after going through a lot.

Of course, readers are here to relax and have fun, and the author is also sorry for not having fun in the first half of this article.

It can only be said that they have had a bumpy journey, and they will grow up slowly and will eventually be strong and happy

I wish you a happy new year and come home early