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Since the Cold War, Mo Tong's attitude towards He Dong has been relaxed.Whatever you do, whatever you want to do, what can you do to me?

He Dong seemed to be determined to perform the trick to the end, and would hang out in their class when he had time.

At the beginning of school, Mo Tong and He Dong seemed to have a good relationship, and they always played together for a while.Later, when Mo Tong and Shao Gan got close, they seldom stayed with him, and then basically avoided He Dong.But after that incident, Shao Gan discovered that the two often appeared together again, and they still had that relationship.This made him somewhat unacceptable psychologically.

It doesn't matter to Mo Tong, if you invite me out, just come out, if there is a free meal, don't eat it for free, anyway, he is bored in the classroom alone in a daze.Sometimes when He Dong came to play with him, he stopped by to say hello to Shao Gan, and Mo Tong watched him and Shao Gan speak awkwardly with a blank face, and then followed him out.But he doesn't play, he just finds a shady place to sit.Sometimes I look at the sky, sometimes I look at people, and sometimes I look at ants crawling slowly in the sand.

The one-meter-wide open space outside the iron fence of the school playground is the road ditch. That one-meter distance allows the nearby citizens to make full use of various vegetables and some rapeseed.Rapeseed flowers have bloomed and fallen for a long time, and now the rapeseed corners have matured and are covered with half-dried rapeseed stalks.The carrots that are out of season are growing very well.Sometimes Mo Tong would hang the whole body on the iron net, staring at the carrots with his face stuck on the cold iron net, like a rabbit who wanted to squeeze out to have a full meal at any time.Well, he's just bored and lonely.

Mo Tong didn't know what He Dong was thinking, and he didn't do anything excessive when he asked him out.Mo Tong thought, he probably didn't dare, because he had an extra screwdriver in his pocket.As long as He Dong dared to move his finger again, he would have the courage to stab the iron into his flesh.Anyway, it's all like this, so what if he hurt someone?At most, I should go to prison. How good it is to go to prison. I don’t have to work and I can only eat and drink.Sometimes Mo Tong would think fiercely, would Shao Gan feel sad when he stabbed He Dong with a screwdriver and went to prison?Or very happy, those two obtrusive people finally disappeared from the front.

Naturally, He Dong was not afraid, he had seen the screwdriver in Mo Tong's trouser pocket.One night when he asked Mo Tong out to eat stewed noodles, Mo Tong slapped the screwdriver on the table in front of him, said nothing, wiped his mouth with the noodles and put them back in his pocket.Mo Tong neither looked at him nor spoke.Eat as you please, drink as you please, just treat him as a transparent person who can pay the bill.

In fact, He Dong didn't know why he came out like that, and even why he asked Mo Tong out after that.Maybe two people are very lonely and have similar distress, so even if they just sit together in silence, they seem to feel "like".Maybe it's just jealousy, since I can't get it, then everyone can't get it.

It's just that He Dong didn't come into the house for almost half a year. After He Weiye gave him such a long time to calm down and failed, he finally took action on a weekend and came directly to the school to pick up someone.

He Weiye knew about He Dong's situation - it was said that his son's grades had dropped again; he heard that his son would occasionally sleep outside; he heard that his son had a fight at school; People on the Internet have contacts.He Weiye has become the mayor of the township. If he wants to know a person's situation, there are many ways.

This time he was still waiting at the gate, and only slowly followed after He Dong left the school gate.He wanted to see what this son, who had been held in the palms of his husband and wife since he was a child, had done with people in society.If he caught him face to face, it would save time for He Dong to adopt a policy of silence again.

It's really not suitable for He Weiye to follow up this job.In middle age, he has put on a little weight. He has been an official for so many years, and he is used to walking with his belly shy, driving secretly behind his son, and there is always a sense of sadness.He Dong always liked to sit on his shoulders when he was a child, and he would come out to play with him when he was in junior high school.In order to let him go to high school, He Weiye even used the method of topping Shao Gan's grades.Hurting Shao Huaigu's child was the last thing he wanted to do, but in the end he did it for He Dong.But He Dong started a cold war with his family when he was in high school.

There is a comparison, which makes people feel even more sad.He Weiye knew that the husband and wife still didn't care enough about him, otherwise he wouldn't have discovered the abnormality until He Dong's attitude was almost at odds with his family.

This time, he followed half of the city.He Weiye parked his car in front of a residential area and watched He Dong lazily stepping on his bicycle into the residential area, then watched him skillfully lock the bicycle to an iron water pipe downstairs, and went upstairs in two or three steps.When he followed up, He Weiye's heart almost jumped out.The already fat body followed He Dong trot's footsteps and climbed to the fifth floor, then hid in the corner and heard He Dong say, "Are you at home?"

"No class." It was a man's voice.

Maybe it was too nervous, maybe it was tired, He Weiye's legs couldn't stop shaking.When he stood lightly at the door of the east door on the sixth floor, He Weiye was breathing faster and faster, and he took a few deep breaths before suppressing his rising anger.

It is hot in summer, the anti-theft door of the room is locked, and the second door is only closed at will.He Weiye heard the man say: "Don't! Don't do it today, it's hot. Are you hot? How about I make you a bowl of rock sugar mung beans."

Then he heard his precious son say: "Do you first, then cook!"

The man chuckled and turned to lock the door.He Weiye's legs trembled and he turned his back, holding on to the railing so as not to fall.Zhang Qile was taken aback when he saw the people outside through the crack of the door.Seeing him walking down slowly, he thought it was the person coming out from the opposite door, and locked the door after he disappeared into the stairs.

He Weiye didn't leave, it took him a lot of effort to move his heavy body back to the first floor.He was sitting at the top of the stairs on the first floor, waiting, waiting for that "precious son" who walked up this road without knowing when!During the rebellious period, children must not be excited. They should have a good chat and find a quiet place to chat.He Weiye warned himself over and over again.

This wait is one night.He Weiye fed the mosquitoes all night, but he didn't move a bit.Every time a resident passed by, he would take a second look at this middle-aged man who was neatly dressed and elegantly dressed but had a hollow and haggard face.The next day the sun rose as usual, and when the morning light shone on He Weiye, he saw the man who came out to lock the door yesterday carrying a huge musical instrument box out of the door.

The man looked back at him frequently, but He Weiye lowered his eyes and did not move.When the man left the gate of the community, He Weiye staggered to his feet while leaning on the railing.He felt dizzy and dizzy, and after a while he turned around and went upstairs.He Weiye knocked on the door for a long time before he heard his son scolding inside: "Fuck! You don't bring your keys when you go out!?"

He Weiye continued to knock on the door lightly and didn't stop until He Dong's face appeared in sight.He Dong opened the door and scolded: "Did you fucking mean..."

After seeing the person standing there clearly, the last word was swallowed back into the throat in an instant.

He Weiye didn't expect that he could walk into the room so quietly. He even looked at the surrounding layout and guessed the occupation of the man just now from the two musical instruments.

"What are you doing here?"

"Good question." He Weiye's gaze slowly swept across the corners of the room, and finally fell on He Dong who was only wearing briefs. "Tell me, what am I here for?"

He Weiye didn't close his eyes all night, his eyes were bloodshot and bags under his eyes came out.I didn't wash my face, I was bitten by mosquitoes all night, there were a few red spots, and I was in an indescribable embarrassment.But this embarrassment did not affect the anger on his expressionless face at all.His eyes and clenched teeth kept saying-you better have a good explanation, otherwise you will suffer.

The corner of He Dong's mouth curled up in disdain, "You understand it in your heart, why should I explain? I made up a cover to lie to you, do you believe it?"

"When did you start...start..."

"Sleeping with a man?" He Dong added for him, "It's been a while, when I found out that my own father also has this problem."

He Weiye shook his body a few times, and asked incredulously, "What did you say?"

He Dong went to the inner room by himself, put on a short sleeve and came out, stood at the door of the bathroom, stared at He Weiye coldly, and said slowly: "One day, I accidentally saw a letter written by my father, and I realized that I got the gene in me from him."

Originally, he had always been kind to Shao Gan, and even wanted to get closer.For so many years, we have always been good friends and good brothers.I want to play with him and eat good meals with him.He Weiye's letter was a sharp knife, cutting through the chaos in his mind for so many years.

The most difficult hurdle in He Dong's heart, and what he hated the most, was this matter.He wished that he had never found that letter from the small box, wished that he hadn't walked into He Weiye's study that day, and hadn't suddenly found that small box from the bottom of a cabinet out of curiosity.He also asked He Weiye to hide some private money behind his wife's back.It is indeed hidden, it is indeed a shocking big secret.

The most unforgivable thing was that his father actually had that kind of thought about his best friend's father, and the most unforgivable thing was that this father dared to pretend to be in harmony with his mother.For whom?Does he feel no guilt?

He Dong knew where the He family and the Shao family used to go.He heard from his mother.He Weiye and Shao Huaigu came out of the same university. They were originally in Shanghai. For some reason, Shao Huaigu returned to his hometown after graduation and opened a small school at home.He Weiye's work was not going well, and by coincidence, he was also transferred to work in Shaogu County.His mother met him at that time and got married soon.He Dong thought, maybe he himself didn't want to go well.He came after someone, but his mother felt that this was an insistence on the interests of his classmates.

Later, when the Shao family was classified as a rich peasant, when they were knocked down and criticized, didn't He Weiye draw a clear line with him like everyone else?No matter what is good for a classmate, it is not worth the word "selfish".

He Dong clearly remembered what was written in the letter - I hope you can carefully consider your choice.You have to know how easy it is to go back, but how hard it is to come back.If you don't want to see me, I won't stay here. I just hope that you don't make a decision that you regret because of a moment of anger.I don't know why I did that, can that act be regarded as farewell?I must be drunk, I must be.Huaigu, forgive me, please forgive me.

He Dong knew that Shao Qian's mother was from Shanghai, so He Weiye was a complete third party.

The two-and-a-half-page letter began as a plea for forgiveness, then gradually became scribbled in the middle, and then seemed to give up writing it completely, and the tone gradually turned into despair and struggle.He Dong saw more than one sentence from the inside, "Huaigu, my dear", and the inscription is-I implore your forgiveness, Albert.

That letter, as well as an unfinished handmade brooch in that box that had been blackened by time, shattered He Dong's belief in a happy family overnight. He suddenly realized that the harmony of his parents before him It has always been false.His father liked a man, and that man was Shao Qian's father.And his poor mother, who didn't know anything, was just the second choice of his father's helplessness.

"Does my mother know?"

He Weiye's heart ached, he covered his heart and held the door, closed his eyes and said, "What nonsense are you talking about! What nonsense are you talking about!"

"You want me to read the contents of the letter to my mother?" He Dong suddenly felt angry, "How can you do this! You like Shao Gan's father, and you will always like him for the rest of your life. Don't let Shao Huaigu back then. It’s so difficult, then...then you’ll die! Why did you marry my mother! Why did you give birth to me, a pervert! Ah? I’m a pervert too!”

He Dong's hesitation, fear, and loathing for many days finally found a breaking point. He jumped into a rage, beat his chest and shouted: "Your son is just like you! He is also a pervert! You are satisfied!"

He Dong wandered around nervously, muttering in his mouth, as if he was talking to himself, but also as if he was purely venting something, "Ha, you actually like Shao Gan's father? No wonder you go back to visit his grave every year, every time Standing on his grave for a long time, you are even closer to your own father. How can you bear to watch him being beaten to death if you like him so much? How dare you let your son surpass his son's grades? How dare you! You are not afraid of Shao Huaigu lying down I can be enraged by you even in the ground. You are really my good father, you have taught me so much..."

He Weiye was trembling all over, and he didn't know where the strength came from, suddenly rushed over and slapped him hard.There was a "buzz" in He Dong's head after being hit, and he turned to one side instantly.He Weiye pointed at him and said tremblingly, "How dare you! How worthy!"

The corner of He Dong's mouth was bloodshot, he licked it and raised his hand to wipe the corner of his mouth and smiled, "You are not worthy to be my father, and you are not worthy to marry my mother, but I am worthy to be your son! Because we are, one, the same! Haha Ha ha."

He Weiye fled in a panic amidst He Dong's laughter. He fell down three times on the stairs on the sixth floor, which were neither too long nor too short, before reaching his car.He Weiye opened the car door with trembling hands and sat in, his whole body began to tremble violently.He slowly slumped on the seat, his whole body sunk in it.Looking at the sky through the gaps between the tall buildings, the clouds gather and then disperse. He seems to see Huai Gu who was full of passion standing among the students on campus more than 20 years ago and gave a speech, as if he saw the smiling man standing with eyes on. himself next to him.

"Huaigu, I'm guilty, I'm a sinner."