the moon in the attic

(One)

"Dear Yan Wei:

Your parents took you to the cemetery, and I didn't come with you.

I was in the rental house, looking through the photo album.

I knew you when I was 14, but our first photo was taken when I was 16. I regret not being able to record the first two years.

In fact, without the help of photos, I can recall the first time I saw you.

At that time, I felt that you were very pale, like many things around me, your vitality was not strong, and you would leave at any time.

Speaking of it, don’t laugh at me. I have no faith. I feel that everyone who needs to be worshipped has to pay something. I have nothing and I have nothing to ask for.

After meeting you, I occasionally wonder whether there are gods and Buddhas. The Bodhisattvas in the East can't do it, and the gods in the West can do it.

I have been to the temple several times behind your back, and made a wish, hoping to be useful. When I kowtowed, I told the Bodhisattva, I want Yan Wei to live, please help me.

I promised my blood, life span, and health, but the Bodhisattva seemed powerless, so I watched you get farther and farther away, but there was nothing I could do.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm not pious enough, because I beg the Buddha not to take my eyes away, but sometimes I wonder if I'm too greedy, so my wishes don't come true.

I used to want to have enough food and clothing, then I wanted to have a home, and then I wanted you.

I compare you to a heavy rain, which comes quickly and leaves quickly. When I love you, I feel that my whole heart is wet.

After you left, I was still wet.

I look forward to forever cloudy.

I love you Lin Yang"

(two)

"Dear Yan Wei:

It's raining again today.

I went to the cabin to tidy things up, and I brought some from the rental house too.

Grandma is still very sad, but she seems to be in good spirits, and I am also fine, don't worry.

I put away the photo album, and put the little wooden figure and pen together, so I won’t take them away. The wooden house is moisture-proof, and these things can always be kept well.

The apple tree outside your house has produced a lot of fruit this year, but it is still not big. I tasted one and it was very sour.

Grandma said it was because they were not cooked yet, but in my impression, you eat apples at this time of year.

It should be familiar.

I also went fishing today. I am not very good at wearing bait. I sat there from lunch to night. I bitten several mosquitoes, but I didn’t catch a single one.

Every time I fish, I lose to you. I took your fishing rod today, but I still can't.

In fact, I also cheated and sprinkled a little fish food on the place where the pole was thrown, but it may be that the fish were afraid of rain, so they didn't come out.

Yan Wei, look, I'm not making excuses, I'm real, I can't live without you.

I love you Lin Yang. "

(three)

"Dear Yan Wei:

I went to see you today.

To be honest, the photos were not well chosen.

You don't wear glasses, you don't smile, you wear a shirt and look like a successful person.

I have a few nice ones here, but they don't quite fit on tombstones, but you're pretty photogenic, so that one wasn't too bad.

Brought you oranges, peeled.

If you can taste it, you will probably have no regrets.

very sour.

I love you Lin Yang. "

(four)

"Dear Yan Wei:

Someone had a car accident at the gate of the school today, it was not serious, and later I met someone who touches porcelain, it didn’t touch me, I just watched it for a while.

Not going to class on purpose.

You can see it too, I skipped class because I missed you.

I love you Lin Yang. "

(Fives)

"Dear Yan Wei:

I donated all the money you left.

I love you Lin Yang. "

(six)

"Dear Yan Wei:

A lifetime is too long.

I love you Lin Yang. "

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twelve three:

My brother’s story ends here, there may be more episodes of baa baa

The next book will be "Daytime", thank you for your company