the moon in the attic

After sending Yan Yang back to the hotel, Han Yu also returned to his residence.

He didn't develop in the local area these years, but because there were people he wanted to see, he came back very frequently. Later, he had some savings, and bought this apartment with a loft just in time for the opening of the new building on Yinghui Road.

Han Yu opened the door with the key, and the sun hit his face.

He stood at the door for a long time, Yan Yang's new phone number was stored on his phone, and Han Yu sent a message, "Baaaaa, I'm home."

Of course there was no reply from the other side, Han Yu changed his shoes and went up to the attic.

The size of the new apartment is not small, the attic is not low, and the central air conditioner makes a slight wind noise when it operates, which is completely different from the one in Spring Breeze back then.

Han Yu sat cross-legged on the floor, thinking of Yan Yang in his teens.

Strange to say, regarding Yan Yang, what I can dream about and think about often seems to be always in summer.

Most of the rainy days.

Because of the rain, the barbecue restaurant was on holiday, Yan Yanghui and Han Yu went home, accompanied by the sound of rain, the two lay on their backs on the floor and kissed, doing intimate and ambiguous things.

The rainy night was not so hot, so the two went out for a walk under the moonlight.

Once Yan Yang said, "Let's take a picture too."

They took a picture of the two of them facing the camera, and a picture of the shadow of you and me.

When Han Yu said "I love you" that day, he couldn't remember Yan Yang's reaction, but it was probably because he couldn't help kissing him.

At that time, the lights on Yinghui Road were dim, and there was only Yan Yang's moving gaze. As soon as he looked over, Han Yu was overwhelmed with emotion.

Yan Yang has always been open-minded, leaning towards Han Yu when he likes him, unlike Han Yu, who was secretive at first, and then became uneasy.

Yan Yang only sent him one photo that day, and Han Yu thought about that shadow photo for a long time, but he didn't ask for it.

After procrastinating and procrastinating, I couldn't speak anymore.

He thought again of that spring, when he celebrated his birthday, Yan Yang took him to the park to fly a kite.

He went to that deceitful park a few times later, and some things were added. There were not only a few cows in the zoo, but he always felt that something was missing when he walked in it.

He wandered around, thinking that if Yan Yang knew that he would renovate as soon as he left, he would definitely be very angry, but at that time Yan Yang said he wanted to complain, and he didn't dial the number until the two returned home.

Yan Yang told him that he got lost when he was a child, and his brother used the campus radio to find him.

He also said, "There is no need to broadcast, you call me and I will come back."

At that time, Yan Yang's eyes were full of smiles, and later Han Yu watched him leave without calling him out.

Han Yu lowered his head and took out the wallet from his pocket. There was a photo in the wallet. The two teenagers were fighting side by side, one with a smile in his eyes, and the other with a very reserved look.

He took out the photo and brought out an old fifty-cent coin from many years ago.

The coin fell to the ground with muffled noises, and the worthless coin almost pierced the floor. Han Yu stared at the coin bouncing on the floor a few times, feeling like his heart had been smashed.

On the day he was drunk, Yan Yang patiently counted the change with him. At that time, they counted it, and it happened to be 182 yuan.

The ticket for the train he wanted to follow was 182 yuan and 5 cents.

Every time he saved a little money when he was a child, or every time Han Zhiyong beat him, he had to count it out, over and over again, and he didn't know when he lost fifty cents.

He always felt that it was because of the fifty cents that he didn't make it, but only he knew what it actually was.

This jar of change was a piece of Han Yu's heart in his teenage life that year. It contained all his bravery, sealed it up, and never saw it again if it was useless.

Until later when he met Yan Yang, Han Yu was cautious, wanted to get close but didn't dare, one day his beloved walked towards him, and Han Yu remembered that he had this pot of bravery.

He tried his best to be nice to him, held the jar and said, "I'll give you all, if you want it."

At the time, they all thought that was all, but later Han Yu found out that when he moved, there was still the inconspicuous Wumao who rolled under the bed at some point.

Just like them back then.

Han Yu gave Yan Yang everything he said, but not everything. He gave Yan Yang an unfathomable liking and love, and hid all his inferiority complex and sensitivity.

Yan Yang also gave him a lot of likes and accompanied him without hesitation.

Later, Han Yu relied on Yan Yang's many likings, and lasted year after year. When he saw him today, he realized that no amount of liking was worth having someone by his side.

It's not hot here at all, and the windows can be opened even if it rains, with a wide view, but no one comes to sit with him on the floor and count the change again.

Han Yu was completely wrong and hated himself at the time.

That year, when he went to the school to apply for a suspension, Yan Yang's head teacher happened to be at the teaching office. Seeing him fill out the form, Feng Yujie made a joke.

He said, "Is your relationship with Yan Yang so good? One suspends school and the other transfers away."

Han Yu's hand holding the pen was tight and tight, and he didn't dare to ask Yan Yang if he came or not.

On the day he left, he sent Yan Yang's luggage to Gao Chen, and Gao Chen asked him, "Do I need to bring you something?"

Han Yu couldn't hold back a word at that time, he wanted to say, "You tell him to wait for me."

But thinking of how sad Yan Yang was when he left, he couldn't say these words.

When will he wait?

Wait until he has money?Wait until he can make decisions on his own and don't need to ask for help?Or wait until he shows up and is able to keep Yan Yang by his side unscrupulously?

He himself didn't know when it was coming.

Yan Yang has confidence in him, and has said more than once, "You won't always be like this", but no one can say how many years it will take between "this way" and "not like this".

How have you been all these years?Just let Yan Yang waste time with him?

Yan Yang was so brave back then, but Han Yu didn't dare to follow him, because Han Yu was surrounded by a pit of fire, let alone anything else, Han Zhiyong alone would drag him to death.

Now he is living comfortably, with a little money enough for him to think about other things besides living, and his grandma hired the best nanny, so all difficulties are easily solved.

Everyone else thought he had gone fast enough, but only he knew that it was ten years, 650 days since they separated, and they hadn't been able to see each other again.

As long as I think of Yan Yang, time will stop there, and I will not move for ten years.

It is the ten years when he closes his eyes and sees the person he likes sitting under the window, slyly saying "It's raining, I won't go".

Later, Han Yu also left, the house he lived in had no attic, and the moon outside the house could not be seen clearly, but the moonlight always illuminated a certain cramped room coldly, the man laughed at Yan Yan, and called him after a long time, "Brother Han Han."

Then a big lock fell, and they broke up.

His youth is locked in the attic, and from his teens to now, he has only loved that one person.