the moon in the attic

Han Yu took a week off this time and returned to school three days before the monthly exam. The plaster Yan Yang prepared for him was finally handed over to him.

The little girls in Han Yu's class seem to have become gossip media. Yan Yang helped him with his homework this week, and he could hear the messy CP version almost every day.

He didn't feel disgusted, but he was afraid that Han Yu would not like it, so he didn't stay long, told him to study hard and left.

Because Han Yu missed a week of class, his study intensity was much higher after he came back, and he didn't have much time to chat with Yan Yang on the phone, so he usually chatted on WeChat.

The difficulty of the second monthly exam was obviously much higher than the first one, Yan Yang had a premonition that he would definitely fail as soon as he came out of the exam room.

After turning on his phone, he happened to see a missed call from Yan Haichuan, opened his dialog box, and replied with a "?".

Yan Haichuan quickly called him, "Son, school is over?"

Yan Yang was riding a bicycle and frowned, "Didn't I tell you, I have an exam today."

"Oh! Yes," Yan Haichuan smiled, "Dad forgot in a hurry."

Yan Yang rode slowly with his mobile phone, "Why are you calling me when you have time?"

Yan Haichuan pretended not to notice the complaint in his words, and said to him, "When I go back tomorrow, didn't I tell you to take you to eat hot pot last time? Will you give me a chance?"

No matter how much you complained about him, Yan Yang was still happy knowing that he was coming back, and said reservedly, "It depends on your sincerity."

Yan Haichuan smiled and said a few more words to him, then someone came to him and hung up the phone.

He arrived at noon the next day, did not go home, and picked up Yan Yang directly at the door, "Son, where is the hot pot restaurant you showed me?"

In fact, Yan Yang didn't have much appetite today, but Yan Haichuan was in high spirits. If he said he wouldn't eat, Yan Haichuan would definitely think that he lost his temper and try to make up for him.

Yan Yang imagined how Yan Haichuan kept making him happy, and then compromised, "Go ahead, I will know the way."

The two didn't make an appointment, and when they arrived at the store, they found that they had to wait for a seat. Yan Haichuan had been on the phone since he parked the car, and Yan Yang walked outside the door to breathe.

He was bored and brushed his vocabulary for a while, and when he saw a 24-hour convenience store across the road, he began to wonder if Han Yu bought his water there.

As he was thinking, the waiter opened the door and called him, "The table is free, come in and have a meal."

Yan Yang nodded, and followed the waiter in. The table was not bad, and Yan Haichuan was already seated in the corner of the hall.

Seeing him coming, Yan Haichuan handed him the tablet.

As soon as Yan Yang took the tablet, Yan Haichuan's cell phone on the table rang again. He glanced at Yan Yang, saw that Yan Yang had no objection, and took the cell phone to answer the call.

Yan Yang was already used to this, so he didn't say anything, ordered a few dishes at random, handed the tablet back to the waiter, and went to play with his phone.

When the soup came, Yan Haichuan hung up the phone.

"A call from the branch office," Yan Haichuan explained to Yan Yang, "There is an internal recommendation for an account manager, and I will be a staff officer over there."

"Oh." Yan Yang responded with a lack of interest, not very interested.

Yan Haichuan saw that he didn't talk too much, so he stopped talking to him, and found a relatively gentle topic, "I heard from my mother that the test results were not bad last time?"

Yan Yang pouted, "When did you hear about it?"

Yan Haichuan said with a smile, "You think it's too late for me to ask?"

Yan Yang poured a glass of water and pushed him over, "I didn't say anything, but if you ask later, you can directly ask me about the results of this monthly exam."

Yan Haichuan was taken aback, "When will the results of this monthly exam be released?"

Yan Yang said, "Only two or three days."

Yan Haichuan was a little embarrassed, he opened and closed his lips several times but couldn't say anything, Yan Yang didn't want to see him like this, so he asked, "When did my mother come back?"

In fact, Chen Jingru came back much more frequently than Yan Haichuan, but recently, Chen Jingru was too busy to go home for almost a month due to a lot of things in the company.

"I'm afraid it won't work in the next few days," Yan Haichuan said, "Your mother is on a business trip when I come back this time, and it will probably take another week or so."

"Got it." Yan Yang also poured himself a glass of water, without saying anything.

Yan Yang has been sensible since he was a child, only occasionally a little childish, and it is not too obvious when he is angry. Seeing that the atmosphere at the table is not right, Yan Haichuan starts to talk again.

"I talked to your Uncle Wen a few days ago," he paused and asked uncertainly, "Uncle Wen, do you remember?"

Yan Yang didn't know why he asked this, so he just nodded, "I remember."

Yan Haichuan is not completely out of ideas. He still has his own considerations about Yan Yang's future. He told Yan Yang, "His eldest son is studying abroad. I discussed it with my mother and would like to ask Do you want to go out and study?"

Yan Yang was stunned for a moment, and before he could answer, Yan Haichuan said, "Of course, my mother and I are just making a suggestion, and it's still based on your own wishes."

Yan Yang didn't want to go abroad, he had no idea at all, shook his head and refused, "I won't go."

Yan Haichuan seemed to want to say something more, but Yan Yang stopped him, "Don't worry about it, didn't you say that my wish is the main one? My wish is not to go."

Yan Haichuan smiled, "Okay, if you don't go, you won't go, I'll listen to you."

While the two were talking, the waiter came over to serve the dishes. Yan Yang pushed a plate of duck blood in front of Yan Haichuan, "Their duck blood is pretty good."

Yan Haichuan would order duck blood every time he ate hot pot, but Yan Yang didn't like blood, but that day Gao Chen said it was delicious, so he ordered it.

Yan Haichuan happily poured duck blood, and chatted with Yan Yang while eating.

"How long can I stay this time?" Yan Yang asked vaguely while biting a vegetable.

"Tomorrow at the latest..." Yan Haichuan was talking, when the cell phone that was placed aside rang again.

He glanced at Yan Yang, Yan Yang lowered his head and pretended not to hear, Yan Haichuan answered the phone.

It was another work call, and when Yan Yang heard him say to the person opposite, "I'm not busy, I have time", he lost his appetite in an instant.

After Yan Haichuan hung up the phone, Yan Yang still couldn't hold back his harsh words, "If you leave the company, you won't be able to transfer, right?"

What he said was a little ignorant, but Yan Haichuan didn't take it to heart, "It's not that the branch company is not on the right track..."

"Pull it down," Yan Yang interrupted him, "you will do the same when there is no branch."

He is a "you", and his complaints are beyond words.

Yan Haichuan cleared his throat, and drew a big cake for Yan Yang, "After these two years of busy work, I will definitely not let you stay at home all the time."

Yan Yang snorted angrily, "I will go to college in two years, and I won't be going home by then, so why are you still coming back?"

Yan Haichuan didn't have time to say anything, Yan Yang said angrily, "The reason for letting me go abroad is to think that I don't need you to bother me so much when I go abroad."

Yan Haichuan definitely didn't mean that, and Yan Yang knew it too, but when he got angry, he started to speak without restraint, and both of them were a little silent after he finished speaking.

Yan Yang moved the corner of his mouth and was about to apologize when Yan Haichuan's cell phone rang again.

Yan Yang lowered his head and put the vegetables on the plate, "You answer the phone."

Yan Haichuan let the phone ring twice, and called out, "Son."

Yan Yang ignored him, Yan Haichuan sighed, answered the phone, and spoke again with the appearance of a strategizing businessman, Yan Yang lowered his head to compete with the vegetable, and picked it out after biting it for a long time.

Yan Haichuan's phone call was not long, and after hanging up the phone, he looked at Yan Yang with an embarrassed expression, "Son, it's like this..."

As soon as he opened his mouth, Yan Yang put down his chopsticks, and the bamboo chopsticks made a soft knock on the porcelain plate.

A family of four was sitting at the next table. The mother was holding a five or six-year-old child on her lap, the older sister was playing with the younger brother with a toy, and the father was serving food to the mother.

Yan Yang looked at Yan Haichuan for a while, then picked up his chopsticks again, "Shall we go now?"

"No, no, no," Yan Haichuan repeatedly denied, "I have to finish my meal anyway."

Yan Yang nodded, "Let's eat then."

Before their dishes were served, Yan Haichuan touched Yan Yang's arm across the table, "Son?"

Yan Yang looked up at him, "I'm really not angry."

It's just a little disappointment, but this disappointment is unreasonable. He spends his parents' money, receives the best education, and lives a better life than many people, but he also expects his parents' company.

Yan Yang thought to himself, how could there be such a good thing.

Yan Haichuan blamed himself, smiled reassuringly, and put a piece of lettuce for Yan Yang, "Don't you like lettuce? Eat more."

After eating with chopsticks, Yan Yang still picked up the piece of lettuce, and said after finishing eating, "You remember wrongly, the one who loves lettuce is my brother."

Now he stopped talking completely. Yan Haichuan was flustered for a moment, but he didn't make excuses, he just apologized to Yan Yang, and then asked Yan Yang, "Then what do you like to eat now? Order a little more?"

When Yan Wei was mentioned, Yan Yang felt a little bit sad, but it wasn't really sad, after all, he was too young at that time, and Yan Wei had passed away many years ago.

"I remember," Yan Yang wanted to organize his words, but after thinking about it, he asked directly, "My brother..., is there anything you guys are hiding from me about this?"

Yan Wei's congenital heart disease was very serious. Yan Yang only remembered that after a while, his parents would take his eldest brother out for a few days. Later, when he grew up, he realized that when Yan Wei was not at home, he would go to the hospital for observation. .

Yan Yang discovered that there seemed to be something hidden behind Yan Wei's death a few years after his death.

In the year of Yan Wei's death, Yan Haichuan and Chen Jingru divorced. Yan Yang always believed that his parents had a good relationship, but after Yan Wei's death, the two often quarreled endlessly.

He didn't connect the two things at the time, but as he got older, he realized that things didn't seem so simple.

Because Yan Haichuan and Chen Jingru never mentioned Yan Wei's death, and Yan Yang mentioned it occasionally, they were either vague or simply kept silent.

"No," Yan Haichuan quickly denied, "we have nothing to hide from you."

He revealed that he didn't want to answer what he said. Seeing that Yan Haichuan didn't want to say anything, Yan Yang's mood suddenly became worse.

Yan Wei is his elder brother, he doesn't want to speculate maliciously, but the feeling of being kept in the dark always makes him anxious. He feels that he has the right to know, but obviously his parents don't think so.

The child next door started crying for some reason, Yan Yang turned his head to look, and said to Yan Haichuan, "Dad, if you don't have time next time, you don't have to come back."

Yan Haichuan opened his mouth to say something, but Yan Yang interrupted him, "Every time I eat half of it, I have to leave. It's really disappointing."

"I don't want to eat hot pot at all today, but because you said you would bring me here last time, it didn't work, so I sat here again."

"How my brother died, why you and my mother divorced, I don't want to know at all now, I just want to have a good meal now, and you can't satisfy me."

"You may think I'm not satisfied, but at least I can lose my temper."

Yan Haichuan lowered his head and said, "Father was wrong."

Yan Yang didn't say anything else, he called the waiter to pay the bill, and said to Yan Haichuan, "Let's go."

It was a rare time to come back, but it ended in a quarrel. Yan Yang watched Yan Haichuan get into the car, and was about to take a taxi and leave.

In the past few days, the temperature has dropped and the wind has been strong. Yan Yang is wearing thin clothes, and he still hasn't seen a taxi by the side of the road for 3 minutes, feeling extremely irritable.

He regretted that he spoke too aggressively with Yan Haichuan, and felt that it was naive for such a grown-up person to lose his temper, so he sent a message to Yan Haichuan with his mobile phone: "Tell me when you arrive."

Yan Haichuan replied quickly, "Okay."

Yan Yang saw that he had been typing for a while but hadn't sent a message, so he exited the dialog box.

With his fingers hanging on the conversation with Han Yu, Yan Yang hesitated for a moment, took a photo across the street and sent it, and said shamelessly, "Brother Han Han, where is the best place to take a taxi here?"

Although it was planned to be done step by step, today's situation is special, he was in a bad mood and didn't eat, so the plan was postponed. He just wanted to talk to Han Yu now, and it would be great if he could see him again.

Yan Yang found a big tree, sat casually on the side of the road, and waited intently for Han Yu's reply.

Han Yu did not disappoint him, and quickly asked, "Have you come here?"

Yan Yang: "Well, I came with my dad."

Yan Yang: "I didn't ride a bike, and I didn't have a bike after waiting for a long time."

Han Yu: "Then find a place where you can sit and wait a while, and I'll call you a car with my mobile phone."

Yan Yang stared at this line, thinking that I don't know how to call a car with a mobile phone, but he still said to Han Yu, "I'm sorry to go to someone's store."

Han Yu: "Isn't there a supermarket, just buy something."

Even in the leeward position, Yan Yang was still cold. He pulled the zipper all the way, pretending to be pitiful and replied to Han Yu, "Brother Han Han, I'm not happy."

Han Yu sent him three or four messages in a row, but Yan Yang didn't reply.

Perhaps seeing that he never replied, Han Yu called directly.

This was beyond Yan Yang's expectation, he pressed the corner of his mouth down, and answered the call as calmly as possible, "Brother Han Han?"

Han Yu's voice was not loud, and his tone was slightly anxious, "Why are you unhappy?"

Yan Yang's bad mood was swept away, he forced himself to suppress his smile, and said pitifully, "The meal was not finished, and my dad left again, leaving me here, and I couldn't get a taxi after waiting for a long time. "

Han Yu was silent for a while, "Then are you full?"

Originally, Yan Yang just wanted to pretend to be pitiful, but Han Yu's question made him feel aggrieved all of a sudden. When Yan Haichuan left, he didn't even ask him if he was full.

Yan Yang blinked and said honestly, "I hardly ate."

There was another silence on Han Yu's side, and after a while, he asked in a low voice, "Then you... I'm just about to cook, would you like to come over and have some?"

At this moment, Yan Yang felt aggrieved, looking forward, mixed with excitement and elation, and he didn't respond for a while, until Han Yu asked again, and he said, "Would it be too troublesome?"

Han Yu immediately said, "No trouble."

After he finished speaking, he asked, "Do you remember how to get there?"

Yan Yang is not a road idiot, of course he remembers how to get there, but Han Yu's question made his heart itch again. He raised his hand and wiped his nose, coughed pretendingly, and whispered, "I don't remember clearly."

"Then find a place to sit for a while," Han Yu said, "I'll go find you."

Yan Yang dryly said hello, hung up the phone and walked to the bus station with stiff limbs, only to become nervous when he sat on the bench.

It was easy to talk over the phone, but Yan Yang felt a little restless at the thought of seeing each other soon. He walked back and forth a few times, and felt that it would be bad for Han Yu to see him later, so he forced himself to sit down.

The glass of the stop sign was wiped clean. Occasionally one or two cars passed by on the road, there were few pedestrians, and the cold air hovered over the treetops.

Yan Yang stared at the farthest road in sight without blinking, and 10 minutes later, a familiar figure appeared in his vision.

Han Yu was wearing a white sweater, and walked quickly. Yan Yang looked at it for a while, and got up to meet Han Yu when he was about to arrive.

Han Yu panted slightly, handed him a bottle of ice water, and called him with a smile, "Baa baa."

Yan Yang took the water, and the water mist wrapped around his fingers, like a wet heart.

He thought, why don't I just ask him, maybe he also has feelings for me.

But before he could speak, Han Yu gently pulled his wrist and led him, "Don't be upset, what do you want to eat? I'll make it for you."

Yan Yang looked down at Han Yu's hand on his wrist, and said in a muffled voice, "Can I eat whatever I want?"

Han Yu said, "Yes."

Yan Yangzu was behind Han Yu, staring at his slightly sweaty nape, and asked calmly, "Is it only this time, or in the future?"

This autumn was nothing special, the wind was still fierce, and the ice water in his hand no longer melted so fast. Han Yu loosened and then tightened Yan Yang's hand.

Han Yu didn't look back, and only after a long time said softly, "It's fine in the future."

Among the seventeen or eighteen-year-old boys, there are many tacit understandings that are churning like the sea.