No two ambiguous records

It's been a while since I've been in Germany, and the training at the target vocational network is indeed much more formal and rigorous.Sometimes I even propped my head up and fell asleep directly on the dining table, but this was just a running-in period when I first came here. Now I have gradually adapted to the high-intensity and fast-paced tennis life, and I am moving towards my ideal step by step. close.

Every time I think about it like this, I will be grateful for my original decision, but the heart that I never want to let go has been settled in the encouragement and support of my companions.The partners are also growing and working hard. Unknowingly, they are more reliable than I imagined. Finally, I can let go of the courage on my shoulders and pursue my dreams.But more is comfort and deep trust in the companions, they will definitely catch up.

Especially him.

The result was already clear before the game even started, even if he knew the result, he still insisted on this requirement.Can't fully understand his thoughts, for himself, he is always the most intimate and most distant existence.Sometimes you are only a few meters away from him, but you can't figure out his thoughts at all; but sometimes you can vaguely feel his seriousness and determination around him thousands of miles away.Complicated things that I don't understand at all, I will always denounce such boring thoughts by myself, and then press them to the depths and don't touch them.

But distance really is a great catalyst.It can not only crush shallow feelings, but also make it mellow and produce intoxicating aging wine.Especially missing.

Sometimes I feel empty and extremely cold behind me while walking, and then stop, as if there is really something responding to my unconscious waiting; sometimes I habitually stretch my hand to the side, as if After practice, it seems that a bottle of water will be handed to me; sometimes I frown, as if there will be a soft voice in my ear saying, "Hey, Tezuka, if you frown too much, you will become an old man sooner." .

It's really scary to get used to being alone.Obviously the contact time is not very long, but it has penetrated deeply into life.I still remember that pair of gentle hands holding my own temperature and that flawless smiling face, cheering for the first sparring.I have never expected that much before, and it is the first time I feel that the game is so exciting, even if I get injured, I don't want to ruin this beautiful hope.But when I really met those icy blue eyes that were burning with anger, I knew deeply that I was wrong. This kind of self could not bring him an angelic smile at all. Perhaps, I have always been so self-righteous, but unconsciously hurt him.

The difference is that he yelled loudly when he hurt himself; but this time he didn't.Sure enough, in the final analysis, he still paid attention to others and ignored himself.The boy with the pure smile of an angel.

Of course, this part is for later.How could Tezuka, who was already lumpy, understand this immediately? After all, he was just a junior high school student who was ignorant of affection.It's just that under the washing of longing, I saw the horror of the habit.He sees it as a habit, not a lingering longing.

However, some hazy things cannot always remain vague. In other words, the reason why they have been hazy may be because they have to wait for a clear opportunity.During the break time, I will discuss with Hannah who I met by chance, and occasionally chat about the past of the traveling partner who received treatment in Germany.Then they will fall into the so-called vicious circle of habits unconsciously, and will be broken in the end.

"Tezuka, I always feel that you are a little absent-minded."

When I heard this sentence, I was really taken aback. Before I knew it, my thoughts were scattered and I couldn't concentrate.However, I still have to sigh again for women's keen emotional radar, which can always point out the problem to the point.

After listening to Tezuka's vague description of the recent situation, Hannah burst out laughing: "Tezuka, you must miss me. I didn't expect you to have someone you like. What kind of girl is it? When will you introduce me to you?" Let me see?"

These were indeed unexpected words, and even aroused a wave of unknown anger.At that time, it could be said that he turned around and left with a crossroads.

But when I lie in bed at night and think about it carefully, it really makes people shudder.Suddenly, I remembered the conversation with Yukimura.

Like it?

love?

At that time, I denied it without hesitation, but now I can't persuade myself to say the same thing.How can it be? !

In order to get rid of the miscellaneous thoughts in his mind, Tezuka took the mobile phone on the bedside and checked the time. 12 o'clock.Then, holding the phone, he turned over.But helplessly, he still didn't feel sleepy at all, but his fingers moved naturally, as if he had been extremely accustomed to it for countless days.

deny.

deny.

Now I have more important things.That's right, I have always clearly divided the priority of things from the secondary to the important tasks of a stage, and then put the secondary things on hold for a while, and put them in the storage of my mind without flipping through them.

But when Tezuka realized it, the extremely familiar number had already appeared on the phone screen.The thumb hovered tremblingly above the call button, but it didn't come down for a long time.Again, close the hood and close your eyes.

What's the matter, do you want to call so much?That's ridiculous.What can you say when you call.This kind of behavior has happened several times, but none of them actually hit it.

Thinking of that match again, I don't want to have any reservations, I want to expose my full ability and fight him wholeheartedly.Although this is not the match that I have been looking forward to for a long time, it should be, it is not the time I am looking forward to playing against him.No two will catch up, I have always believed so firmly, so I just revealed everything like this and never looked back.

Maybe I dare not look back, I'm afraid it will shake my progress.

This time, I was looking forward to it so self-righteously.

Looking forward to him catching up and standing by.

But I was afraid that like that time, instead of a happy smile, I would be angrily reprimanded.Or maybe he didn't even reprimand him, after all this time he didn't force himself for the promise.

I wish he could run to his side and accuse himself angrily like that time, with a worried look on his face.Getting rid of that feeling of guilt and bewilderment is as happy as seeing his smile.

This feeling.

Is it just like it?

His bright smile appeared in his mind, and his warm voice was next to his ears.You can even hear the nasty jokes.Suddenly it is acceptable, this feeling that has been confusing me and avoiding it all the time.

but.

The face full of sadness and determination that I hadn't noticed before suddenly emerged in my memory very clearly.There is also the last side before leaving, extremely painful and unwilling but mixed with a relieved expression of forbearance.Does it mean missed?Could it be that he was the one who hurt him the most?

Suddenly, an inexplicable fear surged into my heart, and my heart was in a mess.

I remembered the conversation that night again, when Yukimura's expression was...

As if to say, this is the last chance.

I don't understand the meaning of Yukimura, I don't understand Fuji's thoughts, but Yukimura should know some of Fuji's thoughts, but I don't understand at all.

Maybe it is really irreparable, but I still want to figure out what I have missed by avoiding and denying?The whole story must be ended, otherwise it will be difficult for me to concentrate and move on.

Tezuka picked up the phone, opened the address book and dialed.

"Hey."

Then it became clear that for the first time I felt that things were not so hazy, but that the youthfulness had become an illusory memory.

That's good, Wei Wei covers her heart, and grabs the pajamas tightly.

My heart hurts inexplicably.

However, he was relieved.

No more denials and evasions.

Hide this relationship deep down and move on, after all, it was the same way back then without looking back.

I hope it can be the driving force for you to move forward.

Will take good care of that navigation light.

But this time, as long as you call, I will definitely stop and lead you forward together, and I won't run away anymore.

Even if you have deviated from my course.

Still, guard.

It can only be this way.

The author has something to say:

After much deliberation, I'm still planning to add this side story, otherwise my conscience will not let it go. ==

Hannah is the one from the trip to Germany, you should not forget it.Let me borrow her words... Otherwise, I feel that no one will give me advice, and I will not understand ╮(╯﹏╰)╭

The content of the phone call will be interspersed in the second volume, after all, the time of this episode is synchronized with the second volume.

Then again, the summer holidays are almost over, and the updates will slow down.I originally planned to end the summer vacation, but I am too lazy T^T.

Also, the second volume is the final volume, I think I should be fair to each small attack, maybe it can be regarded as an even distribution?Although there is no real progress. . .

Ah, there is a lot of nonsense.Flash people~~~

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