he loves me

Chen Zhi really didn't know how he ended the chat with the senior. He only knew that after that chat, he was in a trance all day long. Even his favorite senior noticed his abnormality and came to care about him. He also only excused that he didn't sleep well, and then went back to his room early to rest.

But how could this be?

How could he and his senior have so many sweet memories in the past that were all misunderstandings, all of which were his own self-indulgence?

In fact, the senior explained it very clearly, and the truth is already very clear, but now it is very easy to know my true intentions, because after I will be able to be with the other party successfully, I am suddenly told - you Don't be silly, everything is just your own imagination, the person you like has never liked you from the beginning to the end-this is a bit too cruel.

Chen Zhi was in unbearable pain. To negate his memories little by little, to peel off the beautiful skin little by little, revealing the bloody truth inside, was like Ling Chi, and it was simply unbearable.

He suddenly remembered that some time ago, because he lied to his seniors, he stayed up late to read novels, so he bought a Jinjiang Jinbang novel at random. pain.

Thinking of this, he turned on his phone and found the novel.

As expected of a gold-bang novel, the author has strong writing skills and a sense of substitution. Even a person like him who has never read Danmei novels is immediately immersed in it after reading a few lines.

However, he looked at it and suddenly realized that something was wrong.

The protagonist of this novel is a shou, and the main perspective is more of a shou, but the God's perspective on Gong's side is also written.

The attribute of this attack...is a narcissistic attack of the self-strategy type.

Obviously, his attitude towards him was normal, and there was nothing wrong with his actions, but in the eyes of this Gong, everything became evidence that the other party liked him.

Chen Zhique suddenly became restless. He moved his body under the quilt, shook his hands and opened the comment area, and there was indeed a hahahahaha, saying that the strategy of attacking oneself is so funny and narcissistic, and that it was made by Jinjiang Gong Good quality - convince yourself.

Everyone was laughing at this Gong, intending to watch his good show when he learned the truth, the entire comment area was full of big bad, no empathy at all, Chen Zhizhen's face was getting redder and redder - shameful .

As much as he hates to admit it, he does bring those comments to himself.

It was as if everyone was laughing at Gong, not the protagonist in the novel, but himself.

It was originally a novel intended to divert attention, but unexpectedly, it made him even more flustered after reading it, but he had already read half of the novel, and if he didn't finish reading the ending, he would definitely not be able to sleep tonight.

Therefore, Chen Zhique spent the remaining half of the night staying up late to finish the novel, which really fulfilled his original lie.

At four o'clock in the morning, the novel was finally finished, and Chen Zhi could indeed sleep in peace.

This is a sand sculpture sweet pet article, except for the fact that the attack is miserable, everything is very sweet, and the final ending is also Jinjiang's classic reunion and perfect HE.

However, because Chen Zhizhen replaced himself, every time I saw Gong's various brain-supplementing self-help strategies, I felt that I had been shot in the knee, and my heart became more and more ashamed, and I couldn't smile so much like in the comment area. Happy, but it makes me want to cry.

He couldn't help but start to wonder, is it really all just his self-indulgence?Just like Gong in this novel, but at the end of the novel, Gong and Shou are still successfully together.

So what about him and the senior?Can they also have a happy happy ending like a fairy tale?

He still doesn't want to believe the truth, he has to wait until his birthday... as long as the senior confesses to him on his birthday.

Please, senior, please, I must be the one you like...

With this last glimmer of hope, Chen Zhique slowly closed his heavy eyes.

……

Soon it was Chen Zhique's birthday.

He started to suffer from insomnia the night before, and the next morning, he didn't know how many times he met his seniors with two dark circles under his eyes.

Wen Shilu was helpless: "Why do you stay up late to read novels again? You can't run away after buying novels, so why can't you read them during the day? Why waste precious sleep time at night, the loss outweighs the gain."

Because of the pain in Chen Zhi's heart, he has been suffering from insomnia recently, thinking wildly all night, the closer it is to his birthday, the more anxious he is and cannot sleep.

Then as soon as he couldn't fall asleep, he remembered the Jinjiang APP in his mobile phone, so he randomly found a novel and read it. In the end, the result was obvious, and he saw the dawn before he knew it.

If a novel is relatively short and can be read in one night, Chen Zhi can always fall asleep contentedly after reading the ending.

If it's a long novel that can't be finished in one night, it's really over, staying up from night to day, and then staying up from day to night, the whole day and night are reversed.

It cost several hundred yuan to recharge the Jinjiang coins during this period alone, which shows how hard Chen Zhi is really trying.

Speaking of which, he didn't like reading novels before. The reason why he was so crazy during this time was not to find a way to escape from reality and let himself fall into the fairy tale-like beautiful world composed of novels for a short time, as if he would You can stay away from the pain of reality and stop thinking about real problems.

And he just reads it, he seems to be masochistic, looking for those novels where the main character is a self-strategy, and he doesn't know if he is looking for a sense of commonality, or every time he sees the main character two people are together sweetly. After that, it seemed that he himself could have a sweet ending.

"I'm sorry, I never will again."

Because after today is over, he has no reason to escape from reality.

Wen Shilu doesn't know these reasons. He can care about his elementary school students, but he can't always dictate other people's lives, otherwise it will be annoying.

Sitting at the dining table, Chen Zhike carefully observed the senior's expression with bloodshot eyes, as if he wanted to see any clues from his state today.

In fact, Wen Shilu's performance is still very obvious.

Today is Senior Brother Han's birthday, and he plans to go to the laboratory to deliver meals to Senior Brother Han as usual in the morning. After that, there will be no work in their laboratory. He made an appointment with Senior Brother Han a few days ago, and this time we must go out for an appointment together. , lunch and dinner were settled outside by the way, so he made a detailed strategy again, trying to give Senior Brother Han a perfect birthday, and at night, he felt that the atmosphere was almost ready, and then he gave the birthday present out, Confession at the same time.

Wen Shilu planned very carefully, and he felt that there would definitely not be any changes this time.

Thinking that he could spend the next day with Senior Brother Han on his birthday, Wen Shilu's brows and eyes softened a little, and a faint smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

Chen Zhizhen's heart twitched, and he unconsciously clenched his fingertips on the chopsticks. He asked in a dry voice, "Senior, is today a special day? You seem to be very happy?"

"Huh?" Wen Shilu subconsciously touched the corner of her mouth, lowered her eyebrows and smiled, "So I was so obvious, but today is indeed a very special day, because today is the person I like birthday."

Chen Zhi took a deep breath, raised the corners of his mouth, and showed a very reluctant smile: "Then senior, do you have any plans for today's schedule?"

Wen Shilu was immersed in beautiful fantasies, and didn't notice that Chen Zhique's expression was wrong: "You are asking a bit, I did make today's schedule in advance, we plan to go out on a date first, and have dinner together Go shopping, and then I will find a suitable time to send the gift out."

Chen Zhizhen opened his mouth, and wanted to ask the senior directly who that person was, but he was very afraid of hearing an answer from the senior that he would never want to hear.

At least, at least before the senior gave the gift, he could coax himself to say, wait a minute, the senior just wanted to give himself a surprise, so he deliberately revealed this information in front of himself, and then he found out that the object was actually himself , the senior can see his surprised expression.

Haha, the senior is really bad, he must be trying to scare him, he wants to see it, and after the senior confesses, he will tell the senior in turn, he actually already knew the senior's thoughts about him, Will the senior be startled by him too.

After breakfast, Chen Zhike watched Wen Shilu leave the dormitory carrying the thermos bucket.

I don't know if it was Wen Shilu's illusion, but the moment before he turned to close the door, he seemed to see a big dog with drooping ears, full of grief and reluctance, as if... The master abandoned the general.

It must be an illusion, Wen Shilu thought, he is not someone from elementary school, so why abandon him?

……

Wen Shilu didn't expect that her greatest hope had once again come to nothing.

When he arrived at the lab, he didn't see Senior Brother Han anywhere. He asked the other juniors and sisters in the lab before he found out that before him, a very beautiful girl came to their lab to call Senior Brother Han away. up.

The younger brothers and younger sisters said in one voice, "That must be Brother Han's girlfriend."

"Senior Brother Han is really good at hiding things, and no one in the whole laboratory found out."

"Hey, that's not right, don't even Senior Brother Wen know? Isn't the relationship between Senior Brother Wen and Senior Brother Han always the best?"

After the last sentence, all the juniors and younger sisters turned their gossip eyes to Wen Shilu.

"I..." Wen Shilu felt that his throat was very dry. He took a deep breath, tried his best to smile, and said, "Of course I know, Senior Brother Han and the others... are a very good couple."

"Look, let me just say, how could Senior Brother Wen not know."

"Sure enough, Senior Brother Han has concealed it from everyone else in the laboratory, but only Senior Brother Wen. The relationship between the two Senior Brothers is really good."

Wen Shilu listened to their chat with a smile, his expression was as calm as ever, as if his relationship with Senior Brother Han was really as good as the juniors said.

However, when the juniors dispersed and Wen Shilu turned around, his expression suddenly became very dazed, and the gift he made by himself in the handbag also became light and light.

That expression was like that of a child holding his hands, expecting the adults to reward him with candies, but suddenly he was chilled by the rain falling from the sky. eyes, full of confusion and bewilderment.

……

Wen Shilu sat in his seat for a while, and then remembered that when he was eating in the morning, he was busy chatting with his elementary school students, and he hadn't checked his phone yet. Maybe Senior Brother Han sent him a text message during this period. what news.

He took out his mobile phone and looked, sure enough, there was an unread message from Senior Brother Han exactly an hour ago in the mobile phone.

Han Ziqiu: Poetry, I'm sorry, she came to see me in person, and said that she had agreed with her parents in advance, we will have dinner together today, I really don't know what she said to her parents, maybe she wanted to give me It's a surprise, but the restaurants over there have already been booked. If I refuse, the houses on both sides will definitely look very ugly, so I can only wrong you. Wait until next time. Next time I have a chance, I will definitely make it up to you and take you out. Have a good meal, I know you are the most well-behaved, you will understand me, right?

As for who she is, there is no need for Brother Han to say more.

Yes, he is the most well-behaved, no matter how many times Senior Brother Han let him go and go on a date with that blind date, he will always just smile and say ok, you go, I'm fine.

But how could it actually be all right?His heart is not made of iron.

If he breaks the appointment again and again like this, he will also be angry, sad, and disappointed.

It was just because he respected Senior Brother Han that he was willing to give Senior Brother Han a chance to explain and make amends, but unfortunately, Senior Brother Han never did it once.

Wen Shilu didn't reply to Senior Brother Han. He put away his phone silently, first went to the library to borrow a book, and then took the book to the gazebo outside Senior Brother Han's dormitory building, reading while waiting.

Waiting like this is a whole day.

At the same time, Chen Zhique was also frantically beating sandbags in the gym.

Today was supposed to be his working day, but with the last hope that his senior might ask him out, he asked the manager for leave.

However, the fact is that since the senior went out, he has never received any news from the senior.

The person the senior wants to date is not him.

Thinking of this possibility, Chen Zhique felt a huge suffocation in his heart that made him unable to breathe. In addition, there was also a strong sense of grievance.

He obviously likes the senior so much, can't the senior really like him a little bit?

Chen Zhi really gritted his teeth, and hit the sandbag in front of him harder with his red eyes.

……

After such a day, neither Chen Zhique nor Wen Shilu felt well.

It wasn't until evening that Chen Zhique walked out of the gym slowly.

The street lamp above his head elongated Chen Zhique's lonely figure. Chen Zhique walked slowly on the road, feeling that every step he took seemed to weigh a thousand catties.

He hasn't figured out what kind of expression he should face the senior. What he is even more afraid of is that when he returns to the dormitory, he will see an excited and happy senior who tells him with a smile that he has already met him. The people I like are together.But he, with a face about to cry, said, the needle does not poke qvq.Then the senior would ask him with an innocent face, yes, why do you look unhappy?I finally found my own happiness, I think, as my good friend's elementary school brother, you will definitely bless us, right?

...Fuck, do you want to be so bloody?

Chen Zhi was tortured to death by his own brain, and quickly shook his head, throwing out the suffocating picture in his mind.

At this moment, he seemed to catch a glimpse of a familiar figure from the corner of his eye, and Chen Zhique paused slightly.

No, how is it possible?Didn't the senior go out on a date?How could a person sit alone in the small gazebo?

Chen Zhi's heart speeded up a bit. Although he thought it was impossible intellectually, his feet still involuntarily walked closer and closer to that thin figure...

It turned out to be a senior!

Chen Zhike's eyes widened in surprise instinctively, and without thinking about it, he quickly ran towards Wen Shilu, waving happily while running, like a bird that hadn't seen its master all day, but suddenly saw The owner, the big dog who is excited to ascend to heaven: "Senior!"

The flame of hope that had been almost wiped out in Chen Zhike's heart suddenly burst into flames.

Why did he meet the senior here?And it seems that the senior has been in this small gazebo for a long time. If the senior really went out on a date today, it is impossible to feed mosquitoes in the small gazebo at night, right?

So is there a possibility that the senior didn't go out on a date at all?

When Chen Zhique got closer and saw the book in the senior's hand and the familiar gift bag on the stone table, Chen Zhique's eyes suddenly brightened, and the fire of hope in his heart burned into a raging fire in an instant.

The senior really didn't go out on a date!That birthday present was never given away!

And at night, it is definitely impossible to sit in the small gazebo and read a book, so it is very possible that the senior has already come here during the day!

And isn't this road the only way he must go back from the gym?

So, is there a possibility that this senior's birthday present is really for him?The senior is sitting here just to wait for him?

At this time, Chen Zhique, who fell into great joy because of the revival of hope, didn't realize the big loopholes in his words at all.

Since I can wait for him here, why not just go to the gym to find him?

If it was really intended to be given to him, why did it suddenly cancel the originally promised date?

It's a pity that the current Chen Zhizhen has been blinded by joy, and has no brains to think about these complicated issues. Perhaps, he is subconsciously unwilling to think about the logical loopholes above, and only immerses himself in the beautiful fantasies he has woven. It was like the novels he had stayed up late reading for so many days in the past.

Wen Shilu didn't expect that he would meet his elementary school brother here.

He stood up from the gazebo, facing the figure of Chen Zhi really running towards him with great joy, with a slightly confused expression on his face.

He sat in the gazebo all day today and read a book, but although he said he was looking at the book, he actually didn't read a few words at all.

He carefully recalled the process of getting along with Senior Brother Han in the past few years, starting from the first day they met and ending with today.

When did it start?He realized that he fell in love with Senior Brother Han.

Maybe it was a problem that I couldn't solve, but Brother Han could easily solve it; maybe it was when I was blamed by the professor, and Brother Han stood up to help me; The laboratory was laid on the floor, and when the next morning, when the results of the experiment were found to be successful, the moment when they hugged each other excitedly under the morning sun with their faces full of oil...

He had to admit that the memories of the past were indeed beautiful at the moment they happened, and even when he recalled them now, they were still beautiful.

But the reason why memories are called memories means that those things are already in the past. It is impossible for people to live in memories all the time. A bright future is the hope for people to live.

He has always been a person who is very dedicated to feelings, so once he has identified Senior Brother Han, he will treat Senior Brother Han wholeheartedly. Even if Senior Brother Han never responded to him, he is still willing to give himself a chance to pursue happiness.

Anyway, Brother Han is single and has no one he likes, so that means he still has a chance, doesn't it?

But I don't know when, senior brother Han took his kindness to him for granted, and kept saying that he didn't like the blind date, but he still broke the promise with himself again and again for the sake of the other party.

Although Brother Han's reasons seemed to be impeccable every time, but what did these have to do with him?

It was Brother Han who broke the appointment, not him.

He's done the best he can.

And it was enough to be disappointed with Senior Brother Han again and again.

He is not a merciful and dedicated great saint. No matter how others deceive him or hurt him, he will never stop forgiving, forgiving and forgiving again.

This is the last chance, whether it is for Senior Brother Han or for himself.

He's never been one to love brains.

It's time to find out about this crush.

He will confess his love to Senior Brother Han and express his past thoughts clearly.

If Senior Brother Han refuses, he will quietly retreat to the normal distance, and will not be too entangled.

If Senior Brother Han accepts... Will Senior Brother Han really accept it?

During this period of time, Senior Brother Han's attitude towards him was a bit ambiguous, otherwise, he would not have made up his mind to confess to Senior Brother Han.

But if Senior Brother Han really liked him, why would he be entangled with that blind date?

Before he could figure this out, Wen Shilu suddenly saw a familiar figure getting off the bus not far away.

It's Senior Brother Han!

Wen Shilu hurriedly picked up the gift on the table and trot over there.

At the same time, Chen Zhi, who was also walking towards Wen Shilu, saw Wen Shilu's movements and became even more excited.

The senior's gift was indeed for me!

The one the senior really likes is definitely him!

Soon, the two were close at hand.

However, just as he stretched out his hand and was about to happily accept the senior's birthday present, he suddenly saw the senior's eyes light up, and he called out to another figure behind him as a senior.

"I'm sorry, Zhique. I'll tell you what you have to say when I get back. I have something to do with someone else now." Wen Shilu said quickly to Chen Zhique.

Then, Chen Zhique watched helplessly that the senior whom he had been thinking of abandoned him, and ran towards the person whom the senior called senior brother.

The speed of time at that moment really seemed to be pulled to the slowest. When the senior passed by, Chen Zhique's heart almost stopped suddenly, and the blood in his body froze almost instantly, and the skin from the soles of his feet to his scalp was cold. It's going to kill me.

Chen Zhike turned his head stiffly.

He never knew that apart from his good hearing, he also had such good eyesight.

Because he could clearly see how the senior handed the carefully prepared gift in his hand to the one who dared to snatch it with a blushing face (actually he ran out of it!) His senior's damn wild man, and then said to that person very affectionately that he would die or live and dream to hear what the senior said to himself with his own ears——

"Brother, I like you."

……

Chen Zhike's brain exploded with a bang, his ears were buzzing with messy noises, his blood flowed backwards in an instant, and his temples, which had been swollen due to staying up late every day during this period, swelled and throbbed crazily at this moment , as if to burst through Chen Zhique's skin.

He could no longer lie to himself.

It turned out that it was never him that the senior liked from the beginning to the end, but a doctoral student brother in the senior's laboratory.

The breakfast that the senior gets up early every morning is specially brought for that doctoral student, and my own is the real incidental;

From the beginning, the senior just wanted to invite that doctoral student to watch a movie and date that doctoral student, and his movie ticket was just for evaluation;

The senior often blushes at him, just because the senior has a thin skin and a thin skin on the physical level, so he is not as shy as he imagined;

What's more, the birthday gift that the senior has worked so hard to prepare for so long is not for him, but for the senior in the laboratory. Just because he and the doctoral student happen to have the same birthday, he unexpectedly Narcissistically misunderstood that the senior wanted to confess to him on his birthday...

So, everything is just his self-indulgence.

All the sweetness and ambiguity are just his one-man show.

The senior didn't love him from the beginning to the end, but the senior in the laboratory.

At this moment, various emotions such as discomfort, bitterness, grievance, shame, pain, sadness, etc. were intertwined in Chen Zhique's heart. Chen Zhique's nerves seemed to be tempered by extreme cold and extreme heat. I was covered with typhoid fever, and then I was blushing and ashamed because of my self-love for so many days. In the end, these emotions merged into deep jealousy and resentment towards that doctoral student.

From childhood to adulthood, Chen Zhique's personality has always been so sunny and cheerful, like a little sun, shining enthusiastically on everyone around him, almost never having any negative and dirty emotions.

But at this moment, under the intense stimulation of losing his loved one, Chen knew that he had turned black!

He couldn't help thinking darkly, if there was no such doctoral student, would it really be himself who the senior is confessing to now?He should be the one the senior likes now?

If only there was a way to make this doctoral student completely disappear from this world.

Or, if he can lock up the senior in a place that only he can see, can he and the senior build a happy hut that only belongs to him and the senior as before?

If there is such a chance, he must realize all his past dreams on the senior, he will do whatever he wants to the senior, he will do whatever he wants to the senior, and release his desires and all kinds of evils to his heart's content. evil thoughts...

However, in a society ruled by law now, it is impossible for him to really rush over with a gun and suddenly bludgeon that damned wild man, and it is also impossible for him to really lock the senior in a small dark room and plunder him.

Whether it is murder or imprisonment, it is against the law. If he really did it, he will go to jail!

And the senior will definitely hate him to death, that will really ruin the future of himself and the senior.

Therefore, in this modern society of the new century where the light of socialism shines on the land of the motherland, there is no future for breaking the law and discipline!If you break the law and discipline, you will not find a wife!

The above dark thoughts only existed in Chen Zhique's mind for less than a minute, and they were wiped out in Chen Zhique's upright and bright new youth energy.

Blackening still has to be blackened, but the old sadomasochistic love above is fine, he only likes sweet love, and doesn't really want to try chasing his wife in the crematorium.

In the end, this misunderstanding was all his own self-indulgence from the beginning to the end. The senior is the most innocent person in this story. He didn't even know what happened. He was there alone from the beginning to the end. I made up my own mind, if it was put in a novel, maybe it would be like the protagonist Gong in the self-strategy in the novels he read a while ago, who has been ridiculed by readers in the comment area since Chapter 1 hahaha.

But the senior is so beautiful, so gentle, and so kind to him. He has grown up for 18 years, and it is the first time he has felt what is called a heartbeat. This is his first love. He likes the senior so much, and he does not want to give up on the senior. Love.

How could he be willing?

It took Chen Zhi 1 minute to shut himself up, and another 1 minute to blacken——

No, I still love my senior so much, I've decided, I want to take my love away!

The first step in seizing love with a knife is to confess!