Beginning without end

(thirteen)

For the separation from Ji Suiyun, Song Bai was worried at first, Song Bai was terrified that someone would snatch his sugar jar from his arms.Song Bai knew that he was not Ji Suiyun's best choice, but he really had nothing to do.

But Ji Suiyun gave Song Bai a great sense of security.Every week after Song Bai went back, Ji Suiyun basically took a day to fly over to accompany Song Bai. Sometimes Ji Suiyun was too busy, and had to catch the last flight back to Shanghai after dinner together.But Ji Suiyun has never missed an appointment. Speaking of it, he needs Song Bai more, he wants Song Bai more, not to mention eating and talking together, he is willing to look at Song Bai from a distance.

Song Bai likes Ji Suiyun so much, he looks forward to the weekend every day, to the next weekend, to every weekend.Song Bai and Ji Suiyun can talk more and more, Song Bai is more attached to Ji Suiyun, he likes to be hugged and kissed by Ji Suiyun, and curls up on Ji Suiyun's lap like a cat.

Regardless of how the relationship between the two is progressing, there is really no such thing as getting over the line.Ji Suiyun almost never exposed his desire in front of Song Bai, showing his naked adult male body.He respects Song Bai and takes good care of his teenage years. Lust and violent carnival should not be let Song Bai experience prematurely at this time.

There was a time when Ji Suiyun was very worried, Song Bai went to an art school, beautiful men and women gathered together, they were more precocious than ordinary high school students, and there were not a few people who went out to open houses as soon as they were in their second and third years.Song Bai was once taken by Chen Yu to have dinner with his seniors and sisters. After everyone was a little drunk, the topic was very open and explosive. A scumbag actually said bluntly: "Sleeping with her may not be because she likes her so much, but I don't care if she is delivered to my door." Sleep, that's definitely because I don't like him."

The boy saw Song Bai's doubts and disapproval, and just smiled: "At first glance, you are a young chicken who has never been in a relationship. Don't believe it, men are like this. If you feel it, you must take it and take it, so you can rest assured. I'm comfortable with this print."

Song Bai was brainwashed by this unreasonable reasoning, and he actually got entangled. Ji Suiyun didn't touch him. Maybe it wasn't because of the high-sounding reasons Ji Suiyun said, did Ji Suiyun not like him enough, not enough for Ji Suiyun to restrain himself? Can't help but instinctively.Ji Suiyun looked at his cleanliness and ignorance differently, but would he succumb to physical desires like most men when he was empty?

After that night, Song Bai stayed in the hotel and did not go home. He hesitated and said that he had made an agreement with his parents and wanted to sleep with Ji Suiyun today.Song Bai sat straddling Ji Suiyun's waist and was patted and coaxed to sleep by Ji Suiyun. When Song Bai teased people with his fingertips uncomfortably, Ji Suiyun felt something was wrong. Ji Suiyun was stunned when he touched the condom.

Song Bai doesn't want Ji Suiyun to touch others, he is willing to sleep with Ji Suiyun.But Song Bai didn't expect at that time that if Ji Suiyun had any malicious thoughts about playing with him, Song Bai's initiative would become despicable. Those who are too active will not be cherished, and the so-called dedication will not be cherished. It can only be reduced to giving vent to others.

So Ji Suiyun got angry that night.He asked Song Bai what he was thinking, but Song Bai didn't dare to look at him, so Ji Suiyun held Song Bai's chin and forced him to meet his eyes.Song Bai's chin was forcibly pinched by Ji Suiyun.

If it is said that Ji Suiyun was only shocked and throbbing when Song Bai recommended himself to the pillow for the first time, now Ji Suiyun is only angry.

Song Bai was afraid that Ji Suiyun would be angry, so he stammered and told Ji Suiyun what the boy had said.

Song Bai knew that Ji Suiyun hurt him, so he shouldn't get angry anymore.But who knew that Ji Suiyun really moved, grabbed Song Bai's neck and forced Song Bai to sit by the computer, Ji Suiyun searched for a long time before releasing the video to Song Bai.

It was a GV that was secretly filmed. Shou was young, with a clean and innocent expression on his face.He was laughing and laughing when he was attacking the hidden camera, he said, let me show you how cheap a bitch who likes me enough to take the initiative to fuck me can be.

The boy was still smiling sweetly when he was crushed under him, his eyes were full of light.But the light soon disappeared, there was no long kiss, no proper hug, and even no expansion. The small part that was stabbed was densely packed with cracks, and blood flowed out along the dirty utensils.He screamed, begged for mercy, and even tried to escape, but was forcibly pulled back to continue his torture.

Song Bai was trembling with fright, he didn't want to watch it, but Ji Suiyun forced him to watch it.

"Don't you like me? I have different hobbies from others, but I love you." The man was still saying that.

So the recipient endured it, and even endured the pain to cooperate with the humiliation.

Until the end of the film, the man sneered and sprinkled urine on the people below, saying: "Anything you can get on casually, you are only worthy of this."

Song Bai was frightened and cried, he cried aggrieved and flustered, crying until he leaned on the table and retched.

Ji Suiyun couldn't help but hugged Song Bai into his arms like a big baby: "You are the tip of my heart, why do you want to use such a cheap thing to keep me?"

Ji Suiyun wiped Song Bai's tears: "It's just sex in the bed, I can bring you more excitement and happiness than you can give me. But I dare not touch you, I'm afraid that if you grow up, if you grow up If you don't like me, you won't regret it."

"I'm waiting for you, don't worry, don't lower yourself." Ji Suiyun closed his eyes wearily: "Stay away from those bad boys who talk about fallacies."

Song Bai didn't dare to move or speak, his body froze all night.The video of real intercourse between the same sex left a psychological shadow on Song Bai.

After Ji Suiyun calmed down, he regretted it. Even though his original intention was to protect Song Bai, he did too much.It was the first time since he came back that he exposed his ferocious face to Song Bai's eyes. He hated himself. He really wanted to spoil Song Bai like a baby who grew up eating silk and pearls, but he still made Song Bai afraid like this.

Ji Suiyun refunded the air ticket for the next day, so he should coax Song Bai well.

Song Bai was sleepy, just saying that it was time to go home, and Ji Suiyun sent him home.

"Don't be afraid." Ji Suiyun finally just said: "I will never spoil you like that, at the right time, with the right person, this kind of thing will give you supreme happiness and joy."

Song Bai may have understood.He no longer maintains relationships with people who disagree with the three views, nor does he follow the clouds to a dangerous degree.

Ji Suiyun's heart was burning with fire, he was happy for Song Bai, but sad for himself.

Ji Suiyun didn't have time to come over on New Year's Day, so Song Bai, the gift he sent, still kept it alone.The things Ji Suiyun sent were all over seven figures, and Song Bai didn't want his classmates to recognize his extra expensive watches and clothes. He was not afraid of being gossiped about, but just worried that someone would pick up Ji Suiyun. cloud.Song Bai thought a lot for a while, and he also came back to his senses. Ji Suiyun is not young, and he is not yet an adult, which sounds enough to make people frown.

As the new year approaches, Ji Suiyun is getting busier and Ji Suiyun didn't take time to see Song Bai the whole year ago. Although the tone of Ji Suiyun's phone calls during the holidays was still doting and gentle, Song Bai was still uneasy.

Song Baichu couldn't bear to call Ji Suiyun the day before, and he actually said sorry first: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, you were right when you attacked me before, I shouldn't complain in my heart, I shouldn't have called you many times I'm always indifferent, sorry, don't be angry, I'm too ignorant..." Song Bai buried himself in the bed and whispered in a crying voice: "Don't you stay away from seeing me for so long, I'm scared, and I'm also scared Miss you……"

Ji Suiyun heard Song Bai say: "... If you are really busy, I, can I go to Shanghai to see you?"

Ji Suiyun almost shattered the corner of the table, he also missed Song Bai, but he has been watched too closely recently, how dare he expose Song Bai to the outside world?

"Ninny, I've never been angry with you, I'm only angry with myself. Don't think too much, I've been a little busy recently, be good, and have a good rest." Ji Suiyun disliked Song Bai's careful apology, wronged Baba pleading, Ji Suiyun How can the cloud be worthy?

Song Bai didn't dare to say more, didn't continue the topic just now, and hung up the phone after chatting for a few words.

Ji Suiyun transferred a sum of money to Song Bai's card, not much, six figures, and left a message on WeChat telling him to take it as pocket money.The heart is kind, but the bad thing is that Song Bai just read a post-"A rich boyfriend doesn't accompany me and only gives me money, does he really love me?" In addition to saying that he wants to know his boyfriend's contact information, there are also serious comments in the following post. Reasonable.

"He definitely doesn't love you, why spend time on things that money can solve?"

"Sister, did you think you were in love after being adopted?"

"Giving money to a rich man is like spending time on you from a poor idiot. They can be shrewd but stingy."

……

Song Bai transferred the money to Ji Suiyun again, turned off the phone, covered his head and felt sad under the quilt.He thought, he will return all the things Ji Suiyun sent back tomorrow, he doesn't want to like Ji Suiyun anymore.

It started to be cloudy the next morning, and it started to snow in the afternoon. The light snow turned into heavy snow, and the snow downstairs was already five or six centimeters high at night.

In the morning, after Song Bai turned on his phone, his phone was full of text messages and calls from Ji Suiyun.

"Ah Bai, what are you doing back here?"

"Angry, Ah Bai? I have no other intentions."

"Ninny, answer the phone, I'm worried."

"I was wrong, okay, please answer me."

……

Song Bai was still reluctant to mail away the things Ji Suiyun sent. He had touched and seen those things countless times when he was thinking of Ji Suiyun.It doesn't matter whether he is hypocritical or ignorant, he only feels heartache when he sees Ji Suiyun's humble and doting words, no matter how many calls Ji Suiyun makes, he won't be able to spare a night to see him.

Song Bai didn't eat much for dinner, he didn't eat much, and his condition was not good, even his parents could tell, "What's on your mind?"

Song Bai shook his head: "No, I don't feel well today."

"You want Brother Cheng to accompany you to the hospital tomorrow?" Ren Hantao said, "You haven't been clinging to Brother Cheng very much recently, and today he asked me to ask if you were angry with him."

Song Bai just couldn't cheer up, he seemed to have lost his love, and he didn't want to see anyone.

"I'm really fine, Mom. I'll go and explain to Brother Cheng tomorrow." Song Bai didn't want to tell Lu Fucheng about himself and Ji Suiyun, not at all. He felt very ashamed and a little afraid that Lu Fucheng would scold Ji Suyun.

Song Bai washed up early and went to bed, turned off the lights and pretended to go to bed early for everyone.

At this time, the screen of the mobile phone suddenly lit up, and the SMS notification sounded.

Song Bai didn't want to look at it, but there were successive voices.

And then there's the incoming phone call.

Song Bai looked at the caller ID, it was Ji Suiyun.He had a sore nose and wanted not to answer the phone, but he still clicked on it.

"Ninny, hurt me, it's so cold outside."

Song Bai was stunned.

"Hey, it's still snowing, my trousers are soaked, and the plane almost returned to Shanghai halfway today."

Song Bai's heart trembled: "...you, are you downstairs in my house?"

"I miss you, come down and hug me."

Song Bai only felt that the blood in his whole body was boiling, and his heart was beating like it was going to come out of his throat.Song Bai forgot to hang up the phone and began to hurriedly put on his clothes. He stumbled and ran downstairs wearing indoor cotton slippers.

Standing outside the door was a tall man holding a black umbrella, with snowflakes clinging to the black fox fur around his neck.This is a scene that seems familiar.

Song Bai threw himself into Ji Suiyun's arms without thinking.

"I love you."

"I love you"

Song Bai heard the voice of one person twice.Once from Ji Suiyun himself, and once from the echo in the handset of the mobile phone that has not been hung up.

"I love you too." Song Baihong hugged Ji Suiyun tightly with his eyes: "I miss you so much."

Ji Suiyun hugged him, hating that time could not stand still, he wanted to hug Song Bai for the rest of his life.

"Your shoes are wet." Ji Suiyun let go of Song Bai and saw Song Bai's already wet cotton slippers: "Go back and soak your feet, have a good rest, and I will come to you tomorrow."

Song Bai didn't want to move.

"Aren't you afraid of being seen by your parents?" Ji Suiyun squeezed Song Bai's face, and handed him the bag in his hand: "The cherries are frozen outside, so you should eat less when you go back, or your stomach will feel bad."

Song Bai said with a hoarse voice, "How do you know that I love cherries?"

Ji Suiyun laughed: "I know what you like."

"Go home quickly." Ji Suiyun urged Song Bai: "It's so cold outside, don't you take your hat and scarf, don't you think you're in good health?"

Song Bai's eyes were red: "I don't want to go back, I want to go with you."

"No, you want to go out to live on the first day of the new year, your family will definitely be angry." Ji Suiyun touched Song Bai's face: "We will have dinner together tomorrow, and I will return to Shanghai after I send you red envelopes, Valentine's Day I've come to accompany you, be good, don't ignore me."

Song Bai looked at Ji Suiyun's tired face, feeling so guilty that it was hard to add: "I'm sorry, Brother Ji, I shouldn't lose my temper with you, you still come to see me when you're so tired..."

"No, I want to see you more." Ji Suiyun kissed Song Bai's forehead: "Go upstairs quickly, send me a text message, and remember to eat some fruit."

Song Bai was also nervous to be noticed by his parents, so he walked upstairs reluctantly.

Song Bai looked at Ji Suiyun from the small glass in the corridor, the top of the umbrella was white before Ji Suiyun left.Which floor corridor lights are on Ji Suiyun is like looking at which floor, Song Bai thought, Ji Suiyun really loves him.

When Song Bai was about to reach the door of the house, he suddenly saw a figure, and he was startled.Looking closely, it turned out to be Lu Fucheng, and Song Bai's face turned pale.

Lu Fucheng suffered from insomnia, and when he heard the slight sound of going out from the opposite door and the sound of footsteps going downstairs, he came out to look.Lu Fucheng looked down the glass in the corridor on the third floor, and he saw Song Bai throwing himself into a man's arms so intimately and happily.He didn't see the man's face clearly, but he could tell at a glance that the man was much older than Song Bai.

"Who is that person downstairs? Your classmate? He is dressed so formally, and his body looks like a grown man. Song Bai, what have you been studying and doing at school?" Lu Fucheng said in a cold voice.