Beginning without end

Ji Suiyun didn't wake up until the afternoon, the winter days were short, and the sun was setting after four o'clock.

??The wind in the north is cold, but the sun is extremely warm. Even in the setting sun, there is a kind of collapse and softness of the ash of plants and trees just after the open fire has been extinguished.

The sun hit Ji Suiyun's face, coating his outstanding facial features like a thin layer of gold powder.Ji Suiyun didn't move, the ward was empty and deserted, and the smell of disinfectant made him a little upset.Ji Suiyun thought ecstatically, Song Bai should have gone home already.

Ji Suiyun closed his eyes and planned to wait for a while before calling for someone, but at this moment he suddenly noticed something rustling and moving slightly under his feet, Ji Suiyun half stood up and took a look, the blood in his chest churned and flowed, In an instant, people seem to be alive again.

Before Song Bai left, he was sitting at the end of Ji Suiyun's bed, probably because he couldn't hold back his drowsiness, his upper body lay at the end of the bed, his face buried in his arms like a small animal.Song Bai didn't sleep deeply, and when Ji Suiyun moved slightly, he was awakened.Song Bai rubbed his eyes and straightened up, his face was slightly flushed due to the dry heat in the room, and his hair was fluffy and messy.

"Ah Bai." Ji Suiyun called out softly, as if frightened the butterfly-shoulder bird in his palm, inexplicably cautiously even breathing lightly.

Song Bai showed a bit of surprise, he leaned over and raised the bed so that Ji Suiyun could sit comfortably, then poured some hot water for Ji Suiyun: "You have slept for a long time, does the wound still hurt? "

Ji Suiyun shook his head, and took a sip of water from Song Bai's hand.

"Would you like to eat something? The millet porridge in the incubator is still boiling hot." Song Bai sat on the edge of the bed in an orderly manner, with his hands folded on his knees like a schoolboy.

Ji Suiyun stretched out his hand and scratched Song Bai's chin, and changed the subject: "Why didn't you go home?"

Song Bai got a little itchy from him, and flinched and hid: "You have been hurt so badly, I have to wait for you to wake up no matter what."

Ji Suiyun smiled lightly: "The injury is not serious, I just slept for so long because I was too tired during this period."

After Ji Suiyun finished speaking, he was stunned.He never said he was tired before.Besides, how could such a small matter make him tired?

"Abai, do you want to see the sea?" Ji Suiyun suddenly asked such a sudden question.

Song Bai was slightly taken aback: "I'm a little afraid of water."

Ji Suiyun smiled and said, "I'm not asking you to go into the water, but to ask if you like watching the sea."

Song Bai is still dazed, but Ji Suiyun is already excited/getting up: "I'll take you to the beach to watch the sunrise, let's search for the nearest sea."

Song Bai was surprised: "Ji Suiyun, are you crazy?"

"I've already rested." Ji Suiyun tilted his head to look at Song Bai, his eyes were burning with tenderness: "When I fell asleep, I dreamed about something that happened a long time ago, and I thought I would never think about it anymore. s things."

Ji Suiyun stretched out his hand to Song Bai: "Ah Bai, come give me a hug, let's look at the navigation together."

Song Bai didn't want to go there, but Ji Suiyun was too close to him, so he pulled him onto the bed.Seeing Ji Suiyun's attitude of not caring about the wound at all, Song Bai didn't dare to resist too much.

Ji Suiyun finally held Song Bai in his arms.

"Ji Suiyun, what are you making a fuss about?!" Song Bai gritted his teeth and said, "Stop torturing me!"

Ji Suiyun was stunned for a long time before whispering: "...It's not tossing."

After a while, Ji Suiyun spoke again, and what he said was very abrupt, something Song Bai had never understood before.

"I have played with Brother Zhou for many years. When I was seventeen or eighteen years old, the most passionate and rebellious age, my favorite thing to do was to come out of the underground boxing ring with a bruised face, and then go racing to the beach and sit on the hood I stayed there from night to dawn." Ji Suiyun stroked Song Bai's back neck: "The first time I went to the track, I sat in the co-driver of Zhou Ge's Aston Martin at the Nürburgring. When the 280 rushes towards a big corner, there will be a sense of fear that is infinitely approaching death. But this feeling is too exciting and addictive.”

"Later, there were too few things that brought me excitement and happiness slowly." Ji Suiyun's voice was very calm, as if to understate: "The night my mother suffered from cancer and emergency rescue, my mobile phone was dropped on me that day. In a 911 that was crashed on the track. I forgot what I did that day. I must have been in some kind of unreal ci. Maybe I changed to another car, or maybe I ran back to the boxing or played with a boy who was delivered to the door. In short, she entrusted Ji Suian to me inexplicably, and then passed away. "

If Song Bai hadn't heard Ji Suiyun's sleepy talk, he might have been fooled by Ji Suiyun's downplaying attitude.Song Bai gently squeezed Ji Suiyun's palm, as if comforting.

Ji Suiyun didn't have any special reaction: "After she passed away, I never touched a racing car again, and I never drove across the sea alone." The last point of Ji Suiyun's childishness may be that he secretly decided that if he was lucky enough to meet the love of his life, he would drive Take him to see the sea once.If it’s summer, it’s best to put down the convertible and you don’t need to turn on the air conditioner. The melody of the Beatles’ "love? Me??do" is barely there in the wind.When two people are waiting for the sunrise, they can have sex in the car, lingering and writhing, and experience the purest happiness together.

"Come with me, Ah Bai." Ji Suiyun held up his mobile phone to show Song Bai: "The nearest sea is only two and a half hours away by car."

Song Bai was convinced, and he was very helpless to Ji Suiyun's way of thinking: "It's so cold, why watch the sunrise on the sea? Besides, you just fell into a coma for a long time today because of excessive blood loss and wound infection. Driving for seven or eight hours, is it dead?"

Ji Suiyun gently kissed the back of Song Bai's neck, his eyes were a little distracted, as if they were gloomy, and also seemed to be empty: "Abai, do you understand how I feel? When I'm with you, I always feel that there is something What I want to do with you, if I don’t do it quickly, I will never have a chance in this life.” Ji Suiyun hugged Song Bai even tighter as he spoke, and then let go: “It’s like this, when I hug you No matter how tight it is, I always feel that my heart is empty, and I always feel that I may not be able to hold it next time."

When Ji Suiyun was asleep, he dreamed of many things, his mother, his sister, Lu Fucheng, and Song Bai.Ji Suiyun couldn't get in any group of these four people, he was like an annoying roadblock.Song Bai held Lu Fucheng's bloody fingers, and before leaving, he returned the knife to Ji Suiyun, his childish face was full of hatred.Ji Suiyun watched him and Lu Fucheng walk away, and lay there quietly bleeding.

When Ji Suiyun woke up, his heart ached and he felt cold, but he saw Song Bai, who was sleeping softly at the end of the bed like a small animal.

"Come with me." Ji Suiyun said: "I don't have the energy to love someone anymore."

Song Bai was speechless, what does Ji Suiyun's love have to do with him?Whose love is not a puzzle that can only be placed in one place, and a gun that has only one front sight?

Song Bai broke away from Ji Suiyun's shackles: "Eat something, I have to go back tonight, and I will come to see you tomorrow."

The temperature of the millet porridge is not bad, it is cooked to a bright yellow color, and there are two large pieces of sea cucumber in the bowl.

Ji Suiyun picked his tongue, and he felt that the sea cucumber had an earthy smell when he ate it, so he only drank the porridge, and coaxed Song Bai to eat the remaining sea cucumber.

"Then I'm leaving?" It was already completely dark, Song Bai and Ji Suiyun had nothing to say, they stayed in the ward, Song Bai always felt more embarrassed.

"Aren't you going to go to the sea with me?"

Song Bai was very helpless: "You heal your injury before you go."

Ji Suiyun pursed her lips: "Then take me back to your house, I don't want to stay by myself."