until the last minute

Just like what Li Qing thought, Zhou Yin is forgetful, cowardly and indecisive, and easily softens his heart.As long as you hold him in your arms and coax him softly, with a volume that only the two of you can hear, pour all kinds of sweet words into his ears, tell him the nasty names that you can't say on weekdays, and Zhou Yincuo will forget the previous moment Their disputes, and those unnecessary insistences.

He would stare at himself, his eyes filled with puddles of water at some point, and his body quickly plumped and moistened to an unbelievable degree, like a soft peach, so tempting that he just wanted to swallow it whole.

But Li Qing's patience has improved a lot, he no longer indulges in momentary pleasures, and is no longer impetuous and impulsive like a kid.He carried Zhou Yin, who was emotional, back to the room, and pressed him on the bed for a while before letting him go. He had many ways to make Zhou Yin fall in love.

Li Qing dipped some honey with his fingertips, fed it into Zhou Yin's mouth, and stirred it wantonly with his tongue.Zhou Yin was salivating very quickly, his body that had been writhing indiscriminately just now became limp and weak in an instant, leaving only a pair of eyes staring at him without any threat.

He left such Zhou Yin on the bed, went to the kitchen to wash the dishes, and threw away the leftovers from lunch.There was quite a lot left over from lunch today. Worried that Zhou Yin would be hungry in the afternoon, he dug out the fruit he bought a few days ago from the refrigerator and planned to mix a fruit salad.He finally found out that Zhou Yin would not find something to eat by himself, and the fruit and yoghurt in the refrigerator were all intact, unless it was fed to his mouth, he would eat a little.

There is no special salad bowl at home, so Li Qing put the cut fruit in a large ceramic bowl, squeeze the salad dressing on it, mix it well and take it in together with yogurt for Zhou Yin to eat.

Zhou Yin still had the same look of being caught in lust and stretched out his hand tremblingly. Li Qing put down the salad and yogurt, bent down, and put his hand into Zhou Yin's clothes.Zhou Yin was forced to tears from the corners of his eyes, and shouted in collapse, while Li Qing's face was tense, biting and devouring this body that only belonged to him in fantasy.

Li Qing stood up, straightened his crumpled shirt, and fastened his belt again.He leaned over and kissed Zhou Yin's forehead, and said: "I mixed some salad for you, remember to eat it, and also drink yogurt, there are grapes in the refrigerator, wash them before eating, I will try to come back as soon as possible."

Zhou Yin snorted weakly, watched Li Qing walk out of the bedroom, the sound of the door closing came, a few minutes later he forced himself out of bed, went to the living room, and took out a mobile phone from the gap in the sofa.

In the morning, he idly turned over the whole house again, dragged out a suitcase from under the second bed, and opened it to reveal a thick winter coat.He was about to hang it in the closet when he dug into his pocket and pulled out a cell phone.

He recognized that it was Li Qing's previous mobile phone.

In the morning, he tried to turn it on, but soon it turned off automatically because the battery was exhausted. He found the data cable and charged it, and came back before he had time to look at Li Qing. Found this phone.

Zhou Yin held the mobile phone in his hand and turned it on again. He was shocked that the old mobile phone was still equipped with a SIM card, and it had not been shut down due to arrears. It was all text messages from the operator, and there was no information from banks, express delivery, or login verification from major platforms.

Then click on the call history, the last call was three years ago, the unnamed number.Fingers kept sliding, Zhou Yin finally saw his name and the prominent red number 16.

On the day he left four years ago, Li Qing called him sixteen times.

Sixteen missed calls reminded him of the four years that he could not ignore.

Zhou Yin felt as if a needle had been pricked in his heart, and the slight pain spread from his heart to his limbs, and he didn't even dare to click on WeChat.

Since the reunion, Li Qing has never mentioned the four years since they separated, never asked him where he went, never asked him about the wrong address he gave him, and never asked why his mobile phone number couldn't get through.

He had been waiting for Li Qing to speak, but Li Qing never asked.They saved each other's new numbers, added new WeChat IDs, and started talking and chatting frequently. He thought that Li Qing had changed his old contact information just like him, but he never thought that Li Qing actually kept it.

But why did Li Qing keep the mobile phone card that he didn't use at all? Is he still waiting for his call?

Zhou Yin's hands were shaking a little, he clicked into WeChat, the information list was empty, and his old WeChat account was on the top.He clicked on the chat dialog box between Li Qing and him, and the background was his appearance when he was asleep. Looking forward to the chat history, it was all Li Qing talking to himself.

Tired of working part-time today, recently his grades have dropped, the blue sky he saw by chance, and the cute stray cat he met on the road... Li Qing poured out to him the trivial and troublesome things in his study and life, with casual photos and a long voice.He randomly clicked on a voice, leaned close to his ear and listened for a long time, and it was difficult to distinguish that it was a cicada's cry.

Below the voice is a text message:

"It's already summer, I didn't expect time to pass so fast, you left me for half a year."

Li Qing persevered in sending him WeChat for four years. Li Qing didn't know that WeChat account had been abandoned, and he couldn't receive it. After four years of no response, how would Li Qing feel?

Zhou Yin squatted down suddenly, holding his knees with his hands, panting heavily, the loneliness accumulated over the past four years and more than 1000 days, the remorse and longing he never dared to admit, at this moment, together with the belated self-blame and guilt , and finally engulfed him like an overwhelming sea.

He thought he was doing the right thing, he helped his mother back to health, and they both broke free, cast off the shadows of their past, and strode into a new life.

He always refused to think, if it was the right thing, why would his mother repeat the same mistakes?If it was the right way, why did he suffer so much every step of the way?God has no reason to separate him from his lover.

That evening, Li Qing entered the house nearly four or ten minutes later than usual. The lights in the kitchen and living room were on. He was changing shoes in the entrance.

Li Qing didn't rush to open the door. He went to the bathroom to wash his hands and face, and then walked around to the kitchen. The rice cooker showed that it was keeping warm. On top, side dishes such as carrots, mushrooms, and corn are diced to cover the rice, and a poached egg lies on top.

Zhou Yin's mother is good at the cured meat claypot rice. Zhou Yin has learned [-]% to [-]% of it, and used local materials to cook a pot of decent preserved meat stewed rice in an electric rice cooker.

Li Qing was a little moved and wanted to laugh, Zhou Yin would always surprise him.He unplugged the power plug, chopped green onion and sprinkled it on the rice, and went in to ask Zhou Yin to come out to eat.

The dinner was very harmonious, Zhou Yin didn't bring up the topic that made him unhappy, and sat on his lap voluntarily, rubbing the soles of his feet on his instep, and wanted to feed him on his own initiative while eating.Li Qing didn't know whether to laugh or cry, but he opened his mouth cooperatively, waiting for Zhou Yin's feeding.

After they shared the whole pot of rice, Li Qing went to wash the dishes. Zhou Yin took out yogurt and mangoes from the refrigerator, and found two transparent glass bowls. He worked alone at the dining table for a long time, and finally made two cups of mango yogurt. .

The diced mango meat was added to the yogurt. The thick yogurt paired with the yellow mango meat looked very good. Zhou Yin proudly showed him the finished product, and was kissed by Li Qing before showing off.

Li Qing kissed Zhou Yin intently under the light, even though there were still unwashed dishes in the sink, the messy cooking table hadn't been tidied up, and yogurt boxes, mango cores, fruit knives and spoons were thrown everywhere on the dining table.There are a lot of things to do, Zhou Yin only likes to do things and doesn't like to clean up, these are all waiting for him to clean up.

But he thinks it's good, it's been a long time.A warm lamp, a dining table, two chairs, three meals for two, is the feeling of home that he once dreamed of.

He thought it couldn't be realized, and reached a reconciliation with himself. Some people have smooth love in this life, but he is destined to have a rough time.He was ready to torture each other with Zhou Yin.

Li Qing wiped off the saliva from the corners of Zhou Yin's mouth. Zhou Yin's lips were wet and shiny, and his eyes were watery. Zhou Yin was very obedient when he was emotional. Li Qing had no doubt that Zhou Yin would do anything for him now , he pinched the back of Zhou Yin's neck, and said in a hoarse voice, "It's my birthday, can you give me a present?"

"Huh? What do you want? I don't have anything right now."

"You have, you are my gift, just give you to me."

Zhou Yin opened his eyes wide. In the last few hours of Li Qing's birthday, he fully realized the meaning of Li Qing's words.He is Li Qing's gift and his property, so he should be treated like an object.

That night Li Qing tied Zhou Yin's hands with a nylon rope, stripped Zhou Yin's body, and asked Zhou Yin to lie on the bed and wait for him.When he opened the closet to look for the pajamas he wanted to wear, Li Qing's heart suddenly moved. The lower layer on the other side of the closet was empty. He turned around and waved to Zhou Yin. Zhou Yin got out of the bed, and he put his arms around his shoulders and untied the knot on his wrist. , half pushed and half stuffed into the lower shelf of the closet.

Zhou Yin was naked, curled up in the closet.He was obviously full of fear and uneasiness in this cramped and dark environment. He stared at Li Qing anxiously, grabbed Li Qing's trouser legs with both hands, and murmured, "It's so dark, how long do I want to stay here?"

Li Qing touched his face and coaxed: "Wait a while, wait for me to carry you out."

"I'm scared, can I change the place?" Zhou Yin trembled slightly, refusing to let go of Li Qing's trouser legs.

Li Qing took off his shirt, thought about it, and handed it to Zhou Yin.Holding his shirt in his arms, Zhou Yin gave him an aggrieved look, and begged, "Hurry up."

"Only I can carry you out, do you understand?" Li Qing finally declared expressionlessly.

Zhou Yin nodded. He watched the closet door slowly close in front of him. Even though Li Qing didn't close it completely, the darkness still enveloped him overwhelmingly.He buried his face in Li Qing's shirt, sniffed the familiar smell, and imagined that Li Qing's arms were embracing him.

As long as he was in Li Qing's arms, he felt at ease and was willing to hand over himself.

What a cowardly and weak person he is, only in love can he be a little bit brave, and dare to bet his sincerity in exchange for what he wants.In the past, Li Qing wanted his kisses and his body, and he gave them all. Now Li Qing wanted him to be obedient, and he did as well.

This morning, when Li Qing said that he didn't care whether he liked it or not, he was actually a little sad.Sincerity is the last treasure of such a despicable person like him, and he sent it up with a stern face, how could Li Qing not care.

Zhou Yin hugged the shirt tighter, no matter whether he opened or closed his eyes, the darkness followed him everywhere.He almost forgot that he was never afraid of the dark in the past, but why is he afraid of everything now.Love made him brave, and love made him cowardly.