My Tang You

21 Years Reset · Extra Story

The sun shines through the treetops, pouring down like gold, and the scattered light and shadow cast on the soft ground, like flowing golden sand.

In front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, clean and soft curtains were quietly drooping.

In the convalescent ward, there was plenty of light, and a bouquet of light yellow roses with dew quietly bloomed beside the bed.

Xu Qinchen rubbed the wrist bones of the patient on the hospital bed, lowered his eyes and complained: "Today, the typhoon tore up the sofa at home, and tore a piece of the curtain, and he even talked back to me."

"It also learned to open your door, you have to take care of it..."

As soon as the voice fell, there was a "click", the door opened, and the typhoon poked its head in according to the situation.

Xu Qinchen ignored the dog, "Yesterday I opened the door and sneaked in, under the bed, didn't jump or bite, pretty good."

As if knowing that he had been praised, Typhoon poked his head closer and wagged his tail with shining eyes.

Xu Qinchen said: "I have to change the lock that it can't open, or I will come back next time."

The typhoon's tail stopped, took two steps back, and then turned around and ran away.

The door is still open.

After talking about this long list, Tang You didn't answer a word, and was lying quietly on the bed with his eyes closed.

Xu Qinchen carefully smoothed the hair around Tang You's ear, pinned the hair behind the ear, and pulled it back.

After finally letting go of the lock of hair, Xu Qinchen went to close the door, took a book, and sat on the bedside to read.The kind of reading that makes sounds is like a parent reading a storybook to a child.

In fact, it was useless for him to read it, because the person on the bed was unconscious and theoretically could not hear anything.

time flies.

This is the fourth year that Tang You has fallen into a deep sleep.

Xu Qinchen read a few pages, then suddenly closed the book, and walked out of the nursing ward in a few steps.When he came back, he could clearly see that he had washed his face, and the water droplets on the ends of his hair dripped down, and he wiped some of it away with the back of his hand.

It's nothing else, he was just reading just now and suddenly he didn't feel well, so he washed his face to calm himself down.

It has always been like this in recent years, and I will suddenly fall into the emotional swamp at a certain inadvertent moment.Or a leisurely afternoon, or a rainy night, or the moment when you wake up early and open your eyes.

Back at the hospital bed, Xu Qinchen stared blankly at Tang You for a long time, then leaned over Tang You's chest to listen to his heartbeat.

boom.

boom.

With a sound, it sounds a little stable, just like when everything was good before.

With this sound, Xu Qinchen coaxed himself to pick up some human shapes. He opened the book again, read the last few pages of the volume, and started talking to Tang You again.

It is generally "the weather is good today, I will take you to enjoy the sun in the afternoon", "I will put on a talk show for you during the break, a certain contestant is very funny", and such as "When will you wake up... If you don't want to today, then Just tomorrow" and so on.

It doesn't matter if there is no one to talk to, he doesn't feel bored when he asks and answers by himself, it seems to be different from a few years ago when he was in his early twenties.

For so many years, Xu Qinchen has never been sad and depressed in front of Tang You. He always feels that bad mood is a kind of mysterious thing, which will put Tang You under pressure.When stressed, people may not be willing to wake up.

So in front of the hospital bed, he never low pressure, but after leaving the door of the nursing ward and returning to his empty bedroom, only he knows what kind of ghost it will be after closing the door.

Maybe the typhoon would know occasionally that at such times, the typhoon would always be by Xu Qinchen's side, acting sensible and well-behaved during the period, as always out of the husky's IQ category.

Not to mention, it does bring a lot of comfort.

Xu Qinchen sometimes wondered if Tang You had comforted the lost Tang You in the same way when he got lost in the typhoon and was picked up by Tang You.

It should have been.In the past, Typhoon liked Tang You very much, and he always liked to get close to Tang You. When he was picked up, he must have been very close to Tang You.

If the typhoon hadn't been sick and stayed with Tang You all the time, wouldn't Tang You have taken that step?

Thinking about it, it’s not entirely true. It’s not a day’s cold to be frozen three feet, and people’s hearts don’t get cold after just one thing. Too many things weigh on my heart. After a long time, I can’t bear it. In the end, I still have to seek relief. .

You can't think deeply about this matter, it's easy to be dazzled, and your heart will be corroded by regret, guilt and pain.

There was a pattering sound outside the door. Hearing the sound, the typhoon was messing up again, and he was trying to open the door at the moment.

Xu Qinchen rested his forehead on Tang You's shoulder, felt the body temperature, stayed quietly for a while, and left the ward to feed the typhoon.

In the past few years, Xu Qinchen has not been idle. He sent Mr. Xu to prison.

I won’t go into details about the process, and it was life-threatening at one point—Mr. Xu, the eldest son was half-dead after being caught in a love affair he hadn’t fully grasped, not to mention that the white-eyed wolf boy really wanted to kill him Naturally, when he was frightened and angry, he would not show mercy—at that time, Xu Qinchen was surrounded by people and almost missed his confession. At the critical moment, his elder brother who had no contact with him took him out.

Xu Lingcheng said this: "If you want to trick him, tell him sooner, but you want to be alone? I'm not as reckless as you. Is it safer for us to work together than you alone?"

When he said this, he was accompanied by Mr. Xu's ex-girlfriend. By the way, the two of them got the certificate seriously, and they didn't intend to play around at all.

Xu Lingcheng: "This is your sister-in-law, hello."

Xu Qinchen was covered in blood at that time, and passed out before his brother finished speaking.

After that, he suffered from the injury for a period of time, and then the brothers teamed up to send Mr. Xu in.

If I didn't check before, I didn't know. Mr. Xu has done too many bad things. If there is no accident, there is no hope for him to come out in this life.

After Mr. Xu went in, Zhang Yadai approached Xu Qinchen twice.

The first time, he lost his composure, and cried and asked Xu Qinchen why he wanted to bite his elders hard, regardless of his parenting affection.The parents made thousands of mistakes, and they were also the parents, how could they be so disobedient and unfilial.

Xu Qinchen didn't explain or refute.

The second time, Zhang Yadai was not so excited, it seemed that she had recovered.In fact, she probably always understood that Mr. Xu was completely to blame, but he just couldn't accept the latter's imprisonment.

She seemed to want to say something, but Xu Qinchen was not willing to sit down and have a chat with him at all - he refused to communicate with Zhang Yadai.

That's right, before the ICU, Zhang Yadai met the pale Xu Qinchen.Now that Tang You has been lying alive for so long, it is very likely that he will sleep like this for the rest of his life, how could Xu Qinchen forgive him?

Zhang Yadai knew Xu Qinchen's temperament very well, every day Tang You didn't wake up, Xu Qinchen hated the Xu family.Even if one day in the future, Tang You is lucky enough to wake up, the fact that has already happened cannot be changed, and the hatred will not disappear easily.

In the end Zhang Yadai left lonely.

In the kitchen, the boiled chicken breast had been torn open to cool, and Xu Qinchen prepared a few small broccoli, half a carrot, and other odds and ends such as freeze-dried goat milk.

He moved slowly today, so anxious that Typhoon almost didn't speak, and it took a few minutes before Typhoon finally ate his first bite muttering.

Xu Qinchen served the dog for dinner, and even cut a small portion of fruit.

When using a knife, I remembered that Tang You used to think that his hands were very precious. He used a kitchen knife for cooking, and even made a metal model. Tang You would get nervous and ask him why he kept doing "dangerous things".

After feeding the small portion of fruit to the typhoon, Xu Qinchen's eyes fell on the sofa.

There are too many sofas torn by the typhoon, and his family replaces sofas frequently.The style of the new sofa is almost the same as the one when I fell in love with Tang You. It always makes people look back inadvertently and feel that Tang You is resting on the sofa. As long as you sit on it, you can feel the voice and body temperature of that person .

Typhoon finished eating the fruit, licked his tongue contentedly, and walked around the living room for a while.

Xu Qinchen ground a cup of coffee, took two sips, came out without seeing the typhoon swaying, walked to the convalescent ward, and saw the door was opened again, and the typhoon was sleeping beside the bed.

The sun shone in again, and the tip of the typhoon's tail poked in the sun, shaking slightly.

Xu Qinchen squatted down beside the dog and rubbed the dog's head.

In the first year, Xu Qinchen repeated the same type of dream every day——

Generally speaking, Tang You woke up, but the details were different.

Sometimes it was Tang Youjin walking around the house wearing slippers and fluffy home clothes, and Xu Qinchen would pull someone over and hug him happily; sometimes it was Tang You eating at the small dining table in the kitchen, and Xu Qinchen and him They put their heads together and talked small things; sometimes, when the two of them were chatting and laughing while walking in the typhoon, Xu Qinchen couldn't help holding his hand.

The sense of peace of mind that was lost and found in the dream is very strong, making people happy and indulging, and can't stop, which also determines that such dreams are full of stamina.

After waking up and opening my eyes, I stretched out my hand to feel the void, my heart was already half cold, and I went to see Tang You still wouldn't wake up, move, talk, or laugh, the traces of despair crawled out naturally come up.

Every time Xu Qinchen was tossed between delusion and reality, his heart no longer knew what it would be like.

It stands to reason that he has seen Tang You step into the gate of hell with one foot, and the worse ones have come over. Tang You can still be in this state now, he should be content.

But he couldn't be content.Counting the breakup period, he has not "seen well" Tang You for more than 2000 days and nights.He missed Tang You like crazy, the Tang You who would talk to him and look at him with shining eyes.

I miss it so much.

He even thought that as long as Tang You could open his eyes and say a word to him, even just a word, he would be willing to let him die.

But Tang You is unlikely to open his eyes to talk to him after all, the longer the vegetative state, the less chance of waking up.

Everyone knows that Tang You's state is almost hopeless, because it is impossible for God to give luck to the same person again and again.

Xu Qinchen also knew in his heart that he didn't want to think too much, he just lied to himself, when Tang You was sleepy, his work and rest were completely opposite to his own.

He stopped having wishful dreams and dreamed other dreams.

When he dreamed that Tang You sent him a message to explain, he immediately believed it unconditionally; after receiving the photos and videos in the dream, he did not get carried away, did not do anything to hurt Tang You, but thoroughly found out the truth , spent the most difficult time with Tang You.

I have dreamed a lot, but dreams are just dreams, just wishful thinking.

Xu Qinchen was going round and round in the abyss of regret and pain, and regret is such an internal friction emotion, people are obviously not injured, but they feel pain in their internal organs all the time, as if they can't get better in this life.

It's not always in this state. If the pain is too much, it will become numb. After a few days of numbness, it will come back, and this cycle will continue.

In the past few years, Xu Qinchen has written countless songs, none of which have been made public. Only in the third year of Tang You's slumber, when the situation was unstable, one was released. The song is called "TANG".

It sounds like there is hope in despair, or despair in hope.Some people can hear the gentle and strong love, some can hear the lonely and hopeless longing, and some can hear the endless sadness and guilt.

When the song was first composed, it was called "My Tang You", but only Tang You's surname was used when it was released.

Xu Qinchen came out of the closet with this song.

For a long time after that, there were various voices on the Internet, and Xu Qinchen himself went to the cat at home without any response.

He was seriously ill.

When it was the most serious, Xu Qinchen thought drowsily with his IV drip on, anyway, Tang You's condition is not stable, there are only two situations, either he is about to wake up, or he is about to leave.If he wakes up, he will recover immediately if his illness is not cured, and if he chooses the other option, he just goes along with him.

Later Xu Qinchen recovered from his illness, Tang You didn't wake up and didn't leave, the typhoon didn't like to talk to Xu Qinchen for many days.

Xu Qinchen turned on the camera and recorded the vlog in the nursing ward. After recording, he would upload it to his social account. Of course, he uploaded it privately. Hundreds of videos have been uploaded so far.

Not to mention recording once a day, at least two or three times a week, recording weather and life, recording some things you want to share, and recording bits and pieces.

I hope that one day in the future, someone will be able to look back on the years of absence with these recorded moments.

It is not true that there is such a blank section on the trajectory of life.

Typhoon woke up and dozed off, sniffed around the hospital bed, leaned in front of the camera, leaned against Xu Qinchen and whispered "Wow", it seemed that he would catch the camera very well.

Xu Qinchen was recording the vlog, and he kept paying attention to Tang You's side from the corner of his eye. He didn't pay much attention to the typhoon. Suddenly, a dog's head came over, and he gently gave it a brain.

The swing of the typhoon's tail gradually increased, and it made a soft "woof", sounding a little indescribably happy.

This is completely taught by Xu Qinchen, and it is not allowed to bark loudly around Tang You, so as not to disturb others.

It seems that the results are still very good.

Xu Qinchen thought, let’s end the recording here today. I also recorded a section when I went out for a walk in the morning, and there was also a section of flowers in the garden-the typhoon has been quite stable in the past two years, and I will not go to flowers and plants for no reason again, yes So the flowers that can be seen have finally grown in his family yard - I will record another day when I cut the few sections recorded today together later.

Xu Qinchen stretched out his hand to press the START/STOP button, and the typhoon happily ran to the hospital bed in small steps.

Xu Qinchen glanced out of the corner of his eye, and retracted his fingertips as if he had been stabbed by something, and the camera stand was almost knocked down by him.

He couldn't believe it, and whispered tremblingly: "Youyou..."

On the hospital bed, Tang You opened his eyes just like in countless dreams.

Hearing the movement, he moved his eyes slowly and looked at Xu Qinchen.

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Updated: February 21, 12

I will try my best to finish writing in the next few days, thank you for reading.