My Tang You

Xu Qinchen seemed to be born with a halo, and he would attract the attention of others—even if he was just standing there, quietly trapped in the shadows.

Tang You hadn't seen him for several days, and when he met him suddenly, he couldn't help standing still, feeling an unspeakable feeling in his heart.

He slowly looked away, reached out and pressed his eyebrows, as if he was suppressing something with this action, then took out the key and opened the door without saying a word.

"Yuyou."

A hand stretched out from the side and clasped Tang You's wrist.

Three minutes later, a glass of water was placed in front of Xu Qinchen in the first bedroom.

The size of this room is small, not comparable to that of Xiangxuehai. Tang You felt a little empty when he was alone, but now that there is another one, it is actually a little crowded and cramped.

Xu Qinchen brought a bunch of presents, some newly bought for peace, and some he brought for Tang You on a business trip to H City.He has always had this habit. Wherever he goes out, he always wants to buy something to take home and bring it to Tang You whenever he sees it.

Things that used to bring joy are on the table now, without a pat on the back, looking downcast and worthless for a moment.

Tang You closed the open window for ventilation, and there was no outside noise, and the room suddenly became quiet.

In this "closed" space, Tang You could almost hear his noisy heartbeat.So he paused, and opened the window again, halfway this time.

During this period, although Xu Qinchen didn't say a word, his sense of presence became stronger and stronger, which made Tang You, who was in a numb but sensitive state recently, at a loss as to what to do.

Xu Qinchen asked: "Isn't it cold?"

Tang You curled up his cold fingers, and asked without answering, "How did you find it?"

Before Xu Qinchen could say anything, he said to himself, "Are you still locating me? This time is it a mobile phone, a computer, or something else?"

As he said, he took out his mobile phone and formatted the data on the mobile phone. This was not enough, he also went to get the computer.

He checked it carefully, but said nothing, but there was a kind of aggressiveness that was suppressed and silent.

It was the first time for Xu Qinchen to experience the teaching. Seeing that Tang You was getting more and more outrageous, and even started to rummage through bags and suitcases, he finally couldn't bear to stop Tang You's movements, and brought him to his side, "Don't do this, I didn't position you, just please The classmates helped to pay attention."

Lemon mixed with a faint smell of smoke hit the nose, and countless lingering memories rushed over.

Tang You is like a cat that stepped into the stagnant water with one foot, the fur all over his body exploded in an instant, and the conditioned reflex wanted to escape, "Let go, we are all broken up, it is not appropriate to cuddle."

Xu Qinchen didn't let him go, instead he grabbed the back of the struggling man's neck and forced him to raise his head to kiss him.

Human beings are often unable to make meaningful explanations for their own behavior.

Just like the current Tang You, he moved away from Xiangxuehai, proposed to break up, and made a clean break, but after being kissed, he let go of his strength little by little.

That attitude was almost docile and slowly softened.

After an unknown amount of time, Xu Qinchen let go of Tang You, leaned against his cheek, and whispered to him in a soft voice: "Stop making trouble, okay? Let's go home."

When a couple breaks up, a hug or a kiss can generally be regarded as a signal of reconciliation.

But Tang You clearly still had his heart beating faster and his breathing disordered because of the kiss, but what he said was another sentence: "We have already broken up."

Xu Qinchen frowned imperceptibly, raised his hand, and covered Tang You's lips with his dry fingertips, carefully tracing the luster that hadn't faded, "Score? Then what is this?"

This action was done by Xu Qinchen, but his color was not explicit.

An unspeakable atmosphere immediately floated between the two of them, and Tang You turned his head evasively, "It's nothing." His ending sound even carried the tenderness of being kissed deeply.

Xu Qinchen's eyes locked on Tang You, and the person in front of him gradually coincided with the person who was emotionally moved under him that night.

A thought arose slowly - at that time, Tang You had already decided to break up.

This conjecture left Xu Qinchen at a loss for a moment, and he felt an indescribable feeling in his heart, and only one sentence remained on his lips: "I don't agree."

Tang You never looked into Xu Qinchen's eyes. He didn't know whether he was unwilling or not. He just lowered his eyelashes and asked softly, "Then how do you agree?"

He wrapped the leather pouch with cunning transparent spikes, Xu Qinchen stretched out his hand, and was stabbed softly in the red.

After a full three seconds, Xu Qinchen said: "Don't even think about it, I will never agree. If you are tired, want to have your own space, and want to live here, you can live here for as long as you like, but don't break up casually. "

Tang You was silent for a while, and said: "I have thought about it carefully, and it is not a casual agreement."

The tone was soft and steady, but every word and every word was grasped with a soft knife, cutting into the heart of the heart without any vagueness.

Xu Qinchen took a deep breath, counted from 1 to 10 in his heart, held Tang You's shoulders, and chased after him to meet his gaze—without success—Xu Qinchen said calmly as much as possible: "I didn't continue to monitor and locate you, and I won't continue to monitor you in the future." I won't make my own decisions anymore. You may have been wronged by your aunt, so you are in a bad mood recently. But at this time, shouldn't you digest it alone? Go back with me. "

Tang You only said that Zhou Quan was upset that his daughter was in a car accident that day, and he didn't say much about what Zhou Quan said to him. Xu Qinchen actually guessed very well.

Tang You was forced to be trapped between the wall and Xu Qinchen. "We are in Cao Ying and our hearts are in Han" and said: "We don't know each other well, and we don't trust each other enough. If we continue to be together, we will only consume each other. We, we are not suitable... "

Xu Qinchen watched him quietly, and Tang You gradually lost his voice.

"Look into my eyes and say." Xu Qinchen's eyes were terribly dark, and he pinched Tang You's chin, which was an action to force Tang You to look at him.

Tang You didn't cooperate no matter what, under the resistance, his chin almost left fingerprints.

This gave Xu Qinchen an illusion: you can kiss him, hug him, or even fuck him, but don't let him look into your eyes.

Xu Qinchen relieved himself.

Tang You got a chance to breathe, "You can't find any kind of person, so there's no need to pester me here. I put the ring in the study on the third floor, the second row on the far left of the bookshelf..."

The opening and closing mouth, how cute it looked in the past, is now so hateful, it can only say the words of breaking up and leaving.

For a moment, a terrible idea came to Xu Qinchen's mind: to throw Tang You onto the bed, to punish him severely, to make him cry and beg for mercy and admit his mistake, and cry that he would not leave.

But in just a moment, that thought was suppressed, and Xu Qinchen said almost stiffly: "Are you serious?"

Tang You turned into a saw-mouthed gourd again on the spot.

This unstoppable silence was like a splash of gasoline, the steaming anger in Xu Qinchen's heart could not be suppressed at last, so he had to temporarily let go of Tang You and stay away from this "accelerator".

No, still no.

He picked up the glass of water on the table again and filled it in one go.

At least Xu Qinchen allowed himself to speak "calmly": "The matter of monitoring and positioning, you said it yourself, and I didn't monitor you again after that. I will do my best to compensate and apologize for the aunt's matter. Other than that I didn't offend you. As for the roommate and Du Guilin you mentioned, they are all to blame. I will do it again. You can't get angry with me because of those things? I don't understand what you are struggling with What, I just made you so unbearable, made you pack up your things and run away without saying a word, determined to break up? Tang You, please be reasonable. "

Tang You was a little bit embarrassed by this long series of pursuits. No matter what mood, state, and considerations he had when he decided to break up, he couldn't find any words to refute at this moment.

Maybe it would be better if they talked on the phone, at least that way, he wouldn't have to face Xu Qinchen directly.

Tang You said almost evasively, "But breaking up doesn't require mutual consent."

This kind of pie that doesn't eat oil and salt is really determined to divide it.

The anger was slowly extinguished, leaving only a pile of meaningless ashes, Xu Qinchen looked at Tang You for a long time, and said: "It is necessary, because feelings are not a child's play."

After speaking, he didn't bother anymore and left by himself.

In the next few days, Xu Qinchen would come to Tang You almost every day.

Either bring a bouquet of manta roses, or bring some things that Tang You usually likes, and even brought a typhoon twice.

Every time a typhoon comes over, the typhoon always hums through the door, like an abandoned child.

Tang You was soft-hearted and afraid of disturbing the people, so he could only open the door.

Tang You knew that Xu Qinchen was pursuing him again.

But he just wanted to stay by himself, and couldn't deal with Xu Qinchen who had a strong sense of presence. Even though Xu Qinchen held his own most of the time, he didn't stay for long.

But every day, when Xu Qinchen didn't come over, Tang You always felt that something was hanging in his heart.

When the person arrived, Tang You couldn't calm down and deal with him—even though Xu Qinchen didn't intend to deal with him, the strong sense of presence already made Tang You uneasy.

When the people finally left, Tang You felt physically and mentally exhausted as if he had fought a battle.

Gradually, he even felt that the current Xu Qinchen was like a wicked neighbor doing renovations on a Sunday morning, which made him tense and unable to rest.

Finally one day, Tang You couldn't handle his emotions well, and issued an order to evict guests: "Don't come here so often, if you do this again, I will move out immediately."

He didn't realize until he blurted it out - oh, it seemed very hurtful.

But he has been getting more and more wrong recently, and there seems to be a taut string in his mind.

The sense of anxiety that could collapse at any time always chased him, making him unable to feel the guilt of hurting Xu Qinchen at all.

He knew that Xu Qinchen was not stalking him, that Xu Qinchen was trying to impress him, but he couldn't feel any positive emotion, only restlessness and resistance rolled in his blood.

Xu Qinchen's almost non-stop appearance, fell into his eyes, but it was another kind of invisible persecution.

The light hit Xu Qinchen's shoulders, casting two blurred halos.

Xu Qinchen smiled at Tang You, "You know what? You really confuse me."

But what to do?who made him like him.

"Then I'll make you clean for a few days."

For several days in a row, Xu Qinchen didn't show up, and he didn't even send a text message.

Tang You was like a cat who ran into a corner when he was cornered. He felt relieved for a while when he was gone, but he couldn't help but poke his head out again.

He slowly recalled Xu Qinchen's smile when he said "perplexed", and then he felt a little guilty for being belatedly aware.

His life returned to going to class, writing codes and sleeping, but for some reason, when Xu Qinchen came to occupy his time every day, he was too sleepy to wake up.But recently Xu Qinchen didn't come, he had a lot of time to go to sleep, but instead fell into a state of insomnia.

Tang You couldn't fall asleep all night, as if he had finished his sleep in advance some time ago.

It's really bad. I can sleep for two or three hours, but I often have nightmares.

He has many nightmares, such as the car accident of his parents, the small grave of his grandma, and the urban village in City A.

Etc., etc.

He still endured these, until one day, he dreamed that Xu Qinchen died in front of him——

The despair that was enough to crush him overwhelmed him. He woke up with tears streaming down his face.

When Tang You used his sleepy and rusty brain to realize that this was a dream, the joy of the rest of his life slowly poured into every cell of him.

He seemed to be reborn, he was in a relaxed mood that he hadn't seen in a long time, and his whole body seemed to be floating. He thought to himself: No, I'm going to find him.

This thought came quickly, urging Tang You to turn over and get out of bed eagerly, get dressed and go out.

Tang You first ran, then walked. After leaving the community, he squatted down on the side of the road.He walked too fast just now, he has not had a good rest recently, his body stretches his hips, and he feels like vomiting.

It was four o'clock in the morning, those who went to bed late hadn't fallen asleep yet, and those who got up early had already started a new day.

Not far away, sanitation workers were sweeping the street. Bamboo brooms scraped the ground, and the wind blew, bringing the sound far away.

Tang You was exhausted and stood up slowly. He planned to walk to the intersection 30 meters away, where it was more convenient to take a taxi.

After walking a few steps, there was the sound of a car behind him. Tang You wondered if it might be a taxi, so he turned his head and took a look.

Not a taxi.

But this kind of model seems to be seen all the time recently.

As soon as this thought came out, the car had already driven to the front, made a left turn, and disappeared from sight.

Tang You didn't think about it anymore, his thoughts had already flown to Xiangxuehai.

If all goes well, he will be able to see Xu Qinchen in half an hour. Although he hasn't figured out what to say when they meet, he has to go first.

When passing the alley, Tang You vaguely remembered: The car seemed to have turned into this alley just now.

For some reason, he felt a little uneasy for no reason, and even shivered at a certain moment, so he couldn't help but quicken his pace.

However, in the next second, the bad premonition came true.

Someone rushed over from his side and covered his mouth and nose.The syringe stuck into the side of the neck, and the fluid was pushed hard.

Tang You staggered a step and lost consciousness.

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重写日期：21年9月21日（9月22日微调）