Manhattanhenge

After the dinner, Su Hui bid farewell to Bella, and got into Ning Yixiao's car directly.

This made Bella very shocked. She thought that the undercurrent between the two tonight was just the ambiguity between the ex, but the development of the facts seemed to be more than that.

She couldn't help but send news and gossip to Su Hui.

[Bella: Are you back together? ]

Su Hui was kissing Ning Yixiao in the car at that time, and did not see the news at all.

He didn't respond to the message until five o'clock in the morning.

[Eddy: Ah, I thought I told you, didn't I? ]

Bella, who received the message, suddenly realized that it was not an ambiguous period at all, but a passionate love period after reunion.

[Bella: I knew it! ]

[Bella: You are so worthy, I have never dared to say it before, but I can finally say it openly! ]

[Bella: Ever since the last New Year's party, I have had a premonition that you will get back together sooner or later. Sure enough, I am simply a genius! ]

Su Hui smiled and put down the phone.

The room was messed up by them, and he knew that the untidyness would make Ning Yixiao unbearable after waking up, so he tidied everything up quietly before lying down to accompany him.

Lying beside the sleeping Ning Yixiao, Su Hui lightly stroked his back.

Every time as long as he is like this, Ning Yixiao will lean towards him even when he is asleep, as if he really likes to be touched like this.

Recalling the company name he mentioned at the dinner, Su Hui was still moved.It is obviously a very important name, and it might be a good idea to change it to someone else, but Ning Yixiao chose their story to commemorate the short six months and the short 15 minutes and 20 seconds under the sun.

Word games are not like his style, but Ning Yixiao is always doing things for him that are not like him. He hates late people who are late for him, claiming that egoistic people are altruistic.

Su Hui has never felt such a preference, and even felt that even if she gave everything she had, she would not be able to repay the same amount of love.

It's frustrating, but it also seems to be true.

Su Hui quietly took Ning Yixiao's hand and interlocked his fingers.

If only I were a little more outstanding and healthy, that would be fine.

MsnF's New York campus has already started construction, and the project is progressing quickly. Ning Yixiao also stayed in New York for two weeks for this, and did not return to the Bay Area immediately.

And Su Hui is also busy with his solo exhibition, non-stop, the two of them can't make up a complete date, but at night, Su Hui will take out the letters sent by others to sell, and pick up some interesting and witty ones to read to Ning Yixiao Listen, make him laugh.

Ning Yixiao couldn't laugh most of the time, Su Hui would be a little embarrassed, thinking that his laughter was not normal, so he changed the letter, halfway through the reading, he couldn't stand up laughing.

At this time, Ning Yixiao was really amused, and pressed Su Hui on the sofa to kiss.

He often acts violently, and likes to leave large and small marks on Su Hui, and apologizes afterwards, but Su Hui says that he doesn't like him and apologizes, that he likes him to use more force, and that he likes him to make himself hurt.

In late April, the traces of spring finally spread to the concrete forest.

The two of them made out a day that was not too busy and came to the hospital to visit grandma.Compared with when Su Hui came by herself three days ago, grandma's energy is much better, and the nurse also said that she looks more energetic every day.

Even though Ning Yixiao was out on his own and was reborn, but the days of separation before were still vivid in his memory. Facing Su Hui's relatives, he always had a sense of estrangement that was difficult to eliminate.

What Ji Tailu said is like a thorn, which has not been removed for several years. Ning Yixiao originally thought he could defeat that voice, but as the years passed, he became more and more convinced that Su Hui had never loved His "facts".

Although it was not true, it became a shadow that was hard to dispel.

"Come and sit down, Xiao Ning, please sit down." Grandma smiled, and her voice was much louder than before, "It's rare for you to come together, I'm happy to see it."

Su Hui added hot water to grandma's teacup, then got up and took a disposable cup to pour water for Ning Yixiao.

"Grandma, you've run out of tea, I'll come over tomorrow and bring you a new can."

"Okay, then you remember to bring me the same tea, this tea is delicious."

Su Hui returned to sit beside Ning Yixiao with a smile, "Well, I remember."

Ning Yixiao seemed a little silent, and he didn't seem to be used to it. Su Hui had noticed from the moment he came in that he was very sensitive to Ning Yixiao's emotions, so he reached out and took Ning Yixiao's hand.

He didn't wear gloves today, and he didn't look that difficult to get close to, but only Su Hui knew that he was actually very nervous.

With her hand held, Ning Yixiao raised her eyes to look at Su Hui, and then at grandma.

Su Hui was not ready before, but this time he decided to come together, and seeing Ning Yixiao's uneasiness, he felt that he was ready.

He looked at his only relative on the hospital bed, and said with a smile, "Grandma, I'm with Yixiao."

There seemed to be no surprise on grandma's face, not even a trace of surprise.

On the contrary, it was Ning Yixiao. He didn't expect Su Hui to be so direct and quick.

Su Hui firmly held his hand, holding it tightly, "During the six years of separation, he has never forgotten me, and he still likes me very much, and I am the same. We talked about those misunderstandings, so we decided to get back together. together again."

He rarely speaks like this, very formal, like a mature adult, unlike a patient who is always struggling with illness and emotional quagmire.

The room was very quiet. Two seconds later, Su Hui heard grandma laughing.

"I guessed it a long time ago, and I'm just waiting for you to come."

She was still wearing a slender and transparent oxygen tube, and she looked much older, but her expression was as gentle and loving as ever.

"God is unfair to you, and I feel very sad. Speaking of which, I have one foot in the coffin, but I still can't help thinking about it. Every time Xiao Hui comes over, I want to ask a few questions, but every time he I always said that you are just friends, and I didn’t have much to ask afterward.”

Ning Yixiao lowered his head and glanced at the hand tightly held by Su Hui, like a traumatic scene that would replay from time to time, many memories that were about to be forgotten flashed through his mind.

Grandma looked at Ning Yixiao, full of guilt, "Xiao Ning, you are a good boy, our family is sorry for you."

Ning Yixiao immediately shook his head, "No."

"These things happened in the past. You repay your grievances with kindness, and you are willing to help me and Xiaohui like this when we meet again. There is no other such good person in the world."

"This is what I should do." Ning Yixiao said.

"What should I do? You don't owe anyone, only we owe you."

Grandma said, smiled, and changed the subject, "Xiao Hui, the coconut candy you bought for me last time was delicious. I don't know if there are any more, but now I suddenly want to eat it."

Su Hui stood up immediately, opened the bedside table to look for it, and found that there was only one packing box left.

"No more." He picked up the windbreaker, "Grandma, let me buy it for you. I bought it at the supermarket near the hospital."

Grandma nodded, "Then you can bring some fruit back by the way."

Ning Yixiao also got up, "I'll accompany you."

"Xiao Ning." Grandma stopped him, and picked up a palm-sized instrument from the side, "Can you take a look for me, I can't find my reading glasses, and I can't read the instructions clearly, how do I use this?"

Su Hui touched Ning Yixiao's arm, "I can do it by myself, it's very close, and I'll be back in a while."

Only then did Ning Yixiao nod her head, and smiled at her grandmother, "Let me help you look."

He knew that Su Hui's grandmother wanted to distract Su Hui and talk to him alone, but he was not sure what the content was.Obviously being affirmed, but still uneasy in my heart.

"Come and sit, come here." Grandma looked at him and smiled, and took out a piece of paper to wipe the surface of the chair in front of the bed, "Xiaohui said that you like to clean up, and the house is tidy, and his child can't do it." , Things like to be placed in a mess, so you must worry about them a lot."

Ning Yixiao shook his head and sat down, "He's fine."

Hearing this sentence, grandma sighed, as if she didn't know where to start, she took an orange from the bedside, lowered her head and peeled it slowly, "There are some things that I can only do alone when Xiaohui is not around." Tell you, if he was here, he would definitely not let me speak."

"If you have anything to say, just tell me, I won't tell him."

"It's not something you can't say to him, it's just that he doesn't want to mention it." Granny was lost in thought, and said slowly, "You may have already talked about what happened back then, and you know what happened, so I won't talk about it." Let’s talk about these sad things again. Seeing you coming today, I knew that most of the knot between you may have been resolved. In fact, it’s good for you to be together now, Xiao Hui… Compared with the previous few years, it’s really true Much better."

Ning Yixiao was a little confused, "A few years ago?"

"I knew that he would never tell you about the past few years. Even if he mentioned it, he would only mention it in a few words. My grandson, I know best."

"Sometimes he's very good at avoiding important things." Grandma said, "It seems that he doesn't care too much, and he doesn't have that much emotion, but he doesn't. He just doesn't dare to say it."

Grandma handed Ning Yixiao the peeled oranges, "Xiaohui's illness has improved in the past two years. There were many reasons why he chose to leave you back then, but he probably didn't tell you. He regarded himself as a stumbling block and would not move away." Open, it's not fair to you, I moved away with all my heart, but I couldn't get out by myself."

"Xiaohui spent two years in a mental hospital, he should have told you that."

"Yes, he said." Ning Yixiao nodded.

Grandma looked serious, "Later he met that professor and lived with him for a period of time. God opened his eyes and let us meet again, the old and the young. But at that time, Xiao Hui was really riddled with holes, not at all like At the beginning. I asked Professor White and him, and I learned about his situation in the past few years intermittently."

"When he was in the mental hospital, he didn't think about committing suicide. It was as if something was supporting him all the time. If the rock couldn't fall to the ground, he couldn't walk."

Grandma said, her eye circles were a little sour, "He has a bad time every winter, and he is very afraid of winter. From December onwards, his mental state will become very poor, and he will fall asleep every day and can't get out of bed, but he will sneak out one night. He went out to burn paper money, and sometimes he couldn’t buy paper money, so he made it himself.”

"At first I was surprised, because those few days were neither a holiday nor when his mother left, so I took a look at his stack of paper money while he was away. I didn't recognize the name written on it, surnamed Qin."

Ning Yixiao's heart suddenly throbbed, as if being strangled by an extremely thin thread, unable to breathe.

Su Hui was paying homage to his mother.

"He does this every year. He still recites sutras and talks nonsense every time. What's the birthday? Go see her."

Grandma paused, thinking of the past, she still felt very distressed, "He stayed in bed for the rest of the time, and resisted the treatment. The doctor said that his long sleepiness was actually a kind of self-protection, because he didn't Find a way to soberly face your emotions.”

"Sometimes when the manic period comes, Xiaohui can't sleep, and rides a bicycle to a temple far, far away, where he burns incense and worships Buddha. When he comes back, his hands are red from the cold, and he will secretly bring back some amulets or amulets. , hiding it from me.”

Grandma said and laughed, "I don't know what happened. Once he lost his temper and put all the amulets he asked for in a small bag, saying that he would take them out and bury them. I asked him what was wrong, and he I just muttered about it, saying that Ning Yixiao was sick, had a fever, nothing was good, these things were useless."

Ning Yixiao lowered his head and frowned tightly, almost imagining Su Hui's appearance at that time.

He must be in a hurry, like a child when he gets anxious, helpless, he can only vent his anger on the amulet.

"But how can such a thing be buried?"

Grandma bent over, took out a small yellow cloth bag from the back of the pillow, pulled the drawstring, and handed it to Ning Yixiao.

The bag was heavy, and it was filled with all kinds of amulets and amulets. Just looking at it, Ning Yixiao felt extremely sad.

The name written on each piece of amulet is not Su Hui, but himself.

Turning it over, it was the blessing written by Su Hui himself, or the eight words - health and happiness, and a bright future.

He didn't know how far Su Hui had to travel alone to find such a temple in a foreign country, and how long he had to wait for the door to open, before he could burn a stick of incense, kneel on the futon to pray to the gods, and seek for a person who could no longer find him. shelter.

When he returns, he will probably be very happy too. Looking at the amulets, he doesn't feel tired at all.

Even if this person really won't show up again.

"He was very ill and often talked nonsense. Later, I learned from the doctor that he was experiencing hallucinations. At first I was not used to it, and I found it a bit scary. Only the two of us ate, so Xiaohui insisted on putting on a show." The pair of dishes and chopsticks also said that you don't like dirty places, so the table was wiped several times."

Grandma said, wiping the tears from the corners of her eyes with her hand, "He doesn't want to take medicine or get medical treatment, because he is afraid that the hallucinations will disappear. I disagreed at first, but later I couldn't stand him, and felt that Xiaohui was pitiful, so I let him go. "

She pointed to the cloth bag, reached in, took out a small red jewelry box from inside, and opened it. What was inside was not any expensive jewelry, but a pair of paper-folded rings, one of which was out of shape. The other one is slightly larger and still brand new.

"This is a ring he made himself, and he wore it for a long time. Then, suddenly one day, he was not happy and stopped wearing it. I asked him why, and he said, 'Ning Yixiao had a fight with me, and I don't want it. My ring is gone, and I don’t wear it anymore.’, in fact, your ring has been kept in the box and never taken out. He found out later that the ring has never been worn, so he was sad and quarreled with you in the hallucination. gone."

Ning Yixiao picked up the paper ring that he had never seen before, his vision was a little blurred, and he vaguely saw a letter - N written inside.

He put the ring on his ring finger, the exact size.

These are all evidences of love that Su Hui hides.

"I didn't get used to it at first, how could there be a third person, obviously it was just the two of us, but then I gradually got used to it, as long as he is happy, I am an old woman, why can't I act with him?"

Grandma's eyes were red, and when she thought of Su Hui at that time, her voice couldn't help sobbing, "Then one time, he really planned to leave, wrote me a letter, and took a lot of medicine. Fortunately, with the help of Professor White, we immediately sent him to the hospital for rescue and gastric lavage. He woke up during the anesthesia, still talking nonsense, and asked the doctor not to save him. The doctor said that this is his weakest will to survive once."

"I don't understand, I thought I was hallucinating, even if Xiao Hui was a little crazy, at least he lived happily every day, and he wouldn't be overwhelmed. I watched him that whole night and thought about it all night, but I couldn't figure it out. "

Grandma covered her face with tears, Ning Yixiao handed over the tissue and put her hand on her old hand.

"Later he woke up, and I watched him cry. He looked at me in a daze, and asked me, 'Grandma, why don't you grow old?' I said, I'm already very old. Xiao Hui shook his head and said I looked like this when he was 20, and now he is 60, why do I still look like this."

60 years old ...

Ning Yixiao's back froze for a second.

He thought of Su Hui's sincere appearance when he was drunk and wishing him a happy 21st birthday, and the astonishment and confusion on Su Hui's face when he said that he was 27 years old were also true.

He really couldn't tell.

"Xiaohui said, 'I'm very old, and so is Ning Yixiao. He left last night. We made an appointment to go together. Why did you save me? He's still waiting for me.'"

Ning Yixiao was stunned.

It turned out that they had grown old together in Su Hui's fantasy.

Speaking of this, grandma finally couldn't bear it, she shook her head, but her expression couldn't hide the pain, "On that day, I realized that I was thinking too simply, and if he didn't come out of the hallucination, it would actually hurt me." he."

"So I could only be ruthless, let him be hospitalized, receive treatment forcibly, and let him gradually come out of the hallucination, and he slowly let go of it later. I often say that Ning Yixiao may also live a good life, and you can also To learn to come out slowly, he tried very hard, and he also made me forget all these things. Xiao Hui is not like before, he reacts quickly to everything, but now he is always slow, not He doesn't want to respond to you quickly, maybe he is just distinguishing, he is afraid that if he can't tell what is real and what is an illusion, he will do something wrong."

Grandma held Ning Yixiao's hand, "Son, I said this to tell you that he did give up on you, but he loves you more than you imagined. He just didn't dare to say it for fear of scaring you."

"The Xiaohui you saw today has overcome many difficulties, spent a lot of determination and perseverance, and gradually improved. Many people will be surprised when they see him and hear about his illness, thinking that he is not sick at all. Unlike a patient, only I know, in fact, he was also very sick and in pain. To this day, he may still feel that he is not worthy of you, there is no way, this is the fate of this child. "

She looked at Ning Yixiao, "To be honest, if I were your parent, I don't want you to be with such a child, it will delay you."

Ning Yixiao shook his head, his voice was soft but firm, "But I can't live without him."

Grandma nodded, "I know, you always only have each other in your heart. But if he sometimes makes you feel uncomfortable, or if he doesn't do well somewhere, you can be more tolerant, or tell me, I will teach him, okay? good?"

Ning Yixiao's face was pale and he frowned, like the surface of a frozen lake, it looked extremely solid, but tiny cracks were spreading, and it was so fragile that it could be broken at the touch of a finger.

"No, don't worry, I will take good care of him." Ning Yixiao raised his eyes, the circles of his eyes were red.

"In the past few years of separation, I hope every day that I can give Su Hui a home, so that he can be happy and happy. Although it is a bit late, this wish has never changed."

When Su Hui came back, he saw Ning Yixiao pushing his grandmother out to bask in the sun. The two of them were chatting, and their relationship seemed to be much closer, which made him very happy.

So he waved his arms from a distance and called Ning Yixiao's name loudly, ignoring other people's gazes.

Ning Yixiao followed the prestige and saw Su Hui standing under a cedar tree waving his arms, his blue windbreaker was unbuttoned, and the hem of his clothes was blown up by the wind, the sun made him full of vitality, like an iris, catching up over mountains and mountains. Come, let it bloom for him.

Seeing him smile, Ning Yixiao felt pain.

Su Hui ran over, but didn't bump into his arms directly. She restrained herself a little in front of her grandmother, and stopped in front of him, her hair still shaking, and her smile was overflowing.

"Grandma, your coconut candy." Su Hui took out a pack of candies from the paper bag and put it on grandma's lap, "I went to several stores to get it."

"Thank you, Xiaohui." Grandma smiled and touched his arm.

"You're welcome." Su Hui smiled, and tilted her head to look at Ning Yixiao, "I also bought ice cream, which has your favorite flavor."

He raised his hand and shook the bag, "Do you want to eat?"

Ning Yixiao directly stretched out his arms and hugged him.

Su Hui froze for a moment, stroked his back, "What's wrong?"

Afraid of being overheard by his grandma, he leaned close to Ning Yixiao's ear and asked in a low voice, "You won't miss me in such a short time, will you?"

"Ah."

Su Hui smiled, and felt in her heart that Ning Yixiao really looked like a puppy, very similar, so she hugged her even tighter, not afraid of being laughed at by her grandma.

Ning Yixiao leaned against his shoulder, repeating illogically.

"I really miss you."