silent me, silent us

They didn't just sit in the middle of nowhere.

After taking two stops, they thanked the driver when they got off the bus. The worried expression on the driver's face made them laugh and discuss for a while after getting off the bus. Then, on the way to Ye Guang's house, the two were silent all the way, speechless.

Pushing open the iron gate of his house, passing through the small courtyard where there were cicadas chirping, Ye Guang suddenly remembered the little noodle stall that was abandoned by them and still lit with yellow lights. "Hey, what about the noodle stall?" He took out his key and asked Xu Qizhang who was looking around.

"They don't know how to move the noodle stall. If they smash it, they won't have any money." Said lightly, Xu Qizhang moved the money in his apron pocket to let Ye Guang listen, expressing that the money was still with him, with a nonchalant expression on his face.

So open-minded.Speaking of which, the noodle stall is still open without a boss, like a ghost movie...

After entering the porch, he took off his shoes, and gave Xu Qizhang a pair of slippers. Ye Guang gestured quietly to the shocked Maria, and asked her to bring him the medicine box.

After reassuring Maria and telling her that the car just crashed again, the two immediately entered Ye Guang's room.When Xu Qizhang was still observing the furnishings in the room, Ye Guang dropped the things in his hands, and he threw himself into the bed in a large font...

The room is really a good place to let a person reveal his true colors.Xu Qizhang thought.

Ye Guang was physically and mentally exhausted, lying on the bed motionless, wanting to keep sinking like this instead of floating up.

Really fucked him tonight, it felt like he was in some teenage action movie.

"Are you okay?" The bed tilted slightly to the left, feeling Xu Qizhang sitting next to him, Ye Guang didn't even bother to roll his eyelids, but after hearing this sentence, he became angry.

"No, how did you know that your noodle stall is acting in an action movie." He was even asked to join in as a supporting role.

"Didn't I tell you not to come?" There was no blame or questioning in the words.

Xu Qizhang's hand touched his head, which made him feel that Xu Qizhang's tone was vaguely happy... He was so happy to be slapped for no reason.Ye Guang propped up his upper body, glared at Xu Qizhang, and suddenly saw the wound on his forehead, and then remembered to apply medicine for him.Grabbing the medicine box from the bedside, he took out iodine and cotton swabs, and carefully treated Xu Qizhang's wound.

"What the hell is going on, your family owes the hooligan money?"

"Well...not a hooligan, but my uncle, all three." Xu Qizhang replied with his eyes closed.

"Hey! They are your uncles?" But they all look like hooligans!Ye Guang was surprised and accidentally applied force with the cotton swab. He heard Xu Qizhang grunt before saying sorry, and he took it easy, and then put the OK bandage on him.

After stopping their movements, the two looked at each other silently for a while, Xu Qizhang might also be thinking about how to speak, while Ye Guang was waiting for him to speak.

If you keep asking about this kind of thing, it will look like a dick, right?Just as Ye Guang was thinking so, Xu Qizhang said slowly.

It started the year after Dad died.

"My mother started going out to play mahjong every day. At the beginning, she only thought that she played it because she wanted to divert her attention." Xu Qizhang paused, seeming a little regretful.

"Later, when all the debt collectors came to my home, I found out that she didn't know how much she had lost and how much she owed. My mother was still not at home that day." I sighed softly from my nose. It's still so helpless in front of your eyes.

A hand gently grabbed his sleeve, and when he turned around, he saw tears in Ye Guang's eyes, which made Xu Qizhang laugh again.

"You cry very low, it's weird."

Ye Guang didn't answer him, but just kept his eyes wide open to keep the tears from falling. Seeing this, Xu Qizhang seemed to want to say something, chewed a few times, and then spoke again.

"Did you cry because you felt pitiful?" There was some uneasiness waiting for an answer in the faint tone.

Hearing this, Ye Guang paused and shook his head.

In fact, he didn't know why he was crying, but when he thought that he was so thin and so like a drug addict, he had to bear all the blows and disappointments alone, he wanted to cry.

He thought it was not because of "poor" him, he knew that the last thing he needed was someone's pity.

Xu Qizhang was still looking at him, still waiting for his answer.Ye Guang gritted his teeth, and searched for a word that best represented his mood in the elite library. After thinking for a while, he considered whether to say it, and finally opened his mouth.

"...I feel bad..."

Although it was weird and nasty, but it was very easy to say, especially when he saw Xu Qizhang smiled lightly, as if he was in an interview, Ye Guang felt that this sentence was really right.

"Later, because I had to repay the debts outside, I borrowed money from my grandpa and grandma, and even moved to the ancestral property. My mother finally woke up." He grabbed Ye Guang's hand from his shirt and held it backwards. Ye Guang didn't seem to notice Ye Guang's focused expression, Xu Qizhang smiled and continued.

"After grandpa and grandma passed away two years ago, my uncle and the others turned to me and my mother for money because they couldn't get any inheritance. They thought it was all our fault."

"Why is this so? How can you say that your mother is also their sister, and you are their nephew too! Then why did you beat you like that!" Ye Guang firmly believed that a tiger's poison does not eat its own child.

"That's because, I just said something like 'do my shit, that's what my mother owes, not me'. Uncle and the others said that they value things like 'elders'."

If Xu Qizhang had a cigarette now, he would definitely hold it in his mouth.It is such a vicissitudes of life in front of you.

What did he experience when he was young?What is lost?My heart is like a squeezed lemon, sour and tight.

"You can say that kind of thing..."

"Yes, are you disappointed?" Xu Qizhang smiled at his embarrassed look.

"I didn't expect anything from you!"

Is that right, I have never disappointed you once.Xu Qizhang said something that baffled Ye Guang, and was about to ask again, when Xu Qizhang said it again.

"But I said that sincerely. Although I worked hard to pay back the money that I didn't owe, and I resigned to my fate very early, sometimes I still have such thoughts."

He would think about why it was him, why he couldn't be like other people, why he was so tired... These immature thoughts would still appear in Xu Qizhang's mind repeatedly no matter what.

Ye Guang forgot that Xu Qizhang was still a boy just like them.

"Would you hate your mother?" Ye Guang murmured, but he didn't know whether he was asking himself or him.

"I won't hate her, I love her." Xu Qizhang looked into his eyes and said.

For no reason, when he heard the word "love" from Xu Qizhang's mouth, Ye Guang felt a little palpitated.Suddenly he realized how his hand was held together with him, and immediately withdrew his hand, Xu Qizhang didn't say anything, and smiled indifferently again.

"But love is sometimes not directly proportional to actual performance, Ye Guang."

It's like she loves me, but she didn't think of me when she was playing mahjong; I love her, but I have the idea that if I didn't grow up in this family, it might be easier; uncle may also love us Yes, otherwise the house would not be left for us to live in.

It's just that they love those currencies more.

Just because people are still selfish.

The sound of the air conditioner blowing cold air circulates in the room, and the cicada's cries from outside can be vaguely heard.

People are still selfish... No matter how you use love in the name, no matter whether you love or be loved, people will still be selfish.

Hearing these words, Ye Guang accidentally shed tears, sad but relieved.

Xu Qizhang hurriedly drew a piece of toilet paper for him. Although he knew that it was weird for him to cry, he didn't expect to cry again. Really, he helped him finish crying.

Later, the two sneaked out of the door, and ran to the transformer box near the noodle stall, making sure that there was no one around to close the stall.They found that although there were traces of being overturned on the stall, it was not smashed just like Xu Qizhang said.

After closing the booth quickly, Xu Qizhang suddenly looked at his watch with a surprised expression, and urged Ye Guang to get in the car.

Being dragged home by the crooked leader, Xu Qizhang hurriedly said goodbye to him, see you tomorrow, and after two rounds of riding, he turned back and patted his left cheek. After saying sorry and thank you, he rushed away.

He hasn't even said goodbye yet...Ye Guang touched his face, feeling that today was another inexplicable, wonderful and compact night.It seems that I was dreaming just now, because only dreams can fast-forward like this but I still remember it clearly.

Tonight, what did he gain from following Xu Qizhang, and what did he lose?

He took a breath, stretched his waist, looked at the sky above the garden, it was a full moon very close to the surface.