silent me, silent us

There is no such thing as total trust in the world.

No matter how much you love your subordinates, you will not give him full power; no matter how good your friends are, you will not let him be alone with your lover; Tell him everything on your mind.

It is a defense mechanism that humans are born to adapt to society. No matter when and where we are under the social system, we unconsciously activate that mechanism.

Ye Guang sat in his seat, watching the math teacher on the stage open and close like a fish's mouth in a water tank, and he was completely silent in his own world.

A clock on the blackboard showed less than an hour until the speeches.

After returning to the classroom from the auditorium, the first thing he did was to call Laobao and his group over.

"You...do you know what happened to Xu Qizhang?"

Ye Guang tried to find some clues from the faces of Lao Bao and the others, but all he got was the same expressions as when a group of high school boys saw calculus.

At the beginning, Lao Bao and the others were selected as the campaign team because they were simple, enthusiastic, and easy to understand, and everything was written on their faces. For the election of the student council president, they all tried their best to help him.Maybe it's just for the glory of the group or to have fun in the depressing study life, not asking for anything in return. Originally, what good would it do them if they were chosen by themselves?

Any activity in the student days should be joyful and relaxed, but if it is infiltrated with a muddy state of mind, it will leave a stain on that simple page, and then it will gradually expand in the future.

It's not about their interests. Is it necessary to take such a risky photo to report Xu Qizhang?Ye Guang looked at his election team and told them the truth, and Lao Bao and the others all responded with surprised expressions after hearing it, confirming Ye Guang's inference.

"But wouldn't this be one less enemy?" The man who spoke was hired as a kidnapper by the old man, and he signaled Xu Qizhang, who is Ye Guang's good friend, to stop talking nonsense.

But such a voice and such a move made Ye Guang frown and waver again.

Are these people just acting?

[-]% didn't they do it?

What on earth should I believe?

Even now he is not [-]% sure that Lao Bao and the others did not do it, let alone Xu Qizhang, who has a delicate relationship with him, treats him.

"No matter what you do or what you don't do, I will never be disappointed in you."

He didn't say "I believe in you", but he said that whether he did it or not, he would retain the original emotion for himself.

It is a lie to say that you are not moved, so it is also a lie to say that there are no lumps.

The little thorn that was betrayed by others must still remain in his heart, even though Xu Qizhang's eyes did not change his heartache, even though his kiss gave him a moment of peace of mind...

Ye Guang's heart beat faster when he thought of the entanglement of the two in the dark audio-visual room, of letting go of the secretly held hands in front of the classroom, and of the annoying but alluring smile on his face.

On the desk, the text in the math textbook was like ancient symbols, and he couldn’t understand any of them. The pen in his hand was spinning like a head, and his chest was so stuffy that he wanted to yell, but no matter what the content of the yelling was, he couldn’t understand it. It is certain that there will be those three weak but firm words in it.

How to remove it?

How can Xu Qizhang completely trust him?Such thoughts stirred repeatedly in Ye Guang's mind.

For the first time, I was burning with anxiety because I cared about what a person thought of me.

What should I do to let him know that in his heart now, he is more important than anything, more important than the position of student council president?

The more chaotic your thoughts, the less you can stop time from speeding up.

The bell for the lunch break rang, and half an hour after the meal, the political opinion presentation was officially held in the auditorium.

"Everyone present here, teachers and students, hello everyone, I am very glad to see that everyone can come to participate in the political opinion presentation meeting of the third student council president election of our school today..."

What are you talking about, it's obviously a mandatory gathering, isn't it? Of course they can all see us... The students in the audience whispered about Oda's purple tie today, which made him look like he ate a tomato and hung an eggplant, he was so alive Vegetative people.

Ye Guang and Hu Qiming sat in the background to prepare.Huqi Ming rubbed his hands together and looked very nervous because he got the first pick, while Ye Guang looked sideways at Oda with a focused expression, making the junior girls who were the masters of ceremonies sigh that the serious man was the last one. handsome.

But if they knew that this man was handsome because he was seriously thinking about other men, they would probably vomit blood.

"Our school has always taken the education policy of cultivating outstanding students with all-round talents. Therefore, under my suggestion, the first student self-government association was established two years ago, so that students can not only study, but also participate in the operation of the organization. study……"

Ye Guang stared blankly at class teacher Xiaotian, and for the first time found that his words were ridiculously hypocritical.

Everyone will say nice words, but whether they think so in their heart or practice it physically is another matter.

What kind of study other than reading... Isn't it just croaking at the bottom of the well at school and thinking it's like the sound of nature?I don't know why these rebellious thoughts kept popping up, and there was another suspect who caught a rake sitting next to him, Ye Guang was in a bad mood.

After praising himself and the school, Xiaotian stopped and cleared his throat, his face straightened, and he released the news that Xu Qizhang violated school rules because he worked outside the school.

"We believe that Xu's part-time job is justifiable due to family factors. We also think that he has maintained excellent grades during his schooling and his serious performance during the publicity period. We will not disqualify him from being a candidate, but it is a fact that he violated school rules. , so it is still necessary to inform the students, please judge the appropriate candidate in your mind. Of course, for the rights and interests of other candidates, the school has also taken some punishment. got canceled……"

As soon as Oda finished speaking, there was a buzz of discussion in the auditorium, and the classes closest to Class Five also searched for Xu Qizhang.

Ye Guang clenched his fists and stood up, poking his head slightly out of the backstage to look at Class [-] below the stage.Ye Guang bit his upper lip anxiously when he saw that there was no one sitting in the position of the squad leader of Class [-].

Where did he go?Why is it not in position?I didn't see him when I was having lunch just now, because Lao Bao and the others pestered him to do the final review of political opinions.

"Student, don't be nervous. When you take the stage, treat everyone in the audience as Lianwutou, and just speak according to the usual standard."

The previous student council president was a short, fat man with a generous smile who always greeted everyone with a smile.

At this time, he went into the backstage to care about the situation of this candidate, and seeing that Ye Guang was not calm down, he thought he was nervous.

Smiling at him, Ye Guang took a deep breath and sat down.

In fact, he didn't need to say, if Xu Qizhang was found to be in the audience, everyone else would automatically become Lian Wutou.

"Let us welcome the first candidate, No. [-] Chen Zeming..."

The emcee's sweet voice sounded, and there was a burst of warm applause from the audience. Ye Guang accidentally turned a corner when he saw Hu Qiming walking on the stage.With all his thoughts on Xu Qizhang, he walked out of the backstage and turned into the aisle next to him, squatted on the ground, buried his head in his arms and took a long breath.

Was he so sad that he hid somewhere and cried?

Although he doesn't look like a person who can cry... but people are always sad when they encounter setbacks, right?

Although Xu Qizhang was always very strong in front of him, maybe he couldn't bear to watch them publish on stage, and he could only sit in the audience... Feeling his shoulders being pushed, Ye Guang felt helpless in his heart.It must be the former president, alas, the popularity is too good to be quiet for a while...

The smile on his face was almost unbearable, but after all, he was the former president and he still had to pass the exam.Ye Guang's face was weak, so he raised his head with a smile, and then he was shocked to see the leader of Lianwutou who disappeared just now... No, it was Xu Qizhang who appeared out of thin air.He squatted beside him, pointing at his face and chuckling.

"What's your face, nervous?"

Why is this man always elusive?Ye Guang's heart was weak, and even the remaining half of his smile collapsed.

"Nervous..."

"Really, you're also nervous?" Xu Qizhang put his hands on his face and smiled embarrassingly.

"Well, I was nervous because I couldn't find you just now." Ye Guang buried half of his face in his arms, staring at Xu Qizhang's eyes slightly covered by bangs.Wei Qizhang was taken aback for a moment by the strange light shining in his slightly hooked, black and white big eyes.

It was perhaps the first time that I clearly conveyed a message of desire to him.Looking at Xu Qizhang's lips, Ye Guang pursed his lips, feeling a little dry.

Reaching out to grab his sleeve, the two just looked at each other for a brief moment.The sunlight coming in from the window casts two black shadows on the ground that are gradually shortening the distance, getting closer and closer...

"Senior Ye! It's time for you to take the stage!"

The junior girl ran out of the backstage and shouted, only to see Ye Guang turning his waist quickly as if he was doing warm-up exercises to relax, and there was another boy squatting on the ground with his head buried in his arms.

The school girl took a closer look and found that it was Xu Qizhang who had been cancelled. She smiled excitedly and said, "Ah! Senior Xu! Don't worry! Even if you don't come on stage to express your political opinions, I will still vote..." Halfway through the speech, I realized Ye Guang was also a candidate, so it seemed a bit embarrassing to directly state his position.The school girl broke the last sentence and laughed a few times, then hurriedly retreated to the backstage.

"Then, I'm going."

"Well, let's go. Come on, let's go home together after school." Xu Qizhang stood up with his back to him, scratched the back of his neck, and walked to the other end of the aisle without looking back, the redness of his ears leaked out He was not in a calm state of mind at all.

Ye Guang stood there for a few seconds, knowing that his face must not be inferior to his without looking in the mirror.

The arrival of Xu Qizhang somewhat relieved him.

Turning around and returning to the backstage, just in time to see Huqiming stepping off the stage, meeting his eyes, passing by without saying much like a stranger.

"Next, let us welcome the second candidate with the warmest applause—and also the most popular campus idol in our X High—No. [-] Ye Guang!" , and the intonation has also obviously increased by an octave.

Facing the light at the other end, Ye Guang stepped onto the podium.

Among the students in the audience, some held banners and shouted Ye Guang, I love you, some looked at him with shining eyes of admiration, some watched him and whispered to each other, and all the teachers and teachers in the audience were all smiling. She nodded at him, looking expectantly.

Ye Guang glanced at the audience, and suddenly felt a sense of disobedience and daring.

Are these people seeing themselves?

Do they know who they really are?If they knew that he was actually a person who loves to cry, cares about gains and losses, is afraid of loneliness, loves the limelight, is scheming, and cares about face, would they still cheer him up like this?

Classmates, teachers, parents...

Who are these people looking through him?Who are you expecting?

The out-of-focus vision blurred their faces, making Ye Guang seem to be in a world surrounded by bubbles again.

I suddenly remembered the audience at PUB that day.The same crowd is smeared, and the same is a huge black body gathered together. Why do they feel so different?

These people must not look at him like those people look at Xu Qizhang.Such a dazzling, real, wild individual.

So, what is the purpose of standing on this stage?

In order to take the position of student council president?But why choose this position?

Do you really want to be, saying it is for yourself, but it seems to be deceiving yourself; for others, why do you have to work hard for others?For those who don't matter?

why?

"You can do whatever you want, as long as that 'something' makes you willing to work hard."

If it is for something, then the "what" that comes to mind now must be a tall and thin figure.

"Maybe...you can find that "something" while working hard, maybe you don't want to work hard at all...it doesn't matter, even if you become a very ordinary, ordinary person, I will still..."

Those eyes with dark circles are always looking straight at him, that is, the only sight that focuses on the real him.

There is always a faint smile on that pretty face, that is, the smile that embraces all of him.

Listening to the commotion from the audience due to his silence, Ye Guang slowly approached the microphone.

I want to work on something for you because it's for me too.

"I have... only one political opinion."

Ye Guang paused, took a breath, and locked the only eye in the crowd that wasn't Lian Wutou.

"That is to abolish the school rules prohibiting off-campus work."

Looking at the stunned expression of everyone in the audience with their mouths wide open, Ye Guang ticked his mouth, feeling as if he drank a whole can of ice-cold Shurun ​​after running a marathon, how could it be called "cool".

Because that was also the first time he saw Xu Qizhang's dumbfounded expression.