The princess is reborn

My intuition has an astonishing perception of the arrival of bad luck. When the last wisp of smoke drifted out of the window and the powder of ashes drooped like a decadent head, my heart sank in an instant and melted. Made endless pain and regret.

Maybe God is punishing me for doing something wrong, it always knows how to toss me, bring me back to life when I kill myself, and use Xie Yan's legs to make a fuss when I am full of expectations, because it I know that I am not afraid of death, but I am afraid that Xie Yan will be wronged a little bit.

"Thank you," I stepped forward hesitantly, looking at his sweaty forehead and bloody knees with pity. Even though he was wearing a black robe tonight, I could still see the scarlet blood flowing from him. gurgling out of his knees.

Xie Yan ignored me, his slender fingers gripped the handrail tightly, and he stretched his arms so hard that the veins on his forehead were throbbing. I opened my mouth and tried to persuade me, "Xie Yan, take a break first, you are bleeding , the miraculous doctor asked you to practice for only one hour a day, now that the time has passed, your calves will not be able to bear it."

I don't even dare to say, a month has passed, it's useless no matter how much you practice.Xie Yan said that he will collapse after hearing this. Before he collapses, I must keep calm and take care of his emotions.

But Xie Yan ignored me at all, his pupils were deep, like a dead sea, lifeless and turbulent, yet another attempt failed. , Decadently fell to the ground, two long legs twisted and bent on the ground, like flower branches that were broken by malicious intent.

My heart was suffocated, and the air pressure was in the ventricle. I couldn't go up or down. I couldn't cry or make any sound. I could only kneel down on the ground, press Xie Yan's head on the socket of his shoulder, and said softly, "It's all My fault, Xie Yan, don't be sad, it's all my fault, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

But in the next moment, I was pushed away fiercely. There was no blanket on the floor of this room, and Xie Yan's strength was so strong that I fell to the ground unprepared.Originally, this was just a small fight, but my stomach suddenly hurt, like a poor object that fell into it, the surging pain rushed down from the abdomen, I didn't care about it, I just covered it tightly Holding his stomach, he rushed to Xie Yan again.

"Xie Yan," I wanted to touch his face, but Xie Yan turned his face away, causing my hand to stop in the air in embarrassment. I cleared my throat and then emptied the hoarse throat. He coaxed, "One hour is already full today, shall we not practice for now? You are injured, shall we rest for a few days? Wait until the calf injury heals before continuing, okay?"

In a trance, I felt that I was deceiving an innocent and innocent child, and my words were quickly exposed by Xie Yan.

He grabbed my loose black hair with hatred and anger, and stared at me with phoenix eyes, condescending as if he was looking at the most humble enemy, "Feng Jiuyue, I am really disabled now. I can't even stand up, isn't this the result you want to see?"

"Are you satisfied now? Why don't you get out? Is it because I haven't seen enough of my jokes? Isn't my dislike of you not obvious enough?"

He pulled up my long hair and bullied me viciously. His burning breath fell on my face with bursting anger. I saw his fierce and sharp eyebrows and eyes, and his cold and fierce eyes were like a knife general. One of my hearts was cut with blood.

Xie Yan he hates me, I already knew.

The sins I committed will never be forgiven, and I already know it, but Xie Yan said that he hates me, I feel very sad, that kind of suffocation that cannot be loved clogs my throat, and I can't say any comfort Arguments come.

Xie Yan was even more annoyed by my nonchalant appearance. He hoped that I would retreat in the face of difficulties, but I was thick-skinned. Even though I knew he hated me, I still hugged his waist tightly. refused to move away from him.

But soon I started to get scared, Xie Yan turned me over and forced me to kneel on the ground in a humiliating posture, like a poor dog who is not favored and about to be whipped by its master.Goosebumps arose when my lower back was directly in contact with the air. I turned my head in panic, and saw Xie Yanming was well-dressed but nondescriptly bare, his beautiful eyes were full of bloodthirsty hatred, slightly hooked. The corners of his lips looked like a devil's smile, and he threatened in a vicious voice, "You still have time to get out now, I won't stop you."

He wants to force me to leave, because he can't stand up anymore, so he doesn't want me anymore. Thinking of this, I cried out and shook my head desperately, but soon I screamed, and I Pressed his face firmly to the ground.

It hurts, my stomach hurts, and I suddenly feel very scared. We have experienced it many times in the past, but never once did it arouse such a huge fear in me, as if something precious was about to be lost from my body.

My pupils were wide open, looking at the jumping candlelight without focus, and suddenly I turned my head and thanked Yao Zhi for clasping my hand, begging sadly, "Let me go, I was wrong, I dare not, my stomach It hurts. Xie Yan, let me go, okay?"

Xie Yan pushed my hand away, and hugged me from behind, his cold and gloomy face was very close to me, his long eyelashes blinked, and then he scolded me coldly, "I love lying!" little liar."

I wasn't lying, I was writhing and struggling in his arms like a flexible fish, trying to avoid the bullying of the chopping board.But Xie Yan refused, he was able to restrain my struggle with one hand, he threw me high with his thin arm, and then fell heavily, my tears kept falling, and I grabbed his cool body as if asking for help. Put your fingertips against the side of your face and rub gently, "Xie Yan, let me go, my stomach hurts."

As I begged for mercy, a strong smell of blood spread in the room. Xie Yan frowned and stopped, only to see a large amount of blood spread from the junction, like a silent accusation, I completely Lost in strength, he closed his eyes like a fish that has lost strength.

My consciousness was drowsy, but my brain was terribly active. When Xie Yan put me on the bed, I suddenly thought of a terrible possibility, trembling and curled up, and cold sweat burst out of my body in a daze. , wet the bedding behind him.

Soon, the military doctor followed Xie Yan in. He sniffed at the tip of his nose and knew what was going on just now. He sighed and said, "His Royal Highness, how can you be so rude every time? The old man told you Many times, young master has a delicate body, if you are so tyrannical, you are not afraid to scare people away, and you will never see him again."

Xie Yan wished that I could get away with this, he hates me, loathes me, he does these things to me just to drive me away, how can he know how to pity me, although I think so pessimistically, but Still couldn't help but stand up, stretched out his hand to the military doctor, and wailed, "Military doctor, my stomach hurts, please help me quickly."

"Hey, that's strange. The shy young master sometimes takes the initiative to see the doctor." The military doctor said with a smile, and put his hand on my wrist slowly, but soon his expression changed. Serious and solemn, not at all like the eloquent talk just now.

It will be fine, I comfort myself in my heart, the military doctor is so serious every time he sees a doctor, it is not because the situation is bad, it will not, even so, I still tremble with panic.

After a long time, the military doctor put my hand back into the brocade quilt. He suddenly got up from the chair, knelt on the ground respectfully, made a gesture of congratulations, and said in a loud voice, "Congratulations to your highness, congratulations to your highness, my little brother!" Young master, he is happy."

My fingers tightly gripped the quilt, the joy of being hit by luck and the panic of being robbed of this joy wrapped me up cruelly. Could the rudeness of the thank you just now have hurt our children?But the congratulatory congratulations from the military medical association should mean that the child is still healthy. I was so panicked that I could only look at Xie Yan with reproachful and inquisitive eyes.

Xie Yan's deep eyes fell on my stomach covered by the brocade quilt, his expression changed from a rare daze to a flash of ecstasy and then to a heavy self-blame, he pursed his lips and turned his head Ask the military doctor seriously, "I was very strong just now, and he bled. How is the baby? What kind of hard-to-find medicinal materials do you need? Prescribe some anti-abortion decoction for him. What should you pay attention to during this time? Tell me carefully, I will write it down."

The cat cries and the mouse pretends to be merciful. What did you say when I begged you? I sneered as I thought about it, and then I heard the military doctor's firm answer, "This child can be regarded as sheltered by the heavens, and is very healthy. This time it is a good one." There is no danger, but you can't be so reckless in the future, the child is only a month old, and it is still in a dangerous period, it is easy to slip, this room needs to be restrained, at least until three months before the same room, Be gentle, though."

I was blushing when I heard that, and my hanging heart was finally let go. After doing the math, the time I was pregnant happened to be the last time I said that I would give birth to Xie Yan.

At that time, our relationship was still relatively relaxed, yes, this covered up some of my dissatisfaction with Xie Yanfang's domineering behavior.

Some people say that if a child comes into the world when his parents resent each other, he will feel that he is not welcome in this world. Fortunately, Xie Yan and I welcomed it at that time, which made me feel at ease Some.

"No." Xie Yan said firmly, I raised my eyes in doubt, and met his pair of gray eyes that should have been indifferent. He gave me a rare gentle look, and assured the military doctor, "In the child I won't touch him again until he is born."

After hearing this, the military doctor disagreed quite a bit, stroked his beard and said, "His Royal Highness, you are still young, and these things are not to be boasted about. This pregnancy period does not mean that the needs in this area will definitely be wiped out, but you must be careful. Besides, this It's not about His Royal Highness alone."

When the military doctor said this, he gave me a meaningful look, and pointed out, "After three months, this young man will have many abnormal behaviors due to the changes in his body. I am afraid that His Royal Highness will not be able to stand it. "

How could I be like that!

I've never been interested in that kind of thing, if Xie Yan didn't grab me and put me on the bed every time, I'd still be a chick until now!This military doctor ruined my reputation, it's really hateful, I was so angry that I didn't even know when the military doctor retired.

He thanked him for sending the military doctor away, and then came to me in a wheelchair. The candlelight on the low stool by the bed faced his face, which was a disaster for the country and the people. His long eyelashes fluttered twice, and he stretched out his hand towards me. , seems to want to touch my stomach.

I scrambled to lean against the back wall, with raging anger floating on my brows. I don’t know whether other people will choose to forgive or tolerate me when they encounter this kind of thing, but the emotion that blood is thicker than water made me as sharp as a hedgehog, I would never let someone who hurt my child easily go away.

My brain was occupied by the panic I almost lost and the protective desire to fight back. I raised my hand to fan the night wind, and thanked him for avoiding it, but he slapped me without dodging. Yin Hong's five finger prints The embarrassment fell on his cold and handsome face, the clothes around his waist still smelled of blood, and the whole person looked destitute and pitiful.

But I don't feel bad at all, this man almost killed my child just now, I was so angry that I couldn't breathe well, and pointed at the tip of his nose and accused, "You clearly said that you will give me another chance, in the end It turned out to be a lie.”

"Pushed me, bullied me, and almost killed my child." I obviously didn't want to cry, but when I felt wronged, the tears still fell down. Immediately cursing, "Xie Yan, you are a bastard, a bastard who doesn't care about words."

What kind of person is Xie Yan, His Royal Highness the Crown Prince of Jiang Guo, I thought he would be furious with his arrogant nature.But he didn't, the bright candlelight cast on his face, making the cold brows and eyes soften a lot.He quietly listened to my scolding, and didn't talk back. He didn't hand me a glass of water until I was thirsty, and said to me softly, "It's all my fault, it won't happen in the future, the military doctor said you Don't get angry, it will have a bad influence on the child."

The military doctor did say so, I immediately adjusted my breathing, tried my best to calm down, and warned Xie Yan pretending to be fierce, "You are not allowed to touch me again, even if it is the stomach, you have done bad things to me, The child must have scared you, how can anyone be a father like you and bully people all day long."

As I said this, I wanted to cry again.

Seeing this, Xie Yan rushed over in a wheelchair, stretched out his long arms as if wanting to hug me, I slapped his hands away fiercely, lay down on the bed, and deliberately turned my back to him.

I don't want to talk to him anymore.

But the sky didn't go my way, and I was so dazed that I was about to fall asleep, when I heard a rustling sound, and then a cool body approached from behind.

Xie Yan gently rolled me into his arms, put his palm on my flat abdomen, and touched it very lightly, as if he was careful not to wake up the sleeping child, I was too sleepy , too lazy to bother with him, just found a more comfortable position in his arms, and fell asleep again in a daze.

Originally, my appetite was not very good these few days. I never saw a military doctor. I thought in my heart that it was because I was not in a high mood, so I ate less, but I soon found out that it was not. I fell into an embarrassing and embarrassing situation. .

"Ugh." I pushed away the braised pork in front of me, covered my mouth with a handkerchief, and rushed to the door, the attendant hurriedly brought me a spittoon, I retched, but I couldn't spit anything out. There is nothing in the stomach to throw up.

Xie Yan became very alert from the moment I vomited. He moved the wheelchair and kept patting me on the back. After my tense body relaxed, he took me to sit on his lap and poured warm tea Feed it to my mouth.

After drinking the clear tea, the greasy and disgusting feeling finally subsided. I lazily leaned against Xie Yan's hard, bangbang chest, and heard his cold voice ringing in my ears.

"Is it because you don't like the taste of meat? That's why you vomited? What do you want to eat? I'll ask my servants to prepare it."

"I don't know." I just retched until my eyes were filled with tears, I turned my head and wiped all the tears on Xie Yan, shook my head, and repelled, "I don't want to eat anything."

"I can't even take a bite of what's on this table."

"You can skip the food on the table, but you have to eat it." Xie Yan put his hand on my waist, as if pampering me, and discussed with me, "I'll ask the kitchen to make some light food and bring it up. How much can I eat?" Some."

But after changing three tables of dishes, I still didn't want to eat a single bite, and buried my head in Xie Yan's chest.

But Xie Yan didn't let me fool me this time, he dug my face out, his expression became a little cold, and his tone was also very cold, "If you don't eat, what will the child eat?"

The child, it's all for the child, Xie Yan is for the child that he tolerated me so much.If I don't have a child at this time, he will definitely push me away, bully me, and use various means to drive me away.The more I thought about it, the more aggrieved I became, I sniffed and picked up the chopsticks again.

But as soon as I picked up a piece of fish and put it in my mouth, I couldn't help retching, and hurriedly got off Xie Yan, wishing I could hang the spittoon on my body.There was nothing in my stomach. After vomiting for a long time, I felt a burning sensation inside, my cheeks were hot and hot, and my ears were buzzing. But when I thought of Xie Yan’s words, I was afraid that the child would be hungry, so I stubbornly took Pick up chopsticks.

"Forget it, if you don't like to eat, just change to another table."

Xie Yan held down my hand holding the chopsticks, and gently stroked my spine/back with the other hand, as if smoothing the fur of a pet.

Later, the military doctor rushed over and ordered the kitchen to make a few appetizers to save my appetite. I never liked sour food, but now I look at the table full of pickled fish, sour Fatty beef in soup, scrambled eggs with tomato, and sour plum in a small plate, the mouth is watering.

Xie Yan frowned to see me eating, then turned his head and asked the military doctor, "Can my stomach take it if I eat like this?"

The military doctor was a little embarrassed, "It's true that you can't always eat like this, but let the young master get used to it first. After three months, the situation will be much better. During this period, try to follow him as much as possible."

I ate with great relish, but Xie Yan couldn't eat anything. I insisted on forcing him to eat. Seeing him frowning, I laughed and cursed softly, "You deserve it, you bastard."

Because I really can't smell the smell of meat, Xie Yan also suffered with me, I don't know what happened to me, I became very bad-tempered.As soon as Xie Yan stayed away from me, he felt empty in his heart. He had to accompany me to eat three meals a day, otherwise he would eat very little, or not eat at all.

Because of this, Xie Yan had several meetings halfway through and found that it was meal time, so he could only interrupt the meeting and come back to eat a sour meal with me.

Xie Yan didn't give up practicing standing up, but I was not feeling well, so he wouldn't let me stay up with him every night, and I didn't know his progress, because we both tried to avoid the unpleasantness that day. I opened this topic, and this situation continued until one day Xie Yan suddenly brought me to the room where he was recovering.

I stood three or four steps away from him, and when I came back here again, I stared blankly at the floor, and remembered Xie Yan who spoke to me too much, pushed me to the ground, and did something too much to me, My eyes couldn't help but feel a little sour, but I heard Xie Yan call my name again.

Xie Yan put his hands on the armrests of the wheelchair, and slowly straightened his legs. Under my surprised gaze, he opened his legs and walked hard step by step. Although he was only two or three steps away, he walked abnormally. Slow, but I can feel his hard work and persistence.

He stretched out his arms, waiting to come to me and hug me, or rather, his baby.

Yes, I always thought Xie Yan’s big change of attitude was for the sake of the child in my womb. Before there was no child, he could treat me with a contemptuous and casual attitude, stab me with cold words, and press me on the floor wantonly bullying. bullying.But after having a child, he regarded me as a treasure, and he didn't dare to offend me at all. He held it in his mouth for fear of melting, and held it in his palm for fear of falling. Even if I beat him, he didn't care about me. In the past, he must have vengeance.

Before I knew it, Xie Yan had staggered towards me. I watched him take every step so hard but determined. Unfortunately, I was never the one that he could look forward to, but I was still Zhang Spreading his arms, he reached out and hugged him in a self-deceiving manner.

The light cold rosin fell into the tip of my nose. At this time, my heartbeat and Xie Yan's heartbeat were very close, which was the closest distance between the two hearts. Thinking of this, my nose was so sore that tears fell down On Xie Yan's shoulders.He stood in front of me, much taller than me, but every time he kissed, he lowered his head to accommodate me, his straight back bent into a bow.

My breath was crushed by him, and after Xie Yan's lips left, I wept sobbingly, I don't know whether it was because of the joy or sadness that came from suffering, I grabbed his skirt tightly and murmured, "Hello Now, your leg is healed, and finally I don't owe you anything anymore."

"Yeah." Xie Yan stroked the back of my head, as if comforting an ignorant child, and sighed softly, "Stop crying."

Xie Yan's legs and feet were healed. After Zhong Qin reexamined him, he said that all aspects of his function were very good. As long as he persisted in exercising every day, he would definitely be back to normal.When he left, I went to see him off, just like when I brought him to Fengcheng that day.

Qiongshan towered tall and majestic in front of his eyes. The last time he came was a month ago, Xie Yan's legs and feet could not walk at that time, but now he can walk steadily.

I just sigh that the world is unpredictable and time flies.

Zhong Qin stood still at the foot of the mountain, and urged me to go back, "Don't send me off on the mountain, I will send you off for thousands of miles, and I will have to say goodbye at the end. You are not feeling well right now, so go back."

I blushed, and smiled at him with some embarrassment, yes, Zhong Qin is so skilled in medicine, he can know my deformed body just by looking at it, so how could he not know that I am pregnant with a child.

"Well, when you have decided what reward you want, write to me."

Hearing what I said, Zhong Qin suddenly became interested, the brilliance on his handsome face flowed, he shook his head and said, "I agreed to treat His Highness the Crown Prince just out of appreciation for you, let's talk about the rest later, Mr. We will meet."

"Okay." I nodded with a smile, said goodbye, and turned to leave, but Zhong Qin called me back. His thick black pupils reflected the cold moonlight, and there was warmth in his eyes, "September , I wanted to tell you a long time ago, but I never had a chance. At that time, I was willing to help because I really regarded you as a friend. I really fell in love with your pretty face at first, but later found that you were frighteningly honest, and Terribly stupid, he didn't deceive or deceive me at all."

"I have practiced medicine for many years, and I have met all kinds of people, but none of them has a purer heart than you. I don't think I will meet them in the future, so I helped you."

"Your husband is His Royal Highness, right? You were rushed to deny it first. After listening to me, I doubted it because of the way His Royal Highness looked at you. The desire to possess/possess was too strong, and I thought of you again. If you care about his legs, you will understand."

"September," Zhong Qin grabbed my shoulders, trying to instill confidence and strength into me, "You are fine, don't feel inferior, His Royal Highness is fine, but I don't think he is as good as you, there is no one in this world. People can be more beautiful than you, and no one can match your pure heart, not even His Royal Highness, he is so cold, and he can get such a beauty as you, it is his ancestors who burned incense."

"Thank you, Zhong Qin." I patted his hand lightly, looked up at him seriously, "I understand what you mean, and thank you for your appreciation, and I appreciate you too, I hope We will have a chance to meet again in the future.”

"I hope." Zhong Qin patted my shoulder and went up the mountain without any nostalgia.

On the way back, I kept thinking, am I really as good as Zhong Qin said?If so, why is Xie Yan never saying he likes me, but always being so fierce to me?Even the favor these days seems to have been stolen from the child in her womb.

I feel that there is something wrong with my mentality. Since I was pregnant with the child, the uneasy fear has become more and more intense. I desperately long for Xie Yan's company. If he can't accompany me, I will cry secretly and can't even eat. I only eat something that hurts my teeth every day, and if I am found out, I will say thank you, which makes me feel even more uncomfortable. I only feel that I am a tool for giving birth.

Later, Xie Yan also knew that I couldn't solve the problem, so he took me to the study room, looked at him with good eyes every day, and he followed my taste for three meals a day, so that after two months, his whole body was reduced. Not a lot.

Sure enough, as the military doctor said, my loss of appetite finally improved after three months, but an even more embarrassing situation appeared, and I was so panicked that I didn’t know what to do. Dancing in front of my eyes made me feel even more upset and ashamed.

"Don't hug me, I don't like it." I struggled to get off Xie Yan's lap. I have been doing this a lot these days, and he was a little surprised. He just patted my ass with his palm and criticized me. , "Be good, what are you doing?"

"How to make this move, have you thought about it yet?" He rubbed my face with the tip of his nose, saw me looking at him stupidly, then bent his fingers on the chessboard, and said softly, "I There is a chess record on the face? How to play next?"

"I just taught you last night." He scolded him and put on a straight face, as if I owed him 200 taels and didn't pay him back, not to mention that my brain is not working well now, and my memory is equivalent to no, Last night I was as sleepy as a dead pig, but Xie Yanfei forced me to learn chess with him, obviously taking revenge on me.

I looked at his face close at hand, with curly eyelashes, sharp nose bridge, thin lips with light pink, pursed in displeasure, and amazingly coquettish, it made me want to kiss him and hug him very much.

Feng Jiuyue, you know how shameless you are, don't think about it anymore, I was worried that I would drool again, so I hurriedly got off Xie Yan's body, and said in a low voice, "I'm going to take a bath."

I said that taking a bath was just to calm myself down, and then I remembered what the military doctor said that meant something. I thought it was impossible at first, but it turned out to be true. Why did I become like this? He buried himself in the water for a long time, and was worried about suffocating the child, so he could only wipe off the water droplets on his body resentfully, and went back to the bed in a light underwear.

I turned sideways, looking at the flickering candles in the distance, and Xie Yan's face broke into my mind unexpectedly.I still remember the night when I first met him, I had a strange dream between a man and a man.

It's all because Xie Yan is too attractive, don't blame me, don't blame me, don't blame me, I am talking about hypnosis like this, but I can't fall asleep over and over again, the unseasonable dryness and heat make me feel difficult.

The door squeaked, it was Xie Yan who came back, I quickly turned my back and pretended to be asleep, Xie Yan thought I was really asleep, blew out the candle, and went to bed in a few steps, with my long arms around me. Wrapped around my waist, locked me like an unbreakable prison. Cage.

The faint cold fragrance on his body hooked me, I turned over, and I could only see a perfect silhouette from the dark night, everything about Xie Yan was so attractive to me, lean arms, strong chest muscles, There is also a very thin but strong waist, help, my line of reason begins to break when I think of this, and when I react, I have already bullied Xie Yan in a hurry, like a shameless husband.

"What are you going to do if you don't sleep so late?"

There was helplessness in Xie Yan's voice. He was tired after a busy day, and he still had to accept my difficulties. I felt a little aggrieved thinking about it like this. My emotions during this period came and went quickly, and the fuse always It is Xie Yan's words and actions that can make me burst into tears.

"sorry."

I sobbed aggrievedly, resigned myself to falling off Xie Yan's body, and cunningly swept away all the quilts on Xie Yan's body, and said angrily, "I don't like sleeping with you, you go, I don't want you."

Xie Yan didn't confront me, but let out a long sigh, his voice was very low in the dark night. The voice was dumb and nice, filled with helplessness, "What's wrong with you? Huh?"

I covered my face tightly with the quilt, but didn't say a word, but Xie Yan quickly removed the quilt, obviously a little angry, "Is it uncomfortable to cover it?"

"Don't like to sleep together? Then I'll go to Ruantang, and remember to call me when you're thirsty at night."

As Xie Yan said, he was about to walk to the window. My tears broke the bank at that moment, and I was out of breath, my face flushed, and I firmly grabbed Xie Yan's sleeve, preventing him from Walk.

"Okay, I'm not going, don't cry." Xie Yan immediately returned to the bed, hugged me in his arms, and said in a quiet and gentle voice, "Tell me, what happened today? You want me to go again, and I don't want to cry." Don't let me go, what can I do to satisfy you, little ancestor."

I found it hard to tell, but I couldn't bear it any longer. I cried and said, "It's all your fault. When I saw you, I couldn't help it. I really wanted to kiss and hug you, but I He is a child of a good family, how could he want to do that, I must be sick, Xie Yan, what should I do if I am sick."

When my side was so sad, Xie Yan's laughter came from his chest, the deep voice was like a beating drum, he raised my chin, his gray eyes were extraordinarily bright in the dark night, "The military doctor said this is normal. If you want it, just tell me. Don't be sad or ashamed."

"You are pregnant with my child, so I should serve you."

As he said this, he gently put me on the soft bed, and he cherished the way he kissed my brows and eyes, and then kissed my flat belly, thanking him for being with him since I was pregnant. As if not enough, I have to kiss my stomach every day to see if there is any movement. I always act as if I am disgusted, but in fact I just deliberately took Joe, and I always feel shy and happy in my heart.

What kind of thing is this? I feel a little bit of grievance in my heart. I suddenly don’t like having children, and I feel so depressed all day long.

I opened my eyes in a daze, and saw Xie Yan's shining eyes in the darkness. He looked at me very gently, without caring about anything else.

"Does it feel better?" Xie Yan hugged me in his arms, and gently patted me down with his big palm. I sat up a little bit, and then felt uncomfortable hiccups. I discussed with Xie Yan, "It's been three It's been a month, and the military doctor said it's ok, should we..."

This is the first time I have said such shameless words.

I was really driven crazy by these abnormal reactions, and I longed to hug Xie Yan, which would make me feel deeply cared for.But Xie Yan rejected me. He kissed my slightly swollen belly tenderly, let out a satisfied sigh, and then said to me mercilessly, "That's too dangerous."

I felt a wave of depression in my heart, and only then did I know that negative emotions would reach their peak with the changes in my body. My original intention was not to compete with my child for favor, but now, I realized that I am not even qualified to compete for favor.

What Xie Yan wanted was never me, but a child.

What happened later became ridiculous. To prove that I was loved, I sat on Xie Yan with wet eyes, shaking my thin waist, but Xie Yan got up and hugged me, and said to me in a hoarse voice , "You go to sleep first, don't make trouble."

The door opened with a creak, and Xie Yan went to the bathroom in the middle of the night. When he came back, the cold moisture on his body almost infected me. He would rather take a cold shower than touch me. This knowledge made me dizzy She shed tears, and no longer dare to wishful thinking.

The days after that were peaceful and normal. The relationship between me and Xie Yan was one-sidedly relaxed by him. When the drastic changes in my body made me unbearable, Xie Yan would gently comfort me. I used my comfort before. His way, but his changes, I never care.

Why rush to humiliate yourself.

The battle situation gradually stabilized, Xie Xing was defeated step by step, and finally under Yu Qiu's persuasion, he secretly reached an alliance with Xie Yan, the two cooperated internally and externally, and the troops quickly reached the capital. The emperor originally expected Xie Xing to come back Rescue Jia, let down his vigilance, but Xie Yan led his elite soldiers straight to smash Huanglong, and killed him on the spot in the Golden Luan Hall.

The one-and-a-half-year-long battle is finally over, and my belly has gradually grown. It has been seven months, but it is bigger than ordinary people. It is too ostentatious for a man to walk with a big belly. Xie Yan asked me to dress up as a woman. I was very unhappy, but I still agreed.

I personally think that he will still marry a woman. After all, he is the emperor now, and it is impossible to marry a man. Even if this man gave birth to him, it is absolutely impossible.

So what should my child do?I have seen many dramas in which it is said that if you leave the mother and keep the child, if Xie Yan wants to marry a woman in the future, he will still want the child in my womb, but when I am born, the child will have to recognize someone else as his mother Dear, after all, no one in this world would believe that a man can give birth to a child.

As I thought about it like this, I became more and more haggard and vigilant, and even looked at all kinds of things in the palace. After his future plans, he didn't tell me, but smiled at me pretending to be mysterious, his eyes were bright, mixed with the broken light of the morning.

But I personally feel that he is just using me to give birth to him. I think I am sick and insecure. I really want Xie Yan to be with me all the time, but Xie Yan has become very busy since he became the emperor. I go to court every day and coax me to sleep when I come back. He seems very tired. I dare not bother him for fear that he will say ugly things to me again. He has already