can you do it

The hot air he exhaled was hot, and his words were blunt and reckless.

Expressing dissatisfaction.

Jiang Shu was also burnt to the point that his throat was dry, and he thought to himself that he took what he said "it's useless to tell you" as "useless", and wanted to prove that he was capable of protecting himself, and he also asked for the first pick.

Simple and crude approach, but effective.

The fat man noticed that something was wrong with the soles of his feet.As soon as he left, the stalemate and stagnation of the atmosphere became even worse, like the sunlight coming in through the window, hot, warm, and instantly ignited.

Jin Yuan propped himself up against the wall and locked Jiang Shuyi at close range without any cover.

Jiang Shu also looked at him for a while, and shook hands implicitly, "Jin Yuan, which seafood shop did Wei Hong bring last night?"

Jin Yuan paused, his frivolous and arrogant aura completely collapsed.

Jiang Shuyi easily saw through, and suppressed a smile, "You don't know?"

Jin Yuan didn't say anything, and turned his face halfway to avoid his gaze.The tastes of several chain stores are similar, and the fat man is exposed to both rain and dew, who knows which one he went to.

"Ask now," Jin Yuan pretended to be aggressive, "I mean you should think of me immediately if you have something to do, thanks to your literature background, do you understand the subtext?"

"understood."

Jiang Shuyi chuckled, looking at Jin Yuan's deep pupils, and then down at his straight nose and lips, his eyes were as if away from each other like mist, "Can you keep your face away from me, there is too much carbon dioxide, I lack oxygen."

"Lack of oxygen," Jin Yuan rebelliously pressed his nose against his nose to exhale, and pressed his lips hard, "suffocate you to death."

Jiang Shuyi's scalp was numb, and he pushed him away suddenly, "You just covered Wei Hong's mouth!"

"You're not a little girl, what do you mind? Besides, it's the other hand, I remember."

"This one!"

"Don't hide, Jiang Shuyi."

……

The two pushed each other in the cramped corridor, colliding with each other from time to time.

With his back against the wall, Jiang Shuyi held Jin Yuan's arm, preventing his palm from touching him, and said with disgust, "Are you dirty or not?"

"Where is it dirty? Do you think everyone is as delicate as you?"

"Don't describe me with words that describe children."

"She's already pretty, so don't let me tell you."

Jiang Shu didn't bother to talk to him, and turned back to the apartment.

He was held back by Jin Yuan.

"Jiang Shuyi," Jin Yuan clasped his hand, pushed it to the wall of the corridor, looked down at him, and asked inexplicably, "Am I useful?"

His eyes are deep, and he is stubborn and serious about wanting to be recognized.

Jiang Shu also looked at him for a while, followed his wishes, "Yes."

The elevator stopped on this floor with a "ding" sound. Jiang Shu also passed over Jin Yuan's shoulder, caught a glimpse of Hogan coming out of it, and subconsciously distanced himself from Jin Yuan.

In an instant, he returned to his usual serious appearance.Asked why Hogan came over suddenly, then pointed to Jin Yuan and introduced to him, "Jin Yuan, my roommate."

Hogan was getting older and sleep less, Jiang Shuyi woke up not long after he left, and wanted to see his apartment.As soon as he got out of the elevator, he was seen fighting with people in the corridor.

Hearing the introduction, he looked at Jin Yuan calmly, with a cropped head, mixed-race appearance, wide shoulders, narrow waist and long legs, with an outstanding temperament.

I had a good impression of him, and shook hands with Jin Yuan with a smile, saying that it was a pleasure to meet him, and Jiang Shu often mentioned him.

Jin Yuan also laughed, put away his unreserved attitude, understood etiquette, shook hands back and forth, and greeted his elders with respect.

He jokingly asked Jiang Shuyi what to mention him.

Hogan had a good memory and smiled amiably, "Say you're a great roommate."

Jiang Shu was also a little helpless. He mistakenly regarded Jin Yuan as a well-behaved elementary school student when he first entered school.

Changing the topic, "Jin Yuan, do you want to have dinner together tonight?"

"No," Jin Yuan put his arms around his shoulders and smiled brightly at him, "Today is Saturday, your awesome roommate is going home."

With the expected reaction, Jiang Shu also pushed him into the elevator, and said calmly: "Send me the location of the store later."

I took Hogan back to the apartment and walked around, and introduced him while walking around, saying that the accommodation environment of University A is very good.Ready to make black tea for him, Hogan asked if there was any wine.

Jiang Shu also said: "There is lager and gin in the small refrigerator, but you can't drink it, the doctor has banned it."

Lager is a beer with a low alcohol content and is not easy to get drunk. Hogan grows boyish with age, "Iwant Lager."

"No."

It is natural to stop.

When she first arrived in London, many times in the evening, when Jiang Shuyi returned home, the first thing she did was to put down her schoolbag and run to the small courtyard next door, which was shaded by trees, to knock on the door.

Then he and Hogan went to the small pool in the backyard, lying down on each other, watching the goldfish swimming in the water.

Hogan would gossip about, Domino's beef pizza was delicious but he didn't bother to buy it, the novel's conception, writing style and some genres, but most of all, he scolded the editor for his lack of appreciation.

Jiang Shu is also used to listening, and after being influenced, she will slowly confide in it.Talk about why it always rains in London, buy an out-of-print poetry collection in a second-hand bookstore, and teach philosophy teachers to be racist.

The breeze swayed, and the pool reflected the green eyebrows and the white hair on the temples.

Hogan never used his status as an elder to teach him anything, but squatted down to communicate with him on an equal footing with the pure and powerful empathy unique to a writer.

They are like relatives, more like friends.

Hogan couldn't beat Jiang Shuyi, and drank black tea with pure milk in it, making it smooth.

There is a book with red leather and black background on the coffee table. Hogan flipped through it and recognized that it was the work that won the Penguin Literary Award, one of the highest literary awards in the UK last year. The copyright was bought by Kevin Publishing House.

Seeing the obvious wrinkles between the pages, I was very surprised. After more than a month of exchange, Jiang Shuyi's living habits have changed.

The corners were bent in a mess, and it was obvious that Jin Yuan had turned over.Jiang Shu also said casually, "Maybe my roommate is bored and looked at it."

Knowing that Kevin sent it to Jiang Shuyi, Hogan smiled and talked about Kevin, saying that he is very busy recently, running the new website of the publishing house.

Jiang Shu also answered, pointing out that Kevin is really busy, and asked him about his lawyer, but she tried every means to evade it.

Now that all the dust has settled, Jiang Shu is also finishing the work.

Hogan paid the fee in advance, and did not send the bill but only reported the amount. He was involved in the tutor's dispute at the time and was too busy to take care of himself. At the end, he realized that the land price in London plus various trivial expenses definitely far exceeded the amount reported by Hogan.

The lawyer had worked with Kevin for many years, and Jiang Shu also failed to contact him, so he waited for Hogan to come to Jiangcheng and asked him face to face.

When the bill was mentioned, Hogan was taken aback.Xiao Ying steamed

The transaction process was represented by Kevin's friend, who was in charge of follow-up in the later stage. During an appointment in a coffee shop, he happened to meet Jiang Shangwen's lawyer by chance.

There was something tricky there, and while the contract was not signed, they changed their minds and wanted to sell it at three times the price.

Hogan knew the meaning of the old residence to Jiang Shuyi, and also knew that the money was a great burden to him, so he blamed himself for the price increase and paid the bill.

He kept Jiang Shuyi from the beginning to the end, how did he know?

With a slightly disturbed expression, "Kevin told you?"

"Guess," Jiang Shuyi said, "Even if you don't show me the bill, I will make up the difference at the market rate."

He has a scholarship and a large amount of translation fee that is about to arrive. He has consulted about housing prices in the vicinity, and it is worrying to make up the deposit, but there is still a surplus.

The tension in Hogan's mind relaxed, and he acted to the end, refusing him to make up the difference.Jiang Shu also insisted that he was reluctant to accept for fear of being exposed.

After trying his best to change the subject, he started talking about Jin Yuan.

"Aysen, you like him very much?"

A question sentence is a tone of confirmation.

Jiang Shu also lowered his head to sip the black tea, and said calmly, "Well, he is a friend worthy of deep friendship."

Jin Yuan looks like he doesn't care about everything, but in fact he cares about everything and has a strong sense of responsibility.Interesting and humorous, even if you are dying, you can get you ashore with a few words.

Wherever you go, there is a thriving vitality.

Hogan answered with a smile, saying that he didn't mean liking among friends.

When Jin Yuanfa came over from the restaurant, he glanced beside Jiang Shuyi and saw the background of the chat.

It's a photo of Jin Yuan exercising on the balcony in the evening, doing planks.With a neat cut, the muscles in the waist and back are tight, full of strength, the body is covered with fine beads of sweat, and the waistband of the black trousers is quite wet.The window is covered with large expanses of sunset glow.

He didn't know about Jiang Shuyi's sexual orientation.

Over the years, many people have shown affection to Jiang Shuyi, both men and women, but Jiang Shuyi has always kept a respectful distance and dislikes intimacy.

Jin Yuan seemed to be an exception. It was the first time for him to see Jiang Shu get along with his peers in such a relaxed way.

There is intimate physical contact, and half-naked photos of people are set as the background beyond the border.

Jiang Shu also denied, "I took it casually, the sunset that day was too beautiful."

Hogan pondered for a while, and talked a few words, saying that you seldom express your emotions, but your emotions will not disappear, the tighter you press, the more violent the rebound will be.

Like soaked tinder, it is damp, and once it is dried, it explodes.

Sooner or later.

Learn to face your heart.

Jiang Shu also heard the implication.

Suppressing emotions is a habit formed over the years, and he doesn't think there is a possibility of deflagration.

Most of the time before junior high school, he stayed with his grandfather.It was okay when I was young, but I was very strict when I was older.

Piano practice is counted as five times, as long as you play the wrong note, start over from the beginning; arrange a small study room for him, fill it with traditional literature and history books, and check the reading volume every month; hire foreign teachers for him, learn English and French, and strive to reach the level of his mother tongue... …

Rules must be followed at any time and anywhere.Don't cry; the room is always clean and tidy; meals are nutritious, full and good for the stomach...

In order to exercise his self-control, train him to learn to delay gratification.The essence of delayed gratification lies in waiting and restraint.

He was really strict with himself at a young age.

From elementary school to junior high school, other people go outing in spring, play games, and participate in special summer camps. He reads and writes book reviews in the library, videos with blond foreign teachers on the other side of the ocean, and is on the way to various interest classes.

The only indulgence is probably on weekend mornings, turning off the alarm clock and sleeping for a few more minutes.

His parents and grandfather's educational philosophy is at odds with each other, but his father is a golden phoenix flying out of a remote town and has no right to speak in front of his grandfather.His mother grew up in this way, like a baby elephant tied to a stake since childhood, with a heartfelt fear and surrender to the iron chain.

The only resistance was for him.

Intensive study enabled him to enter a key middle school smoothly, and his grades were outstanding, making him an existence praised by everyone.In the first semester of the third year of junior high school, there was a girl in the class who lived near his house, and we often met on the way to and from school.

The girl was at the top of the grade, she was very beautiful, her almond eyes were full of water, with pear dimples, and she had a good personality, and she would take the initiative to help him collect homework between classes.

One day stopped him and handed him a love letter, a pink envelope with a few little hearts on it.

That night, the grandfather who was tutoring extracurricular homework saw it.

Grandpa asked, "Do you like her?"

He subconsciously replied, "I don't like it."

Like grading papers, coldly crossed the pink envelope and threw it into the trash can.

His mother enlightened him to enter puberty, and Xiao He's ignorance and first love are normal.

But he doesn't have a love affair, and even if he does, it's impossible to admit and accept it.

His self-control is strong enough.

His mother was dissatisfied when his grandfather taught him sternly. After this encounter, she wanted to get his character back. After tossing and turning for half a month, she finally mustered up the courage to escape.

Since then, his environment has gone from one extreme to the other.

In the second year of high school, I transferred to a private boarding high school in London. There are two dormitories with their own rooms.Jiang Shu also remembered very clearly that his hands would tremble when he received a love letter. On a night in June, he witnessed a fierce intimate movement through the crack of the door.

The head of his bed was facing the direction of the roommate's door, probably too impatient, the roommate's door was not closed tightly.

The gap in the door was narrowed into a line, and the same-sex nudes, violent charges, pulled down curtains and kicked broken vases could still be seen.

Gasps, bumps, and provocative dirtytalk accompanied by the pattering rain outside the window.

He was reading a book at the time, and he gripped the book so tightly that his palms hurt. He moved his eyes to the pages of the book, and then looked back in a blink of an eye.

Through the double cracks of the door, like an addicted voyeur, watch the whole thing.

It almost overturned his cognition, the impact was indescribable, swift and thorough, and full of stamina.

Many years later, when he read any sexual descriptions, he could easily recall that night in the Victorian bedroom, the same-sex nudity hit like a torrent of light and shadow, the curtains were ripped and torn, and the broken porcelain pieces were beautiful. Dangerous edges.

In the days that followed, he experienced a constant reshaping because the roommate had two regular partners.

I will change it and bring it back to spend the night. I am so extravagant that I can't see the scene, but I can hear the sound.

Vague, intolerable, high-pitched.

Sometimes, the stimulation of imaginative supplementation far exceeds the stimulation of fact itself.He listened to it for many nights, his body was in the period of development, and he would have physiological desires and impulses.

But the education since childhood was deeply ingrained, and he gained the upper hand in the collision and confrontation of the two ideas.

Keep telling yourself that this is wrong behavior.

My roommate has a boyfriend who is British Hispanic, tall and strong. One day, while my roommate was cleaning up afterwards, with a bath towel around his lower body, he knocked on his door.

The chest is covered with scratch marks, the palm of the hand has a piece of skin scratched by the carpet, and it is red, whispering that I like you for a long time, do you want to do it together?It will be very cool.

Just one sentence brought a faster impact than the peeping that night, and made him feel uncontrollably disgusted and resisted.

But later, he happened to meet three people coming out of his roommate's bedroom. They looked like they had just finished exercising, talking and laughing nonchalantly, discussing what to have for dinner.

Same-sex is legal in the UK. It took him a long time to understand the cultural differences between the two countries and find a balance with difficulty.

Then it took a longer time to accept my sexuality.

But he has an oriental restraint in his bones and tends to be conservative. Whenever someone shows favor to him, his first reaction is to stay away from him.

Loathing and longing, very contradictory, it is difficult to find the object that is completely in line with his heart.

Frankly speaking, Jin Yuan has a certain attraction to him, especially his body, but that's all.

If he wanted to indulge in a short-lived distraction, he had plenty of opportunities before.Jin Yuan has not been special enough to break his restraint and sobriety.

Even if he wants to find, he will choose a long-term and stable relationship.

They only got along for half a semester, and more than a month had passed, Jin Yuan was not in his consideration.

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The author has something to say:

In a word, Gao Leng Jiang Shuyi was willing to change into a fishing system.

Jin Yuan lay next to his ear: "Honey, your dry body can't attract me."

Jiang Shuyi: I don't need to fish, but you can't say I can't.

Thank you girls for not staying up all night eating the fish food fed by CP, the catnip fed by the Cave King, the fish food fed by Zhuo, the catnip fed by Yebobo, the fish food fed by mackerel _yi5q9ltkiot and xzerox~