To rely on others is to promise each other

Seeing him wake up, Pei Shanqing quickly changed his expression, pretending to be relaxed and said with a smile: "No big problem, he should be discharged from the hospital in half a month."

Jiang Yubai sat up slowly, stretched out his hand from under the quilt, and handed him the mobile phone he was holding. He didn't say a word, but looked like a child who made a mistake.

Pei Shanqing didn't know why, so he took it and unlocked it, and saw that the page clearly showed that he was in a call, and when he looked carefully, it turned out to be his phone number.

"I'm sorry, I want to know the result." Jiang Yubai, as always, admitted his mistake very frankly, "But if it's bad news, you won't tell me, right?"

Pei Shanqing's hand holding the phone tightened unconsciously, but the strange thing was that he was not angry at Jiang Yubai's behavior, but felt sad about being exposed after retreating.

"You heard me and asked me." Pei Shanqing said, and put the pillow on his back for him, caught a glimpse of his expression, and said casually, "What? Is there something else you are hiding from me?"

Jiang Yubai bit his lower lip, handed his hand in front of him guiltily, palm up, and said weakly, "Give me your phone."

Pei Shanqing didn't understand what he was doing, but he still gave it to him. Jiang Yubai unlocked it with his fingerprint. The desktop of the phone was completely different. He silently clicked on the folder and deleted one of the unremarkable software.

Pei Shanqing took a deep breath, folded his arms slowly, fixed his eyes on him, raised his eyebrows halfway, and was not angry but mighty.

Jiang Yubai was like a cat caught by its tail, obediently returned the phone and swore first: "I'm sorry, I was wrong, I swear I won't do it again!"

"Where did you go wrong?" Pei Shanqing felt a little funny, "Why did it look like a confession?"

"...It's time to repent." Jiang Yubai continued to meditate on the core values ​​​​of socialism, and said bravely: "Actually, I have been listening to your calls for a long time, and I didn't uninstall my mobile phone until after you went abroad. software, you originally wanted to find an opportunity to delete it secretly..."

Pei Shanqing hummed without emotion, and said, "Then why did you tell me all of a sudden?"

It's obviously useless to act like a baby in such a serious matter, and the real reason is too embarrassed to say it out. Jiang Yubai wanted to put his hands together and beg for forgiveness, but the conditions did not allow it, so he had to hang his head and try to look sincere.

"Because you also confessed many things to me, I... just want to tell you, and I don't want to keep it from you anymore."

The ward suddenly fell into silence, so quiet that only the sound of each other's breathing could be heard. Jiang Yubai felt uneasy in the gap, and seemed to hear Pei Shanqing's heartbeat in a trance, beating rapidly one after another, as if the rage had reached a critical point, but on the surface The weather was calm.

Jiang Yubai secretly thought something was wrong, he gritted his teeth and wanted to grab Pei Shanqing's hand, but before he could reach it, he heard Pei Shanqing chuckle, then his chin was gently pinched, and he was forced to lift his face.

A kiss was printed on the lips, not long, but with a sweet taste, it briefly dispelled the shadow in Jiang Yubai's heart.

"Well, I know that the confession is lenient and the resistance is strict. I will give you a small reward."

Jiang Yubai's cheeks were hot, and he tried hard to control the corners of his mouth, and his voice was as thin as a mosquito: "You, aren't you angry?"

"Hmm... I'm a little angry, but it's okay." Pei Shanqing stroked his chin and thought for a while, "If you coax me, I will forcefully not care about you."

After Jiang Yubai heard this, he leaned over and hugged him stickily, rubbing his face against his chest, and said softly, "Brother, I was wrong, don't be angry."

Jiang Yubai wanted to take the opportunity to steal a kiss, but when Pei Shanqing put a finger on his forehead, he lowered his head and asked slowly, "Why do you monitor me? Are you suspecting me of cheating?"

Jiang Yubai's gaze became dodgy, and he said, "At first, it was because of Xiao Nan. I wanted to know what kind of relationship you two had, and I wanted to know whether I was a particularly hopeless person in your eyes."

"...From the first year of high school?" Pei Shanqing blinked, "Where did you get such a thing?"

"Well, I spent money on the Internet to find someone to write a program that can only monitor calls."

Pei Shanqing's face darkened in an instant, and he said seriously: "How can you spend money to buy this kind of thing? Are you not afraid that others will report you for violating personal privacy after taking the money?"

"It's okay, I changed my IP address and he couldn't find me." Jiang Yubai muttered suddenly while talking, "It's not because you are hot and cold, and you didn't give me a clear attitude, I just I can explore on my own."

In terms of hiding, Pei Shanqing ranked second, and no one dared to claim the first place. He obviously admitted this very well, so he could indirectly understand Jiang Yubai's feelings.

If you had to describe it, it would be like being in the clouds at an altitude of several thousand meters and suddenly falling into the dirty mud, which makes people feel desperate and helpless.

Pei Shanqing didn't want to argue too much with him, but this was a matter of principle.As the saying goes, if a tree grows crooked, it needs to be corrected, and if a child strays off the path, it needs to be brought back in time, so he tried to slow down his tone and reasoned with Jiang Yubai.

"Hey, it's my fault for this matter. You were still young at that time, and I didn't dare to talk about feelings with you. I was afraid that you would regret it when you meet someone you really like when you grow up." Pei Shanqing said, "But Neither monitoring nor house arrest is the best way to solve the problem."

Jiang Yubai naturally knew it too, but at that time, he seemed to be blinded, unable to think of other options at all, and chose the most drastic path in a daze.

"There will be no such problems in the future. You don't need to take the risk of doing these things again, understand? Obediently."

Jiang Yubai suddenly choked up when he thought of the conversation he had just heard with the doctor, but in order not to let him find out, he just hummed, but Pei Shanqing was so keen that he caught his depressed mood almost instantly.

He hugged him into his arms, patted his back lightly, and said: "And I didn't take what Dr. He said today seriously at all, why can't we meet, I see I'm very happy to see you, right?"

"Yeah." Jiang Yubai hugged him tighter, raised his face and repeated: "I'm very happy, really."

Pei Shanqing smiled, put the palm of his hand against his hair, inserted five fingers into his scalp, and stroked it slowly, "But I feel that you will be unhappy if he tells you what he said, so I didn't say it."

"But if you want to know, if you ask again, I will tell you." Pei Shanqing paused and continued.

"I don't have to know, but you were not happy at all when you came in just now. I wanted to coax you, but I couldn't find a reason. I'm afraid it will make you even more unhappy, so I confess now."

Jiang Yubai's eyes were burning, and he looked straight at him like a child asking for credit, as if he was waiting for Pei Shanqing to show a heartfelt smile, and then praised him without hesitation.

But Pei Shanqing was stunned, and asked, "How did you find out?"

"Here." Jiang Yubai's fingers brushed over his eyebrows and eyes, then slid down the contours of his face, stopped at his heart and nodded, "It's obvious when you're absent-minded, almost every movement and expression says: I'm not happy .”

Since he was a child, few people would come to carefully observe Pei Shanqing's micro-expressions. In fact, sometimes he speaks nicely, but if he can catch the moment when his brows are furrowed, they will know that it is clearly against their will.

Jiang Yubai didn't notice it before, but since Pei Shanqing came back from abroad, this feature has become more and more obvious, presumably because he was alone in those few months abroad, and he didn't bother to pretend.

"Are you afraid that I'll get hurt again because of you?" Jiang Yubai asked, and at the same time revealed the answer, "Do you think it's your departure that caused me to become like this?"

Now it was Pei Shanqing's turn to be silent. Jiang Yubai's words were verbatim, which deepened the fear in his heart. He hugged Jiang Yubai tightly, feeling his body temperature and heartbeat, and slowly buried his head on his neck between.

"What should I do with you?" Pei Shanqing said with a wry smile, "This is obviously something I should face personally, do you have to put it on yourself as well?"

"No, in the final analysis, it's my problem, it's my heart disease."

"The root of your entangled topic and all previous contradictions is that you think that it is your existence that makes me suffer so much, but to put it another way is more appropriate, it is my love for you that makes me suffer so much."

"I did a lot of wrong things in the past. I listened to you, watched you, and locked you at home... because I wanted to own you completely, live under the same roof, and stepped on the same land. Watching the same sunrise."

"But when I really kept you by my side, I was not as happy as I imagined. You may not believe it, but in fact, I was really miserable in those days."

"I'm afraid that my love for you will become your shackles and your prison. I'm also worried that the love you give me in return is a charity out of compassion and sympathy, a compromise out of compulsion, but it doesn't come from the bottom of my heart The most fundamental desire."

"This kind of doubt and suspicion has almost reached its peak, and it almost swallows me up every moment." Jiang Yubai said, "I later realized that I was too greedy, always wanting more, but ignoring the essence of love." , should be paid without regard to return.

"I'm stubborn, but my love shouldn't be like this."

With tears in his eyes, Jiang Yubai dissected himself to show him—he never complained about his escaping and leaving, from the beginning to the end, he just couldn't accept his own incompetence, and couldn't accept that such an unbearable self was not worthy of the love he was so young , and ultimately failed to keep him.

"Being imperfect I can't reconcile with my love."

Somewhere, the two reached an inexplicable agreement, as if everything had its own definite order.Just like when Pei Shanqing came back from abroad, he resolutely decided to stay in China, no matter what Jiang Yubai did, he chose to continue to love him.

The same is true for Jiang Yubai. He chose to give up those complicated skills, but to face up to his own heart, follow Pei Shanqing's pace with love, and walk steadily through the next years step by step.

"My love should be because I am me. No matter what your nature is, whether you perceive it or not, how you respond, or the distance between us, I still conform to my nature, unchanging, eternal love. looking at you."

Jiang Yubai's voice was unhurried, calm as if he was talking about the weather tomorrow, as if loving him was as common as eating and drinking.

"In this world of absolute motion, my love for you is relatively static."

Pei Shanqing's strength in hugging him suddenly lost control, Jiang Yubai made a very light and quick gasping sound as if he was being hurt, and Pei Shanqing soon let go.

"Brother, stop blaming yourself."

Jiang Yubai said: "You just need to continue loving me, and let the rest go."

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So far, all the flaws and regrets mentioned in the previous article have been explained, and the next step is the young couple flirting~