upstairs downstairs

Su Qianmo thought about Yu Yanfeng almost every day, and was about to vomit.

Chu Pan suddenly came over and knocked on the table: "Su Qianmo, the head teacher asked you to talk, probably about your test scores."

Su Qianmo nodded, got up and went to the office.His grades dropped sharply this year. From the top ten in the grade, he went straight to the top [-] in the grade. Yang Liping was a little anxious, but she also knew that it was useless to remind her, so she could only let nature take its course.

"Su Qianmo, look at your grades for yourself. Except for Chinese, where can you rank in the grade, where are the others?"

The homeroom teacher still likes Su Qianmo, a student who doesn't cause trouble and is extremely obedient.

"Teacher, maybe I haven't adjusted well." Su Qianmo didn't want to tell the head teacher too much, and just wanted to finish the job and go back quickly.

"Is there something wrong with your relationship? I've heard from my classmates that you and Gu Xiao are at odds?"

Su Qianmo didn't turn his head around, but smiled instead: "Who said it?"

The head teacher looked serious: "Don't care who said it, it's not time to fall in love yet, if you are here, I will transfer seats for you, and I will tell your parents when necessary."

"Teacher, don't worry, I will definitely be in the top ten in this exam." Su Qianmo felt a little helpless, because he could drag Gu Xiao into trouble if he failed the exam.

"You have this strength, just work harder and be more serious." The class teacher's face softened a little, and after a few more instructions, Su Qianmo was asked to go back.

Su Qianmo sat back in his seat, Gu Xiao couldn't help but asked about the situation.

"The head teacher thought you were my girlfriend, and I fell in love early, so my grades were not good." Su Qianmo couldn't help but laugh when he said this.

Gu Xiao looked annoyed: "My God, no matter how bad my eyesight is, I can't fall in love with you. What kind of eyesight does the class teacher have? I really regard you as a treasure."

"Seriously, should I find someone else?" Su Qianmo felt that if he continued like this, he would become abnormal.

"I figured it out, I'm finally going to be with my brother?" Gu Xiao looked at him excitedly.

"I mean find a girl." Su Qianmo couldn't help the black line.

Gu Xiao stared and seemed even more angry: "You still want to harm the majority of female compatriots? No, I absolutely disagree."

Su Qianmo wanted to cover her mouth: "Grandma, can you keep your voice down."

Gu Xiao leaned over and lowered her voice: "Let me tell you, it's impossible, so just give up. Back then, my brother..."

Gu Xiao wanted to say something, but then she also shut up. The class bell rang, and Su Qianmo stopped asking, but she was thinking in her heart, what did Gu Shiheng do when he found out that he was gay, and whether he was in the same mood as him. Same now?

When Su Qianmo said about finding a girl, he really thought so in his heart. Maybe he found a girlfriend and was with her often, so he could become normal.But Gu Xiao said it was impossible. Su Qianmo felt that he was getting entangled again. He needed to talk to Gu Shiheng.

Gu Shiheng was a year older than them. The first semester of senior year ended, and the next semester was a critical period for sprinting. The winter vacation was less than ten days, which was really pitiful.

There was a lot of snow this winter, Gu Xiao rolled a snowball, ran wildly in the square as if he had never seen snow before, accidentally fell, his hair was covered with snow.

"..." Su Qianmo had never seen Gu Xiao like this before, his face turned green.

"Xiaoxiao, your clothes are dirty, mom is going to scold me!" Gu Shiheng shouted at her, intending to go over and drag her over.

Gu Xiao got up recklessly, rolled another snowball, aimed at it and threw it, hitting Gu Shiheng's face.

Gu Shiheng: "..."

Su Qianmo almost collapsed in the snow laughing, while Gu Shiheng rushed up with a snowball.It was mid-afternoon at this time, and there were very few people in the square, mostly children and couples.

Gu Shiheng was in a mess, his face was full of snow, Gu Xiao was not much better, his hat was off, his hair was tangled up, they looked alike, with red noses.

Su Qianmo handed over the tissue, Gu Xiao took it and turned around to tidy herself up. Gu Shiheng smiled shyly and said, "Mo Mo, wipe it for me."

Su Qianmo looked at him for a while and narrowed his eyes. When Gu Shiheng thought he was going to refuse, he heard a light, "Okay."

When Su Qianmo tried his best to wipe his face, Gu Shiheng regretted it. He knew that the thick-skinned trick was useless to him, but he still couldn't help but want to tease him.

Gu Shiheng's face hurt, especially when he was blown by the cold wind again, he felt that it was no longer his face.The three of them sat on a bench in the square. After a while, Gu Xiao disliked the cold, and ran to the drink shop alone, leaving only Gu Shiheng and Su Qianmo.

The snow was still falling on the ground, Su Qianmo was still wearing a snow-white down jacket, and the black scarf was extremely dazzling.

"You asked me out this time, so you can't just keep silent." Gu Shiheng's voice was still so deep and soft.

Su Qianmo breathed out. During this year, the Gu family brothers and sisters and Qin Hao were the only people he interacted with, but he never mentioned what happened between him and Yu Yanfeng to anyone.

"I like someone alone." Su Qianmo opened his mouth slowly, he had already made up his mind before he came out, since he had nothing to do with Yu Yanfeng, it didn't matter if he said it.

Gu Shiheng listened quietly without interrupting him.

"But he doesn't like me." When Su Qianmo said this, his eyes suddenly became sore, he blinked, and slowly took a breath.

"It's Yu Yanfeng?" Gu Shiheng asked cautiously.

Su Qianmo closed his eyes and nodded.

"Now, do you still like him that much?"

Su Qianmo was a little dazed, he hadn't seen each other for a year, and he didn't feel uncomfortable, but occasionally he would get tangled up when thinking about it, but it wouldn't be a life-and-death situation, he just kept it in his heart, and would jump out to torture him from time to time.But talking about it now, I can't help but want to cry, do you still like it?Su Qianmo didn't know that he had really met very few people in his life, and his communication skills were almost negative. He also didn't know what it was like to be liked by others, and how to get along with them.

"I don't know." Su Qianmo suddenly raised his head and said, "Do you think it's still possible for me to like girls?"

Gu Shiheng is only one year older than Su Qianmo. Although he matures early, how mature can he go?

"I don't know, it's probably possible, if a girl is particularly interested in you." Gu Shiheng smiled wryly, "I used to try to date girls in order to force myself to like girls."

Su Qianmo: "The result?"

"Failure." Gu Shiheng smiled a little embarrassedly, "During the third year of junior high school, the closest thing we ever did was to hold hands. After graduating from junior high school, that girl was going to go to school in other places. She pulled me over and kissed me. , and stuck his tongue into my mouth."

Su Qianmo stared at him in surprise, "And then?"

"Then... I vomited..." Gu Shiheng pursed his lips, feeling extremely ashamed, "Hey, stop laughing."

Su Qianmo couldn't help but think of the time when Yu Yanfeng kissed him, it might be the best memory in his life for him.He felt that it was a little unkind for him to laugh at Gu Shiheng, and he was no better than him, so he stopped laughing, "How long have you been dating that girl, why do you still vomit?"

"It's been more than a year. I like that girl, and she has the right temper." Gu Shiheng shrugged, "Then that girl never contacted me again. She probably knows that I like men."

Su Qianmo nodded, and Gu Shiheng vomited, thinking about it: "She didn't blame you for deceiving her feelings."

"Oh, I was very guilty at the time, and I bought her a lot of things as compensation, but they were all returned." Gu Shiheng sighed, "I don't know what she thinks."

Su Qianmo had a feeling that the girl should like Gu Shiheng very much, and she was deeply hurt.

"You regret it?"

"I regret it, Gu Xiao scolded me because of this matter." Gu Shiheng smiled with some restraint, "I gave up at that time."

"Your parents know who you are?" Su Qianmo was very perceptive. He felt that a person like Gu Shiheng should be able to say anything.

Gu Shiheng nodded: "I told my family about what happened."

"Your parents accepted?"

"It's crazy to accept it. My dad wants to send me to a mental hospital." Gu Shiheng was very reluctant to recall those days. Knowing it is useless, my mother cries every day, Gu Xiao also said a lot for me, and my parents simply ignore me from now on."

Gu Shiheng didn't say much, but Su Qianmo could feel how difficult that day was, but he'll be fine if he gets through it.

"Now they probably feel that they have raised me for nothing." Gu Shiheng smiled, "If they weren't old, they would probably have another one, but they are also afraid of what will happen if they have another one like me."

It was the first time someone was willing to tell him everything about him, and Su Qianmo was shocked.Gu Shiheng had already stood up, he patted the snow on his body, his face was a little red from the cold.Su Qianmo just wanted to move around, but found that his hands and feet were almost frozen.

Gu Shiheng stretched out his hand to pull him up, Su Qianmo stomped his feet and covered his ears with his hands.

"So afraid of the cold?" Gu Shiheng put his hand on the back of Su Qianmo's. Su Qianmo froze for a moment, then pulled it out.

Gu Shiheng didn't feel embarrassed, and the two walked side by side in the direction of the drink shop.The snow under the feet creaked and creaked, and the afterglow of the sunset mixed with wisps of flowing clouds gradually blurred the sky.

Gu Shiheng said lightly: "Seriously, Su Qianmo, I like you very much, why don't we try to be together?"

Su Qianmo looked up at Gu Shiheng in surprise, but Gu Shiheng's expression was very serious.Although Su Qianmo likes men, and Gu Shiheng is good-looking, but he doesn't have any feelings, let alone liking.

"...Let me think about it again."

After this incident, Su Qianmo didn't even think about giving Gu Shiheng an answer. Gu Shiheng called every day, but the two of them had nothing to talk about, and he didn't bother with that issue any more, so the matter was put on hold.

Qin Hao gave him an earmuff before the Chinese New Year. It was fluffy and snow-white. Su Qianmo didn't want it at first. He had never seen any old man wear earmuffs. They were still white.

"Your ears are always cold, so you wear them when you go out for nothing." Qin Hao compared to him, the earmuffs are very big, after wearing them, Su Qianmo's face looks sharp and small.

"Okay, is it worth it? I still wear this thing." Su Qianmo picked it up and put it on the table, "When do you start school?"

"The eighth day, how about it? Our school is ruthless." Qin Hao ordered and handed the list to Su Qianmo.

"We start school on the twelfth." Su Qianmo nodded, "It's almost the same."

Qin Hao has the best relationship with Su Qianmo, and he also knew about the quarrel between him and Yu Yanfeng, but he didn't know why.All I know is that the two of them stopped playing together during the holidays. The relationship between Qin Hao and Yu Yanfeng has always been normal, but once someone asked him to go out for dinner, and he also saw Yu Yanfeng in a group of people, but there was no Su Qian Mo's shadow asked a question, but Yu Yanfeng said that he hadn't seen him for a long time.Qin Hao felt strange, knowing that something terrible must have happened between the two of them, but Yu Yanfeng didn't mention it, so he didn't ask any more.But now looking at Su Qianmo, he couldn't help but want to speak.

"What's the matter with you and Yu Yanfeng?" Qin Hao tried his best to keep his tone relaxed, and he smiled, "Break up?"

"Hehe, share your sister's hand." Su Qianmo couldn't help cursing, "It's breaking up."

"Why?" Qin Hao felt unbelievable, "I feel that the relationship between the two of you is almost the same as that mentioned in the "Book of Songs". .”

"Yo, I still know the "Book of Songs", but I just broke up, there is no reason."

"It's a ghost." Qin Hao smashed the Coke on the table, "Look at your appearance, you are almost crying."

"You're just fucking crying." Su Qianmo stared at a pair of red eyes, "Don't mention Yu Yanfeng to me in the future, make trouble."

Qin Hao looked at him helplessly, and couldn't bear it, he didn't know what to do to make Su Qianmo happy.

"Okay, I won't mention it in the future, just pretend that there is no such person. But Momo, can you stop worrying me and make yourself happy."

"Qin Hao, if you are not a man, I really doubt that you are my mother." Su Qianmo glared at him and said angrily.

"Don't, having a son like you insists on pissing me off." Qin Hao lit a cigarette, "I've already seen that this matter of yours is a trap, I should have dragged you out earlier."

Su Qianmo suddenly raised his head, his slightly long hair trembled unnaturally: "What did you say?"

Qin Hao laughed: "What did I say, you think you like Yu Yanfeng, I can't tell?"

Su Qianmo froze for a moment and said, damn it, is it so obvious.He was not afraid that Qin Hao would know, he believed in Qin Hao just as he believed in himself, and he had nothing to worry about, but he probably would laugh at this matter for a long time.

"I guess Yu Yanfeng must have seen it too." Qin Hao vowed, "He's not a fool."

Su Qianmo really wants to ask, can you tell if he likes me or not?Su Qianmo thought this question was stupid, even more stupid than asking Yu Yanfeng himself.As hypocritical as a girl, he couldn't help thinking, if Yu Yanfeng really liked him, why did he avoid him and still look at him like that.

"Is it really that obvious?"

"You didn't feel it yourself. When the three of us went out to play, your eyes almost grew on him." Qin Hao said solemnly, holding a cigarette, looking like an adult.

"Then I like men, and you don't discriminate against me?" Su Qianmo couldn't help asking in a low voice.

"That's fine, I'll discriminate against you, okay?" Qin Hao was a little angry, "I said Su Qianmo, you are usually very smart, why do you look like a fool when you encounter this?"

Su Qianmo had to admit that although Qin Hao hurt him, what Qin Hao said was very reasonable.But he can't help himself, there is no way to do this matter, if he is a woman, there is no problem.

"Are you going to give up?" Qin Hao crossed his legs, with a deep expression on his face.

Su Qianmo also thought about giving up, but if it was so easy to forget someone, he might not have known how many people he had talked to.The memory that Yu Yanfeng brought to him was too deep. They had been together for a full ten years, from childhood to adulthood, how many decades were there in their lifetime?And he wants to forget, is it possible in this life?

Su Qianmo thought of this, as if he had figured it out all at once.I like him for so long, and I didn't expect him to respond to me, so what does it matter if he likes me or not?Su Qianmo was suddenly moved by his thoughts.

"I don't intend to give up." Su Qianmo smiled, thinking that Gu Shiheng should also refuse, so as to save a lot of trouble.

Qin Hao sighed, he seemed to feel that Su Qianmo was quite pitiful, and felt a little unworthy for him.Knowing them in the early years and getting along with them for so many years, Qin Hao is more transparent than the two of them. He has some conflicts. He wants to help Su Qianmo, but he has selfish intentions in his heart.However, my own selfishness can only be a handful of loess in the bustling world.

Qin Hao coughed lightly, and said in a deep voice, "In my opinion, Yu Yanfeng doesn't have no feelings for you at all."

Su Qianmo froze for a moment, then smiled and said, "Indeed, he has always regarded me as his own brother."

"Hey, that's not what it means." Qin Hao felt as if he couldn't explain clearly, "Forget it, let's not talk about it."

He has no control over this matter, and he also wants to see what will happen to the two of them in the end.

It was late when he came out of the fast food restaurant. Qin Hao originally planned to send Su Qianmo back, but Gu Shiheng called and insisted on picking him up.Qin Hao has never met Gu Shiheng, but only heard about it from Su Qianmo a few times.

Gu Shiheng came here by taxi. He was walking on the snow, wearing a black down jacket, and the fluff on his shoulders flickered.There was a smile on his face, and Qin Hao understood the relationship between the two after only one glance.

"Mo Mo, I'm convinced that I lost to Yu Yanfeng, but I don't recognize anyone else." Qin Hao smiled, and patted Su Qianmo on the shoulder, "I'm leaving. The next time we meet is about graduation time."

Qin Hao didn't say hello to Gu Shiheng, and took a taxi and left alone.Before Su Qianmo could be surprised, Qin Hao had already disappeared, holding that huge earmuff in his hand, looking extremely funny.

"Your friend left so soon? What is this? He gave it to you?" Gu Shiheng took the earmuffs and put them on his head.

Su Qianmo reached out to pick it off, took off the earmuffs and played with them in his hand: "It's almost enough, what a shame."

Gu Shiheng smiled, the sky was already dark, today is the 28th of the twelfth lunar month, there is no reason to go back late.

"Come on, I'll take you home."

Su Qianmo shook his head. Although he didn't have that kind of affection for Gu Shiheng, he was a very nice person after getting in touch with him. He was still a little embarrassed when he spoke.

"The thing you mentioned to me last time—" Su Qianmo was interrupted before he could finish speaking.

"Refused...is that right?" Gu Shiheng shrugged, his eyes a little lonely, "I know what you want to say when I see your expression."

Su Qianmo was also relieved to see him like this, Gu Shiheng is not that kind of stingy person, besides, the two of them are fine.

"Go back and tell Gu Xiao, she's probably going to die laughing again." Gu Shiheng rubbed his hair, and the two got into the taxi.

It's the time of traffic jams, and it's the end of the new year. The number of people traveling for new year's goods has increased sharply, and private cars, buses, and taxis have become congested.The lights outside the window were flickering, and in just ten years, this small town had undergone earth-shaking changes, with layers of high-rise buildings everywhere, and the narrow alley and the damp low red brick buildings that they met back then were gone. Does it still exist?

Su Qianmo and Gu Shiheng got out of the car ahead of time, and they didn't know when they would be stuck in traffic.They walked side by side along the curb, facing the fine wind and snow and walking back.

Su Qianmo and Gu Shiheng were actually not on the way, but seeing that this buddy was so determined to send him back, he didn't stop him.After school started, Gu Shiheng entered the state of sprinting for the college entrance examination, and the two probably won't see each other again.

"You first felt that you liked men... Who did you like?" Su Qianmo felt that the two of them were too silent along the way, and it felt too depressing for him not to say anything, but when he said it, he felt that he was That gossip old lady with sixty or seventy mouths.

"Hey, I'd have forgotten if you didn't ask." Gu Shiheng's expression changed obviously, he had a playful smile on his face, "I think you'll be scared if you say it."

Su Qianmo thought, who is fooling, this expression doesn't seem to have been forgotten, but it seems to be thinking every day, every month, wishing to dream of dreams.

"Hehe, I've never been scared, unless you fell in love with your own father." Su Qianmo lit a cigarette, and handed the box to Gu Shiheng.

Gu Shiheng didn't answer, and looked at Su Qianmo in fear, his eyes staring horribly.

"Damn it, I guessed it right." Su Qianmo's smoke almost scared him off.

Gu Shiheng stretched out his hand and patted him on the head: "You're so young, what's in your head!"

"Who is that?"

Gu Shiheng took a deep breath: "I am the head teacher of junior high school."

Compared with the previous idea, this answer is not so exciting, but Su Qianmo still couldn't help thinking that Gu Shiheng must have suffered a lot of mental torture at that time, so he felt embarrassed to gloat.

"And then, is he?"

Gu Shiheng shook his head: "I don't know, and I dare not say, but I wrote him a letter after graduation, and I don't know if he received it."

Su Qianmo can even imagine how bitter, forced, and sympathetic it would be for a bitter child to write a letter to his teacher who has a crush on him who is ten years older than him.

However, Su Qianmo still couldn't help but smiled unkindly: "You have been secretly in love with him for so long?"

Gu Shiheng's face was a little red: "Not long, maybe two years."

A child with a solid eye, Su Qianmo even suspects that Gu Shiheng still has his photo in his wallet.

Su Qianmo: "Did you visit him later?"

"No, he went abroad for his Ph.D., so he doesn't know where he is now." Gu Shiheng rubbed his nose and took a puff of cigarette, "Hey, forget it, I'll send it to you, do you know the way?"

Su Qianmo knew that Gu Shiheng felt uncomfortable thinking about the past, so he nodded and watched Gu Shiheng leave.He was still a little worried, so he called Gu Xiao and asked Gu Xiao to pick up his brother before heading home.

There is a person in everyone's heart. If you can go to the end in the end, you will be lucky for three lives. If that person leaves you, it will become a scar that will never heal.

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