my private life

Time passed quickly, and it was June in a blink of an eye.My body recovered very well, but the school was on holiday, and the senior high school students were asked to go home and review by themselves.Anyway, I am also used to self-study at home. If I have any questions that I don't understand, I will go to Dr. Xia every few days.Every time I have to bring her the delicious food made by my mother.

Everything was going smoothly according to the plan, and I became more and more confident, thinking that my college entrance examination results might be even better than when I was always there.

One day at the end of June, my mother brought back bad news. The factory she worked in was going to close down, and the workers like them were sent home with a one-time buyout of their seniority.

This time it is absolutely true, and it is said that layoff agreements will be signed with these workers soon.There was a gossip before that the factory will be closed and the workers will all go home.Unexpectedly, the rumors became reality.

"I have worked for 20 years, and now my unit actually let me lay off. What should I do in the future? How can our family live on your father's salary alone? You are going to college soon. I don't have a job. What do I get? Pay your tuition?" My mother started talking since she came in and sat on the sofa without cooking.

This news is indeed "bad news" for our family. My parents are all ordinary workers, and their usual wages are not high.Once my mother loses her wages, the life of the three of them will be unimaginably difficult.

"Don't worry, let's cook first. My tuition can be borrowed, and I can still go to work." I comforted my mother.The last thing I want to hear is the cost of my college education.

A week later, my mother was officially laid off.We live in a house assigned by my father's work unit. Most of the neighbors are workers from nearby factories. Almost every family has the same tragic ending as my mother.

Every day, someone from the family came to the door to chat with my mother, telling each other about their experiences, and lamenting the hardships in the future compared to the money they would get to buy out their working years after being laid off.

I shut myself in the small room to do the final sprint for the college entrance examination. The door was closed tightly, but the high and low voices outside, still like the roar of an electric drill, drilled into my heart one after another, making me terribly upset.

Influenced by my mother, I also lamented my bad luck.After finally learning how to study, maybe a college student can be born in the family, but my mother lost her job, and I spent a lot of money in hospital.In the past two years, the university was still funded by the public, but when it was my turn, the annual tuition fee was 2000 yuan, plus accommodation and living expenses, and my father’s salary for one year was not enough.When I was depressed, I wondered whether I should give up the college entrance examination.

Of course, this is just a helpless thought that flashed for a while.It is impossible for me to give up the college entrance examination, and my parents will not allow it.The only thing I can do is study harder.

Neighbors appeared from time to time, and I went to see Dr. Xia more often than before.When I am tired from studying at her home, I will chat with Dr. Xia for a while.I talked about my depression, and she understood my situation very well.

"If you think the house is too noisy, you can come to me. You can stay when I go to work, but you must study hard and don't think about it. Tuition fees are not something you should think about as a child. Don't worry, the car will arrive at the front of the mountain. There must be a way."

In front of her, I temporarily forgot about the troubles at home and devoted myself to reviewing my homework.

My mother has been laid off, and I can no longer bring delicious meals when I come to Dr. Xia's house.In order to repay her, I will clean up the house for her every time.Sometimes she didn't even fold the quilt, just spread it on the bed indiscriminately.

When she came back and discovered my achievements, she would always praise me, "Hardworking little bee, do you want me to reward you and treat you to dinner?" She doesn't know how to cook, and she took me to restaurants twice.

"Forget it, let's go to the hospital cafeteria to eat." I thought about the pocket money of more than a dozen yuan on me, enough for the two of us to buy two dishes.I can no longer make her spend money. "I want to review it for a while tonight."

We went to the hospital canteen.While eating, Dr. Xia's cell phone rang.There was an emergency patient who was in a car accident and needed immediate surgery to get her back to the hospital.

When Dr. Xia heard the greeting, he immediately pushed away the meal he was eating, left me the house key and left in a hurry.

I packed up the rest of the meal and went back alone.I think she may come back in a while, and the food can be eaten after it is warmed up.Who knows that I have done a real English test paper and memorized two chapters of political test questions, but I haven't seen her yet.

It's already nine o'clock in the evening, and I still have the key to her house, so it seems that I can only wait for her to come back.I called home and told my mom I was coming home late.

It was not until 11 o'clock that the sound of heavy footsteps sounded in the corridor.My intuition told me that Dr. Xia was back, so I ran to open the door, and the pale Dr. Xia entered the house with a sad expression.

As soon as she entered the door, she leaned against the door and sighed heavily.As if she didn't hear my question, she came back to herself after a long time and asked in surprise, "It's so late, why didn't you leave?"

I think she is tired and confused, how can she enter the house after I leave.I put the slippers by her feet, but she didn't change them. She went straight into the living room and slumped down on the sofa, threw off the high heels on her feet, and leaned back on the back of the sofa with her eyes closed.

I didn't dare to ask her anything, so I lightly poured her a glass of water and put it on the coffee table.I sat down next to her and hesitated to leave.

After a while, I saw a tear roll out of the corner of her eye, my heart tightened, I don't know what happened to make her so sad.

This time she didn't wipe away the tears immediately, and let the tears flow down her cheeks.

I was terrified, and reached out to wipe her tears, "What's wrong with you? Don't cry, don't cry."

She opened her eyes and looked at me with miserable eyes, "Fanfan, we didn't succeed." She hugged me, buried her head on my shoulder, and lamented softly, "It was too late. He still has Two children, how pitiful."

I didn't understand what she meant right away, but soon realized that she was talking about the patient who had just been rescued.Failure to do so means that person is dead.My heart is also heavy because of the passing of a life.

Her emotional loss was only short-lived, and she quickly raised her head from my shoulder, wiped away her tears, and laughed at herself, "It is said that doctors can save lives and heal the wounded, but there are times when we are powerless. Couldn't look that woman in the eye. So tragic."

"Don't think too much, you've tried your best." I comforted her and handed the water glass to her.

After drinking a glass of water, Dr. Xia's frustration eased.I asked her if she wanted to eat, she shook her head and said she had no appetite.

"You are tired and rest, I will go back first." I whispered.It was too late and there were no buses, so I could only walk back. Fortunately, it was summer, and there were probably still pedestrians on the street.

Dr. Xia straightened up and let down the hair that was coiled behind her head, "Fanfan, don't leave, please? Stay with me tonight." She grabbed my hand, her voice sounded so helpless and even with sadness.

I nodded quickly, and called my mother, telling her that I will not go back tonight and stay at Dr. Xia's house.

My mother readily agreed to my request to stay out at night. I was with Dr. Xia whom she admired, and she was completely at ease.All her life she would never know about the special relationship between her daughter and the woman she trusted.

When Dr. Xia came out of the bathroom with naked hair after taking a shower, the sadness just now could not be found on his face.She pulled out a camisole and told me to change into it after I showered.She herself wore a pink silk vest.

The weather was already very hot in June, and we each covered ourselves with a towel.Dr. Xia told me to go to bed first, she turned on the desk lamp, leaned against the bed and picked up a thick medical magazine to read.

After reviewing for a whole day, I was so sleepy that I couldn't even open my eyes, and soon fell asleep.

I don't know when I slept until I was awakened by a strange sound.When I opened my eyes, I realized that the lights in the room were still on, Dr. Xia had already fallen asleep, and the magazine was thrown aside.

The abnormal sound came from the mouth of the sleeping person next to me. Dr. Xia's eyes were closed tightly, her face was flushed, fine sweat was dripping from her forehead, and her expression seemed to be terrified. , a panicked ahh sound came out of his mouth.

I rolled over and sat up, wondering if I should wake her up.After hesitating for a moment, I reached out and shook her shoulder lightly, "What's the matter with you? Are you dreaming?"

She clenched her teeth, trembling all over, and didn't open her eyes. I shook her harder, "Wake up." My nervous trembling voice was very special in the silent room.

Dr. Xia finally moved, opened his eyes while stretching his body, "I'm so scared. Fanfan hug me." Her eyes were blurred and she murmured.

Without any hesitation, I bent down and hugged her hot body. "Have you had a nightmare? Don't be afraid that I'll be by your side." I could feel her temple hair was wet with sweat, and I felt pity in my heart, so I really wanted to hold her like this forever.

Only a few seconds passed, and Dr. Xia was completely awake.She broke away from my arms, "I had a nightmare, it's okay." She sat up.

Only then did we both notice that her little vest had been rolled up to her waist, exposing a large section of white and tender skin.Because I didn't wear a breast cover, I could see the two protruding points from the thin fabric of the vest.

I quickly looked away, Dr. Xia stretched the vest pretending to be indifferent. "Go to sleep." She turned off the desk lamp, lay down on her side with her face facing me, and put her hands together beside the pillow.

I also faced her, but I didn't feel sleepy at all, "What dream did you just have?"

"It's nothing, but I'm a little tired after several operations in a row recently. Go to sleep, and you have to go to work tomorrow." She didn't close her eyes as she spoke, and looked at me steadily with a pair of deep eyes.

The two faces are so close, I can feel her breath, I thought I should move back, but my body is not obedient and still.There is a suffocating ghostly atmosphere in the air, and my mouth feels parched.

"Fanfan, do you like me?" Dr. Xia's faint tone in the dark made me even more nervous. I felt as if a hand was stuck around my neck, preventing me from making a sound.

It took a few seconds for me to hum, and then I heard myself swallow.

She raised her head slightly and kissed me lightly on the cheek, "Go to sleep." Then she closed her eyes.

There was a weird itchy feeling on the cheeks kissed by her. I stared blankly at her, and suddenly felt an urge to touch her skin.I stretched out my hand quietly, and just when my hand was about to fall on her round shoulder, I was frightened by my "evil" movement, so I quickly retracted my hand.

Dr. Xia didn't seem to be asleep, she turned over.I was so panicked that I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep that I didn't dare to breathe out. I thought she had discovered my plan.

I held my breath and waited for a while, but Dr. Xia didn't respond, so I breathed a sigh of relief and lay down on my back trying to make myself fall asleep.