What kind of bad thoughts can the monitor have?

He drank a few cups of iced coke, and didn't eat anything just now, Jizhun just felt as if his stomach was being pinched by someone's dead hand, and the pain was severe.

He sat down on the chair next to the bus stop sign and watched someone get into an empty bus on the other side of the road, but the taxi app in his hand didn't show the order.

His temples were still throbbing, and Cheng Zui's words were circling three-dimensionally around his ears as if they were playing on a loop.

……

"What kind of person will Brother Yang marry in the end? How many babies will he have?"

"In short, no matter what, everyone should be envied and blessed, right?"

"In this way, uncles and aunts will feel at ease..."

"Ji Zhun, what do you think?"

……

Ji Zhun frowned, and couldn't help pressing down the hand on his stomach, imitating Tan Jingyang's movement, pinching the lower part between the index finger and middle finger.

I remember that's what Tan Jingyang did the first time he sent him home.

In the end, he still didn't answer Tan Jingyang's question, and lied that his wrist was hurt, and took advantage of the opportunity when the other party felt distressed to restrain his strength, he withdrew his hand, and then fled away from Tianshui Street.

From the beginning to the end, he dared not meet Tan Jingyang's flustered eyes.

Or to state the problem slowly, or to give comfort gently and peacefully, or to tease lazily and make cruel and decisive words.But no matter what, Tan Jingyang's tone should never be as obviously flattering and showing weakness as before.

The proud man never compromised with life, but bowed his head before himself.

Ji Zhun closed his eyes, only feeling that his throat seemed to be pressed with an extremely heavy iron bump.I couldn't spit out, couldn't swallow, I couldn't breathe, and even my eye sockets were sore and swollen due to lack of oxygen.

He reached out to touch a cigarette, or find a piece of candy, but in the end there was neither cigarette nor candy, and he only found a crumpled lollipop wrapper.It should be that he stuffed it in his pocket after peeling it on the car to Meicheng and had no place to throw it away.

The candy wrapper was clutched in the palm of my hand, and it was wet with sweat.Ji Zhun stood up, put his hands in his pockets, and planned to change places before calling a taxi.

Just before he took two steps, a black Porsche behind him suddenly flashed its lights twice and honked its horn.

Ji Zhun turned his head and squinted, and saw that the driver's window was rolled down, revealing Lu Xiulin's gentle and elite face.

"A ride with the wind?"

Lu Xiulin raised the corners of his lips, and his eyes hidden behind the lenses froze slightly after seeing Jizhun's pale face.

Ji Zhun nodded, pulled the passenger seat and got in, fastened his seat belt.

Lu Xiulin started the car, looked sideways at Ji Zhun and asked, "Where are you going?"

"Go home." Ji Zhun leaned back wearily again, "Thank you, Uncle Lu."

"Are you sure you don't want to go to the hospital first?" Lu Xiulin switched the navigation, "You don't look very good."

Ji Zhun raised his lips, and lazily said: "No, it's just that my stomach feels a little uncomfortable, maybe I haven't eaten dinner."

Hearing this, Lu Xiulin was holding the steering wheel with one hand, and with the other hand, he took out a bag of soda biscuits from the slot in the car door and threw it to Ji Zhun.

"Let's eat some padding first, these biscuits are good for the stomach."

Ji Zhun tore open the biscuit bag and smiled: "I can't tell you like snacks, don't you?"

"Come on." Lu Xiulin turned around, "I often have social gatherings, sometimes I'm too busy drinking, and I don't have time to eat, so I always ask Lily to prepare some biscuits in the car."

"Oh." Jizhun chewed the biscuit in reply, only felt that there was something in his stomach at this time, and the discomfort was slightly relieved.

The heater was turned on in the car, Lu Xiulin was only wearing a shirt, but Ji Zhun was still wrapped in a thick coat.

The air conditioner kept blasting hot air at him, and Ji Zhun's face turned red.He lowered the car window slightly, looking at the colorful lights on both sides of the road through the fog that condensed on the glass.

"By the way, Heizi came to see me two days ago." Lu Xiulin said slowly, "You even took the initiative to ask about me and Xiao Hao. Did you tell him something?"

"No." Ji Zhun was stunned for a moment, then chewed a biscuit and added, "I haven't seen him since I left your place last time."

"Is it."

Ji Zhun paused, but still couldn't help asking Lu Xiulin, "So have you told him everything?"

"I said it." Lu Xiulin pushed down his glasses, "I followed your advice, and I told him everything that happened before."

"How did he say?"

"You should ask him yourself. In short, regarding the final results of the game hall, I decided to run it together with Heizi. He will continue to operate daily, and I will provide financial support, and each person will have half the share." Lu Xiulin touched the corner of his lips, "Contract It has been signed today, and both of us are quite satisfied."

"Really." Ji Zhun's stiff shoulders finally relaxed a little at this moment and sank, and said with a sigh of relief, "That's great, congratulations."

Lu Xiulin lowered his head and smiled, then raised his eyes to look at Ji Zhun again.

"Let's talk about you, why do you look so out of your mind?"

"Well, I didn't do well in the exam, and I'm afraid of being noisy." Jizhun licked the crumbs of the biscuit off his mouth.

Lu Xiulin raised his eyebrows, obviously knowing that Ji Zhun was talking nonsense.

Ji Zhun clapped his hands, returned the biscuit to Lu Xiulin and said, "What expression, don't you believe me?"

Lu Xiulin took the biscuit bag, sighed after a while, shook his head and said with a smile, "It's up to you, if you don't want to say it, forget it."

"." Jizhun lowered his eyes and raised his lower lip, "Thank you."

The car stopped at the door of Jizhun's house, Lu Xiulin took a bottle of red wine from the trunk that he had just brought back from the private winery, and entered the house with Jizhun.

Chen Jianye was very happy to see Lu Xiulin's sudden visit, so he forced him to drink and chat until late.Ji Zhun casually drank a couple of mouthfuls of soup and ate some rice before rushing upstairs first.After all, he didn't want Sister Jiao and Chen Jianye to see that he was in a bad mood.

Lie on the bed after taking a shower, turned on the computer, went to Land Rover and asked him if he was free tomorrow night, he wanted to treat Ji Zhun to a big meal, and told him a big event by the way.

Ji Zhun asked him to say something online and post his fart online, but this guy was so secretive and mean-spirited that he wouldn't let go.

Ji Zhun was upset and didn't bother to deal with him anymore, so he hastily set a meeting place for tomorrow, and sent him away quickly.

He swiped and pulled his fingers casually in the sensing area, selecting movies from the movie list.Suddenly, I saw the folder named [Waste Materials] again.

The fingertips seemed to be shocked by electricity, and they were suddenly pulled away from the sensing area.But at this time, the folder on the screen seemed to be endowed with a fatal attraction, tempting Ji Zhun to open it again and enter the password.

In the snowflakes, Tan Jingyang's slender figure walked slowly on the long street near No. [-] Middle School.

The camera shakes slightly, and outside the screen is himself asking questions with great interest:

"Who did you learn to draw from?"

"my mother."

"She's an art teacher?"

"Ah."

"Then do you want to be an art teacher in the future?"

"Do not want to."

"Then what?"

"Let's go to college first."

"Hey, absolutely! I said, can you stop being like a lazy donkey, I ask you a question."

"..."

"Forget it and call it a day."

"I like you."

I like you.

The computer screen was closed with a "snap", and Ji Zhun turned over and lay on his back on the bed, maintaining the same posture in the room without the lights on for an unknown period of time.

There was a faint sound of firecrackers outside, and it was the last week before the winter vacation.Not long after that, it will be the end of the year.

After the firecrackers were burned out, a faint smell of nitrate drifted through.It rushed into the nasal cavity, choking people sour.

Ji Zhun raised an arm to cover his eyes, and pulled the corners of his lips upwards.But in the end, he couldn't hold it for too long before he tightened his grip again and squeezed it away.

"Brother Yang..."

A weak voice briefly broke the silence of the night, but it was only for an instant that the tiger's teeth pierced the lower lip, blocked it, and swallowed it back.

The arm covering the eyes couldn't help pressing down again, and then turned his head away.

After an unknown amount of time, the downstairs started to become a little noisy. It should be that Lu Xiulin was about to leave, and Chen Jianye, who was drunk, insisted on keeping someone to stay.

Ji Zhun opened his eyes slightly, stared at the ceiling for a while, then propped himself up, got out of bed, opened the door and went downstairs.

Sister Jiao was trying her best to control Chen Jianye, who was flaring his teeth and claws. Seeing Ji Zhun, she hurriedly confessed to him: "Nao Nao, your stepfather is drunk, you can help send Mr. Lu off."

"Sister-in-law, don't bother me. I just called a substitute driver, and I'm already waiting at the door now."

Compared with Chen Jianye's drunkenness, Lu Xiulin's logic is clearer and his mood is much lighter at this time.

"I'd better take you to the door." Ji Zhun said as he took his coat from the hanger and put it on.

Lu Xiulin slightly curled his lower lip when he heard the words, nodded and said, "That's fine."

The two walked out of the small garden of Ji Zhun's house along the gravel road, and the surroundings suddenly became quiet.

Seeing Lu Xiulin get into the car, Ji Zhun explained a few more words to the driver, then waved at Lu Xiulin and said, "Be careful on the road."

Just as he turned around to leave, the glass window behind him was suddenly lowered.

"Wait." Lu Xiulin called out in a deep voice.

Ji Zhun stopped and looked back at him.Lu Xiulin paused for a moment, then opened the car door again, walked slowly to Ji Zhun, looked at him with a slight nod and said:

"Remember the question you asked me that day?"

Ji Zhun narrowed his eyes, and his body shuddered.

"I didn't answer you in time because I didn't even think about it myself. To be precise, I have been avoiding thinking about it."

He was silent for a while before continuing, "But after you left, I finally asked myself. Now, I think I should be able to give you an answer."

"It's... what."

Ji Zhun's eyes were a little blurred, and he asked softly subconsciously.

Lu Xiulin took a deep breath and looked at Ji Zhun with dark eyes:

"About the matter between me and Xiaohao, I really regret that I didn't stay by his side when he was in the most pain and helplessness... No matter what, I shouldn't leave him alone to face those things."

His throat rolled back and forth: "But if I do it again, I think I should still choose to fall in love with him..." Lu Xiulin closed his eyes, "So you know, I never fell in love with Su Hao. , and even in the future, I will never regret it. Because I really can't accept that there is no one named Su Hao in my world anymore."

After finishing speaking, he took another deep look at Ji Zhun and said softly, "Good night, kid."

……

……

At the same time, in the old house on the second floor of Tianshui Street, Tan Jingyang was silently washing the dishes in the sink over and over again.

His eyes were bloodshot, and the hand that was washing the dishes with the loofah was trembling uncontrollably at this moment.

"Snapped!"

A piercing sound made his eyes blink, and when he came back to his senses, a bloody gash had been drawn on his hand, which was trickling down the pool.

"Brother Yang!" Cheng Zui who heard the sound was startled when he saw this, and hurriedly searched for iodine and band-aids in the cabinet.

Tan Jingyang turned on the faucet and watched the blood on his hands be diluted by the water with a blank face, and then came out again.

"Did you say those words on purpose in front of Ji Zhun?" He turned sideways to avoid Cheng Zui's hand to disinfect him, stared at him with a gloomy expression and asked, "Why?"

Cheng Zui was taken aback for a moment, the look in his eyes made him feel strange, and his heart gradually became colder and sank involuntarily.

Afterwards, he raised his head with a steady breath, frowned and looked directly at Tan Jingyang and said softly:

"Am I wrong?"

Cheng Zui's lips curved sadly: "Brother Yang, you know me. I wish you well more than anyone else in this world... Is this also wrong?"

Tan Jingyang looked at him silently, and turned around again after a long time, continuing to brush the bowl in the sink with bloody hands.

Cheng Zui stood by the side, holding the iodine and a Band-Aid, and watched helplessly as the other party wiped the apron with his hand mixed with blood and detergent, then untied it into a ball and threw it aside.

"I'm going downstairs to throw out the garbage." Tan Jingyang put a cigarette in his mouth, picked up the garbage bag in the kitchen and walked out.

"still me……"

"Don't follow."

Before Cheng Zui could finish speaking, Tan Jingyang had already stepped out of the room, and slammed the door shut with a "bang".

……

At this time, Aunt Hui's massage parlor had already turned off the lights, and the shutter was pulled.

Except for the few street lamps that didn't work much at all, there was no other light source around.

After Tan Jingyang took out the trash, she sat down on the steps at the entrance of the corridor.The night gave him the best cover, so that he finally had a chance at this moment to release the fragility hidden in his eyes.

The birthday video that Ji Zhun sent to him was played over and over again, and most of the whole pack of cigarettes in his pocket was accidentally gone.

The blood seemed to have clotted, and the dry skin was tight and itchy.Tan Jingyang closed her eyes and curled her legs, buried her head on her knees, and quietly listened to the other party's singing voice coming from the phone.

Suddenly, a figure emerged from the passageway between the two buildings, and whispered to him not far away:

"Nephew? Is that you?"

Tan Jingyang raised his head, the fragility in his eyes was fleeting, and was quickly covered by a gloomy hostility.

"Yo, it's really you!" Yuan Chengwen rubbed his hands and jogged towards him, and exclaimed after seeing the blood on Tan Jingyang's hand, "Fuck, which bastard did it?!"

Tan Jingyang was too lazy to talk nonsense with him, she got up and turned around to go to the second floor.

Seeing this, Yuan Chengwen hurriedly embraced him, and said in a serious manner: "Hey, don't go first! I have been guarding here for a long time, and I didn't want to make you angry so I didn't dare to go upstairs and knock on the door. I saw that kid surnamed Ji from When you came out of your house, you left in a hurry... Are you two arguing? Tell me, did he do it for you! I will settle accounts with him tomorrow!"

Tan Jingyang only felt tired at the moment, rubbed his temples and said secretly: "I'm not in the mood today, no matter what you want from me, wait a few days before talking about it."

"Hey, okay!" Yuan Chengwen agreed again and again, but couldn't help but continue talking, "I heard that you have returned to Meicheng recently? How about it, let's go see your parents."

Tan Jingyang turned her head and stared at Yuan Chengwen: "Don't you understand human speech?"

"Hey, my mother is in a hurry!" Yuan Chengwen said as he took out a leaflet from his pocket, and said excitedly, "Look at this! A department store will be built in the old house soon." Well, it will be a prime location by then, and the house price will have to double anyway!...I have already inquired about it, and the shopping mall will be..."

"roll!"

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感谢在2021-10-2620:49:31~2021-10-2723:29:35期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: 1 soil one;

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: ah, 1 bottle at a time;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!