book of contract

"Inform ZAFT, this is the battleship Archangel belonging to the Earth Federation Army! This ship is currently protecting Lacus Klein, daughter of Seatel Klein, the chairman of the Supreme Council of the Plant. If you are attacked, we will regard the ghost party as giving up its responsibility to Miss Lacus Klein, and we will handle this matter freely. This is an announcement."

The words of Second Lieutenant Bucky Lulu silenced the universe, and even the artillery fire disappeared. In the end, Zaft chose to withdraw temporarily, but this inexplicable battle made Kira very uncomfortable.

It's so despicable... Aslan's roar was not Kira's inner thoughts.But it was also his behavior that created this despicableness. If he hadn't shot down that Jayne in the first place, would it have been much better if he hadn't rescued Lacus in the first place? Obviously it wasn't out of the idea of ​​using it.

——"Take a weak girl as a hostage and fight for such a despicable person. Is this what you call justice! Kira!"

Aslan's questioning made Kira clenched his hands, no, he didn't rescue Lax from the universe to be their hostage.At that moment, he even felt that dying on the battlefield would be better than now, at least he would not be condemned by his conscience.

They returned to the Archangel, Captain Mu got off the Type Zero, and seeing Kira's struggling expression, he knew what he was thinking. Although such behavior was indeed despicable and ugly, he had no choice. "I can only do this. The difference in combat strength between the enemy and ours is too great from the very beginning." Although Captain Mu said this, Kira didn't listen at all, passing him by, there was only one thing in Kira's mind. The idea, as expected, was wrong from the beginning.He really shouldn't have rescued Lacus Klein... He failed to protect the advance team, he failed to protect everyone's hope, and even that girl was involved...

Looking up, she saw Fei Yin was waiting for him standing on the bridge, "Welcome back, Kira."

"I..." Kira wanted to say something, but looking at Feiyin's calm eyes, she didn't say anything in the end. Feiyin never blamed him, so he felt even more sad... "Sorry ...Feiyin...I..."

"It's me who should be sorry. I was the one who instigated Kira to save Lax in the first place, so these mistakes are not Kira's." Feiyin could easily understand what he was talking about and why he apologized. He reached out and patted the top of his hair, "And Kira has done his best to protect the rest of the people, and he has done a good job. Don't blame yourself too much. Sorry, I failed to take good care of Lacus."

"It doesn't matter anymore, it's because I'm too weak." If he was stronger, and his strength was not so disparate with Zaft, he wouldn't let Lux become a hostage, and he wouldn't fail to protect the advance team. The scene of the explosion was still uncomfortable, "Fei Yin, how is Fu Lei?" He saw Fu Lei's father's advance team destroyed with his own eyes, and he was a little uneasy when he said Fu Lei's name.

"I was knocked out emotionally, I should be in the lounge now."

"Is that so..."

<<<<<<<

After waking up, Fleur found that she had been in the waiting room for a long time and couldn't get back to her senses. After a long time, the advance ship exploded again in her mind, bringing about collapse-like pain and despair. "Dad... Where is my dad..." She didn't want to believe the facts that stayed in her memory. If she could, she hoped that everything would be like a dream. When she woke up, all she saw was a nightmare.

When Sai Yi heard her question, he looked away somewhat evasively, unable to answer.

"Where's my father's boat... Tell me, Sai, my father is fine, right... Sai!" Fleur, who seemed to have grasped at the straw, held on to Sai's clothes tightly, and her body was restrained by emotion. Trembling and crying, "Tell me, what I saw is not real... Dad, he is not dead... Tell me, Sai..." Fleur cried and beat, Yet Say's silence was another answer, another acknowledgment of that unfortunate fact.

"No...no...don't...why did this happen!" Fleur's hoarse cry frightened Mirialia who came in and let go of her hand, letting the water bottle fall to the ground, watching the loss of a loved one and crying Fleur, but Miria could not comfort her.

"You lied to me, you said Kira was fighting, you said we'd all be fine, you said Kira would protect my dad, you told me! Liar, you're all big liars!"

However, when Kira walked in, she heard Fleur's questioning of Sai, and subconsciously took a step back.

"Flei." Seeing the weeping Flei, Sei couldn't help but tighten her arms, holding her in her arms and letting her cry aloud.None of them noticed Kira's arrival, only Miria saw him, "Kira."

Seeing Kira, Fleur seemed to have an outlet for her hatred, "Liar...why are you still standing here, why did you let Dad's ship be sunk, didn't you say you would protect us!"

"Could it be that you didn't fight with all your strength, because the opponent is a new human and you are also a new human, so you didn't fight seriously at all!" Fleur yelled loudly, and her hateful eyes forced Kira to be stabbed In pain, every word of her pierced deeply into his flesh and blood wound, and the slight trembling would be painful, "My father is dead, why are you still alive here! Why didn't you go to die! Bring father back Give it to me!"

However, no one noticed Kira's pale complexion, and Fleur vented all her pain with hurtful words, as if her pain could be alleviated.

"That's enough! Have you said enough! Apologize!" A coercive voice suddenly broke in. Feiyin never thought that she was just a step behind, and as soon as she got close, she heard Fu Lei's heart-wrenching words discourse.

"Haha...why should I apologize." Fleur, who was crying, was in extreme pain, but when she saw Fei Yin running out to speak for Kira, she smiled like a madman, and the tears continued to flow down Falling down, she looked at them, "Shouldn't I be hurt by what I said, Kira Yamato, obviously you are all new humans, since you didn't really plan to help us protect us, don't get close at the beginning! Pretending to be hypocritical Who are you going to show your face to!"

Pa... Under everyone's shocked eyes, Fei Yin slapped the tear-stained Fu Lei to the ground. "Have you said enough? Where are you going to put Kira, and how much pain are you going to make him! As I said before, no one deserves to protect you. Fighting desperately for you, but also Being accused by you, don't make me feel more sorry for him...you should stop it!"

"Ha, enough is enough? Forgive him? Protect us? Isn't it those ZAFTs, those new humans who really hurt us so badly!? They are obviously new humans, who knows if he really protects us! As you said No one deserves to protect us, so why should I believe that he didn't intend to kill us!"

"Fleur!" Sai and Mirialia were both hurt by Fleur's ruthless words. They didn't even dare to look into Kira's eyes. They all knew that Kira must be very sad to hear such words, but even There was nothing to help him, not even to stop Fleur's more hurtful words.

"What? Did I say something wrong? Don't you have any doubts in your heart?" Faced with Frey's crying question, everyone chose to remain silent.

When Feiyin and Fleur had been arguing, Kazuyi, who had been silent on the sidelines for a long time, didn't try to persuade her to fight. In the end, he looked at Kira suspiciously, "Maybe, it's really the same as what Fleur said, Kira, you don't really want to protect us, do you?"

Hearing Fleur's words, she screamed in pain, but Kira gritted her teeth and did not make a sound. Hearing Fleur's accusation, if this was the crime of killing her father and failing to protect the advance team, he would be willing to bear it. .However, the accusations from his trusted friend denied his efforts all the time, and struck him like a thunderbolt.

Didn't he really want to protect them?How could it be... Kira's face was pale, and he staggered back two steps. If it wasn't for the wall, he would probably fall down.

"I..." Just as he uttered a syllable, seeing Kazuy's suspicious and distrustful eyes, he bit his lips and did not continue speaking.His friends no longer trusted him, so no amount of excuses were necessary.It never occurred to him that he gave everything, but what he got was doubts, and the courage and belief that he had been deceiving all along seemed to be shattered at this moment.

"Kazui, that's enough." Mirialia wanted Kazui to shut up, but Kazui stopped looking at them all, as if the secret had been floating in his heart for too long and he couldn't bear it any longer.

"I heard, Kira, what you said to Fei Yin, the pilot who manipulated the Red Holy Shield Gundam is your good friend, right, Kira. He is your friend, so you can't do it, then What about us? Are you still friends?" Everyone was taken aback by what Kazuy said, and they all looked at Kira with complex expressions.

Are we still your friends?Hearing this sentence, Kira held back the wailing from his heart, and tried hard not to cry out. He clenched his teeth, his fingertips had penetrated into the palm of his hand, and the pain from piercing the skin could not be conveyed to his heart.

"Ha, sure enough..." Fleur seemed to be more certain of something when she heard Kazui's words, tears welled up in her eyes full of hatred, "The new human beings are different from us natural people from the beginning, obviously there is no People who are sick but change their genetic factors obviously violate the laws of nature and are wrong, why are there new human beings, why don't you die!"

"Have you said enough? Have you all said enough?" The hoarse voice seemed to be trying to suppress the raging storm. It would be like this, she knew all of this was what she was worried about, and it still happened in the end.Kira had been hurt by her and wanted to continue protecting them with lies, but they accused Kira one by one.

"That child has not given up the idea of ​​protecting you so far. Can you make me feel more pitiful for him?"

Hearing Feiyin's voice, Kira couldn't help feeling sad, something seemed to be broken in his heart, and all of Feiyin's cruel words echoed clearly in his ears.

"Before you were protected, didn't you think about Kira's pain at all? Did you really not notice it, or did you notice it and ignore it? Do you know what kind of mood he was fighting with? He rushed to the front line, But no one protects him like he protects you and fights for you. He has been suffering because he is a new human and is different from you. Yeah, I knew from the beginning that he should not be on the side of natural people. I started Just knew that his friend was driving that red Gundam."

Feiyin suppressed the emotions in her voice and spoke calmly and slowly, but with a bloody aura before the storm, everyone shut up. They could only listen and had no way to refute.

"For me, your lives are nothing. As long as I want, I can take you to die with me at any time. I'm not Kira. I don't have that kind of extra mercy, so I knew from the beginning that he was wrong. It's time, for this reason I persuaded him, let him go to his real partner, go to Zaft, it's much easier than fighting for you, isn't it? You don't need to be treated as a different kind, and you don't need to be accused... But He refused. For you, he and his best friend killed each other. Do you envy such an experience? Do you envy him who can fight as a new human being? Do you hate him, hate him for not being able to do everything in front of your friends? Do your best, but can’t do it? It’s only natural for him to be unable to do it. For this reason, he has suffered too much. Do you still blame him for not doing his best!? Don’t be too self-righteous!”

Fleur, who had been sobbing, suddenly stood up, grabbed Feiyin's collar unacceptably, and pulled hard to make her feel pained, "Is it me who made him suffer? Then who of you understands my pain?" I lost my father, don’t I deserve it! You are always speaking for him, that’s right, you are all new humans, you are all monsters with genetic changes, that’s why you protect him like this!” Fu Lei turned a blind eye to Fei Yin's face, and her words were even more unpleasant.

"Hey... yes, it really deserves it." Feyin didn't struggle uncomfortably when Fu Lei grabbed her collar, but raised the corners of her mouth coldly, the words made everyone startled.No one would have thought that someone would add fuel to the fire when Fleur was in pain and confess, but Feiyin didn't think they would consider her.

Fleur was even more frightened by her expression and let go of her hand, "You said... what?"

"I said, I am indeed a monster, but Kira is not... I said that you really deserve the pain! Indeed, I don't have parents, I can't understand your feelings, and I don't have the leisure to care about the mood of you, a young lady. But I know It is despicable to take out one's own fear on other people's pain."

She grabbed Fulei's wrist and pinned her to the ground with her backhand. Fulei's wrist hurt and fell to the ground. Before she had time to struggle with the pain, she was pinned down by Feiyin, "I said it earlier. , I am not Kira, I will not be gentle and considerate to you, I will never understand your pain... But, if you are really in such pain."

Concubine Yin, who was extremely angry, raised a warm and cruel smile.

Grabbing her by the neck, Fu Lei looked at Fei Yin's eyes with crazy scarlet in horror, "If the pain is really so unbearable, then I will send you to your father to relieve you! "

"Feiyin, stop!" Everyone saw that Feiyin was strangling Fulei's neck, and Fulei was struggling to grab her hand, her face turned red from suffocation, and they realized that Feiyin was serious. , not joking, they all wanted to pull her away, but at this moment Feiyin completely ignored Sai Yi and the others beside her, and only had one thought, which was to kill the girl in front of her.

Fu Lei was really scared, looking at Fei Yin who was smiling cruelly in front of her, as if she didn't care about life at all, that smile was so cold in her heart that she had no doubt that she would really be strangled to death.He tried desperately to break the hand on his neck but couldn't move.Tears are rushing out, she doesn't want to die...

Seeing her expression, Feiyin smiled even brighter, "Oh? Are you scared? I always see you crying constantly, show the courage to threaten to kill Lacus before, protect yourself with your own life, hide You who are behind others, you who stand here relying on others to fight and sacrifice to survive, are you entitled to cry? Are you entitled to hate?"

"Since it's so painful for you to lose your father, wouldn't it be nice for me to send you to accompany him? Accept it with a smile, why are you crying so ugly?" Fu Lei, who was choked by Fei Yin, felt extremely painful. She didn't want to die... didn't want to die at all... But listening to Fei Yin's words, she could only shake her head in embarrassment, unable to make a sound, and couldn't even maintain her ridiculous self-esteem.Patted and hammered Feiyin's hand with the remaining strength...

In the end, he looked at Kira who had been standing at the door with his head bowed as if asking for help, and stretched out his hand to Kira as if asking for help.

"Feiyin, stop, do you want to kill Fulei?" Sai and Mirialia wanted to pull Feiyin away, but her hands seemed to grow on Fulei's neck.

"Ah, hasn't she been clamoring for pain all the time, I'm going to do what she wants and let her go." Feiyin exerted her strength again, making Fu Lei feel as if she was going to suffocate completely.

"You who have been standing here watching Kira fight and accusing him, what have you done so far, have you done nothing!? Instead of hating Kira, you should hate yourself for being so small and doing everything No. Since it’s so useless, why don’t you all just die.”

Dole rushed in suddenly, seeing such a scene, even if he rushed in, he couldn't stop it, "Kira, Feiyin is crazy, why don't you stop her, do you want to watch her kill Fleur!? This sentence seemed to temporarily wake up Kira, causing Kira to subconsciously grab Feiyin's hand.They didn't try their best like Sayy and the others, or even didn't use any strength at all... But Feiyin's hand strength disappeared.

"That's enough, stop it, Fei Yin."

Feiyin didn't look up, but just looked at Fleur, who was panting in her hand, "She hates Kira, doesn't she, why did Kira stop me for her?"

"Because they are my friends."

"Huh? Kira, you are still saying that they are friends, but do they really regard you as a friend! They take your gentleness for granted, and they don't know how to appreciate you for protecting them with their lives. They are not sincere at all. Isn’t it good for you!? Why stop me!”

Seeing that Feiyin didn't let go of her hand, Kira finally couldn't bear the grief in her heart, "Even Feiyin didn't really treat me well at the beginning, did she!"

Kira's sad and desperate words were like thorns in Feiyin's heart, and she let go of Fulei's neck with her hot hands.

——Here, no one will really be good for you and care about you. ...You must think that I am very kind, but my tenderness to you may not be true, I just feel that you are very pitiful.

——All your efforts are meaningless, that's why I say you are poor...Be honest with yourself, no matter how gentle and beautiful their words are, but what is the truth?Kira, you, a new human, are doomed to be alone in this Earth army.

——Don't be naive anymore, no matter how much you deny my words now, sooner or later you will be forced to admit by what you see and hear, you are so pitiful that I can't bear to continue to deceive...

What Kira said was right, it was none other than her, Feiyin Fixiu, who stabbed him severely in the Eurasian Federation at the beginning.

Everything in front of her eyes only proved the correctness of her words at the beginning, and she sprinkled a handful of salt in the heart that was still bleeding without scars.

The harm caused by those words doesn’t matter if you don’t care about it, and you can’t see it. They are still hurting, and they bleed and fester in places that people can’t see and feel, and they never disappear.