Straight man strategy

Return trip

026. Return

After returning to the hotel in a daze for some reason, my mother came back by taxi after a while, packed her luggage without saying a word, and lived with me again according to the original room arrangement.

Uncle Gu didn't say anything and let her make arrangements.

When everything was settled, my mother sat on the bed in the hotel without saying a word, her face was solemn, and the remaining anger was still lingering.

After a while, she stood up, handed me the ointment borrowed from Teacher Gu, and said in a firm tone, "Use this first."

I took the ointment, went into the bathroom, and closed the door.

I really want to cry, but the tears seem to be running dry, and I can't flow any more.

The light was pale, and I looked into the huge mirror, and saw the person in the mirror, his face was pale, his hair was messed up, his eyes were dark circles, and he was full of defeat.

Yes, I'm suffocating...I'm so tired...I'm exhausted...what should I do?What can I do?

I shook my head and squatted down along the wall.

On the last day of the trip, on the return flight.

My mother sat next to me with an indifferent expression and refused to talk to me.

When I took out the damn diary, her eyes moved in surprise, and she said two words contemptuously: "Still writing?"

My eyes were inexplicably wet. They say women are made of water. For some reason, this big boy like me is crying like this.

"I don't surf the Internet, play online games, play basketball, or talk about girlfriends. Outside of studying, my hobbies are writing diaries and singing. Are you going to give up my only hobbies just because you read my diary?" I asked. Ignoring the feelings of others, silently release my inner dissatisfaction.

"..." Mom kept silent, stopped talking, turned off the light above her head, closed her eyes, and wondered if she was pretending to sleep.

I looked back and found Gu Yaocheng at a glance, he stands out from the crowd everywhere.

He met my gaze, then turned away in disgust.

One night a week after I got home, my mother told me a story that shook me.

It's about my dad.

"Yangyang, I want to talk to you." Mom walked into my room and sat on the bench next to me.

I was doing a math test and put down my pen. Unexpectedly, my mother who had ignored me for several days came to me on my own initiative.

But I pursed my lips and didn't want to talk to her. Thinking of her evaluation of me that day, I felt a dull pain in my heart.

My mother was thoughtful and calmly narrated: "Yangyang, I know you are angry with me, but there is something that has been in my heart for 18 years. After thinking about it, I decided to tell you,"

I raised my head to look at her, and found that she had a serious and distressed face, as if she was still hesitating whether to tell me, and her thoughts began to run wild again.

"Mom, what's the matter?"

"Actually..." She hesitated, and finally gritted her teeth and said, "Your father didn't die, he was still alive and healthy, but you never knew it."

"What?" I looked at my mother in surprise, it didn't seem like she was lying to me at all.

"Before, I lied about the story about mom and dad." Mom raised her head and looked directly at me. She was finally about to reveal the past, "Although it was true that I broke up with Uncle Gu first, but when we broke up, I I still love him, but he hurt me deeply... After breaking up for four years, I have never had a boyfriend again, and I was deeply locked in by the last relationship, and I couldn't let go of love for a long time, until I met your father."

【027】Past

027: the past

I was puzzled to find that she paused, then frowned, it seemed that the memory her father gave her was not so perfect.

"Your father is a warm and handsome man with fair skin, who works in the yogurt factory next to my company.

"He pursued me very enthusiastically. Every day after get off work, he waited for me downstairs in my company, invited me to dinner, and invited me to watch a movie...

"In the winter of that year, I had a high fever and didn't go to work, and in the afternoon he ran downstairs to my house to look for me.

"I didn't have any strength, so I reluctantly opened the door. He came in and looked at me who was sick, and helped me to bed with pity on his face, and then went to the kitchen to help me cook porridge. I woke up sick and dazed. , drinking that bowl of porridge, tears fell down. Then for a week, he took care of me day after day...

"I have been single for four years, and meeting such a man who can take care of others, I feel like God gave me compensation, so I gritted my teeth and told myself that I must get out of the previous relationship, and I accepted your father.

"Although I heard some bad rumors about your father when we were dating, I didn't care."

"... Bad rumors?" I muttered, looking at my mother, she was very calm, but this calmness made me feel scared, as if she would explode soon.

She didn't answer me, and began to recall as calmly as possible, but it was obvious that there was uncontrollable... grief and anger hidden in her voice.

"After about a year and a half of dating, we got married. In the fifth month, your dad went to work, and I was doing housework at home. When I was tidying up the desk, I was curious about those documents he always kept from me. What's the secret of getting married, so I opened it, and I didn't expect to read it, it was one letter after another... You can't believe the content on it..."

Mom grabbed my hand with a complicated expression.

"What's written on it?" I asked.

"It turned out to be two men who miss each other's letters! Two people are envious of each other, but I feel chills from the bottom of my heart."

"Ah?!" I frowned in surprise, "Mom...you mean..."

"Yes, your father likes men." My mother's resolute words sounded like thunder in my ears.

"It's impossible... If so, why did he marry you?"

"I was a little confused at the time, but I thought so too, so after your father came home from get off work, I took the stack of letters and asked him. Your father's is a gentle man. When he saw me holding the letters, his face turned pale, but immediately back again.

"He said that he had dated a girlfriend before, but his parents disagreed, so he told the girl to communicate with him with a boy's name and tone, and keep it from her family. I half believed it. Later, I comforted myself that there would be no Men who like men will calm down their doubts."

"Maybe what Dad said is true..." I explained.

"no!"

My mother shook her head in despair, that kind of "sorrow and anger" seemed to be almost uncontrollable.

"When I was pregnant with you for six months, a strange man called me one day, and he told me that your father likes men, and that he was with me just to cover up others, so that he can hang out with men with confidence. Finally, He said that if I don't believe it, I will find out when I go to Xie's Hotel in the afternoon.

"After thinking about it, I thought of the letters I saw before and the rumors I heard when your father was dating, so I decided to take a look."

【028】Shadow

028. Shadow

Mom continued:

"It was a cold winter, and I was alone with a big belly, and I stayed in the cold wind for a long time. Through the glass, I saw your father eating with another man. His expression seemed normal, but small movements always made people feel something was wrong. .

"About an hour later, they finished eating and walked along the street to the hotel opposite."

"Mom." I comforted, "If you haven't seen it with your own eyes, maybe it's not what you imagined."

"I saw it! After waiting outside the hotel for half an hour, I called your uncle, rushed into the hotel with him, and saw two naked... men. Your father looked at me in surprise, I I couldn't believe my eyes, my eyes went dark and I fainted.

"When I woke up, I saw your father at first sight. I was lying on the hospital bed. He smiled in surprise and came to hold my hand. I broke free from him, scolded him disgusting, and asked your father to marry me. Is it to take advantage of me? He...he answered very calmly, yes."

"Mom..." I hugged her.

"Grief and anger" finally broke out, and the mother sobbed incoherently: "Later we divorced."

Recalling that day of despair, she cried like pear blossoms and rain.The calm just now was a strong disguise, and now she is the one who is really hurt.

No wonder she never told me about her father, it turned out that he hurt her so deeply, just like Gu Yaocheng hurt me.

The thin mother was trembling in my arms. She experienced two relationships, both of which hurt her. It seems that our mother and son are really similar!

Suddenly, I could feel the turmoil and pain in my mother's heart.

"Yangyang, when I was in Sanya, my mother said 'sick', 'disgusting', 'unsightly', not talking about you, but talking about your father... At that time, I was pregnant with you and divorced your father. Divorce seemed to be the beginning. Soon your uncle died in a car accident. Your grandma and grandpa couldn’t bear the blow and were depressed. They passed away one after another. In just one year, everything changed. They're all against me."

how so! ?I thought to myself, why such a bloody tragedy happened in my family!

Mom continued with difficulty:

"But your life is innocent. I looked at you as a baby and told myself that I must bring you up, so I gritted my teeth and tried my best to survive...so...Yangyang, it was you who gave me the second Life, can you help mom again this time, "

"Mom..." I hesitated to speak, in fact, I really wanted to say "Can you think about it for me", but I couldn't say it.

"You and Gu Yaocheng are boys through and through, you won't have any results...Mom gave up on continuing to associate with Uncle Gu for you, can you break off ties with Gu Yaocheng for your mother's sake?"

"it is good……"

The mother in my arms is so weak that she seems to leave me