Straight man strategy

?Just one point, I am a boy, you are a boy, that is the gap between us that can never be bridged, isn't it? "I asked.

"Yin Xiangyang... Maybe I didn't express it accurately last time. It's not that I'm not 'impossible' to love you, but I'm 'shouldn't' love you." He said.

"What's 'impossible'? What's 'should'? Gu Yaocheng, don't play word games on me, I don't understand, it's just "you don't love me" anyway? Isn't it? Same—you don't love me!" I broke free from Gu Yaocheng's arm, stood up, and turned to leave.

He took my hand hard and ordered: "Turn back."

I said stubbornly, "I don't want to talk anymore, I want to go."

I was so restless that I wanted to escape, no matter where it was, in short, I needed to be alone to calm down and think about why no one loved me.

I am a very contradictory person, longing to be loved, and at the same time actively giving my love, but love is not that simple at all, it is not about every second of attention and milk every day, love is two people Things, even if you keep giving, what you get is not necessarily what you want.

It is impossible for me to be Yuan Xiangqin who is stupid but persistent and brave. Even if I were, I would never meet Jiang Zhishu who is calm on the outside but rich in heart. Even if I meet him, he may not necessarily love me...

No?

[046] Kiss under the stars

046. Kiss under the stars

Gu Yaocheng ordered again: "Turn back."

"Gu Yaocheng, we've reached a conclusion, haven't we? No one loves me!" I yelled.

"Turn back." He did not hesitate.

I turned my head helplessly, his pleasant and fresh bath aroma and the original scent secreted by a man came to me, he grabbed my shoulder like a shackle, then bent down, approaching my eyes.

I struggled in his strong and powerful arms in horror and moaned.

"what are you going to do?!"

"Kiss you."

"But it was hard for me to persuade myself not to love you..."

I'm not done yet...

Gu Yaocheng kissed me, his soft lips pressed against my lips, sucking gently, the breath gradually merged.The tip of his tongue lingered on my lips, gently, and then quietly grabbed my mouth.

tossing and turning.

In the mouth, the aroma of beer gradually overflowed, disturbing and intoxicating.

I kept struggling and clenched my teeth to prevent him from breaking through.

It seemed that he accidentally bit the tip of his tongue, and the smell of blood filled the whole space for a while. Taking advantage of my horror, he took advantage of the victory to pursue and finally broke through the line of defense.

I seem to remember that evening more than a year ago, when he saved me, and at the same time, because of an involuntary kiss, he pushed me into a vortex of emotions that would never be restored.It was just scratching the surface then, but this time, he grabbed my body and searched me deeply.

I couldn't move, dizzy from his kiss.It was so gentle that I couldn't resist, my body gradually softened in his strong arms.

He also let go of his defenses, hugged me, and kissed me unscrupulously as if no one else was around.

In such a quiet night, I seemed to feel that there was a gaze watching us, and my reason finally came to life slowly. I bit the tip of his tongue, and he paused in pain, and I deftly escaped from his shackles.

"Gu Yaocheng!" I gasped in horror, "Didn't you pretend not to push the two of us to the end? Now? What are you doing? Are you crazy?"

As if waking up from a dream, he said, "I'm sorry."

In fact, it took me a lot of effort to persuade myself not to love him anymore. I was afraid that we would make love just because of some "can't help it" or just because of what he said before "accumulated experience". A stupid thing that both of them will regret.

It is impossible for me to tell him my love as freely as I did back then, and it is even more impossible for me to say to him "Loving you is just my personal business, and I don't need you to do anything for me".

Love is selfish, I can accept "I love him" more than "he loves me", but if I love him, but he doesn't love me, I will die.

I cried, couldn't control my tears, they were pouring out.

But just now I almost failed, almost melted into his arms, almost thought he loved me, almost fell in love with him again.

He hugged me in surprise to comfort me, and I struggled to break free from him.

"Cheng, let me win once, just once, okay?" I muttered, "Gu Yaocheng...don't let your hormones control your behavior...you don't love me."

"Not hormones," he retorted.

What is that if it's not hormones?Could it be that he gradually fell in love with me irresistibly?Would he say to me "Yin Xiangyang, let's try to love" without considering any complicated consequences?Ha ha, how is it possible!

He let go of his arms and took two steps back slowly. I raised my head and observed his every move.

He spat, and the corner of his mouth raised an ambiguous and contemptuous arc: "Your lips are disgusting."

I looked straight at Gu Yaocheng in horror, frivolity and cynicism radiated from him, this is not the normal him.

"I didn't let you kiss me!"

"Didn't you make me responsible? If I don't ask you, what else do you want from me?" He was angry.

"how could I know……"

"Yin Xiangyang, let me tell you, we are all boys, you don't still hold hopeless thoughts and expect me to love you, I can't fucking love you, so it's just a shit!" He dropped the beer can in his hand on the grass and bounced it far away.

"..." I grabbed his sleeve.

He shook my hand away viciously: "Yin Xiangyang, let me tell you, I persuaded you before that I also thought Shao Yuwei liked you and asked you to accept her. In fact, I had bad intentions. You don't spend a day with other girls. , I don’t feel safe, when I contact you, I always feel that you seem to want to have something disgusting with me, such as sex, I hate gays, it’s too disgusting, so my relationship with Gu Yaojie is not good..."

"Gu Yaocheng, what's wrong with you..." But I stared at this strange man.

"I just want to tell you my true thoughts, that's all!" He said, "I have been patiently calling you, contacting you, and playing tricks all the time. Didn't you realize that you are so sensitive? Don't cry for me! Crying and crying all night, you are a boy!"

What's going on here?

First she was deceived by Shao Yuwei, and then molested by Gu Yaojie, now this Gu Yaocheng who just kissed me voluntarily said such unfeeling words to me.

The most tragic day in my life, even more tragic than the day those perverts forcibly took off my clothes.

Didn't he keep saying that he is my best friend?Didn't he swear that if Shao Yuwei cheated on me, he would be responsible for me?

fart.

It turned out that he was a liar like Lu Simeng, and as selfish as Hu Jiaqi.

I'm going crazy, the world is getting darker and I can't see the light.

My name is Xiangyang, I always thought that I was a sunflower that always faces the sun, and Gu Yaocheng is the shining sun, he is my direction, if I lose him, I will lose my direction.So when he said you couldn't possibly love me, I just kept hypnotizing myself and just let us be friends, best friends, and that would be enough.

No one knows that I really want to be with him, really want to have a relationship with him, so when he told me that he was in a relationship with Hu Jiaqi, when he was with her, when that When I found out that he and Hu Jiaqi were still together in the middle of the night, my heart was entangled, and the pain almost paralyzed all my nerves.

But I still want to tell myself desperately that we are just friends, and I still have to face them with a smile and travel with them.

——It's so hard to pretend.

I tried my best to suppress it, suppressed my deep feelings for him in the deepest part of my heart, and warned myself, I must not cross the threshold, otherwise I would not even be able to be a friend.

I was so careful to be friends with him, why did he forcefully push me out?

He is not worthy of my love at all, is he?

"Do you want to play wild?" he said jokingly.

I looked over in confusion, and saw his dark eyes were like a deep well, and I couldn't see anything clearly.

He continued:

"Let's play wild games here!"

[047] slap

047. Slap

Gu Yaocheng picked up a can of beer from the ground, took a sip, and continued to say contemptuously and jokingly:

"Responsible? In addition to kissing you, I can actually blow your ass. Although I feel disgusting, but Gu Yaojie plays so high every time, I can try it too."

He paused, dropped the beer can on the ground, took two steps closer, lowered his head and approached me.His handsome face was clearly magnified in front of me, the smell of alcohol came out, and there was a wicked smile on the corner of his mouth.

"How is it? There is no one in this elementary school now, why don't we play field games here?"

"Gu Yaocheng!"

I hold back my tears.

"you!"

I waved angrily and slapped him on the cheek.

A "pop" resounded through the night.

He didn't stop me, and let me slap him heavily on the face, it was very dark, but I could clearly see the redness and swelling that quickly emerged on his handsome cheek.

I feel a little distressed again.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

He was still laughing, but the smile was a bit stiff: "You are not sorry, I was the one who said that I should be responsible to you, ha ha, so that is what I should be responsible for, then we will owe nothing to each other!"

After all, with a stiff smile, Gu Yaocheng walked past me, leaving this lawn and this starry sky.

And I was thinking about how I should deal with the relationship between me and him, and then