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Su Li thought he was going to die, but he still woke up.

There was a real problem with his heart, which was detected during the physical examination at the school hospital last semester. The school doctor asked him to go to a big hospital for further examination, which seemed to be serious.

The roommate said that his brother suffered from that kind of disease. With the current level of medical treatment, unless there is a heart transplant, the surgery cannot cure him.In the later stage of development, death may usher in at any time.

He has been delaying going to the hospital. When the counselor asked, he only said that he had been there, not a heart attack, but acute anxiety syndrome.

Yes, from a very young age, he has been diagnosed with acute anxiety disorders.

It was an embarrassing disease that was very hypocritical in the eyes of his parents.

In fact, since he could remember, every time he got sick, he couldn't help worrying that he would die.

For an untimely person like him to die like this, if a person really has a soul, how embarrassing it would be for him.

Now is not the time.

He didn't know if other people were simply afraid of death.Perhaps, for those who have truly faced life and death, what frightens them most is not death itself.

Like himself.

If he dies at home now, no one will find out in time, then his soul may have to watch his body slowly, gradually rotting away bit by bit.Then the unlucky nanny, when cleaning the room after the seven-day holiday, was about to see a pool of unsightly rotten meat.

Xu Neng's room was cold because the air conditioner was broken. Fortunately, seven days were not enough for the corpse to rot.

But she would still scream.

Once, I don't remember what mistake he made again. I think it must have something to do with Su Xu, otherwise Father Su wouldn't be so violent. He threw a puppy he raised down the third floor and threw it on the ground in a fit of anger. In the flower bed of the building, he was killed on the spot.

It was a snowball-like, warm and soft puppy, with blood gushing out of its mouth and nose. It was originally like a black gem, and its eyes were black and wide open, and it didn't react to what happened until it died. What.

The nanny saw it and yelled, which sounded a bit miserable.

If it was his corpse, exuding a disgusting smell, appearing in this home, or any inappropriate place, it would be a harm to others and oneself.

His soul, perhaps before being cremated, will remain imprisoned in that unbearable corpse, and you can still see the various expressions of disdain, contempt, ridicule, or indifference when people mention him.

Just like every attack, those eyes that follow you like a shadow come from your close relatives.

Just remembering this kind of feeling made him feel chilly and painful, and he was so ashamed that he couldn't help himself.

Mother Su would sometimes lose control, pointing at his nose and scolding him for being hypocritical. When Father Su was in a good mood, he would list a series of news and gossip, and explain his motives for "acting" to Mother Su in detail, saying that he saw his twin brother Su Xuyin Being sick received extra care, so subconsciously pretending to be sick to gain more attention, many children do this, maybe not on purpose, let Su's mother calm down, don't be as knowledgeable as him.

When Su's mother heard this, she just sneered, saying that subconsciously, he didn't want his parents to worry.

Su Xu was weak and sickly when he was a child. One year's New Year's Eve, he had a high fever and kept talking nonsense. The whole family went straight to the emergency department of the hospital overnight.

Unexpectedly, the youngest son's condition has not yet stabilized, and the eldest son fell to the ground clutching his chest again.

After a series of examinations, unsurprisingly, the results were the same as those after each of his previous seizures.

I saw the young doctor pushed his glasses, coughed lightly, said that no organic health problems were found, suspected acute anxiety disorder, and tactfully suggested that parents should give more care to their children.

Su's mother broke down and burst into tears, saying that your younger brother has burnt pneumonia, what kind of trouble is there for an older brother, you are so cruel.

Su's father went into business. He just resigned from the public office at the beginning of the year, and his business is about to start. Nian Gen's capital turnover is difficult, and he is facing a lawsuit on his head. Give him a good beating.

After tossing and tossing until midnight, Su Xu's condition finally stabilized.

Su Li was lying on a bench outside the ward, still numb all over and struggling to breathe.

A few nurses on the night shift passed by, pointing and laughing at him.

Vaguely, he heard them discussing the ins and outs of his "pretending to be sick" in low voices.It seems that a child as young as Tao can continue to act after being spotted.

Su's mother stayed in the ward to take care of Su Xu. Su's father came out to complete the admission procedures, and happened to pass by at this time. Hearing this, the anger that had never been extinguished ignited again, and he kicked Su Li to the ground.

He has almost no memory of what happened after that.

After middle school, Zu Li secretly saved money to buy some psychology books. According to the book, for some extremely painful and unbearable past events, the brain may selectively forget them for the purpose of protection.

Later, I heard from a neighbor that during the winter vacation that year, the two brothers, one had pneumonia and the other suffered rib fractures, and both were hospitalized.

He was just six years old that year.

Yes, I almost forgot that New Year's Eve is his birthday.

He came to the world at the darkest hour before dawn. Su Xu was wrapped around his neck by his umbilical cord for some reason, and almost died young.

Su Li thought to himself, it seemed that every New Year's Eve, he would experience some ups and downs.

More or less, it was all related to Su Xu.

Perhaps it was because he absorbed the nutrients that originally belonged to Su Xu in his mother's womb, which made him congenitally deficient, and almost killed him when he was born, which laid many hidden dangers for his frailty and sickness when he was young.What he owes him should be repaid double.