Red plums reflect youth

Thinking of the worldly perspective, Ziqing couldn't help feeling secretly.

In Pingyang City, the south wind prevails, and the famous families are proud of competing for male favors. Even the Nanxiang Pavilion is booming in business, with a constant flow of customers.However, the world's approval of this matter is only for fun, so the status of those male favorites is extremely low, three points lower than that of brothel women.If two men live together like husband and wife without marrying a wife and having children, then it is simply outrageous and outrageous.

This elegant young man was as beautiful as a flower when he was young, and he had to be provoked by a few princes and nobles.Once she has lost her head, lost her way, or is forced by her life experience to bow down to a man, she will be raised in a deep house, pampered and proud.

However, there is no such thing as a hundred-day red flower, and no one is young anymore. When you get old and look bad, you get tired of being played by others, and you get tired of it, and you are kicked out of the door.They can't lift their hands, they can't resist their shoulders, they are cast aside by others, and they have no way out, so most of them just live in sorrow and end their lives.

There are very few people who stick to one thing, after all, people's hearts are changeable.Even if you can end it all at once, you can only watch when someone gets married and has children, and then compete with other people's three wives and four concubines for favors and jealousy. How miserable your life is, only you knew.

Ziqing Zaohui, he knows all these worldly things.

but,

"I was glad when he kissed me."

Ziqing looked at the wooden fish quietly and said leisurely.

Perhaps it was because he discovered that Master Wu had such a magnanimous attitude towards Li Jinyuan's matter, and he felt that he could also understand his tortuous thoughts, so he couldn't help but want to confide.

When Master Wu heard the words, he was neither startled nor surprised, he still smiled kindly, and knocked on the wooden fish in a calm and unhurried manner.

"Boom boom boom, boom boom boom, boom boom boom" spread to the distant horizon.

"I know my heart, and it started from a very early age." Ziqing continued, looking out of the window following the dim light of light.

Ziqing remembered when she was a child, one day, under the bright sun, Qiao Yang smiled at him against the light, that smile was bright and clean, Ziqing's heart suddenly thumped, and her face blushed involuntarily.

Afterwards, no matter how late Qiao Yang came back, Ziqing would not go to sleep until he heard the sound of him returning to the house.Inadvertent eye contact will make Ziqing's heart beat faster and she will be at a loss.Hearing that he went to brothels and brothels, he would feel secretly sad.

"At that time, he loved me like a younger brother."

Ziqing understood her thoughts and felt hopeless.So intentionally or unintentionally, she avoided being alone with Qiao Yang, and also deliberately acted indifferent to his intimacy.

Later, I heard more and saw more.I understand how unbearable my feelings are in the world.So he hid his thoughts more carefully.

"Besides, parents are also expecting him to marry a wife and have children."

Liu's father and Liu's mother took pity on Ziqing's life experience and took good care of him. Ziqing was too late to be grateful. How could he bear to involve them in the eyes of the neighbors?Although I suddenly heard that my parents wanted Qiao Yang to spread out, I still felt a pain in my heart, and I took Qiao Sheng's cup by mistake.

"Later, I felt that it was the best ending for me and him to be my elder brother, my elder brother for the rest of my life."

In this way, Ziqing could secretly feel Qiao Yang's warmth and watch him from afar.

"He kissed me instead."

That day when she peeked at Qiao Yang's sleeping face, she was smashed. Ziqing was ashamed and turned around to leave, but Qiao Yang pressed her down and forced her to kiss her.Ziqing just felt dizzy, and felt ashamed and happy at the same time.Annoyed at him pretending to be drunk, but glad he did.

"And humiliate me."

Ziqing admits his heart, but it doesn't mean that he is willing to condescend to another man as a man.What's more, Qiao Yang only regards himself as a young man's favourite, disregarding his own dignity.What Ziqing wants is pure love, and he doesn't want to be as happy as those in the romantic arena.If it's not true, why bother.

"He didn't think of himself as a relative."

When Qiao Yang categorically denied that Ziqing was his younger brother, Ziqing felt that he had shattered Ziqing's last illusion about their relationship.Unexpectedly, Qiao Yang always regarded himself as an outsider.No wonder you can play with yourself unscrupulously.

"Trying to humiliate me over and over again, but when I heard him say that he likes me with my own ears, I was actually fascinated..."

At that time, Ziqing was immersed in grief and sadness because of his life experience. He didn't eat rice for a few days, and he was already in a daze. Coupled with the previous struggle, he exhausted all his strength.When the phrase "I like you" that I have been looking forward to for so many times came unexpectedly, I was already fooled, and Qiao Yang succeeded.However, Ziqing had no experience other than pain, shame and humiliation in her first love affair.

"I don't know how to deal with myself, I am full of guilt towards my parents, but that person can continue to look for flowers and ask Liu calmly... I don't know how many men and women I have said to the phrase 'I like you'..."

"What else can I do but leave?"

After Ziqing finished speaking, there was a long silence.

It was already dusk outside the window, the fishing boats were singing late, and the old geese had returned to their nests.

Then he got up and said goodbye, and walked into the lonely and drowsy twilight alone.

Master Wu still knocked on the wooden fish "Boom, Boom, Boom".It seems that those sad thoughts have been blown away by the wind.

Amidst the leisurely leisure, a slight sigh was inaudible.

...Ziqing is the first protagonist in my story, and his personality and psychology are actually quite complicated.Children's shoes have watched this passage, if you go to watch Ziqing's play before he left home, I believe you will have a different understanding.His awkwardness and his determination made Fu Liu Xiaoxiao feel very distressed...

... The tone of this chapter is a bit sad. I present the Q version of Ziqing's Enlightenment Dialogue Collection to adjust it...

"When he kissed me, my heart rejoiced."

Wu Wuxin added: "Well, it has BL potential."

"And humiliate me."

Enlightenment added: "Well, I don't have the awareness to be 0."

After comprehending Ziqing’s thoughts about the slightly larger amount of information (male, brother, strong attack, slag Gong), I concluded: Ziqing wants the author to write the story in Qingshui style, and Qiao Yang wants the author to write the story in heavy Speaking, the contradiction between the two is irreconcilable, so I will go.

Fuliu Xiaoxiao directly ignored her comprehension, stared at Ziqing's confession of her feelings about the last affair, poked Qiao Yang's head and cursed: What the hell did you do that time!To leave such a serious psychological shadow on Ziqing! !You told me how much work I will have to do to help you with Ting Ziqing in the future! ! !