Under the clouds

Zang Lanbai hugged Fang Mu and walked to the resort hotel. When he was away from the beach, Zang Lanbai found that Fang Mu was still staring at the sea in the distance with his eyes open.

"The sea is not black, because the sea becomes black when it is dark."

Fang Mu's curled eyelashes cast a shadow on his lower eyelid: "Can't it be dark that day?"

Fang Mu began to ask questions that Zang Lanbai could not answer.

Fortunately, Fang Mu didn't ask persistently, as if he had to have an answer, he calmed down on Zang Lanbai.

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Zang Lanbai woke up very early the next morning. He glanced at the time and it was only after five o'clock.

Fang Mu had a lot of activities during the day yesterday, and went out again at night. It was already two o'clock in the morning after Zang Lanbai washed his body.

Although Fang Mu's biological clock is always at nine o'clock in the morning, Zang Lanbai guessed that he would wake up a little later today.

He decided to go for a morning swim in the hotel's swimming pool, and bring this morning's breakfast with him when he returned to his room.

Although Fang Mu seldom woke up very early, most of the time he had the habit of sleeping late, but because of what happened last night, Zang Lanbai still locked the door carefully when he went out.

According to his plan, before Fang Mu woke up, he should come over 10 minutes earlier.

But Zang Lanbai didn't expect that Fang Mu woke up almost a minute after he left.

Probably due to the aftereffects of a hangover, Fang Mu felt his mind groggy. He sat up and found that he was not in the pajamas he put on before going to bed yesterday.

The memory came back, and several vague fragments flashed back in Fang Mu's mind.

The cold black sea water, Zang Lanbai's emotional shouts, and reckless kisses...

The most difficult thing for him to face was the random promise to Zang Lanbai when he was unconscious.

Fang Mu had a splitting headache. He knew that he was causing trouble for Zang Lanbai again, and he didn't know how Zang Lanbai felt when he went to the beach in the middle of the night to drag him back to find some cat island mental patient.

Will he feel that Fang Mu, who is always burdening him, is a hopeless mental patient? There will be a day when his patience will run out, it always happens, who can stand such weariness? .

One day Fang Mu's fun will turn into trouble.

Fang Mu got off the bed, and after returning with reason, there were endless gloomy thoughts, as if he had fallen into an emotional black hole of self-loathing.

Going into the bathroom to wash, he stiffened his hands and feet, looking at the empty bed, Zang Lanbai didn't know where he went.

He forced himself to turn his eyes back, and warned himself again that it was not a good sign to rely on Zanglan cypress like this.

The pale young man in the mirror had empty eyes and disheveled hair, some of which were sticking up in disorder.

"Click" is the sound of the door lock turning.

After brushing his teeth, Fang Mu raised his head suddenly after washing his face.

The next moment, he saw a face in the mirror that he never wanted to see in his life.

The scene in the room was changing, he saw the dark red velvet carpet, and the man's deep and cold voice rang in Fang Mu's ear.

"Oh, you still sneak out to audition, what kind of movie do you want to act in, a third-level movie?"

"It's a pity that you will never appear in front of any camera in your life."

Fang Mu's temples throbbed, the lights flickered in front of his eyes, and the tall black figure haunted Fang Mu like a nightmare.

His legs softened, and he struggled to support his body. He put his hands on the sink, shook his head, and blinked vigorously, as if he wanted to get rid of the lingering black shadow that followed him everywhere. Throw it out of your head.

"Get off... get off!" Fang Mu couldn't see clearly what was in front of him, and as if losing all reason, he threw everything he could grab at the figure that was gradually approaching him: "Go to hell! Don't come here!"

The sound of something breaking, Fang Mu fell to the ground, his hand was hit by something, after a moment of stinging, warm liquid flowed from his palm, and a bloody smell began to emerge in the air, but Fang Mu, who had already fallen into panic, had already No time to take care of.

He hurriedly crawled out of the bathroom on hands and feet, covered in cold sweat, thinking silently, this is an illusion, this is an illusion...

Not true, it's not true.

He struggled to get to the bedside table, opened the drawer and pulled out the medicine, unscrewed the medicine bottle, and poured out the pills, his hands were shaking badly, and the pills were scattered all over the floor.

He randomly picked up a few pieces and stuffed them into his mouth, he swallowed dryly but his throat was stuck, he coughed violently dryly, his other hand was trembling on the bedside table, he reached for the water glass, grabbed it, raised his head and took a big gulp before it was over The pills were delivered.

When the phantom in front of Fang Mu disappeared, he sat on the ground beside the bed, his chest was full of the water that was spilled just now when he couldn't hold the water cup, and he sat there blankly looking at the mess in the room.

She blinked her eyes slowly, and then a tear flowed down her cheeks.

Fang Mu bent his knees, buried his face in them, and began to sob and cry.

He began to realize that he couldn't get better, the more complete his memory was, the worse his condition would be, and he thought again, how could this happen, the more complete, the more broken.

But this may be the eternal unsolvable contradiction that happened to him.

He can't get over the past, he can't get over it at all.Not to mention the past, he doesn't even have a future that he can choose, Xu Duming can't let him go, everything between him and Zang Lanbai will end on the day the transaction ends.

Then he would go back, back to Chateau Tenerai, to be auctioned off to the next buyer.

He couldn't resist Xu Duming, his strength was too weak, and the countless attempts he had made brought him even more painful torture.

Will there ever be an end?

Fang Mu's throat choked, as if the only solution before him was death, and death was the only antidote to save him, and it was a great gift from heaven.

As long as Xu Duming is still alive and exists, the pain will never end. Fang Mu's illness will not be cured, and he may take lifelong medication to control his illness, or go completely crazy.

Confused to live, or sober to die.

Fang Mu can make a choice almost without thinking.

But do you want to die now?

But... But there is still Zanglan Cypress.

When Zang Lanbai came back, he saw Fang Mu sitting on the ground, the ground was in a mess, broken water cups, scattered pills, and water stains on the floor.

Fang Mu's hand was injured, and his pajamas were stained with blood.

Zang Lanbai held the breakfast plate in his hand, and when he walked in front of Fang Mu, he saw that in the bathroom, all the toiletries and the bottles and jars in the bathroom were spared, and a large piece of the mirror was also broken.

Zang Lanbai put the meal aside first, then picked Fang Mu up first, and put him on the bed.

Fang Mu didn't dare to look at him, it was obvious that he had cried.

Zang Lanbai didn't show any impatience caused by Fang Mu's illness, and at the same time, he didn't feel any self-blame or guilt because of his short departure.

Zang Lanbai just seemed to be very patient and calm to treat the wound on Fang Mu's hand, and then called the hotel staff to clean the room.

He held Fang Mu's hand, and when he wrapped the bandage on it, his eyes stopped at the pulse on the inside of Fang Mu's wrist.

Fortunately, there were no wounds there, and Zang Lanbai was not very sure now that Fang Mu would not really have the idea of ​​committing suicide.

Just when he confirmed it and heaved a sigh of relief, his hand slipped across his wrist inadvertently, and he immediately noticed something was wrong.

Zang Lanbai grabbed Fang Mu's hand with his hand, and stroked the inside of Fang Mu's wrist with his other finger. He found a very shallow scar there, but the color of the scar was exactly the same as his skin color, and it was too light , If you don't touch it carefully, it is really difficult to detect with the naked eye.

Zang Lanbai suspects that scar removal has been done here.

"Mumu, don't you want to live?" The tone seemed very casual.

Fang Mu replied without hesitation: "No, I never wanted to live."

Zang Lanbai didn't speak. During the silence, Fang Mu suddenly asked, "Is it a third-level movie?"

Zang Lanbai was stunned for a moment, and then realized what Fang Mu was talking about, and he quickly denied: "No."

After listening to Zang Lanbai's answer, Fang Mu said in a low voice, "Oh."

"Mr. Zang, have you been in love many times?"

Zang Lanbai began to feel that something had changed in Fang Mu, just in less than four or ten minutes after he left.

"Not too many." Zang Lanbai looked at Fang Mu and began to give a very detailed answer: "To be precise, there have been four times. We talked about our first love for four years, and then we talked about three terms in two years. After two and a half years, I met you."

After listening to Zang Lanbai's answer, Fang Mu said lightly, "That's very good."

Zang Lanbai seems to be a person who is very good at dating and loves dating, and this episode with Fang Mu may only be one of the innocuous love stories.

It may be the number "five" when Zang Lanbai was introduced to others.

Fang Mu thought, then I am the fifth term.

"I was drunk last night."

Zang Lanbai's eyes changed slightly: "So you want to say that the things you promised me don't count?"

"I didn't mean that." Fang Mu was a little ashamed, as if he felt that he had a bad reputation in Zanglanbai.

Zang Lanbai asked patiently, "What does that mean?"

Fang Mu thought about it for a while, and then said as if he had considered his words: "I want to have the last relationship and act in the last movie."

Then decide to die happily ever after.

After saying this decision, Fang Mu seemed to feel lighter all over his body.

Zang Lanbai looked at Fang Mu without making a sound for a long time. He held Fang Mu's wrist and gently stroked the scar with his fingers.

Finally he said, "It's a bit difficult, but I think I'm willing to try."

At this time, Fang Mu still didn't understand whether Zang Lanbai's answer was aimed at "the last relationship" or "the last movie", but it was a bit difficult for Zang Lanbai to answer. Concluded.

In fact, in Zang Lanbai, the "last love" is not Fang Mu's decision for himself, but an invitation to himself to be his lifelong love partner.

When night fell again, Fang Mu looked at a pair of handcuffs that had been modified and padded with fluff on the big bed, and couldn't help but widen his eyes.

Zang Lanbai came out of the bathroom, looked at Fang Mu who saw him take a big step back, and looked at the thing he bought on the bed, and couldn't help laughing: "What are you afraid of, I don't have those hobbies."

He first went to the door of the room and twisted the lock carefully twice, then returned to the bed and put on the leather ring handcuffs for himself first, then went to pull Fang Mu's hand and handcuffed it on.

After all this was done, he seemed to be somewhat satisfied, and dragged Fang Mu into the bed, hugging him and closing his eyes.

After a few seconds, Zang Lanbai opened his eyes and looked at Fang Mu in his arms with his eyes wide open.

Fang Mu didn't know what he was thinking about, and his expression was very dazed. When he heard Zang Lanbai calling him, he came back to his senses, and said to Zang Lanbai as if he was about to cry, "I'm sorry."

Zang Lanbai sighed slightly, and then buried his face on Fang Mu's thin shoulders compared to himself: "Your expression makes me feel like I haven't hugged you at all."

This year's Spring Festival was spent by the two of them on this small island. Fang Mu heard him wish happy new year to his friends and relatives on the balcony.

Then they called the hotel to bring the wine.

Originally, when Fang Mu got drunk and ran to the beach that night, Zang Lanbai forbade him from drinking again.

Fang Mu drank to his heart's content that night, and after drinking, he tossed with Zang Lanbo on the hotel bed until the early hours of the morning.

Fang Mu's medication time and how many pills he took are all recorded in the phone memo, and a reminder is set up on time.

Before returning to S City, Zang Lanbai took him to a European specialist hospital for the treatment of mental illness for an examination.

Fang Mu's condition gradually stabilized, and most importantly, he himself began to cooperate with the treatment, which made things less difficult than before.

It was still winter when they left, and it was early summer when they came back again.

A week after returning to their apartment, Luo Yan came home.

Zang Lanbai is still in the study, only Fang Mu is in the living room.

When Luo Yan came in and saw Fang Mu, he didn't know what expression to put on for a while. After he knew Fang Mu's experience, he had very strong sympathy for him, but at the same time, he didn't want to hide Lan Bai because of this. Sympathize with yourself and fall into it.

"Sorry, I only have coffee, water, and apple juice at home."

Luo Yan said, "Coffee."

Fang Mu picked up coffee for Luo Yan at the coffee machine, then walked over to pass it to him, and saw that he forgot his cup on the piano, and when he walked over to get it, Luo Yan suddenly reminded him behind him.

"Hey, don't touch his piano. It's precious. Usually, anyone but himself will be upset if he touches it."

Luo Yan watched him go there, and blurted out reflexively without much thought. After seeing Fang Mu's subtle expression, he looked at the three pianos in the living room.

"Why are you blushing?" Luo Yan frowned, a little confused.

The next moment, he seemed to think of something, suddenly took a big step back, and shouted: "You guys! You have done it there!"

He reacted as if he was avoiding some filth, and he was still introducing to Fang Mu solemnly that it was Zang Lanbai's precious piano just for a second.

Zang Lanbai heard the voice and saw Fang Mu standing at a loss, his fair face flushed, and Luo Yan over there yelling like a homophobic person.

Fang Mu breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Zang Lanbai come out, walked over, and whispered to Zang Lanbai, "I'm going back to the bedroom first."

Zang Lanbai nodded and did not stop him.

When Fang Mu left and Zang Lanbai sat down on the sofa, Luo Yan seemed to calm down his emotions, and then handed Zang Lanbai a document from his hand.

"what is this?"

Luo Yan: "I've already arranged for a small web drama that will start filming recently. This is the script, and a third male will be played in it. Let him prepare in advance."

Hearing this, Zang Lanbai withdrew his hand that was about to take it, which meant that he didn't plan to watch it.

"No, Fang Mu said, we will take a break after the last film." Zang Lanbai crossed his legs, his posture looked relaxed and casual, but his tone made it clear that he was serious.

"I have to let him act in a movie, he has to be the leading actor."

Luo Yan's eyes almost popped out after hearing this: "Can you be more realistic, he hasn't acted for many years, not to mention that no one is willing to use him, it is his own ability now, do you think he can Can you act, besides, he is still sick..."

"Don't worry." Zang Lanbai said, "I know it well."

"What numbers do you have?" Luo Yan didn't believe that Fang Mu was a mental patient, and he was even more worried about Xu Duming behind him. The most important thing was that he knew Zang Lanbai's temperament too well.

In fact, he is very casual. He does everything based on how much pleasure he can get, and doesn't care much about the consequences and costs.

Even speaking to a certain part, Zang Lanbai is actually very idealistic. If he wants Fang Mu to act in a movie, he has to act in a big production, and if he wants to play the male lead, it seems that everything can develop as he expected.

Not to mention whether this can be done, but if Fang Mu returns to the big screen, will Xu Duming really allow such a thing to happen?