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Jiang Heng's room had a double bed, more than enough to sleep two people.Jiang Heng was lying on his back, not feeling sleepy, Gu Yunchuan held his fingers together.The bedside lamp is dim yellow, reflecting a corner of the bedroom, and the cartoons on the wall and the faded fairy tale books on the desk can be vaguely seen.

"I haven't told my parents that you are my boyfriend." Jiang Heng said.

Gu Yunchuan stared at him: "But it's obvious, I like you."

Jiang Heng glanced at him and smiled.He took Gu Yunchuan's hand and played with his slender fingers unconsciously. "It doesn't seem so sad after talking about it."

Jiang Heng's words were endless, but Gu Yunchuan knew what he was talking about.Gu Yunchuan gave a soft "um" to show that he was listening carefully.

"My mother is a teacher. She is very organized and assertive. She made a life plan for me when I was born. If I hadn't awakened to become a sentinel and left home to study in a boarding school since I was a child, Maybe I will become—" He squeezed Gu Yunchuan's index finger, "an ordinary version of Gu Yunchuan."

"My dad is the kind of person who can do anything as long as he doesn't have to worry about it. His biggest role in our family is to secretly give me pocket money and persuade my mother when I argue. My family is a very ordinary family. —” He paused, “except me.”

Gu Yunchuan nodded when he heard this.

Jiang Heng went on to say: "I will go to boarding school at the age of seven. Almost every child is crying, pulling the hem of their parents' clothes to prevent them from going back. Only I rushed into the school without looking back, and I couldn't wait to learn. How to become a sentinel. So the teacher likes me very much."

After exhaustingly comforting the crying children, anyone would like to see a beautiful little boy who is neither crying nor fussing, with wide open eyes full of expectation.Gu Yunchuan thought to himself.

"The teacher likes me, I learn fast, I am No.1 every time, and my classmates also like me. So I enjoy the school life very, very much. When the holidays are coming to an end, I think that I may be the best in the world. The only student looking forward to the start of school."

"Not necessarily." Gu Yunchuan said, "Teachers and classmates who like you will also look forward to seeing you."

Jiang Heng wrinkled his nose: "Not everyone likes me. At that time, there was a young sentry boy who hated me very much. He was No.2 in the class. My good friend told me that he often went to the teacher to complain that I was absent in class. , they asked me what to do."

"I walked up to that little boy and asked him, do you want to play with me? We can play my new game console together." He couldn't help laughing when he said this, and turned to look at Gu Yunchuan, "You know What do I think? I think he doesn't like me because I haven't asked him to play, as long as I play with-"

"It's impossible not to like you." Gu Yunchuan looked into his eyes and continued.

Jiang Heng was a little embarrassed by what he said, and turned his head back: "Anyway, when he graduated later, he wrote me a whole sheet of classmate records, and hugged me and cried for half an hour."

"Later, I went to junior high school, my parents got promoted, and they moved the house to the city. But I didn't go home for a long time, and I completely forgot about the move. There was no electricity and the phone was turned off. My parents couldn’t find me. I was so anxious to call the police. Later, I went back to this old house to look for me, but I couldn’t find it, because I ran to Uncle Li’s store to play. He sells movies and game discs The film is from my favorite uncle when I was a child."

"Uncle Li was about to close the door before he realized that I couldn't go home to play at his place, so I called my parents. In order to avoid being beaten, I pretended to cry and told my mother that I couldn't bear to be here and Uncle Li." Jiang Heng seemed to be caught by himself in the memory, and raised his eyebrows guiltyly, "They moved back later."

"But I think my lies should have been caught long ago, because I spent less time at home in junior high."

"Because of the summer camp?" Gu Yunchuan asked.

"Yes." Jiang Heng nodded, "I haven't missed a single summer camp. Apart from my love of going on wild adventures, it's also because my birthday coincides with the time of the summer camp. So every summer camp, everyone will come up with ideas to celebrate my birthday."

"In the first year, the teacher pretended to ask me to follow the clues to find props, and finally found a big cake with my name written on it. The students got out of the woods and sprayed the colorful string on me. In the second year, the students The cosplayer became a character in "The Brave Little Yili" and gave me a new game console." Jiang Heng straightened up when he was excited, "In the third year, they told me at the beginning that my birthday happened to be It happened to be an important event, so I couldn’t celebrate. I was a little bit sad, but I accepted it. In the end, my parents came that night, and we ate a huge cake together.”

"So, I think... being liked by others is a matter of course." Jiang Heng's voice softened, "Even Gu Yunchuan likes me, doesn't he?" His tone became more justified again.

"Yes." Gu Yunchuan replied.

Jiang Heng put his hands behind his head and looked at the ceiling.Gu Yunchuan once again briefly felt a strange sense of inhumanity in Jiang Heng's body, because too many incredible and wonderful qualities miraculously descended on him.He thought of some spoiled children with bad personalities, and suddenly understood that their vexatious behavior was not because they received too much love, but because the love they received was too extreme.A child who has been cherished well should grow up like Jiang Heng.

"My mother knows that I will be sad because others don't like me the most..." When talking about her mother again, Jiang Heng paused, "Forget it. I don't like her very much today, so I won't talk about it."

Gu Yunchuan twitched the corner of his mouth, and from Jiang Heng's angry words, he could hear that he really wasn't too sad anymore.

"I have been living at home since I was a child," Gu Yunchuan said.

Jiang Heng blinked, he once heard Gu Yunchuan mention something about his childhood.

"I have to go home and report my study progress to my father every day, and he will assign me additional tasks. He has always told me that I am capable and must be better than everyone else." Gu Yunchuan's eyelashes drooped slightly, his complexion Calm, "My mother and my father are married by contract. There is no love or hatred between them. They are a pair of good partners."

"My mother was very responsible at times, breastfeeding me and caring for me when I was a baby. But when I started school, she felt she couldn't interfere with my father's discipline, so she brought a camera. Traveled around the world."

"My father didn't understand my mother at all. Once my mother finally came home, she looked so excited and shared with us an experience of hers. She waited three months in the same place for a sunset shot. .Every time some tiny detail goes wrong, sometimes it's the temperature, sometimes it's the light and shadow, sometimes it's her mood."

"On the last day, she finally felt that everything was ready, even the wind direction was her favorite, and she was about to wait for a satisfactory photo after staying for three months. But when it came to the moment of careful calculation, she put down the camera. She says she realizes that if she captures this moment in the camera, even the perfect photo will fade away in a few months. But if she lets it slip away, she may never see it again. , this beauty will remain in her heart for the rest of her life because of this regret."

"My father listened calmly and said she was unreasonable."

"What about you?" Jiang Heng asked.

"I also thought she was unreasonable at the time." Gu Yunchuan said, "In my opinion, she wasted a lot of time, but in the end she didn't gain anything. At that time, I was taught to always do useful things."

"But you have remembered this matter until now. Did that round of sunset break into your dreams?"

"No. I think it's because I have no regrets."

Jiang Heng looked at him without saying a word.

"But later, facing the idea of ​​always doing useful things, I was shaken." Gu Yunchuan looked at Jiang Heng, "Because I learned of your existence."

Jiang Heng opened his eyes slightly, looking a little surprised, but he frowned lightly and thought about it, and soon understood: "Because everyone said that I skipped classes every day and didn't learn anything, but I was favored by the heavens. An enviable genius."

Gu Yunchuan smiled.

"Of course I am not." Jiang Heng was dissatisfied, "Because I went to the practice room too many times, it was the first time that someone in the whole school found out that there is a limit to the number of times you can enter the practice room by swiping the student card."

"But I didn't know you then."

"Oh." Jiang Heng looked at him, "So you should have hated me at that time."

"No..." Gu Yunchuan looked a little helpless, "Maybe you think I'm coaxing you, but it's really not. I was thinking at the time, so there is such a way of life in this world."

"It's not like I gave you back hope, right?" Jiang Heng asked him with a smile.There were bright lights in his eyes, sly and good-looking.

"I don't know." Gu Yunchuan said, looking into these eyes, he felt that he was a bit unable to think, or in other words, he was unwilling to do the act of thinking and remembering.

"You don't know." Jiang Heng's smile grew wider, "Why do you have more and more things you don't know." He looked at the desk and said suddenly, "Do you want to see fireflies?"

Gu Yunchuan thought for a while: "It's autumn now, and fireflies only appear in summer."

Jiang Heng jumped out of bed and rummaged through the desk drawer.He easily found a large firefly made of colored paper and small light bulbs in the table.

In the summer when he was about six or seven years old, Jiang's father called Jiang Heng who was still in school, and said that he saw a lot of fireflies at the foot of the mountain, which was very beautiful.He asked Xiao Jiangheng when he would go home, and they could go catch fireflies.But when Jiang Heng came home, they went to the foot of the mountain to search for a long time, but they didn't find any fireflies.These fragile little bugs are short-lived and timid.On the way back, Father Jiang went to the stationery store to buy tools for Jiang Heng, and the two of them made these paper fireflies.

After Jiang Heng left home, the furnishings in his bedroom did not change in any way, there was even a box containing toys next to the desk, as if there was still a six-year-old boy living here.So Jiang Heng found them easily.

"I found they were still on when I went home last time." Standing on the bed, Jiang Heng hung them on the lamp, he signaled Gu Yunchuan to turn off the bedside lamp, pressed the switch, and a very faint light came out from the colored paper.

Jiang Heng lay down beside Yunchuan.The faintest little light bulb flickered for a moment, then went out slowly, like a candle dissipated in the wind.The partners around it are still trying to let out the last bit of peripheral light, but they will soon be unable to hold on.One by one, disappearing into the darkness.

The last faint source of light remains.

Gu Yunchuan propped up his body, he really wanted to kiss Jiang Heng.

Jiang Heng hid, and said, "I won't give you a kiss."

Gu Yunchuan froze for a moment, leaned closer to Jiang Heng, breathing on the tip of his nose, and asked silently.

"Leave a pity for you."

After he finished speaking, the last small light went out.