Aftermath of breakup

Duan Xinglian stood on the edge of the balcony, measuring the distance between the third floor and the ground with his eyes uncontrollably many times, as if he wanted to use another kind of pain to relieve the suffering and anxiety in his heart.

It's just that he looked at the photos in his hand that left images in the past year, and looked at Pei Yi's face that was close at hand and then gradually distant in the photos, and felt that there was no need to be like this, don't be so desperately embarrassed.

At the same time, Duan Xinglian suddenly felt that he was naive again, because he had really thought about never letting Pei Yi go, even if both sides were hurt, he would keep him by his side.

But in the end, let go.

In fact, before Pei Yi came to him, Duan Xinglian had already had a premonition.

Let's not mention the past of worrying about gains and losses and anxiety, because they are all the shackles of his ego.

It was the rainy day last week, Lin Siwei finally came in and told him that Pei Yi had come and gone.

Afterwards, he confessed the truth, he didn't hold back, and said some things to Pei Yi, Lin Siwei relayed all those words to Duan Xinglian.

In fact, these words are not very convenient to convey to himself, but Lin Siwei felt that something was wrong with Pei Yi's reaction at that time. He was quick-witted and would put himself in the other's shoes. Afterwards, he wondered whether his words would be brought to Pei Yi instead. In addition to the pressure, it is self-defeating.

Lin Si regretted what had happened, rarely in her life.

So after listening to it, Duan Xinglian already had some pessimistic preparations in his heart.

But Duan Xinglian couldn't blame Lin Siwei, because Lin Siwei deserved to be the person who knew them best, he said... all of his words hit the secret thoughts in Duan Xinglian's heart .

Besides, even without this incident, the result would probably not be any different.

Because there are already many insurmountable things between him and Pei Yi.

What is even more frightening is that there is no misunderstanding between them, only these powerless realities.

Duan Xinglian's family will always exist, even if he can ignore it ruthlessly, what happens after he gives up?He couldn't let this heavy sense of guilt and guilt be added to Pei Yi.

In addition, although he has always felt that age is never the criterion for judging whether a person has himself or not, he has to admit that they are indeed too young, and they are all at an age that pays attention to their inner self-experience. They may be patient for each other, but they still cannot do it. Until he restrains himself for a long time and well, after a long time, he will continue to ask for it, and Pei Yi will need freedom, and this kind of tolerance will only make both parties more and more tired.

What's more, in the conference room of the administrative building that day, Duan Chengsen's words, like a handful of rapidly growing seeds, quickly and violently took root in his heart, and Pei Yi's answer only served as a buffer at that time.

Every night recently, Duan Xinglian couldn't help thinking, in fact, his father was right, the road ahead was difficult, he was born so irreversible, but Pei Yi may not be, because Pei Yi was with him from the beginning, Just out of curiosity and impulsiveness.

Maybe I liked it a little later, but this liking is so easy to drift away in time.

When Duan Xinglian thought of this, his heart almost suffocated with pain, cold sweat broke out all over his body, and his eyes were a little dull, but he could no longer deceive himself, he had to admit that Pei Yi just didn't love him.

So Duan Xinglian thought, why not let Pei Yi live.

Even though he seemed to have his muscles and bones pulled out of his body for this.

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In late June, Duan Xinglian finally ended his confinement and returned to school.

Class One is not much different from before. It is approaching the third year of high school, and everyone is working hard for their goals.

It's just that there is another desk vacant in the classroom.

The figure in front of the desk who was always calmly lowering his head and writing questions completely disappeared, just like a big dream floating around, and after waking up, it seemed that the person in the dream never existed.

Cleanly, without leaving a trace.

When Duan Xinglian just returned, everyone was still in a daze for a while.

Afterwards, it was obvious to everyone that Duan Xinglian had changed, he became more and more taciturn, and even carried a bit of that person's shadow on him.

Most of the time, Chu Yifan would see Duan Xinglian staring at the empty seat in front of him in a daze.

Chu Yifan sighed in his heart, but even as heartless as him, he didn't dare to mention that person in front of him again.

After changing seats, Duan Xinglian found Shi Yan and switched places with him.

Since then, Duan Xinglian has lost his deskmate, but he seems to have a deskmate again.

No one dared to ask for the seat next to him again.

And Duan Xinglian continued to live in the dormitory, sleeping in Pei Yi's original bed.

Pei Yi didn't take away all the things in the dormitory when he left, maybe because he didn't bring many things with him when he moved in. Most of the things in the dormitory were originally Duan Xinglian's.

That's good, it's a thought for Duan Xinglian.

However, Feng Li was so worried that he would continue to go out, as if he was worried that he would make a "mistake" in a place where she could not see, anyway, he wanted Duan Xinglian to go home.

But it was rare for Duan Chengsen to lose his temper with her that time, saying that everyone had left and all contact had been cut off, so he wouldn't have pushed her into a desperate situation, leaving no room for breathing.

When Pei Yi came to find Duan Xinglian for the last time, Feng Li, who had been sent away, realized that something was wrong, so he shot back. As soon as he reached the third floor, he saw Pei Yi coming out of Duan Xinglian's room.

But before she got angry, Pei Yi indifferently deleted all contact information about Duan Xinglian with downcast eyes in front of her and Duan Xinglian who was separated by a wall.

"It's broken." Pei Yi's eyes were empty, and he said like a puppet, "There will be no future, Auntie, don't worry."

From then on, Pei Yi disappeared from Duan Xinglian's world.

Pei Yi didn't explain a single word to him. He felt that Duan Chengsen probably knew something about him, but Duan Chengsen would not tell him.

So much so that Duan Xinglian wanted to go back on his word and send an application to that familiar avatar for countless late nights, but in the end he still restrained himself when he opened his eyes until dawn.

But occasionally I still can't help sending messages to the dialog box that never receives messages.

[Fang Sheng: Chu Yifan accidentally mentioned you today, saying that without you, no one would highlight him, but immediately looked at me after he finished speaking, as if he was worried about exposing my scars. 】

[Fang Sheng: Actually, I hope they will mention you, otherwise I would often wonder whether the past year was just a dream of mine. 】

Gradually, Duan Xinglian began to get used to sending some of his plans and daily routines to this account, as if he was recording, and also as if he was telling someone who would never hear it.

Later, the time passed in a hurry, and it was crowded to the busy third year. The third year seemed to have a magical power that could force most impetuous people to calm down.

Meng Wenwen no longer participated in various activities, and Chu Yifan no longer wentssip in get out of class, and joined the army of studying hard.

But Duan Xinglian returned to the first place, and the second place was basically a competition between Lu Zhu and Zhang Xu.

As for Chen Weizhi, Pei Yi, whom he was vainly trying to surpass, left. He lost his goal for a while, hovered at the edge of [-] in several consecutive exams, and almost fell out of the first class again.

It was also rare for Shao Yu to get out of the salty fish state, and he worked hard. After class, he would take the initiative to ask Duan Xinglian important questions, and on weekends, he and Lin Si worked together on Fang Ai's papers.

Shi Yan and Cheng Yin are in a stable state, working hard together.

Even Ji Zhao, who doesn't bother to study and has been hanging at the end of the car, saw Xu Weiran pick up exercises during physical education class in order to follow in Xu Weiran's footsteps.

In short, everything seems to be developing in a positive direction, but during this period, everyone tacitly stopped mentioning that beautiful boy who fell to the first place in his grade and gave countless shocks.

……

But in September, Duan Xinglian suddenly participated in the mathematics competition. No. [-] Middle School didn't take the competition as a priority, and changed course midway and the future was unpredictable. Everyone was shocked by this.

Only Lin Siwei, who witnessed Duan Xinglian's journey, knew that he was always on the verge of collapse.

He knew that Duan Xinglian probably had a premonition, so he chose such a path.

Fortunately, Duan Xinglian has a strong learning ability, and the final result is satisfactory. He won the first provincial competition and has a place in the national winter camp.

During the New Year's Eve, Shao Yu was worried that Duan Xinglian was under too much pressure, so he invited him out for a walk to relax, but Duan Xinglian agreed.

A few people originally wanted to avoid the riverside square, so as not to get emotional.

But in the end, following Duan Xinglian's footsteps, he walked over involuntarily.

Coincidentally, last year that band was there again for New Year's Eve.

The surging and lively atmosphere by the river was exactly the same as last year, but their state of mind was quite different.

But then, the guitarist of the band took a look on the stage, and actually looked in their direction. His eyes fixed, and he obviously noticed Duan Xinglian.

It was probably because Duan Xinglian’s flying appearance on the stage singing wantonly last year was so impressive, the guitarist actually remembered it, and then found a gap to find it, smiled freely, patted Duan Xinglian’s shoulder, big la la "Dude, did your New Year's resolution last year come true?"

Shao Yu and the others were startled when they heard the words, but before they could open their mouths, they saw Duan Xing's eyes drooping, his whole body seemed to be covered with a thick cloud that could not be dissolved.

He shook his head and said in a low voice, "No."

Healthy, calm and Pei Yi.

not a single one.

The guitarist seemed to have regrets, encouraged him a few words, and then said nothing more.

But obviously Duan Xinglian couldn't listen.

Later, when Duan Xinglian came home, he calmly went crazy as if stimulated.

He took the photo of him and Pei Yi out of the safe again, and pasted it in the room, in the corridor, and even in the stairwell.

When Feng Li went home and saw this scene, he was shocked.

Then on this New Year's Eve, both mother and son were restless.

After that, Duan Xinglian went to the winter camp, and his grades in the camp were very good. By the end of January, he was determined to be admitted to P University.

After that, Duan Xinglian never went to school again.

Like Pei Yi, he disappeared lightly.

No one knew where he was going.

Chu Yifan asked Shao Yu curiously, but Shao Yu just lowered his eyes, with a sad expression on his face, but didn't say anything more.

In short, two seats were vacant in the second-to-last row by the window.

The vacant desks are gradually covered with a thin layer of dust. In this faint lingering sound, the teenage years that have been enthusiastic, in love, sentimental, thoughtful, and high-spirited have come to the end of the song.

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