The ivory tower has no autumn

"I heard what you said, the person you mentioned, he is not normal."

Ji Huaizhi rested her chin. Ever since she knew that Lin Zhiyuan was the one who threatened her, she had an epiphany. No wonder the police did not find any trace of the suspect, because there never was another prisoner, and everything was done by Lin Zhiyuan himself. for.

Sitting in front of her was her high school classmate Xu Jingchu, who happened to be a medical student, and who happened to specialize in psychiatry.

"I think she's quite normal..." Ji Huaizhi naturally wanted to refute.

"Do you still think he is mysterious and elusive? These are the common traits of a mentally ill patient, not his personal charisma." Xu Jingchu looked at his former classmate in disbelief, "Honestly speaking, are you Don't you like him?"

She is not like, she is love.

But she has no plans to make a closet to a classmate with an ordinary relationship.

Thinking of Lin Zhiyuan, Ji Huaizhi always smiled unconsciously, and Xu Jingchu saw through this smile.

"Don't like him." Xu Jingchu suddenly realized that what he said was ambiguous, and then explained: "I don't mean to say that mental patients are not worthy of being loved, but I want to tell you that I can make a preliminary judgment from your dictation. She may have self-harm tendencies, persecution delusions, and may even have a split personality."

"Are you sure you want to like a sick person?"

At the beginning, people are indeed likely to be attracted by the unique aura of the mentally ill, but after getting along for a long time, the initial affection will be exhausted in the protracted torture, and finally it will evolve into a series of ugly dramas that cannot be put on the table.

This is true of relatives, let alone lovers.

"Will her illness endanger her own life?" This is her main concern.

"It's hard for me to judge. As I said just now, he has a tendency to self-harm, but from your description, it can be seen that the degree of self-harm is not too serious. At present, there should be no need to worry too much."

After a pause, Xu Jingchu didn't know whether to say something, but the person sitting across from her had taught her homework for a long time in high school, so she still wanted to remind her: "But you have to be careful, if One day, when pinching cigarettes can no longer satisfy him, he may do some unexpected things."

"for example?"

Xu Jingchu looked at the other party's eager eyes, it seemed that she really wanted to know, but she didn't say anything.

Because the most extreme answer is nothing more than murder or suicide.

Xu Jingchu waved her hand. She was suddenly called out by someone she hadn't contacted for a long time today. She didn't want to just talk about this,

"How have you been? Are you still a cop?"

"Well, that split personality..."

Xu Jingchu frowned. It seems that the other party came out to her only for the sake of her sweetheart, and had no intention of reminiscing with her at all. "The main reason why the patient split into a second personality is to protect himself, so the second personality will not do anything. Anything that endangers you."

"That countdown..."

"Although the second personality will not harm oneself, it is very likely that it will try to replace the main personality and become the master of the body."

Ji Huaizhi kept thinking about Xu Jingchu's words. She looked at Lin Zhiyuan who was working in the study through the crack of the door, and suddenly found that she couldn't tell the difference between the gentle Lin Zhiyuan, the melancholy Lin Zhiyuan, and the decadent Lin Zhiyuan. , the serious Lin Zhiyuan, the dissolute Lin Zhiyuan, the cold Lin Zhiyuan...

Which Lin Zhiyuan is the current Lin Zhiyuan, and which Lin Zhiyuan is he in love with?

She asked Xu Jingchu: "Can split personality be cured?"

Xu Jingchu answered her: "Any mental illness can only be controlled by drugs and the patient's own efforts, and complete recovery cannot be guaranteed."

She has never seen Lin Zhiyuan take any medicine, let alone found any medical reports in this room. Does Lin Zhiyuan know that he is sick, or does he know that he is sick, but he has no plans to treat him?

In a daze, she heard Lin Zhiyuan's voice calling her, she came back to her senses, and saw Lin Zhiyuan propped her head, staring at herself, her glasses slid down to the bridge of her nose, and she looked at herself over the top of the lenses.

"This is the first time you have taken the initiative to interrupt my work." Lin Zhiyuan didn't show any expression that could be called blame.

Rather than blame, she was more curious about why Ji Huaizhi stood at the door for a long time but didn't come in.

"I didn't bother you." Ji Huai subconsciously denied it.

"Your gaze is so hot and focused that I can't move my ten fingers and my head can't think. Isn't this a disturbance?"

"I think it counts."

Now that you've bothered me, it doesn't matter if you continue to disturb me.

So she went in, pulled a chair and sat beside Lin Zhiyuan, and said, "Go ahead, I like to see you look serious."

Lin Zhiyuan obviously paused, but she was willing to meet any request of Ji Huaizhi, so she continued to write the next plot with ten fingers a little uncoordinated under the gaze that could burn her out a hundred holes.

"Is the name of one of the protagonists Ah Zhi?" Ji Huaizhi asked.

"Well, you don't mind using a word from your name, do you?" Lin Zhiyuan continued typing, watching more and more square characters on the screen intently.

"Ah."

Ji Huaizhi looked at the content being tapped on the screen continuously, she glanced at the file name, it read "Unreachable Dream".

"Is this story a tragedy?"

"That's it."

In the story, Azhi and Du Ruo were playing in the amusement park, and she subconsciously said, "They also went to the amusement park."

Lin Zhiyuan just replied lightly: "Inspiration comes from life."

As the story was written, Ah Zhi and Du Ruo started kissing, the writer was very comfortable, but Ji Huaizhi, who stayed aside and watched the writing, felt a little embarrassed, and she even had a feeling of enjoying a small pornographic movie with others, The toes shrunk unconsciously, and the limbs became a little stiff.

Lin Zhiyuan suddenly wanted to tease her, so he said, "Do you know what I'm going to write next?"

Ji Huaizhi blushed, and said a little hesitantly: "I know, but why did you write it? It will be deleted before publication."

"I don't care if it will be deleted or not, I will write it down." Lin Zhiyuan's coding speed accelerated.

After all, inspiration comes from life.

Ji Huaizhi looked at the familiar words and movements, and her breathing became heavier unconsciously. She didn't realize that Lin Zhiyuan licked her dry lips when she didn't notice. Those movements were too much. It was so familiar that Ji Huaizhi couldn't help feeling a hot feeling in her heart. Amidst the gradually accelerating heartbeat, her gaze moved down from the bright screen, and finally stopped at the pair of slender fingers that kept typing on the keyboard. superior.

Move up and down the keyboard and tap with your fingertips.

Lin Zhiyuan pressed the last button heavily, and the cursor stopped after the foreplay.

"Next is pay-to-view content."

Ji Huaizhi finally found a chance to escape from this predicament. She knew very well that if she continued to stay here, she would change from a real reader to a reader in another sense.

Looking at the back of the other party as if fleeing for his life, Lin Zhiyuan finally exhaled a long breath.

Originally, he wanted to tease her, but he almost included himself in it.

She picked up the water glass, drank the water in it, licked the drops of water hanging from her lips, and swallowed.

She is still thirsty.

Ji Huaizhi ran out of the house a little irritable, the chilly wind outside could make her more or less sober, she should find a way to solve Lin Zhiyuan's problem, instead of being addicted to Lin Zhiyuan, watch her write something not suitable for children story plot.

"Ji Huaizhi, Ji Huaizhi, you really can't be saved!"

After scolding herself severely, she turned her head worriedly, fearing that Lin Zhiyuan would hear her scolding too loudly.

She had to think of a way, and then tried to test Lin Zhiyuan.

When Lin Zhiyuan came out of the study, she saw Ji Huaizhi sitting outside blowing the air. She took off her coat from the coat rack, took a blanket from the sofa, opened the French windows, and threw the coat on Ji Huaizhi. body.

Looking at the person sitting next to him covered with a blanket, Ji Huaizhi just stretched out the coat to cover his upper body, put his nose against the collar and sniffed, the smell of Lin Zhiyuan remained on it.

"Stop writing?"

"No more." Then Lin Zhiyuan added: "Lack of inspiration."

Ji Huaizhi didn't speak any more, she lay on her side staring at Lin Zhiyuan, and suddenly asked: "Have you ever suddenly forgotten what you did just a second ago?"

"Yes, for example, after I go out, I always have to check if the gate is locked."

"It's not like this, it's the kind where you did something just now, but you lose your memory the next second, even if others talk about you."

Lin Zhiyuan felt that he had to respond to Ji Huaizhi's eyes at this time, so she looked at her in the same side-lying position and asked, "Why do you ask so suddenly?"

Ji Huaizhi's eyes flickered, she thought Lin Zhiyuan couldn't see it.

To be honest, she is not used to looking directly into other people's eyes, because she is always the first one to look away, but at this moment she wants to keep looking into Lin Zhiyuan's eyes.

Because she was already pretty, and what was even more beautiful was seeing herself in her eyes.

"My mother just told me that the grandma next door to my house suddenly had such symptoms recently."

"How old is grandma?"

"More than 60."

Lin Zhiyuan finally looked away. She looked at the cotton-like clouds in the sky and said, "It must be Alzheimer's disease!"

"You still have not answered my question."

Lin Zhiyuan was taken aback, she glanced at Ji Huaizhi, her eyes were still looking at her, her face was serious, and she said: "I have the symptoms you mentioned."

"Don't you see a doctor?"

Lin Zhiyuan shook his head, "It's not a big deal, don't look at it, I'm still young, not Alzheimer's disease, but it's just a big forgetfulness and poor memory."

"Then do you remember the first time we..."

"November 8."

Unexpectedly, Lin Zhiyuan could answer so quickly, Ji Huaizhi felt a little uncomfortable, she curled her mouth and muttered: "Why do you remember such things so clearly..."

Lin Zhiyuan laughed instead, and she deliberately said: "It seems that I am not the only one remembering."

Ji Huai later realized that he was led astray by the other party, and immediately retorted: "I want to ask about our first meeting!"

"August 8th." Lin Zhiyuan liked the feeling of being teased by Ji Huaizhi in a serious manner, a bit like the feeling between lovers, "I can answer any other questions you ask, because I will never know anything about you in my life." will forget."

There is nothing in this life that a person will never forget, but it is because Lin Zhiyuan's life is too short, so short that she has no time to forget it.

Ji Huaizhi was silent, Lin Zhiyuan kept looking at her, no one looked away, perhaps because he liked her too much, so even the most beautiful sunset couldn't enter their eyes, the face shrouded in golden light became more and more hazy, until the facial features It's all blurry.

Ji Huaizhi, who was confused, suddenly had a strange idea.

She never felt that she was a person with particularly strong desires. She didn't have all kinds of desires that ordinary people should have, and the desire for love.

She thought very seriously, if it wasn't for Lin Zhiyuan, she might have lived her life like this without desire or desire.

But Lin Zhiyuan appeared, and she began to have desires.

I want to know her thousands of faces, I want the feeling that there is only each other in the world of two people, and I want time to stop when we are in bed.

She wants to be her when she closes her eyes, she is her when she wakes up, she is her when she is happy, she is her when she is sad, she wants to be her in her dream, she is her in reality, she wants to see her every second, and think of her all the time.

And, love her year after year.

However, in the face of these desires, she also has reasons to mock her ignorance and frivolity.

That is, they have known each other for less than two months.

In just over 40 days, she thought about the next few decades.

Like a frog at the bottom of a well who has never seen this world, she just glanced at the mouth of the well, thinking that the sky is so big and the world is so big.

"Zhiyuan...we will..."

She wanted to ask a question, but sleepiness hijacked her and blocked the words she hadn't had time to say.

Lin Zhiyuan rested her head on her pillow, she looked at her eyebrows and showed a faint smile.

"You will be fine in the future."