Every warm feeling may turn black

I brought Yuan Suiyun out, not only to let him get in touch with the world outside Zhuang, but also to increase his sympathy—in any case, to reduce the chance of him becoming a pervert.

But I don't know how to do it. After all, my work has nothing to do with adolescent psychology. I can only talk about the poor lives of ordinary people around me when I have time, and I want to pick up some small animals to raise. The animal had loose bowels and vomited after not being in the carriage for a long time. Although I felt pity for it and worried about some infectious disease it might have, I had no choice but to put down the carriage, feeling sorry for it secretly.

However, the ancient environment is really nothing to say. After a few days, I also abandoned all distracting thoughts. When I saw the beautiful scenery, I jumped out of the carriage to catch fish and have a picnic. Yuan Suiyun still does not forget to practice martial arts every day , I was lying on the soft new grass in a lake and mountains, sniffing the clean fragrance of the tip of my nose, and taking a nap under the warm spring sunshine.

A few days later, we finally entered the city. On the day we entered the city, someone was getting married. The groom was driving a tall horse and bowed to the left and right.

The bride sits in an eight-carried sedan chair, behind her is a long string of layers of dowry.

I was in a trance. I was not married in my previous life. I have become a useless person in this life. It seems that I can’t delay other girls. I feel regretful and envious, so I can only comfort myself. Women in ancient times have no common language. If they don’t get married, they don’t get married. At least Xiaohong Now I can still say a few words.

So I went to tease Yuan Suiyun next to me: "I don't know what Suiyun's future bride will be like."

Yuan Suiyun didn't show his iconic smile this time. Instead, he raised his head expressionlessly. His dark eyes were obviously out of focus, but they seemed to be staring at me. I was almost afraid of him, and I turned my head away with trepidation. .

After investing in the shop, I asked the guards to take care of the horses and chariots. I ordered some porridge and side dishes. Yuan Suiyun suddenly stopped me and said to me, "I want to share a room with my little uncle."

Yuan Suiyun is still a young man with a small frame. Actually, there is nothing wrong with it, but I feel a little fussy in my heart, so I am a little reluctant. So I calmly ordered two upper rooms.

For many years after that, I have always regretted this decision. From the time when the guards broke into the door early in the morning and told me that "the young master is missing", from the time I frantically searched without a clue, I have always regretted it. Feelings of regret are like mud, I was submerged in it and couldn't breathe, I was drowsy, almost back to the time when I just crossed, as if my soul was about to come out of my body again, in the chaos, the people at Wuzheng Villa said they found it , In the chaos, I stepped on the blood and walked over the corpses. I have no fear or nausea in my heart. I just want to: Where is Suiyun?Where is Suiyun?

I finally stepped over the last threshold, and there seemed to be light in front of my eyes again. The boy had disheveled black hair, his eyes were lifeless, and his body was splattered with blood. Air, I focused on Yuan Suiyun, I didn't even know what I was doing, I just hugged him, feeling the slight trembling of the young man's slender body.

"Suiyun, little uncle is here, little uncle is sorry for you, Suiyun, Suiyun..."

I took Yuan Suiyun back to the village as fast as I could, my elder brother didn't blame me, and said to me, "he will go through all this one day", but I was even more guilty and regretful, I thought, if I hadn't refused to be with Yuan Suiyun It would be fine if Yun had a room, I thought, if only I didn’t take Yuan Suiyun out, I thought, if only I wasn’t a useless person.

Regret tormented me, I didn't dare to see Yuan Suiyun, and I didn't dare to see my eldest brother, I just stayed in my room all day, like an ostrich.

Yuan Suiyun was not injured, but was frightened, so he could get out of bed the next day.

But I was sick, my eyes turned black, I couldn't eat, I couldn't drink the medicine, and Xiaohong was crying beside my bed, which made me suspect that I was dead.

I was at a loss, but Yuan Suiyun came to see me.

I was ashamed to face him, he was the one suffering, but I was sicker than him.

"Uncle, are you awake?"

I can't speak.

"Uncle, I don't blame you at all."

I know, and knowing that makes me feel even less able to see him.

"Uncle, are you cold?"

I know I'm shaking, and I know my skin is as cold as death.

I saw Yuan Suiyun hesitate for a moment, his face rarely showed such an expression, it was entanglement and hesitation, I looked at him, but he didn't know, because I couldn't speak.

I saw him take off his coat, and got into my bed.

The young man is Ruyu, but his body is warm. I felt the warmth for the first time during this time. He put his head on my chest, breathing gently, and the breath swept over my chest, densely itchy.

I fell into a deep sleep in such a warm temperature.

I was sick like this for several months, and when autumn came, I finally recovered, which made the whole village heave a sigh of relief, because the doctor said that if it was delayed until winter, it would be very difficult to recover.

I can go out to enjoy the chrysanthemums in autumn, and I can also read and write, so Yuan Suiyun no longer comes to share the bed with me, and I don’t mention this matter. I think this matter is a bit wrong, so I don’t I mentioned it to others and didn't reveal it in front of Yuan Suiyun. I acted as if I really didn't know about it, and lived as usual.

Time is like flowing water, it will never go against the current. When the winter snow completely melted, I heard the rumor of Chu Liuxiang for the first time. The wild goose and butterfly have two wings, and the fragrance of flowers is all over the world. Unconsciously, I have not heard about Jianghu for a long time, but the rumor of Chu Liuxiang is special, because it makes me sure that this is really "Legend of Chu Liuxiang", and Yuan Suiyun is really Batboy.

At that moment, I really felt sad, and I almost couldn't help but want to ask Yuan Suiyun face to face, what did you do behind your back?But I didn't ask, Yuan Suiyun is already a young man with a weak crown, and he is no longer the little boy in the past. I rarely see him on weekdays, and he is too busy. The original Suiyun was in charge, and the elder brother retreated behind the scenes. He seemed to have become a wealthy old man. He was no longer as serious as before, and recently he even started to work on a blind date for me.

This is not the first time, but I have always resisted passively, but the elder brother who is idle seems to be determined, and it is always a banquet, entertaining martial arts heroes, but actually looking for a woman I like.

I finally couldn't evade it, so I had to say: "Wu Lin chivalrous women don't think they like a useless person like me."

"Why don't you like it?" The eldest brother stared wide-eyed, not arrogant.

"But I don't like chivalrous women either. I still like gentle ladies who are husband and wife."

The eldest brother was silent for a while, and nodded in agreement for a while.

So I met Yueniang.

Yueniang also used to have a prominent family, but her family was in decline. She was naturally a young lady who was raised and raised, and now she has to sell her property at a low price in order to survive. , held a big feast, saying that she had finally found the daughter of an old friend.

Then he asked me secretly: "How is it, isn't everyone a lady?"

Although my heart twitched endlessly, I had to admit that she was really a lady. I had never seen such a woman in my previous life or this life. Her every move seemed to be floating on water, she was weak and dignified, and her face always She has a slight smile, is amiable, speaks softly, and speaks elegantly. When she first saw me, she blushed quickly, and then covered her face slightly with a veil. It was the lotus like face and willow like eyebrows , especially holding the pipa half-hidden.

I can't refute that I really like her a little bit, such a woman is impossible for a man to refuse.

So I no longer passively resist my elder brother's matching of me and her. I talk about poetry with her, write calligraphy and watch paintings. When faux pas, it was nothing more than eye contact.

I never thought I would fall in love like this.

Even holding a small hand, I will blush with her.

But I do have a taste of long-lost love, almost overjoyed, even Xiaohong would laugh at me for being "full of peach blossoms".After all, I'm not a real young man in ancient times, and I still know what it's like to be in love between a man and a woman, so I asked the guards to drive out that day, and planned to buy some small gifts for Yueniang.

In the carriage, I was hesitating between rouge and gouache or hairpin accessories, and just as I decided to buy them all, I felt a numbness in the back of my neck, black eyes, and unconsciousness.