dust in the chest

Lu Jiaming was a little frustrated, he could see that Song Yanshu wanted to know what happened that night.But he didn't know what to say. He always felt that there were some other reasons for Lorraine to do that, but he couldn't think of it for a while.I always feel that something is going to happen, and I feel uneasy.He didn't want Song Yanshu to worry, so he didn't tell him.How did he know that this would only make Song Yanshu more worried.

In the past few days, he has not been able to lift up his spirits, and he is a little dispirited.He is the kind of person who is used to being undisciplined, and once he has something on his mind or becomes serious, he is like a different person, exuding the aura of "don't let strangers in".But in fact, he was just worrying about himself, and he didn't mean to reject others thousands of miles away.

His mother called and asked him to go back, saying it was urgent.When Lu Jiaming asked what was the matter, she didn't say anything, she just said that she would know when she went back.

Before getting off work, Lu Jiaming went to Song Yanshu's office to find him, and wanted to tell him that he would go home later.After opening the door, he was not seen. The assistant said that he would go to the production line in the afternoon.

Lu Jiaming nodded, and after thinking about it, he still sent him a text message.If he knew that it would be a long time since then, he would have chased him to the production line.

But he didn't know, so he couldn't even remember what clothes Song Yanshu was wearing or what tie he was wearing in the last scene.

When we got home, Lao Lu and his mother were sitting in the living room.When his mother saw him coming, she wanted to get up and go to greet him, but was stopped by Lao Lu's eyes.

Lu Jiaming stood next to his father. Old Lu didn't let him sit, so he just stood.

When he was in college, a boy once confessed to him. At that time, Lu Jiaming was so focused on Song Yanshu that he definitely had no time to talk to him.That person didn't care. After being rejected, he kept pestering him openly and secretly, and found some signs after pestering.After all, Lu Jiaming cared a lot about Song Yanshu, as long as he was careful, it would not be difficult to find something.That person was half-truthful and half-truthful on the premise that Song Yanshu was like Lu Jiaming and Song Yanshu was like that. Lu Jiaming naturally didn't like it, and he didn't like it on the surface, but he became more and more indifferent to him, and didn't say a word to him.The man thus confirmed the conjecture in his heart, and he was furious: I was chasing you for nothing, but you pushed me out three blocks away.It's fine if you're straight, aren't you also the same?What to wear?

The man had some connections in his family, and he was used to messing around with his family background, so he felt upset and went to find Song Yanshu for trouble.In fact, it didn't do much, so I took out Song Yanshu's childhood without a mother and put it in front of the public, and then made up some things that were not.

Even if Song Yanshu could bear this matter, Lu Jiaming would not be happy either.After finding out the culprit behind it, he stopped that person on the road while he was drunk on a dark and windy night.Originally, he just wanted to warn him, but who knew that the other party was not only not afraid, but instead provoked him even more vigorously, satirized Song Yanshu, and threatened to announce his ulterior motives to the public.Lu Jiaming's head suddenly became hot, and after a few arguments, he picked up the stick on the side of the road and swung it down.

The man lay in the hospital for a full month before he came out.Lu Jiaming was slapped a few times by Lao Lu, and punished to kneel on the stone pavement outside the house for a whole day.At that time, the weather was very cold, and every blow of the cold wind was like a cold knife.But no matter how hard his mother begged Lao Lu, she didn't let him go, and she didn't give up until the end of the moon.

However, that man was also beaten a little bit, he was used to being pampered, usually he was the one who provoked others, but this time he was beaten solidly by Lu Jiaming, he couldn't help but feel a little scared.After he was discharged from the hospital, he hid away when he saw Lu Jiaming, and there was nothing to say about those threats.In fact, Lu Jiaming also used the alcohol to get his head hot at the time, and he didn't dare to do it in normal times.

Since then, he has been a little afraid of the old road.He also remembered Lao Lu's cold face every time before he got angry, and he didn't dare to contradict him once he saw it.

Song Yanshu didn't know about these things, but Lu Jiaming was very happy. At least he avenged Song Yanshu, although he was the root cause.

Today's old road looked stern, and even smoked the cigarettes he hadn't touched for a long time, it seemed that he was doomed.Lu Jiaming cleared his throat and said, "Dad, Mom, I'm back."

"You still have the face to come back?" Old Lu snorted heavily, but Lu Jiaming thought: Isn't this why you asked me to come back?

"Loelyn has already told us that she is pregnant with your child, so I will stop all your messy thoughts."

"She's pregnant? Who told you it was mine?"

"Whose is not yours? People have said it themselves. You haven't done anything. People will say that?"

Lu Jiaming immediately understood that the previous night was premeditated, so that's what happened.What else could he say now?I had to open my mouth and give up.

Seeing his appearance, Lao Lu became even more angry: "I said, why are you suddenly unwilling to get engaged? It turns out that you are with...and...you really want to piss me and your mother to death? Why did you go down such a crooked path? ? I don't think you should get engaged, just get married!"

Lu Jiaming was taken aback, there was still room for relaxation in engagement, but marriage was different.He blurted out: "No, I definitely won't get married!"

Lao Lu was so angry that he slapped him across the face, although he was a little trembling, his strength was not small.There was a palm print on Lu Jiaming's face.He was also angry, and wanted to leave with his eyes wide open, but was stopped by a few bodyguards at the door. He really didn't know when his family got a bodyguard, and they probably came for him.He struggled for a few times and then gave up. If he couldn't escape, why should he escape?

Lu Jiaming's phone was confiscated and locked up.There are still a few days until the engagement day, and the more Lu Jiaming thinks about it, the more anxious he becomes.When he left, he didn't even say hello, and Song Yanshu was a little cold before, wondering what would happen to him when he found out that he was not there.

At first, he didn't eat the food that was delivered to him. No matter how much his mother tried to persuade him with tears in his eyes, his father didn't care, and he didn't intend to let him go at all.Later, he was so hungry that his eyes were dizzy and his ears were ringing. He felt that he might never see Song Yanshu again if he continued like this. After thinking about it, he decided to start eating.Who knew that his old man's heart would be so cruel that he would just let him starve to death?What is there to talk about when everyone is dead? Please talk about love?

He drew up the thick curtains and spent the whole day in darkness, not knowing what day or night it would be.He was afraid that if he opened the curtains, he would know exactly how long he had been away from Song Yanshu when he saw the sun rise and set.He is afraid of hope and disappointment again and again.In the dark, he recalled all the things he had with Song Yanshu, so that life would not be so difficult.

He remembered that he didn't seem to have said "I love you" to Song Yanshu; he remembered that they hadn't given each other gifts; he remembered that Song Yanshu hadn't finished the three times this week.

I want to fall asleep together, wake up together, celebrate holidays together, go to work together, encourage each other when we are frustrated, and share together when we are happy.

Such days have not been enough, how can it end like this?

He didn't know that Lao Lu used his mobile phone to call Song Yanshu the night he came back, so he didn't know what Song Yanshu said to him before he closed his eyes.The words he didn't have time to say to him.

Lu Jiaming felt that he had never been so clear about one thing: he loved Song Yanshu, and he couldn't be ambiguous with Luo Aileen.How could you tell Luo Ailin what you haven't even said to Song Yanshu?

So on the day of the engagement, he finally released the pigeons of the two families.When the car was waiting for a red light, he quickly opened the door and fled.He weaves through crowds of vehicles, feeling alive for the first time in days.Thinking of seeing Song Yanshu soon, he couldn't help mobilizing his facial muscles that had been stiff for a long time, and laughed loudly, not paying any attention to the strange eyes of others.

He returned to their residence, shouted for Song Yanshu to open the door, but no one answered for a while.For some reason, he suddenly panicked and took out the hidden key to unlock it.As soon as the door was opened, a gust of dust came blowing in. It was obvious that no one had lived there for many days.

Lu Jiaming was slightly startled, not knowing what happened.I want to call Song Yanshu, but I don't have a cell phone.He hurriedly ran to the landline, ignored the dust on it, picked it up and dialed the number he had memorized in a few days.

"The number you have dial can not be reached."

"The number you have dial can not be reached."

"The number you have dial can not be reached."

……

No matter how many times you dial it, it will always be this cold voice.Anxiety enveloped him, he was afraid that he had misremembered the number, so he changed the number and dialed again, but this time he got through.

"Hello, who is it?"

Lu Jiaming burst into tears suddenly, it wasn't Song Yanshu, or even a friend of Song Yanshu's.After a short pause, he still asked carefully, "Excuse me, is it Song Yanshu?"

"Huh? No, you made a mistake, right?"

Lu Jiaming put down the phone with a sad expression, and did not continue to try.He went to the bedroom and lay down on the bed.When I closed my eyes, I remembered that when I first went on a business trip with Song Yanshu, I also lay on the bed to absorb the smell from another person, greedily and hopelessly.Now that people go to Loukong, it seems that the sweet and beautiful days in the middle have never been lived.Song Yanshu is still the same Song Yanshu who can only watch from a distance, and Lu Jiaming is still the same Lu Jiaming who wants to get married together.

But the traces carved by the years on everyone's hearts cannot be erased. Lu Jiaming can only watch helplessly as the vines that cover his heart lose their verdure little by little, and gradually wither along with their bones and blood.

A time that can't go back, a place that can't be reached.