dust in the chest

The chill is getting stronger, and only a few dead leaves are left on the staggered branches of the sycamore trees beside the road.While waiting for the red light, Lu Jiaming looked out of the car window, the leaden gray sky fell heavily, and the wind brought up a fallen leaf to hover under the huge sky.

When Song Yanshu first came back, it was still midsummer. At that time, he seemed to be a wind wrapped in youthful memories, blowing into his life suddenly, awakening long-buried thoughts, and then taking root and sprouting.

He watched the Nianxiang grow up slowly, gradually covering every area of ​​the heart, and even piercing the tentacles into the cells inside to absorb more blood essence.Every beat of the heart brings rustling green leaves.

He knew that this luxuriant thought had completely occupied his heart, and he couldn't get it out no matter what.But he is happy, because this thought has grown into love, and it has been watered by Song Yanshu.

He feels that life has never been so beautiful, it is just like this, the person I love happens to love me too, so what else can I ask for?

Brooklyn lived in the next door, but he was quite safe, except that he often went to Song Yanshu's place to eat and drink, always stared at Song Yanshu with sad eyes, and turned his head to look at Lu Jiaming with two knives. up.

Lu Jiaming was a little sad, because he originally thought that the presence of Brooklyn was a test of the relationship between him and Song Yanshu. When the time came, they must stick to each other. No matter how Brooklyn provoked and made troubles, he would definitely stand by Song Yanshu's side.He was already ready to confess with enthusiasm: "Yan Shu, no matter what he says, I will believe in you. I will always be by your side."

But who knew that Brooklyn was like an abandoned pet, he had no intention of resisting at all, and just circled around his owner aggrieved.This disappointed Lu Jiaming, and he even talked to Brooklyn.

"Ur, canwetalk"

"I can speak Chinese." Brooklyn folded his arms on his chest and looked at Lu Jiaming with obvious disdain.When Lu Jiaming heard the correct Chinese, his heart trembled: Didn't he listen to what he and Song Yanshu said?But it's good to hear it, at least he and Song Yanshu know that outsiders can't get in.

"Oh, then I'll just say it directly. Do you like Song Yanshu?"

"What do you think?"

"Then why didn't you say anything?"

"idiot."

Lu Jiaming watched the disgusted Brooklyn walk towards Song Yanshu, shouting: "Song,! Whydoyouloveanidiotlikehim"

Lu Jiaming rolled his eyes in his heart: You are the idiot, your whole family is an idiot.Oh, no, Song Yanshu doesn't count.

Lu Jiaming didn't know that the test he was looking forward to came soon, but he failed to say "I will always be by your side" to Song Yanshu as he had imagined before.

When Luo Aileen called and wanted to talk about it, Lu Jiaming didn't want to agree, and really didn't want to deal with these bad things.But if he didn't move now, it might be more difficult in the future, so he had no choice but to agree.

Luo Aileen made an appointment at the club that Lu Jiaming used to go to, and said that she hadn't been there for a long time, so she took the opportunity to relax.Lu Jiaming didn't care, and left work early.

Since Song Yanshu came back, he rarely went in and out of this kind of place, and after living with Song Yanshu, he almost forgot about it.When I first came back here, I saw some people and things I was very familiar with before, and I couldn't tell whether it was disgusting or nostalgic.

When he arrived at the bar, the bartender greeted him familiarly and said, Brother Lu, long time no see, are you doing well?

He smiled and didn't answer, and walked directly to the box that Loelyn had reserved.

Lorraine was sitting on the sofa, singing with a microphone in one hand, and Lu Jiaming, who came in after seeing him, turned his head and continued singing.To be honest, she sang well, with a bit of weeping taste, and Lu Jiaming even became a little depressed.

Unknowingly enter into the game that you can't put it down

light up the lights

standing in the field without you

Unknowingly, I found that everything was arranged early

love your smile

love too much to bear

love come love go no response

Lights can't disturb the nerves

Sometimes the lover has a false name

After the song ended, Lo Aileen turned her head to look at Lu Jiaming. There were still tears in her eyes, which couldn't be seen clearly under the dim light.

She poured Lu Jiaming a glass of whiskey and some green tea, and then poured herself a glass in the same way.She didn't speak, and Lu Jiaming didn't speak, and the two drank the wine in a muffled voice.

After drinking several cups like this, the alcohol slowly started to take hold, Lu Jiaming was a little drowsy and a little excited mixed with the music in the room.

At this time, Luo Aileen finally spoke, and called out slowly, Lu Jiaming.

He raised his eyes to look at her, her face was a little blushing, but she was expressionless, and she was still holding a glass of wine that was about to bottom out.He brought the wine over and replied, "Well, don't drink it, you can't drink it."

Lorraine sneered, and said after a while, "You still know I can't drink? Then do you know that I love you?"

His hand on the wine glass froze for a moment, then he changed his mind and handed the glass to her again, but there was no answer.

"Do you know what Lu Jiayi has been up to lately? I thought you didn't know at first, but as time went on, it became more and more wrong. I'm afraid you two have discussed it long ago, right? The oboe sings well." Luo Aileen showed a self-mockery Smiling, he drank the wine in another gulp.

"I thought about it a long time ago. It doesn't matter if you like me or not, as long as you marry me. I always think that as long as you get married, men will restrain themselves and take care of their families. Then I will be satisfied. But who knows You didn't give me this chance."

Lorraine looked over, and something flickered in her eyes.Lu Jiaming suddenly felt a little hot, so he tugged on his tie, but it was not enough, so he started to unbutton his shirt again.

"I'll do it," Lorraine said, leaning forward.In any case, they were all people who had been around, Lu Jiaming suddenly understood what happened, and stared fiercely at the person in front of him.

"What do you want to do?"

"Do you think Lu Jiayi can really handle everything? He thinks he has something in his hand and I'll just let you round it up and flatten it. Don't dream, there's no real evidence. How many people will believe it?" Luo Aileen said Unbuttoning him, he teased his exposed skin, "What am I doing? I'm creating opportunities. Since you are so stingy, I have no choice but to come by myself. After all, destiny is in your own hands, isn't it?"

Lu Jiaming wanted to push her away, but he couldn't use his strength at this moment.Suddenly flustered, not knowing what Lorraine was thinking.If you really want to cook raw rice and cooked rice, the consequences may be unimaginable.Before Song Yanshu, he had always been male and female, and now it is even more impossible to control himself in this situation.I'm afraid that even if he refrained from touching Loelin, Loelin would come by herself.

He regretted that he didn't tell Song Yanshu before he came. He thought it would end soon, and he didn't want Song Yanshu to be involved, but it turned out like this.

Lu Jiaming felt a little hotter all over his body, and his lower body seemed to react a bit, but he was completely helpless.Lorraine's hand reached down and began to untie the belt, her head was pressed against his abdomen, and she felt a vibrating air flow rubbing against the exposed skin with a burst of breathing.Song Yanshu's gentle and resolute side face suddenly flashed in his head, so he clenched his fist secretly, and the dark red blood that could not be seen in the dark flowed down.Taking advantage of the pain, he used his stored strength all at once, pushed away the person on his body, and then stumbled up and walked out.

"Are you sure you want to go out like this?" Luo Aileen didn't chase after him, but said coldly behind him.

Lu Jiaming didn't care, he just wanted to go back to Song Yanshu.

"Don't worry about it, since I've set up this trick, I won't let you solve it easily," Lorraine walked up to him and put her arms around his neck, "Of course you can go out and try, I promise You will come back to me even more embarrassed than now."

Lu Jiaming was taken aback when he heard the words, he didn't expect her to do such a great job.I don't know whether to blame him for being too careless or the other party for being too caring.

"Just follow my heart, it's been so many years." Lorraine sighed, and then kissed Lu Jiaming.

Lu Jiaming let her kiss, like a bottomless hole in his heart, no matter what he tried to fill it up.

He slowly closed his eyes in the dark, like a candle burning out the last drop of wax.

I don't know how long it took, but Lu Jiaming felt his strength gradually returning.He got up to put on his clothes, stroked the crumpled clothes twice and gave up when he found it was useless.Without looking at the person on the sofa, he opened the door and went out.

Lorraine opened her eyes after he left, stared blankly for a while, and then suddenly began to cry softly.

Before dawn, Lu Jiaming took out his mobile phone and found that it was 3 in the morning.There were more than a dozen missed calls, two were from Lu Jiayi, and the rest were from Song Yanshu.

Song Yanshu, thinking of Lu Jiaming, felt sour in his eyes.

He didn't want to go back at first, but he didn't know what Song Yanshu would think now that he was like this.However, after standing beside the eccentric street for a long time, even his legs were a little sore, and he still didn't know where else he could go besides Song Yan's calligrapher.What's more, he wanted to see him very much at this time, even a look or a hug could make him feel at ease.

After waiting for a while, he finally saw a taxi, stopped it and reported the address, then closed his eyes in a daze.He knew that there must be some special reason for Lorraine to do this. It is impossible to be responsible to you and get engaged to you just because I fell in love with you.So what are the consequences of this matter?Lu Jiaming felt his head hurt, so he stopped thinking about it.

In fact, as long as you think about it, you can get a clue. There are only a few things that a woman can threaten a man with.

Lu Jiaming rummaged through his pockets for a long time and finally found the key. He was hugged as soon as he opened the door, and that kind of oath-like force strangled him painfully.

"Don't ask anything. I'm fine, I'm sleepy." Lu Jiaming broke away from his embrace, he knew that he must be terrible now, the smell of alcohol mixed with some ambiguous smell, he didn't want Song Yanshu to smell it To, although he knew it was impossible.

Song Yanshu's face was sullen, but he didn't say anything in the end.

After taking a bath, he lay down next to Song Yanshu, hugged him with his arms from behind, rested his head on his broad back, and soon fell into a deep sleep.

Song Yanshu got up after he fell asleep, took out his mobile phone and looked through the call records.Lu Jiaming didn't want to talk about it, so he could only find it by himself.

The last call before he left work was from Lorraine.Song Yanshu stared at the call log, and after a few turbulent thoughts, he put down his phone and went back to bed.

Many times, some casual little things can often become the mastermind behind the destruction of a relationship.It's like, at the end of the day, you realize that the people you've only met a few times are the ones who impress you the most.

Lu Jiaming could vaguely feel that something would slowly change after this night, but at the moment he didn't know what it was.