My little one is fine

Jiang Guohua supported Jiang Yi to sit down on a chair in the garden, and said in a worried tone: "Be careful, don't touch the wound."

This was Jiang Yi's first time leaving the ward since he was hospitalized. I have to say that the fresh air outside is indeed much more pleasant than the smell of disinfectant in the ward.Jiang Yi lazily leaned back on the chair, closed his eyes, and took a deep breath against the soft sunlight.

There is a slight sweetness in the air, which is the fragrance of cherry blossoms. If you don't taste it carefully, you really can't smell it.He opened his eyes, turned his head and looked back, as expected, there were many cherry blossom trees planted there, and now the cherry blossoms are blooming just right, and the land is also covered with petals, which looks very beautiful.

Jiang Yi thought he would think of that dream that day, but the first thing that came to his mind was: If his cub sees this scene, he should be very happy, right?

Thinking about it, he immediately took out his mobile phone and wanted to take a picture of this beautiful scene.

Jiang Guohua, who had been ignored again, sighed slightly. He looked at Jiang Yi for at least half a minute before hesitatingly said, "Xiao Yi, do you still hate me and your mother for what happened back then?"

It wasn't anything serious, but it succeeded in extinguishing Jiang Yi's surprise that Jian Yiqin appeared on the phone again. He glanced at the expectant Jian Yiqin on the phone, and silently said "I'm sorry" to him mouth shape, then

Put away the phone.

Jiang Yi shook his head, stared at the floor with lowered eyes, his tone was full of uncertainty, he was silent for a moment and said: "...I don't know."

"It's Dad... No, I'm sorry for you." Jiang Guohua looked at him guiltily, and slowly lit a cigarette.He had just taken a few puffs when he suddenly remembered that Jiang Yi had quit smoking for a long time, so he extinguished the cigarette and threw it into the trash can.

Jiang Yi thought about it when he heard the words, and raised his eyes to look at him, "You have nothing to be sorry for me."

Jiang Guohua looked at his son, whom he hadn't seen for five years, and only then did he truly feel how much of their father-son bond had been spent in five years.He suddenly thought of Jiang Yi in the past, self-willed, ignorant, heartless, coaxing him to solve it every time he got into trouble, it seems like a baby in today's words...

But now Jiang Yi is different, he will no longer complain to him, will no longer ask him for help, will no longer be self-willed... He lives like a walking dead without a soul, without a trace of popularity.

He even abandoned all the careers and unfulfilled dreams he had always liked.

Thinking of this, Jiang Guohua suddenly asked: "I heard from your brother that you are going to start making games again?"

Jiang Yi still stared at it, and gave a low "hmm".

Jiang Guohua finally had a smile on his face, "That's good. I remember when you were in college, you kept clamoring to make the hottest and biggest game in the country. Go ahead and do it before it's too late."

Jiang Yi still just said "hmm", and the atmosphere became inexplicably awkward.

"That..." Jiang Guohua hesitated for a long time before asking, "Your brother also said that you have a boyfriend?" After being separated for too long, even his tone was obviously unfamiliar.

Jiang Yi finally had a big reaction, he stared at Jiang's father seriously, and replied seriously: "Yes."

This is a broken pot after facing a misunderstanding between his mother and his brother, and it is also a test for his father.

Jiang Guohua smiled again, "Very good, I heard that your brother is a good boy, you have to treat him well."

With such a supportive attitude again, Jiang Yi tilted his head to look at him, smiled indifferently, and asked with some sarcasm: "I remember when I came out of the closet, you told me the same way. But later, you still agreed My mom put me in some so-called gay withdrawal center."

"If I had known..." If he had known that the so-called "gay abstinence center" would torture his son so much, he would never have agreed to send Jiang Yi there.In the end, he could only say one sentence to Jiang Yi: "I'm sorry."

Jiang Yi tried his best to suppress the sourness in his heart, and asked him: "What about now? Are you just pretending to support me on the surface, and then turning around and sending me into that place?"

Jiang Guohua was speechless. As a highly educated person, he was indeed very open to homosexuality, but...he murmured for a long time, and finally said: "I never thought homosexuality was a disease. I don't think you should go to the rehab center. It's just that your mother's mental state was very bad at that time, and I didn't want her to be stimulated again."

Between a good father and a good husband, Jiang Guohua chose to be a good husband.

Jiang Yi nodded and said nothing.

His mother suffers from depression, of course he knows about it... Then what else can he say?Nothing left.

Jiang Guohua said again: "Don't blame your mother, she is more traditional, she has followed the rules all her life, she is dead-brained, and only accepts the truth." As he spoke, he handed the bag he had been carrying to Jiang Yi, "These are yours. Mom has prepared gifts for you since you were born. It was originally intended to be given to you after you got married and had children, but... there are two books in it, one has been completed a long time ago, and the other has been completed since five years It was cut off before. I thought about it, and I think it’s good to leave it to you now.”

He watched Jiang Yi take the bag and put it aside, and couldn't help but say, "Your mother...actually loves you very much."

Jiang Yi nodded, noncommittal.

So both of them fell silent, relatively speechless.This atmosphere continued until Jiang Guohua received a call from the research institute.

Jiang Yi received a hesitant look from Jiang Guohua, and said with a smile, "I'm fine, if you have something to do, you can do it, and my brother will be here soon."

"But..." Jiang Guohua wanted to say something else, but there was indeed something urgent at the institute, so he could only say, "Then I'll take you back to the ward first?"

Jiang Yi shook his head and refused, "I want to blow some more time."

Jiang Guohua had no choice but to get up. Before leaving, he patted him on the shoulder and told him, "I will call your brother to come over quickly. Be careful, don't get wounded."

After he left, Jiang Yi took the bag beside him and took out two notebooks from it.

Those are two very beautiful notebooks, both of which are pink book covers full of girls' hearts. The book covers are made of cloth, and the intricate patterns on them seem to be embroidered by themselves, which look very delicate.The first notebook was so thick that it was about to explode. Jiang Yi opened it, and on the title page was written "Baby's Growth Record" in beautiful italics.

Jiang Yi is very familiar with this font. When he was very young, he was very envious of Li Shufen's beautiful calligraphy. He even used her calligraphy as a copybook and copied it for a long time.

He continued to flip through, and on the first page was a picture of an ultrasound, and two paragraphs were written in italics under the picture.

The first paragraph is titled "Have a nice day":

After the menopause this month, I went to the hospital with anticipation. After the examination, I found that there was a little life in my stomach. It has been more than a month, and I am very happy.

The second paragraph is titled "Write to the Baby":

Hello, my dear baby.My father and I welcome your arrival very much, and look forward to your arrival very much.This is a handbook specially written for you. It will record every day after your mother is pregnant with you. It is the first gift from your mother!Today is May 1994, 5. You have to remember that from today to the next minute, your mother will always love you.

Jiang Yi's gaze stayed on this page for a long time before slowly turning it back.Just like what she wrote on the first page, she really recorded every day after her pregnancy. The format was the same as the first page. First, she recorded her daily life and mood, followed by a very short letter "to baby" letter.

There are also pictures cut out of tape around the two paragraphs, which can make people feel her intentions.

……

"In the second month of my baby's pregnancy, as the pregnancy progressed, my vomiting reaction became more and more serious. It was so severe that it became difficult to eat. I couldn't even accept my favorite scrambled eggs. But in pregnancy In the early days, how can I do without eggs. In order to let me eat eggs, my husband really wanted to break his head and make me do different tricks, but he just couldn't accept it when he brought it to his face."

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"I also suffered from insomnia today. I couldn't sleep at night. I closed my eyes and my mind was still awake. I couldn't fall asleep. Then I went to bed at 10 o'clock and waited for 2 o'clock to vomit. I really wanted to die. I was so tired and in a bad mood. , uncomfortable, feel sorry for myself, feel so pitiful.”

"Dear baby, mom wants you to see this in the future. It's not guilt or self-blame. Mom records these uncomfortable things, but I just hope that baby will love your wife more in the future. It's really painful for a girl to be pregnant. She must love you and your children very much, so she is willing to suffer for you. Mom will always love you."

……

Jiang Yi felt his nose a little sore, it was not the first time he knew how hard it was for his mother to conceive him.His father told him a long time ago that his mother hurt her body when giving birth to his brother and suffered from postpartum depression, and she never recovered.As a result, she became pregnant with him again in the second year, and her mother insisted on giving birth to him despite everyone's opposition.

The last page of the notebook was written on the day Jiang Yi was born, and the content is much more concise than before.

"Today finally ushered in the long-awaited little life, he looks very small, I love him very much, we all love him."

"The little baby is named Jiang Yi, and was born at 1995:4 on April 15, 14. My dear baby, mom wants you to remember that no matter what happens in the future, mom will always, always love you."

It was only then that he noticed that in the notebook where she recorded the 326 days of pregnancy, there were 326 sentences "Mom will always love you".