Excuse me, who are you?
Chapter 148: A Glittering Shadow
He knelt down on one knee in front of Ye Qian.
Unprepared, Ye Qian was shocked by the scene in front of him, and stood there in a daze.
A smile appeared on the corner of Ji Muhang's mouth, "Qianqian, I probably fell in love with you from the first time I saw you."
First look.
When I raised my eyes for the first time, my heart suddenly missed a beat.
Jingle Bell--
When the class bell rang, a boy with a steaming steamed bun in his hand was striding towards the classroom. The schoolbag on his back slipped to the crook of his arm because of the rush he ran along the way. The boy was chewing on the bun desperately while He came straight in from the back door of the classroom, and sat in the last row without raising his eyelids. After eating the steamed buns in two or three bites, he realized that the atmosphere of today's class seemed a bit...special.
The classroom, which is usually noisy, is very quiet at this time. Even the people who usually sit in the last few rows who often discuss games have changed, and there is no sound of anyone discussing cosmetics. Ji Muhang was wondering, so he raised his head and casually looked at Glance at the podium.
The result is this glimpse, the gears of the two people's fate creaked and turned, and gradually, they began to become entangled.
The person standing on the podium was wearing a very chic light blue shirt, with handsome and exquisite eyebrows and eyes, carrying a faint cool taste, and at that time, there happened to be a ray of sunlight shining on his hair through the large glass window, The whole body was coated with a golden halo, maybe it was because the sun was very warm at that time, maybe it was because the weather was just right, maybe it was...
The boy's heart trembled suddenly, his breathing stagnated, and his heart skipped a beat.
Since then, in that class, the boy's eyes have always been on that cold person intentionally or unintentionally.
His voice is beautiful, clear and bright.
His hands are white and slender.
He looks serious and cute.
he……
In the eyes of the young man, the cold person on the podium looked over.
The four eyes are docked, and the eyes are staring.
A heart beat out of rhythm.
puff puff...
At that second, the boy's originally frozen heart suddenly warmed up and became brighter, and then the corners of his mouth slowly turned up in the next second, and he smiled foolishly. There is a faint light flickering everywhere.
"Every time I saw you after that, I liked you more and more," Ji Muhang looked at Ye Qian with a smile, "I like to see you seriously lecturing, I like to see you frown slightly, I like to see you talk, I like to see you being loved by me." You look embarrassed and bewildered, I like to see you flustered and embarrassed, I like..."
I like to see every aspect of you. At that time, I just felt that all the soft water in the world was rippling in your eyes.
The teenager often surrounds that person intentionally or unintentionally, and finally, under countless "accidents", countless "accidents", and countless "coincidences", the two red threads of fate slowly pull and intertwine with each other.
"Ms. Ye, I don't know how to do this question, please explain to me."
"Miss Ye, you're shopping here too, I'll carry it for you..."
"Miss Ye, I brought an umbrella, let's go together..."
"Miss Ye, let me treat you to dinner."
Miss Ye...
This title used to make the young man think about it very much, just saying it from his mouth already felt a little sweet in his heart.
"Later, I tried my best to get close to you, but you always looked indifferent, which made me feel that it was difficult to touch, but I couldn't let go, so I tried my best to get close to you, until one day you slowly changed from your own I crawled out of the shell, and that's when I realized that I really dug up a treasure." Ji Muhang knelt on one knee and looked up at Ye Qian.
"Ms. Ye, you look so pretty when you smile, why don't you smile more in the future..." the boy looked at the person in front of him and said with a smile.
Ye Qian blushed. A person who can perfectly overcome all kinds of academic difficulties can't cope with the situation in front of him. He lowered his eyebrows and looked a little at a loss.
"Teacher, let's go play together. I know there are interesting places nearby, so you'll be satisfied..." The young man grabbed the wrist of the person in front of him, and walked forward naturally and casually, but his eyes were extremely firm.
"That, that..." Ye Qian faltered, his eyes fixed on his wrist.
"what happened?"
"...No, nothing."
The moment the hands touched slightly, there seemed to be an inexplicable feeling across the heart, stirring the heartbeat.
"I am happier than you when you are happy, and I am sadder than you when you are sad. I hope that you are happy every day, that you smile more, that you are always in front of my eyes, and that I can walk into your heart..."
"Qianqian, I like you." The tall boy held the hand of the person in front of him with a smile in his eyes.
His fair face was slightly flushed, and his fingers flicked a few times in the wide and warm palm, "I know."
The young man gently pressed his lips on the corners of the lips of the person in front of him, warm lips, delicate skin.
Whose eyelashes are trembling slightly, whose cheeks are blushing bit by bit, whose mouth is curved, whose eyes are tender like water, whose heart is beating like a deer...
"Qianqian, you are so pretty..." The young man smiled brilliantly.
"You, what are you talking about?" A rippling flew out of the corner of the eyes of the reproaching person.
"Later when we were together, I felt that I was the happiest person in the world. You are so good, just like an angel. I want to hold you in my pocket, hold you in my palm, and hold you Hidden in my heart, I... But then I lost you, I hate myself, I hate myself for not being able to protect you, the day of parting from you is the saddest and most difficult day for me, I miss you, I miss you I was going crazy, I felt like I couldn't hold on any longer, but when I thought that you might still be waiting for me, I felt that I had to become stronger. Later, fortunately, I found you, and then I knew, I was afraid I can't leave you forever, I want you, I want to be with you forever..."
Ye Qian looked at Ji Muhang who was kneeling on the ground, his eyes were red with tears.
Those days... Fortunately, it has passed, those days and nights that were run through by continuous longing, those days that were defeated by the surging love, those days that were about to be tormented by longing to go crazy, fortunately, it has passed It's over.
"I love you, Qianqian, I want to be by your side all the time, I want to be with you forever, I want to make you happy, I want you to laugh with you, cry with you, eat with you, sleep with you, Do a lot of things, even if you don’t do anything, as long as I’m with you, I feel like I’m the happiest person.”
"Would you like to be my lover? Live with me for the rest of your life," Ji Muhang took out a ring, the simple and unadorned style looked extraordinarily delicate, Ji Muhang looked at Ye Qian, "Are you willing? Modesty"
Ye Qian's eyes were shining brightly, tears flickered, and he nodded, "Well, I am willing."
The people around were sighed and moved. After so many years of reunion and parting, there were many hardships, and the two people who loved each other finally achieved a positive result.
Ji Muhang put the ring on Ye Qian's finger, and kissed it gently with his lips, as devout as a believer, and his belief is only in this one in front of him.
"Kiss one! Kiss one! Kiss one!" Everyone shouted in unison.
Ji Muhang got up and stood in front of Ye Qian, rubbing Ye Qian's hair with his hands. Facing so many people's booing, Ye Qian's face turned slightly red. Although Ji Muhang usually kisses and hugs him at home and even...but In front of the public, Ye Qian couldn't help feeling a little embarrassed.
Ji Muhang hugged Ye Qian directly, and kissed him. With a familiar breath and a familiar feeling, Ye Qian followed the habits of his body and responded to Ji Muhang's gentle kiss. I was shooting with a camera at the beginning, and now I am enjoying it.
When they parted with a kiss, Ye Qian's lips were bright red and his eyes were still steamy. Ji Muhang looked at Ye Qian and poked Ye Qian's cheek with his fingers. Ye Qian lowered his eyebrows and smiled shyly.
"Oh! Sprinkle flowers! Blessings!" Su Ziyou took the flowers in the flower basket and sprinkled them towards the two. The petals fell one after another, and the two people under the flowers smiled sweetly.
"Come, come, drink, if you don't get drunk, you won't go home. Brother Hang, don't stop me this time. We must respect Teacher Ye..."
"Miss Ye, I respect you."
"Hey, and me, I respect you too..."
……
Everyone had sunny smiles on their faces, wanton and free and easy.
Year by year, the years are getting warmer, and the winter and spring are coming and the cold and heat are a little bit different. The flowing water flows through the ups and downs of the world, and touches the deep love.
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When the wine was in full swing, the atmosphere was smoky, everyone was so drunk that they didn't hesitate to speak.
"Ms. Ye, it's really pretty, prettier than those women, prettier..." Xiao Pang squinted his eyes and fell drunk.
"What nonsense are you talking about! Of course Teacher Ye looks good..." Qin Fang kicked somewhere, and the glass bottle by his feet fell to the ground with a crisp sound and spun a few times.
"Big Orange! I want to drink! Give it to me!" Su Ziyou grabbed the bottle in Cheng Bo's arms, acting like a child, "I want to drink..."
"Don't grab my drink, you're too bad!"
"Your shirt is too strong, next time you buy an easy to tear one, I... can't... tear it apart..."
Cheng Bo helped his forehead helplessly, hugged the drunk man in his arms, and took out the wine bottle in his hand. Su Ziyou kept talking nonsense, "Big Chengzi, you are just jealous, I said you still don't believe it...yesterday...hey, where is my wine..."
Wang Yang was also drunk, holding the beer bottle and not letting go, "Anran... Where is my cat? Anran..." He muttered unconsciously, stroking Anran's arms, "Where's Kira? "
An Ran tugged Wang Yang and dragged him to her side.
"It's all your fault," Wang Yang muttered, "My waist is about to break, you..." Wang Yang rubbed against An Ran dissatisfied.
Ye Qian has been drunk by these people for a long time, and finally caught a chance, these bastards would not let it go, Ye Qian followed suit and drank cheerfully, and ended up in a dazed look now .
Ye Qian lay in Ji Muhang's arms, his eyes blurred, "Xiaohang... Xiaohang..." Ye Qian smiled like a child, "I want to drink, I want to drink...it's delicious..."
Ye Qian is very funny every time he gets drunk, and Ji Muhang loves to play with people, "Who are you?" Ji Muhang smiled and hooked Ye Qian's chin with his finger.
"I, I am...I am...you are...Xiaohang..." Ye Qian giggled a few times, "Xiaohang, good..."
Ji Muhang was so soft in his heart that he hugged Ye Qian and said, "Let's go home." He kissed the corner of Ye Qian's mouth, and motioned to the few people who were still awake. Except for Ji Muhang, the people with clear eyes are safe After meeting Cheng Bo, Ji Muhang smiled at them helplessly, and left with Ye Qian in his arms.
"Well, go home, let's go home," Ye Qian said with a smile, "Let's go home and sleep, I like to sleep with Xiaohang." He stretched out his hand and touched Ji Muhang's cheek.
Ji Muhang took a taxi and returned home within a few minutes at night. Ye Qian followed Ji Muhang's words all the way and answered. The taxi driver was very professional and didn't make a sound. After the two got out of the car, the driver glanced at their backs. He should go home, and someone was waiting for him to go back to sleep. As soon as he stepped on the accelerator, the car sped away.
"Huh? What else do you like?" Ji Muhang coaxed, and carried Ye Qian into the bedroom.
"I like Xiaohang!" Ye Qian said as a matter of course, "Xiaohang is the best."
"Then why do you like to sleep with Xiaohang?" Ji Muhang deliberately teased Ye Qian, and secretly turned on the switch of the recording brown bear on the bedside table in the bedroom, and put it on the bedside.
Ye Qian tilted his head and thought in a daze, "Sleeping? Why?"
"Huh? Why do you like to sleep with Xiaohang?" Ji Muhang slowly unbuttoned Ye Qian's shirt one by one, coaxing softly, "Tell me, my wife."
Ye Qian was called back by the doting "wife", suddenly shy, "Because of Xiaohang..." Ye Qian's shy voice gradually lowered, and he covered his face in embarrassment.
"What?" Ji Muhang leaned closer to Ye Qian's cheek.
Ye Qian opened and closed his lips slightly and whispered in Ji Muhang's ear. After hearing this, Ji Muhang curled his lips, "Baby, you're lecherous..." He looked meaningfully at Ye Qian who was lying naked on the bed.
"Honey, do you like black cat ears or white ones?" Ji Muhang showed Ye Qian what he took out from nowhere.
Ye Qian looked at Ji Muhang, then at the things in Ji Muhang's hands, and obediently pointed to one of them.
"Be good, baby, since we like these, let's wear them." Said Ji Muhang put the white cat ears on Ye Qian's head, Ye Qian was still in a daze, and obediently let Ji Muhang move .
"And this," Ji Muhang said, putting the small bells on Ye Qian's wrists and ankles. After wearing them, Ji Muhang looked at the well-behaved Ye Qian and couldn't help kissing Ye Qian's lips, "Baby, You are so pretty!"
Ye Qian hugged Ji Muhang's neck following Ji Muhang's posture of bowing his head, and leaned forward to beg for a kiss.
With the sound of Ye Qian's clear bell, Ji Muhang bent his mouth, "Honey, I think...it's better this way." He turned over and hugged him on his body.
"Honey, who do you like best?"
"Xiaohang!"
"What do you like about Xiaohang?"
"Xiaohang...Okay," Ye Qian smiled foolishly and lay on Ji Muhang's chest, "Be good to me, very good."
"Come on, baby, give me a kiss." Ji Muhang put his arms around Ye Qian's waist and lowered his head to kiss his lips.
The atmosphere between the two is so gentle that it makes people feel sweet in their hearts.
"I want more," Ye Qian stretched his neck and pouted to ask Ji Muhang for a kiss. He looked very cute, like a child looking for candy, "I still want to kiss..."
"Call your husband and kiss me."
"Husband—" The soft and drawn out syllables were misty.
"Baby, how can you be cute!" Ji Muhang kissed his little prince.
Cute, very ticklish and cute, I just want to spoil this person to heaven.
The inadvertent cuteness of this person always melts Ji Muhang's heart.
I thought this guy was so cute from the start...
After class, Ye Qian was deliberately entangled by Ji Muhang, and then he was dragged to eat by Ji Muhang as a matter of course. The weather was extremely hot, so Ji Muhang went to the supermarket and took out two ice creams.
Ye Qian took a bite, the smell of vanilla slowly drifted away in his heart, the corners of Ye Qian's mouth curved in satisfaction, Ji Muhang was stunned for a moment when he saw such a childish smile, until Ye Qian found that Ji Muhang's eyes kept falling On his own face, Ye Qian was stunned, "Is there something on my face?"
"No, no," Ji Muhang smiled, "I just think you are too cute, teacher."
Hearing what Ji Muhang said, Ye Qian was at a loss for a moment, his face slowly turned red, "What are you talking about..." Turning his face away, he didn't know what to mutter.
At that time, Ji Muhang really wanted to go forward and pinch Ye Qian's slightly flushed face.
Just like now Ji Muhang looked at the red face and pouting lips in front of him, stretched out his hand and couldn't help poking it, Ye Qian bit Ji Muhang's finger in a daze, his soft and wet tongue slipped over Ji Muhang When pointing to the pulp, Ji Muhang's heart trembled.
The small flame that was just around the corner was crackling and burning quickly...
With the intense action, the bell rang crisply, accompanied by panting, humming, and some kind of reverie-inducing voice, and performed an ambiguous and lingering tune of cloud and rain.
When Ji Muhang got up and hugged Ye Qian to take a bath, Ye Qian still hugged Jimuhang's neck and didn't let go. When Ji Muhang touched Ye Qian's body, Ye Qian's body couldn't help shaking, especially the small waist, pitiful Xi was trembling and muttering non-stop.
"Xiaohang... No, no more..." Ye Qian squinted his eyes and looked pitiful to Bala, with a few teardrops hanging from his eyelashes, "You, you bullied me..." Ye Qian curled up in Ji Muhang's arms like kitten.
Ji Muhang looked at it and felt that the innocent and cute appearance of the person in front of him was simply seducing him.
"Baby, why did I bully you?" Ji Muhang asked while bathing Ye Qian.
"You...you won't let me..." Ye Qian narrowed his eyes, "Anyway, you bully me..."
"Baby, don't you like it?" Ji Muhang applied the shower gel on Ye Qian's body, forming fine and dense foam, "Don't you like me treating you like this?" Ji Muhang hooked the corner of his mouth.
"I like it..." Ye Qian bent his lips comfortably, and leaned on Ji Muhang.
"Honey, what else do you like?" Ji Muhang flushed the foam away, "What pose do you like? Huh?"
"I..." Ye Qian's whole body was flushed from the warm blisters, his little face was rosy, "I like you to kiss me, I like you to eat neinei, I like you to hug me, I like to see you in... ...Every expression at that time, I like the way you are in heat..." Ye Qian squinted his eyes and talked about his feelings calmly, smiling like a kitten.
Ji Muhang wiped the water droplets on Ye Qian's body, and faced the naked person standing in front of him, Ji Muhang smiled, "I like you too, I like to see your shy face, I like to hear your voice, I like to see your Every expression, like your eyes, your nose, your mouth," Ji Muhang kissed all the way.
Looking at the two points on his chest that were extremely red and swollen by himself, Ji Muhang fiddled with his fingers a few times, and Ye Qian whispered unsurprisingly, "I like it here."
His hand went down to touch Ye Qian's waist, "I like it here."
Going down, the rounded double mounds have beautiful curves, and of course they feel better in the hand. Ji Muhang touched them a few times, "I like it here."
Ye Qian leaned slightly on Ji Muhang's body, and murmured: "Xiaohang...I like you, I like you so much..."
Ji Muhang washed Ye Qian white and hugged him to the bed, and lay down beside Ye Qian. Ye Qian asked the familiar smell and huddled in Ji Muhang's arms and fell asleep peacefully. .
"Baby, I love you," Ji Muhang kissed the corner of Ye Qian's lips, Ye Qian's eyes were closed, but his behavior was very obedient and he leaned forward and pouted.
Ji Muhang smiled, "Good night, my baby."
These long-term infiltrations are all warm witnesses that have melted into each other's lives bit by bit.
The autobiography of Wu Yeqian
I am Ye Qian, I may be a very ordinary person, maybe... there is a little difference.
I can’t remember my parents most clearly. In my childhood memories, my parents seldom go home. I only know that they are always very busy. They are often only me and Aunt Wu at home. When Aunt Wu told me that my parents would never come back, many strange uncles and aunts told me "your parents are great people". At that time, I didn't understand what greatness is. wearing something.
When I was in elementary school, someone said behind my back that my parents didn't want children, that I must be a bad child so that my parents didn't want children, and said a lot of ugly things. I knew what it meant, but I didn't refute it, and I didn't want to refute it. , because I listened too much and I lost my feeling. I just walked silently by myself. Only when I got home and saw Aunt Wu did I really feel that I was also wanted by someone.
Aunt Wu is very good to me, I have always known that Aunt Wu said that I am too quiet and obedient, but she looks at me with deep pity, I don't understand, is it not good to be obedient?The kid next door was beaten by his parents for being too misbehaving and mischievous. I know he is always vicious every time he sees me. I know he spits on my back because his parents always mention my name.
Being nice can be really bad sometimes.
I like reading books, because only when I read books can I really feel comfortable and happy. I like the stories in the books, and I like the sense of security brought by writing and doing questions. Only then do I feel as if I am really alive, yes ,living.
I have thought very seriously about death.
At that time, I wasn't even afraid of death at all. Maybe, I still wanted to test the idea of death a little bit. I didn't want to talk to anyone during that period of time. I didn't know what I could say. Aphasia is the same, fortunately, there are books to accompany me, I have read many, many books, the world described in the books is very beautiful, but I can't understand it.
Someone told me that they like me, but I don't understand what it feels like to like me.
I have read many, many books, and I know that the description of liking in the book is very wonderful, but I have never experienced it, and I don't understand it at all.
I know people are pointing and saying things beside me, saying that I am strange, that I am good-looking, that I am young, that I have no parents, that I have good grades, that I am cold, that I...
But I don't care at all, and I don't know why I don't.
I'm autistic, and I know it.
I still remember the psychiatrist looked at me, smiled and said to me: "You are special, you will have a different life, I believe in you." The doctor smiled, like the warm sun in early spring, he said at that time A lot, touching my head, I feel very comfortable, I still remember his expression when he spoke to me.
Later, when I was in high school, I was confessed by many people. Those people said they liked me, but I could only keep silent. At that time, I could already clearly understand that maybe my life was destined to be spent alone.
When I went to university, I fell in love with chemistry. It was a rich and colorful world. I indulged myself in the world of chemistry. Outsiders pointing, talking and laughing have nothing to do with me. I think if there is no such a subject , I may be the walking dead, I built a hard shell for myself, and then shrunk myself inside.
Later I got depression, and I don’t remember what kind of days it was. When I think of it, my biggest impression is darkness, coldness, cold hands and feet, trembling body, sweating constantly, weakness all over the body, etc. The scene is very vague, maybe it has been automatically ignored, that is not important.
During that period of time, I even thought of death. I thought of death more than once, and thought of death without any fear. When I stared at the blood vessels in my arm for a long time, I even felt the tip of the knife in my hand It became nothingness, and the whole person seemed to have entered an illusion, becoming ethereal.
I think there may be nothing to regret about dying like this.
But I didn't die, because in the blur, I saw the old dean looking at me and crying. I don't know why he was crying. The old dean pulled me and said a lot, but I couldn't hear it, I only saw it His lips were trembling and moving.
Later, when I went abroad, it was a period of days that might be boring when I think about it, but it was better than nothing. During that period of time, I only had academics in my eyes, and I loved chemistry. , which is an interesting subject.
"Chemistry gives people knowledge, and the history of chemistry gives people wisdom."
I don't know how much knowledge and wisdom it brings me, I just know that it makes me feel as if I have a little value in life, and it makes me feel that there is something to fill a certain void and dullness, all the professors Say I'm great, I'm a very gifted person, a natural fit for academics.
But I have Asperger's Syndrome, a so-called autism in adults.Am I lonely?I don't know, I don't even understand what loneliness is.
At that time, I met Li Wensen. I didn’t understand why this person insisted on breaking into my line of sight. I didn’t even understand why he had that aggressive look in his eyes every time he saw me. But he helped me, took the initiative Communicating with me, I didn’t even know how to communicate normally with people when I was most ill, but he would patiently help me after he knew it. I have always been grateful to him, although he often made me feel uncomfortable by my side.
After finishing my studies, the old dean asked me if I would like to come back, and I agreed without hesitation at all, because I knew that without the help from the old dean, I might not be where I am now, although I feel that I am not here. It's all the same to me, but if I go back, it's still worth being needed, maybe... it's different.
I thought my whole life might just pass like this, plain, lonely, deserted...
However, I never thought that the appearance of a person changed the trajectory of my life.
It was my first time as a substitute class for undergraduates. The weather that day was very sunny, so bright that it was a bit unreal. It seemed that I hadn’t experienced this kind of weather for a long time. It was too comfortable and made people feel a little uncomfortable.
In class, the professional content is very simple, and I can deal with all kinds of academic problems freely, but I can only turn a blind eye to the countless lines of sight from the audience, as if I can’t see anything, and I am indifferent or ignoring as usual.
But I clearly felt a bunch of different eyes stay on me all the time, I felt puzzled, so I looked over, because of that look, maybe everything started to be different.
The second the eyes met, the owner of those eyes suddenly smiled, the smile was caught off guard, with a childlike innocence, the corners of the mouth were slightly upturned, and a shallow flower bloomed.
My nerves that have been indifferent since then seemed to tremble slightly at that moment.
Later, the man named Ji Muhang came into my sight just like that. He was a handsome boy with a gentle smile. I could always meet him on various occasions, or just happen to see him. He looked at me with a warm smile and talked to me familiarly.
But until now I don't know that there are so many coincidences, they are all man-made and just right.
I was not used to it at first, but gradually, I discovered that this person is actually... very special.
He will make me happy, he will take care of me inadvertently, he will protect me when walking on the road, he will be anxious when I get wet in the rain, he will worry when I catch a cold, he is very different... like a gentle breeze, Unknowingly, it has been immersed in my life, and when I found out, I realized that everything seemed to happen naturally, with a warm breath, irresistible, and quietly integrated into my life .
He said he wanted to cook for me, because he felt that I made my body so bad he was very angry, so he would come to my house to cook for me almost every day, the dishes he made were delicious, much better than takeaways and cafeterias , Gradually I fell in love with the feeling of eating with him, it was very warm and comfortable.
He took me out to play together, watch the sunrise and sunset together, run together in the rain, feel the warm sunshine and gentle breeze together...he took me to do a lot of feelings that I have never experienced together , I feel for the first time that life can actually be so beautiful and colorful.
He often smiles, always has a sunny and energetic look, and always looks straight at me in class, with a certain perverted atmosphere, I always see him when I accidentally raise my head while reading at home Mai Mai stared at me, and he didn't feel flustered at all when he met my gaze, instead he would show a mischievous smile. His gaze was always on me, and I always knew it.
Until one day he said that he loves me.
His pious eyes seemed to be saying an oath, and there were countless strands of deep affection hidden in them, and those eyes seemed to be whispering with drizzle.
At that moment, I was attracted by those affectionate eyes, as if I had been waiting for this moment for a long time, as if I suddenly saw a beam of light when the forest was full of fog, and I knew in my heart that that was where I was going .
So, we are together, and I am very happy every day after we are together. When I sleep, someone hugs me, and my heart is very at ease. Despite the wind, frost, rain, snow, lightning and thunder outside, the chest beside me is always reassuring and warm. Listening to him whispering in my ear, listening to him whispering that he likes me, listening to his deep smile, listening to his hoarse voice wake me up...
My life seemed to suddenly become colorful.
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His palm is very warm, holding my hand makes me feel very comfortable.
Every time he looks at me, he always has a very doting look in his eyes, and my cheeks will get hot from such a hot gaze.
He made me feel that I was really the person he cared about the most, that I was deeply loved and pampered.
Yes, he doted on me as if I were a child, and I felt like I was going to be spoiled.
I like when he calls me "Baby".
I like his looking into my eyes, I like his kissing my lips, I like his touching my palm, I like his firm and warm chest.
But it was such a person who doted on me and loved me infinitely, suddenly left me one day, without any precautions, and left me unexpectedly.
When I finally feel that my life has become valuable and meaningful, when I am full of hope for the rising and setting of each day, when I feel that I am deeply loved... suddenly left me.
That period of time is the time I least want to recall. My life suddenly plummeted and became dull.
I don't know how I can only get through those lonely and cold days. Those thoughts that hurt my heart every night make my heart wrinkle and twist together so sad that I can't breathe. I lie on the bed that we once slept together. On the bed, tears ran out disobediently, soaking the pillow and sheets.
I don't know why the person who cares about me so much, why the person who loves me suddenly abandons me, obviously loves me like that... tears rolled down, I began to doubt for the first time Am I really a cursed person?
The days of gray cold and dazed are more difficult than before, just thinking about it is difficult.
But, later, he will suddenly come one day, he will come to tell me that he has been thinking about me, has always loved me and has never changed, he has become stronger, he said he can protect me, he hugged me Cried, said sorry to me, said a lot...
Why don't I think about him every day, the person I've been waiting for will finally come, he is much more mature than before, his brows are full of steady masculinity, but the way he looks at me is still the same as before, I know that his deep affection has not changed, and the years have not taken away the constant involvement, but it has made this feeling more mellow.
So naturally we were together again.
He spoils me all the time, spoils me, and the love between each other is even stronger. Sometimes I even wonder why I will meet such a perfect person who treats me so well, so good that I will be at a loss. Knowing that I am afraid that I will never be able to live without this person in this life.
I firmly believe in my firm belief that this person is worthy of my liking.
I like everything about him. I like to see him curl his mouth, like to see him raise his eyebrows, like to see him lying on top of me, like to see him always looking at me tenderly, like every inch of his body, like his rigidity I like the outline of his face, his smiling eyebrows, the slight touch of stubble on his chin, his soft earlobes, his big hands unscrupulously igniting my body, every time he advances fiercely, I like the tolerance in my body I love his hotness, I like his sweaty forehead, I like his warm lips, I like him whispering words that make people blush and shy in my ears, I like...
I don't seem to be me anymore, I have never had such deep feelings before, such raging desires, but now... when I think of him, I blush and my heart beats, I seem to have turned bad, it's really embarrassing...
I don't know why he likes my body, but he really likes my body, he always says my body is beautiful and great, every time I hear it, I feel overwhelmed and embarrassed, I Staring at him was actually trying to cover up my inner shyness and embarrassment, but every time he said that I was deliberately seducing him, I obviously didn't!
Xiaohang is very bad, he always coaxes me every time, and when he makes me dizzy, he starts to lie to me in various embarrassing positions, he never tires of coaxing me, but every time I am still deceived by him I realized that maybe I was really as stupid as he said, but he clearly said that I was smart.
Xiaohang is too bad, so I'm going to teach him a lesson, I know he can't stand a little bit of teasing every time, always saying that I don't do anything, just staring at him blankly, his lower body It’s out of my control, I don’t accept it, when did I look at him blankly, he said he couldn’t stand the way I looked dazed every time I woke up, he couldn’t stand the way I looked at him smiling, I blushed and shy He couldn't stand the look, even the way I rolled my eyes was so cute that he couldn't stand it... He said that I seduced him all the time and tested his willpower.
He is obviously talking nonsense, how can I!
I also want to teach him a lesson, so I use his weakness, hum!Who told him that he insisted on letting me use that posture a few days ago, and didn't let me...call me Teacher Ye deliberately at that time, but forbid me...and let me say that kind of thing...he ...he is so bad!
So on this day, when he was about to come back from get off work, I decided on one thing...
Although this incident makes me feel extremely ashamed.
I put on my fluffy cat ears, and when I tied the bells on my wrists and ankles, I felt my face was so hot, as if it was about to burn. Thinking of those tumbling images, my ears seemed to be whistling and panting , no, stop!
After I got everything ready, I lay on the bed in the bedroom, but when I thought about it, I was constantly aroused by the pictures in my mind, causing my body to tremble slightly, but the more I didn't think about it, the more I couldn't escape, Xiao Hang's murmured words seemed to be right in front of my eyes, I felt my body was very hot, of course I knew what the omen was, but I couldn't, I was obviously trying to trick him, but...but now I...really So sad……
I sneaked a glance down, feeling even more anxious, I can't fall short, but the feeling in my body couldn't be controlled by myself, just when I was in a dilemma, I heard the sound of the door opening.
"Baby, I'm back." Xiaohang's voice sounded from outside, and it sounded quite happy, but this voice made my body even more uncontrollable, as if I heard the master's voice, I became excited.
"Baby, where are you?" I heard Xiaohang open the door of the study, "Not here? Baby, where are you?" I heard his voice slowly approaching the bedroom, and the sound of footsteps slowly approaching.
I closed my eyes and remained motionless, but my heartbeat became more and more violent uncontrollably.
"Bao..." After Xiaohang pushed open the door, his voice stopped abruptly, and he stopped short. I closed my eyes and dared not breathe out nervously, because I knew Xiaohang was looking at me now.
And I, now lying naked on the bed, no, I can't say that the whole body is naked.
Unprepared, Ye Qian was shocked by the scene in front of him, and stood there in a daze.
A smile appeared on the corner of Ji Muhang's mouth, "Qianqian, I probably fell in love with you from the first time I saw you."
First look.
When I raised my eyes for the first time, my heart suddenly missed a beat.
Jingle Bell--
When the class bell rang, a boy with a steaming steamed bun in his hand was striding towards the classroom. The schoolbag on his back slipped to the crook of his arm because of the rush he ran along the way. The boy was chewing on the bun desperately while He came straight in from the back door of the classroom, and sat in the last row without raising his eyelids. After eating the steamed buns in two or three bites, he realized that the atmosphere of today's class seemed a bit...special.
The classroom, which is usually noisy, is very quiet at this time. Even the people who usually sit in the last few rows who often discuss games have changed, and there is no sound of anyone discussing cosmetics. Ji Muhang was wondering, so he raised his head and casually looked at Glance at the podium.
The result is this glimpse, the gears of the two people's fate creaked and turned, and gradually, they began to become entangled.
The person standing on the podium was wearing a very chic light blue shirt, with handsome and exquisite eyebrows and eyes, carrying a faint cool taste, and at that time, there happened to be a ray of sunlight shining on his hair through the large glass window, The whole body was coated with a golden halo, maybe it was because the sun was very warm at that time, maybe it was because the weather was just right, maybe it was...
The boy's heart trembled suddenly, his breathing stagnated, and his heart skipped a beat.
Since then, in that class, the boy's eyes have always been on that cold person intentionally or unintentionally.
His voice is beautiful, clear and bright.
His hands are white and slender.
He looks serious and cute.
he……
In the eyes of the young man, the cold person on the podium looked over.
The four eyes are docked, and the eyes are staring.
A heart beat out of rhythm.
puff puff...
At that second, the boy's originally frozen heart suddenly warmed up and became brighter, and then the corners of his mouth slowly turned up in the next second, and he smiled foolishly. There is a faint light flickering everywhere.
"Every time I saw you after that, I liked you more and more," Ji Muhang looked at Ye Qian with a smile, "I like to see you seriously lecturing, I like to see you frown slightly, I like to see you talk, I like to see you being loved by me." You look embarrassed and bewildered, I like to see you flustered and embarrassed, I like..."
I like to see every aspect of you. At that time, I just felt that all the soft water in the world was rippling in your eyes.
The teenager often surrounds that person intentionally or unintentionally, and finally, under countless "accidents", countless "accidents", and countless "coincidences", the two red threads of fate slowly pull and intertwine with each other.
"Ms. Ye, I don't know how to do this question, please explain to me."
"Miss Ye, you're shopping here too, I'll carry it for you..."
"Miss Ye, I brought an umbrella, let's go together..."
"Miss Ye, let me treat you to dinner."
Miss Ye...
This title used to make the young man think about it very much, just saying it from his mouth already felt a little sweet in his heart.
"Later, I tried my best to get close to you, but you always looked indifferent, which made me feel that it was difficult to touch, but I couldn't let go, so I tried my best to get close to you, until one day you slowly changed from your own I crawled out of the shell, and that's when I realized that I really dug up a treasure." Ji Muhang knelt on one knee and looked up at Ye Qian.
"Ms. Ye, you look so pretty when you smile, why don't you smile more in the future..." the boy looked at the person in front of him and said with a smile.
Ye Qian blushed. A person who can perfectly overcome all kinds of academic difficulties can't cope with the situation in front of him. He lowered his eyebrows and looked a little at a loss.
"Teacher, let's go play together. I know there are interesting places nearby, so you'll be satisfied..." The young man grabbed the wrist of the person in front of him, and walked forward naturally and casually, but his eyes were extremely firm.
"That, that..." Ye Qian faltered, his eyes fixed on his wrist.
"what happened?"
"...No, nothing."
The moment the hands touched slightly, there seemed to be an inexplicable feeling across the heart, stirring the heartbeat.
"I am happier than you when you are happy, and I am sadder than you when you are sad. I hope that you are happy every day, that you smile more, that you are always in front of my eyes, and that I can walk into your heart..."
"Qianqian, I like you." The tall boy held the hand of the person in front of him with a smile in his eyes.
His fair face was slightly flushed, and his fingers flicked a few times in the wide and warm palm, "I know."
The young man gently pressed his lips on the corners of the lips of the person in front of him, warm lips, delicate skin.
Whose eyelashes are trembling slightly, whose cheeks are blushing bit by bit, whose mouth is curved, whose eyes are tender like water, whose heart is beating like a deer...
"Qianqian, you are so pretty..." The young man smiled brilliantly.
"You, what are you talking about?" A rippling flew out of the corner of the eyes of the reproaching person.
"Later when we were together, I felt that I was the happiest person in the world. You are so good, just like an angel. I want to hold you in my pocket, hold you in my palm, and hold you Hidden in my heart, I... But then I lost you, I hate myself, I hate myself for not being able to protect you, the day of parting from you is the saddest and most difficult day for me, I miss you, I miss you I was going crazy, I felt like I couldn't hold on any longer, but when I thought that you might still be waiting for me, I felt that I had to become stronger. Later, fortunately, I found you, and then I knew, I was afraid I can't leave you forever, I want you, I want to be with you forever..."
Ye Qian looked at Ji Muhang who was kneeling on the ground, his eyes were red with tears.
Those days... Fortunately, it has passed, those days and nights that were run through by continuous longing, those days that were defeated by the surging love, those days that were about to be tormented by longing to go crazy, fortunately, it has passed It's over.
"I love you, Qianqian, I want to be by your side all the time, I want to be with you forever, I want to make you happy, I want you to laugh with you, cry with you, eat with you, sleep with you, Do a lot of things, even if you don’t do anything, as long as I’m with you, I feel like I’m the happiest person.”
"Would you like to be my lover? Live with me for the rest of your life," Ji Muhang took out a ring, the simple and unadorned style looked extraordinarily delicate, Ji Muhang looked at Ye Qian, "Are you willing? Modesty"
Ye Qian's eyes were shining brightly, tears flickered, and he nodded, "Well, I am willing."
The people around were sighed and moved. After so many years of reunion and parting, there were many hardships, and the two people who loved each other finally achieved a positive result.
Ji Muhang put the ring on Ye Qian's finger, and kissed it gently with his lips, as devout as a believer, and his belief is only in this one in front of him.
"Kiss one! Kiss one! Kiss one!" Everyone shouted in unison.
Ji Muhang got up and stood in front of Ye Qian, rubbing Ye Qian's hair with his hands. Facing so many people's booing, Ye Qian's face turned slightly red. Although Ji Muhang usually kisses and hugs him at home and even...but In front of the public, Ye Qian couldn't help feeling a little embarrassed.
Ji Muhang hugged Ye Qian directly, and kissed him. With a familiar breath and a familiar feeling, Ye Qian followed the habits of his body and responded to Ji Muhang's gentle kiss. I was shooting with a camera at the beginning, and now I am enjoying it.
When they parted with a kiss, Ye Qian's lips were bright red and his eyes were still steamy. Ji Muhang looked at Ye Qian and poked Ye Qian's cheek with his fingers. Ye Qian lowered his eyebrows and smiled shyly.
"Oh! Sprinkle flowers! Blessings!" Su Ziyou took the flowers in the flower basket and sprinkled them towards the two. The petals fell one after another, and the two people under the flowers smiled sweetly.
"Come, come, drink, if you don't get drunk, you won't go home. Brother Hang, don't stop me this time. We must respect Teacher Ye..."
"Miss Ye, I respect you."
"Hey, and me, I respect you too..."
……
Everyone had sunny smiles on their faces, wanton and free and easy.
Year by year, the years are getting warmer, and the winter and spring are coming and the cold and heat are a little bit different. The flowing water flows through the ups and downs of the world, and touches the deep love.
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When the wine was in full swing, the atmosphere was smoky, everyone was so drunk that they didn't hesitate to speak.
"Ms. Ye, it's really pretty, prettier than those women, prettier..." Xiao Pang squinted his eyes and fell drunk.
"What nonsense are you talking about! Of course Teacher Ye looks good..." Qin Fang kicked somewhere, and the glass bottle by his feet fell to the ground with a crisp sound and spun a few times.
"Big Orange! I want to drink! Give it to me!" Su Ziyou grabbed the bottle in Cheng Bo's arms, acting like a child, "I want to drink..."
"Don't grab my drink, you're too bad!"
"Your shirt is too strong, next time you buy an easy to tear one, I... can't... tear it apart..."
Cheng Bo helped his forehead helplessly, hugged the drunk man in his arms, and took out the wine bottle in his hand. Su Ziyou kept talking nonsense, "Big Chengzi, you are just jealous, I said you still don't believe it...yesterday...hey, where is my wine..."
Wang Yang was also drunk, holding the beer bottle and not letting go, "Anran... Where is my cat? Anran..." He muttered unconsciously, stroking Anran's arms, "Where's Kira? "
An Ran tugged Wang Yang and dragged him to her side.
"It's all your fault," Wang Yang muttered, "My waist is about to break, you..." Wang Yang rubbed against An Ran dissatisfied.
Ye Qian has been drunk by these people for a long time, and finally caught a chance, these bastards would not let it go, Ye Qian followed suit and drank cheerfully, and ended up in a dazed look now .
Ye Qian lay in Ji Muhang's arms, his eyes blurred, "Xiaohang... Xiaohang..." Ye Qian smiled like a child, "I want to drink, I want to drink...it's delicious..."
Ye Qian is very funny every time he gets drunk, and Ji Muhang loves to play with people, "Who are you?" Ji Muhang smiled and hooked Ye Qian's chin with his finger.
"I, I am...I am...you are...Xiaohang..." Ye Qian giggled a few times, "Xiaohang, good..."
Ji Muhang was so soft in his heart that he hugged Ye Qian and said, "Let's go home." He kissed the corner of Ye Qian's mouth, and motioned to the few people who were still awake. Except for Ji Muhang, the people with clear eyes are safe After meeting Cheng Bo, Ji Muhang smiled at them helplessly, and left with Ye Qian in his arms.
"Well, go home, let's go home," Ye Qian said with a smile, "Let's go home and sleep, I like to sleep with Xiaohang." He stretched out his hand and touched Ji Muhang's cheek.
Ji Muhang took a taxi and returned home within a few minutes at night. Ye Qian followed Ji Muhang's words all the way and answered. The taxi driver was very professional and didn't make a sound. After the two got out of the car, the driver glanced at their backs. He should go home, and someone was waiting for him to go back to sleep. As soon as he stepped on the accelerator, the car sped away.
"Huh? What else do you like?" Ji Muhang coaxed, and carried Ye Qian into the bedroom.
"I like Xiaohang!" Ye Qian said as a matter of course, "Xiaohang is the best."
"Then why do you like to sleep with Xiaohang?" Ji Muhang deliberately teased Ye Qian, and secretly turned on the switch of the recording brown bear on the bedside table in the bedroom, and put it on the bedside.
Ye Qian tilted his head and thought in a daze, "Sleeping? Why?"
"Huh? Why do you like to sleep with Xiaohang?" Ji Muhang slowly unbuttoned Ye Qian's shirt one by one, coaxing softly, "Tell me, my wife."
Ye Qian was called back by the doting "wife", suddenly shy, "Because of Xiaohang..." Ye Qian's shy voice gradually lowered, and he covered his face in embarrassment.
"What?" Ji Muhang leaned closer to Ye Qian's cheek.
Ye Qian opened and closed his lips slightly and whispered in Ji Muhang's ear. After hearing this, Ji Muhang curled his lips, "Baby, you're lecherous..." He looked meaningfully at Ye Qian who was lying naked on the bed.
"Honey, do you like black cat ears or white ones?" Ji Muhang showed Ye Qian what he took out from nowhere.
Ye Qian looked at Ji Muhang, then at the things in Ji Muhang's hands, and obediently pointed to one of them.
"Be good, baby, since we like these, let's wear them." Said Ji Muhang put the white cat ears on Ye Qian's head, Ye Qian was still in a daze, and obediently let Ji Muhang move .
"And this," Ji Muhang said, putting the small bells on Ye Qian's wrists and ankles. After wearing them, Ji Muhang looked at the well-behaved Ye Qian and couldn't help kissing Ye Qian's lips, "Baby, You are so pretty!"
Ye Qian hugged Ji Muhang's neck following Ji Muhang's posture of bowing his head, and leaned forward to beg for a kiss.
With the sound of Ye Qian's clear bell, Ji Muhang bent his mouth, "Honey, I think...it's better this way." He turned over and hugged him on his body.
"Honey, who do you like best?"
"Xiaohang!"
"What do you like about Xiaohang?"
"Xiaohang...Okay," Ye Qian smiled foolishly and lay on Ji Muhang's chest, "Be good to me, very good."
"Come on, baby, give me a kiss." Ji Muhang put his arms around Ye Qian's waist and lowered his head to kiss his lips.
The atmosphere between the two is so gentle that it makes people feel sweet in their hearts.
"I want more," Ye Qian stretched his neck and pouted to ask Ji Muhang for a kiss. He looked very cute, like a child looking for candy, "I still want to kiss..."
"Call your husband and kiss me."
"Husband—" The soft and drawn out syllables were misty.
"Baby, how can you be cute!" Ji Muhang kissed his little prince.
Cute, very ticklish and cute, I just want to spoil this person to heaven.
The inadvertent cuteness of this person always melts Ji Muhang's heart.
I thought this guy was so cute from the start...
After class, Ye Qian was deliberately entangled by Ji Muhang, and then he was dragged to eat by Ji Muhang as a matter of course. The weather was extremely hot, so Ji Muhang went to the supermarket and took out two ice creams.
Ye Qian took a bite, the smell of vanilla slowly drifted away in his heart, the corners of Ye Qian's mouth curved in satisfaction, Ji Muhang was stunned for a moment when he saw such a childish smile, until Ye Qian found that Ji Muhang's eyes kept falling On his own face, Ye Qian was stunned, "Is there something on my face?"
"No, no," Ji Muhang smiled, "I just think you are too cute, teacher."
Hearing what Ji Muhang said, Ye Qian was at a loss for a moment, his face slowly turned red, "What are you talking about..." Turning his face away, he didn't know what to mutter.
At that time, Ji Muhang really wanted to go forward and pinch Ye Qian's slightly flushed face.
Just like now Ji Muhang looked at the red face and pouting lips in front of him, stretched out his hand and couldn't help poking it, Ye Qian bit Ji Muhang's finger in a daze, his soft and wet tongue slipped over Ji Muhang When pointing to the pulp, Ji Muhang's heart trembled.
The small flame that was just around the corner was crackling and burning quickly...
With the intense action, the bell rang crisply, accompanied by panting, humming, and some kind of reverie-inducing voice, and performed an ambiguous and lingering tune of cloud and rain.
When Ji Muhang got up and hugged Ye Qian to take a bath, Ye Qian still hugged Jimuhang's neck and didn't let go. When Ji Muhang touched Ye Qian's body, Ye Qian's body couldn't help shaking, especially the small waist, pitiful Xi was trembling and muttering non-stop.
"Xiaohang... No, no more..." Ye Qian squinted his eyes and looked pitiful to Bala, with a few teardrops hanging from his eyelashes, "You, you bullied me..." Ye Qian curled up in Ji Muhang's arms like kitten.
Ji Muhang looked at it and felt that the innocent and cute appearance of the person in front of him was simply seducing him.
"Baby, why did I bully you?" Ji Muhang asked while bathing Ye Qian.
"You...you won't let me..." Ye Qian narrowed his eyes, "Anyway, you bully me..."
"Baby, don't you like it?" Ji Muhang applied the shower gel on Ye Qian's body, forming fine and dense foam, "Don't you like me treating you like this?" Ji Muhang hooked the corner of his mouth.
"I like it..." Ye Qian bent his lips comfortably, and leaned on Ji Muhang.
"Honey, what else do you like?" Ji Muhang flushed the foam away, "What pose do you like? Huh?"
"I..." Ye Qian's whole body was flushed from the warm blisters, his little face was rosy, "I like you to kiss me, I like you to eat neinei, I like you to hug me, I like to see you in... ...Every expression at that time, I like the way you are in heat..." Ye Qian squinted his eyes and talked about his feelings calmly, smiling like a kitten.
Ji Muhang wiped the water droplets on Ye Qian's body, and faced the naked person standing in front of him, Ji Muhang smiled, "I like you too, I like to see your shy face, I like to hear your voice, I like to see your Every expression, like your eyes, your nose, your mouth," Ji Muhang kissed all the way.
Looking at the two points on his chest that were extremely red and swollen by himself, Ji Muhang fiddled with his fingers a few times, and Ye Qian whispered unsurprisingly, "I like it here."
His hand went down to touch Ye Qian's waist, "I like it here."
Going down, the rounded double mounds have beautiful curves, and of course they feel better in the hand. Ji Muhang touched them a few times, "I like it here."
Ye Qian leaned slightly on Ji Muhang's body, and murmured: "Xiaohang...I like you, I like you so much..."
Ji Muhang washed Ye Qian white and hugged him to the bed, and lay down beside Ye Qian. Ye Qian asked the familiar smell and huddled in Ji Muhang's arms and fell asleep peacefully. .
"Baby, I love you," Ji Muhang kissed the corner of Ye Qian's lips, Ye Qian's eyes were closed, but his behavior was very obedient and he leaned forward and pouted.
Ji Muhang smiled, "Good night, my baby."
These long-term infiltrations are all warm witnesses that have melted into each other's lives bit by bit.
The autobiography of Wu Yeqian
I am Ye Qian, I may be a very ordinary person, maybe... there is a little difference.
I can’t remember my parents most clearly. In my childhood memories, my parents seldom go home. I only know that they are always very busy. They are often only me and Aunt Wu at home. When Aunt Wu told me that my parents would never come back, many strange uncles and aunts told me "your parents are great people". At that time, I didn't understand what greatness is. wearing something.
When I was in elementary school, someone said behind my back that my parents didn't want children, that I must be a bad child so that my parents didn't want children, and said a lot of ugly things. I knew what it meant, but I didn't refute it, and I didn't want to refute it. , because I listened too much and I lost my feeling. I just walked silently by myself. Only when I got home and saw Aunt Wu did I really feel that I was also wanted by someone.
Aunt Wu is very good to me, I have always known that Aunt Wu said that I am too quiet and obedient, but she looks at me with deep pity, I don't understand, is it not good to be obedient?The kid next door was beaten by his parents for being too misbehaving and mischievous. I know he is always vicious every time he sees me. I know he spits on my back because his parents always mention my name.
Being nice can be really bad sometimes.
I like reading books, because only when I read books can I really feel comfortable and happy. I like the stories in the books, and I like the sense of security brought by writing and doing questions. Only then do I feel as if I am really alive, yes ,living.
I have thought very seriously about death.
At that time, I wasn't even afraid of death at all. Maybe, I still wanted to test the idea of death a little bit. I didn't want to talk to anyone during that period of time. I didn't know what I could say. Aphasia is the same, fortunately, there are books to accompany me, I have read many, many books, the world described in the books is very beautiful, but I can't understand it.
Someone told me that they like me, but I don't understand what it feels like to like me.
I have read many, many books, and I know that the description of liking in the book is very wonderful, but I have never experienced it, and I don't understand it at all.
I know people are pointing and saying things beside me, saying that I am strange, that I am good-looking, that I am young, that I have no parents, that I have good grades, that I am cold, that I...
But I don't care at all, and I don't know why I don't.
I'm autistic, and I know it.
I still remember the psychiatrist looked at me, smiled and said to me: "You are special, you will have a different life, I believe in you." The doctor smiled, like the warm sun in early spring, he said at that time A lot, touching my head, I feel very comfortable, I still remember his expression when he spoke to me.
Later, when I was in high school, I was confessed by many people. Those people said they liked me, but I could only keep silent. At that time, I could already clearly understand that maybe my life was destined to be spent alone.
When I went to university, I fell in love with chemistry. It was a rich and colorful world. I indulged myself in the world of chemistry. Outsiders pointing, talking and laughing have nothing to do with me. I think if there is no such a subject , I may be the walking dead, I built a hard shell for myself, and then shrunk myself inside.
Later I got depression, and I don’t remember what kind of days it was. When I think of it, my biggest impression is darkness, coldness, cold hands and feet, trembling body, sweating constantly, weakness all over the body, etc. The scene is very vague, maybe it has been automatically ignored, that is not important.
During that period of time, I even thought of death. I thought of death more than once, and thought of death without any fear. When I stared at the blood vessels in my arm for a long time, I even felt the tip of the knife in my hand It became nothingness, and the whole person seemed to have entered an illusion, becoming ethereal.
I think there may be nothing to regret about dying like this.
But I didn't die, because in the blur, I saw the old dean looking at me and crying. I don't know why he was crying. The old dean pulled me and said a lot, but I couldn't hear it, I only saw it His lips were trembling and moving.
Later, when I went abroad, it was a period of days that might be boring when I think about it, but it was better than nothing. During that period of time, I only had academics in my eyes, and I loved chemistry. , which is an interesting subject.
"Chemistry gives people knowledge, and the history of chemistry gives people wisdom."
I don't know how much knowledge and wisdom it brings me, I just know that it makes me feel as if I have a little value in life, and it makes me feel that there is something to fill a certain void and dullness, all the professors Say I'm great, I'm a very gifted person, a natural fit for academics.
But I have Asperger's Syndrome, a so-called autism in adults.Am I lonely?I don't know, I don't even understand what loneliness is.
At that time, I met Li Wensen. I didn’t understand why this person insisted on breaking into my line of sight. I didn’t even understand why he had that aggressive look in his eyes every time he saw me. But he helped me, took the initiative Communicating with me, I didn’t even know how to communicate normally with people when I was most ill, but he would patiently help me after he knew it. I have always been grateful to him, although he often made me feel uncomfortable by my side.
After finishing my studies, the old dean asked me if I would like to come back, and I agreed without hesitation at all, because I knew that without the help from the old dean, I might not be where I am now, although I feel that I am not here. It's all the same to me, but if I go back, it's still worth being needed, maybe... it's different.
I thought my whole life might just pass like this, plain, lonely, deserted...
However, I never thought that the appearance of a person changed the trajectory of my life.
It was my first time as a substitute class for undergraduates. The weather that day was very sunny, so bright that it was a bit unreal. It seemed that I hadn’t experienced this kind of weather for a long time. It was too comfortable and made people feel a little uncomfortable.
In class, the professional content is very simple, and I can deal with all kinds of academic problems freely, but I can only turn a blind eye to the countless lines of sight from the audience, as if I can’t see anything, and I am indifferent or ignoring as usual.
But I clearly felt a bunch of different eyes stay on me all the time, I felt puzzled, so I looked over, because of that look, maybe everything started to be different.
The second the eyes met, the owner of those eyes suddenly smiled, the smile was caught off guard, with a childlike innocence, the corners of the mouth were slightly upturned, and a shallow flower bloomed.
My nerves that have been indifferent since then seemed to tremble slightly at that moment.
Later, the man named Ji Muhang came into my sight just like that. He was a handsome boy with a gentle smile. I could always meet him on various occasions, or just happen to see him. He looked at me with a warm smile and talked to me familiarly.
But until now I don't know that there are so many coincidences, they are all man-made and just right.
I was not used to it at first, but gradually, I discovered that this person is actually... very special.
He will make me happy, he will take care of me inadvertently, he will protect me when walking on the road, he will be anxious when I get wet in the rain, he will worry when I catch a cold, he is very different... like a gentle breeze, Unknowingly, it has been immersed in my life, and when I found out, I realized that everything seemed to happen naturally, with a warm breath, irresistible, and quietly integrated into my life .
He said he wanted to cook for me, because he felt that I made my body so bad he was very angry, so he would come to my house to cook for me almost every day, the dishes he made were delicious, much better than takeaways and cafeterias , Gradually I fell in love with the feeling of eating with him, it was very warm and comfortable.
He took me out to play together, watch the sunrise and sunset together, run together in the rain, feel the warm sunshine and gentle breeze together...he took me to do a lot of feelings that I have never experienced together , I feel for the first time that life can actually be so beautiful and colorful.
He often smiles, always has a sunny and energetic look, and always looks straight at me in class, with a certain perverted atmosphere, I always see him when I accidentally raise my head while reading at home Mai Mai stared at me, and he didn't feel flustered at all when he met my gaze, instead he would show a mischievous smile. His gaze was always on me, and I always knew it.
Until one day he said that he loves me.
His pious eyes seemed to be saying an oath, and there were countless strands of deep affection hidden in them, and those eyes seemed to be whispering with drizzle.
At that moment, I was attracted by those affectionate eyes, as if I had been waiting for this moment for a long time, as if I suddenly saw a beam of light when the forest was full of fog, and I knew in my heart that that was where I was going .
So, we are together, and I am very happy every day after we are together. When I sleep, someone hugs me, and my heart is very at ease. Despite the wind, frost, rain, snow, lightning and thunder outside, the chest beside me is always reassuring and warm. Listening to him whispering in my ear, listening to him whispering that he likes me, listening to his deep smile, listening to his hoarse voice wake me up...
My life seemed to suddenly become colorful.
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His palm is very warm, holding my hand makes me feel very comfortable.
Every time he looks at me, he always has a very doting look in his eyes, and my cheeks will get hot from such a hot gaze.
He made me feel that I was really the person he cared about the most, that I was deeply loved and pampered.
Yes, he doted on me as if I were a child, and I felt like I was going to be spoiled.
I like when he calls me "Baby".
I like his looking into my eyes, I like his kissing my lips, I like his touching my palm, I like his firm and warm chest.
But it was such a person who doted on me and loved me infinitely, suddenly left me one day, without any precautions, and left me unexpectedly.
When I finally feel that my life has become valuable and meaningful, when I am full of hope for the rising and setting of each day, when I feel that I am deeply loved... suddenly left me.
That period of time is the time I least want to recall. My life suddenly plummeted and became dull.
I don't know how I can only get through those lonely and cold days. Those thoughts that hurt my heart every night make my heart wrinkle and twist together so sad that I can't breathe. I lie on the bed that we once slept together. On the bed, tears ran out disobediently, soaking the pillow and sheets.
I don't know why the person who cares about me so much, why the person who loves me suddenly abandons me, obviously loves me like that... tears rolled down, I began to doubt for the first time Am I really a cursed person?
The days of gray cold and dazed are more difficult than before, just thinking about it is difficult.
But, later, he will suddenly come one day, he will come to tell me that he has been thinking about me, has always loved me and has never changed, he has become stronger, he said he can protect me, he hugged me Cried, said sorry to me, said a lot...
Why don't I think about him every day, the person I've been waiting for will finally come, he is much more mature than before, his brows are full of steady masculinity, but the way he looks at me is still the same as before, I know that his deep affection has not changed, and the years have not taken away the constant involvement, but it has made this feeling more mellow.
So naturally we were together again.
He spoils me all the time, spoils me, and the love between each other is even stronger. Sometimes I even wonder why I will meet such a perfect person who treats me so well, so good that I will be at a loss. Knowing that I am afraid that I will never be able to live without this person in this life.
I firmly believe in my firm belief that this person is worthy of my liking.
I like everything about him. I like to see him curl his mouth, like to see him raise his eyebrows, like to see him lying on top of me, like to see him always looking at me tenderly, like every inch of his body, like his rigidity I like the outline of his face, his smiling eyebrows, the slight touch of stubble on his chin, his soft earlobes, his big hands unscrupulously igniting my body, every time he advances fiercely, I like the tolerance in my body I love his hotness, I like his sweaty forehead, I like his warm lips, I like him whispering words that make people blush and shy in my ears, I like...
I don't seem to be me anymore, I have never had such deep feelings before, such raging desires, but now... when I think of him, I blush and my heart beats, I seem to have turned bad, it's really embarrassing...
I don't know why he likes my body, but he really likes my body, he always says my body is beautiful and great, every time I hear it, I feel overwhelmed and embarrassed, I Staring at him was actually trying to cover up my inner shyness and embarrassment, but every time he said that I was deliberately seducing him, I obviously didn't!
Xiaohang is very bad, he always coaxes me every time, and when he makes me dizzy, he starts to lie to me in various embarrassing positions, he never tires of coaxing me, but every time I am still deceived by him I realized that maybe I was really as stupid as he said, but he clearly said that I was smart.
Xiaohang is too bad, so I'm going to teach him a lesson, I know he can't stand a little bit of teasing every time, always saying that I don't do anything, just staring at him blankly, his lower body It’s out of my control, I don’t accept it, when did I look at him blankly, he said he couldn’t stand the way I looked dazed every time I woke up, he couldn’t stand the way I looked at him smiling, I blushed and shy He couldn't stand the look, even the way I rolled my eyes was so cute that he couldn't stand it... He said that I seduced him all the time and tested his willpower.
He is obviously talking nonsense, how can I!
I also want to teach him a lesson, so I use his weakness, hum!Who told him that he insisted on letting me use that posture a few days ago, and didn't let me...call me Teacher Ye deliberately at that time, but forbid me...and let me say that kind of thing...he ...he is so bad!
So on this day, when he was about to come back from get off work, I decided on one thing...
Although this incident makes me feel extremely ashamed.
I put on my fluffy cat ears, and when I tied the bells on my wrists and ankles, I felt my face was so hot, as if it was about to burn. Thinking of those tumbling images, my ears seemed to be whistling and panting , no, stop!
After I got everything ready, I lay on the bed in the bedroom, but when I thought about it, I was constantly aroused by the pictures in my mind, causing my body to tremble slightly, but the more I didn't think about it, the more I couldn't escape, Xiao Hang's murmured words seemed to be right in front of my eyes, I felt my body was very hot, of course I knew what the omen was, but I couldn't, I was obviously trying to trick him, but...but now I...really So sad……
I sneaked a glance down, feeling even more anxious, I can't fall short, but the feeling in my body couldn't be controlled by myself, just when I was in a dilemma, I heard the sound of the door opening.
"Baby, I'm back." Xiaohang's voice sounded from outside, and it sounded quite happy, but this voice made my body even more uncontrollable, as if I heard the master's voice, I became excited.
"Baby, where are you?" I heard Xiaohang open the door of the study, "Not here? Baby, where are you?" I heard his voice slowly approaching the bedroom, and the sound of footsteps slowly approaching.
I closed my eyes and remained motionless, but my heartbeat became more and more violent uncontrollably.
"Bao..." After Xiaohang pushed open the door, his voice stopped abruptly, and he stopped short. I closed my eyes and dared not breathe out nervously, because I knew Xiaohang was looking at me now.
And I, now lying naked on the bed, no, I can't say that the whole body is naked.
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