I make your medicine

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Tang Ren's muscles were tense, and he crawled into his head belatedly in a panic.

Li Che was angry.

He said hoarsely, "I thought, you..."

Tang Ren couldn't say anything, his lips were slightly parted but he couldn't say the rest.

Li Che endured a few seconds of silence before waiting for the next sentence, he let go of his embrace and forced him to face himself, and asked in a deep voice, "Why?"

Tang Ren stared at Li Che's expression, and his mind fell into chaos again.

"Think it's over between us?"

"Think this is the end?"

"Think I should break up with you after listening to the story for ten minutes?"

Tang Ren stared blankly at his angry eyes, stretched out his hand to caress them in a daze, pulled a forced smile on his stiff cheeks, and asked softly, "Brother, what are you doing, why are you crying?"

Li Che had never cried in front of him, at most, his eyes were red, and Tang Ren had never seen tears falling down like a broken thread like now.

Li Che ignored him, turned his head to avoid his hand, and squeezed out a few words: "I like you, can't you tell at all?"

Tang Ren's eyes involuntarily steamed with mist, he withdrew his hand and let it hang down weakly, his eyes slid to the weeds and flower beds not far away, and said in a harsh voice, "What do you like about me?"

"What do I like about you?" Li Che laughed angrily, and raised his voice uncontrollably: "If you like it, you just like it. I like it at a glance. Do I need to give you a reasonable reason?"

Tang Ren pursed his lips, not looking at him.

Li Che's heart ached from the beating and scolding expression in front of him. He really couldn't do anything with Tang Ren. He loved Tang Ren too much for fear of breaking him apart.

Bottomless impatience and anxiety overwhelmed Li Che step by step, almost suffocating.

He roughly broke Tang Ren's chin with one hand and forced the other party to look directly at him, letting his soaring emotions flow with a low voice: "You are questioning my feelings, aren't you?"

Tang Ren's chest trembled, Li Che's uncontrollable sadness swept over his barely constricted mind, the beautiful eyes that had always been determined and easy-going kept moistening, accumulating, and sliding down, dripping water on the tip of his already irresistible heart Deep pits were smashed on the ground.

"You don't think I like you seriously enough, do you?" The more Li Che spoke, the more angry he became, biting each word more sharply.

Tang Ren was in a state of confusion, his memories and cognitions surrounded him like a pool of thick black water. He wanted to go out, but he was even more afraid of dragging people outside into the water.

But it was only when he looked into those painful eyes that he realized that his stupid question was severely hurting Li Che's heart.

What the hell is he doing?

"I, I'm not..."

"Tang Ren." Li Che interrupted him, and said patiently: "I know your intentions from the very beginning. You can't hide anything in your eyes. Do you think you are the only one who is careful? Do you know I know how nervous I was every time I found an excuse to visit you in the store? I was afraid that you would be disgusted, that you would avoid me, and that you would not want to see me. Later, you acquiesced in my taking you home, and those 10 minutes It’s always been the part of the day I look forward to the most.”

Recalling those days when every step was cautious, Li Che smiled instead, put his thumb on his lips, and said, "Then you agreed to share the rent with me, and I smoked half a pack of cigarettes that night, and couldn't fall asleep for a second. .”

"On the night of the New Year's Eve, I can't wait to broadcast on the loudspeaker in the park in a loop, saying, I am with the person I like, and I have found a treasure."

Li Che's tiger's mouth was pressed against Tang Ren's cheek, and a stream of tears wiped away and flowed into his sleeve along the back of his hand.

"I'm waiting for you to kiss me, I'm waiting for you to do your homework, I can wait for whatever you want."

"Tang Ren, I like you. I don't need a reason. I like you because it's you, and it must be you. You are like a tailor-made person for me. You are close to my thread from head to toe, so Even if you make a flower, I can follow it unconditionally."

Li Che said with a trembling voice: "But you are too humble, too unconfident, you never let go of your hands and feet to respond to me, you have to ask me when you kiss, you push me away when you encounter problems, and you have to prepare for so long even to sleep with me " Tears flowed from the corners of his mouth and gathered on his chin, his Adam's apple rolled, he swallowed the surging pain, and said the heart-wrenching truth: "You always intend to get out at any time, don't you?"

Suddenly, Tang Ren felt that the boulder pressing down on his heart was easily lifted away, and the mud covered with insects and snakes leaked out, and what was reaching out to rummage in was the inviolable light that had been held high all along.

He grabbed Li Che's hand in a panic, but it was tightly held back. Li Che's voice was unsteady, and he said angrily: "Do you think that as long as you don't make it to the last step, even if we break up, I won't be so happy." deficit?"

Tang Ren opened his mouth, not knowing what to say, he couldn't stop trembling as he gasped.

The hand on the chin loosened its strength, and caressed his temples carefully.

Li Che almost cried, and asked in a low voice: "What about you?"

"You still have my name on your waist, where are you going to go?"

Tang Ren clenched his teeth, but he still couldn't stop the uncontrollable tears.

He thought about the ending, about parting, but he never thought about what would happen to him after that.

He didn't dare to think, didn't dare to use a little more brain cells to imagine a life without Li Che.

He didn't care about anything when he didn't have this person, but now that he is given a chance, if he loses it, he doesn't know what uncontrollable things he will do.

But above his head is always hanging the switch knife that cuts off life at any time.

"But my dad is, a murderer."

Ordinary people know that their boyfriend's father is that kind of insane murderer, so how many people don't mind, not to mention that he himself is cruel and doesn't know the severity. Sometimes he even wonders, is this kind of thing real? will be inherited.

Li Che was so angry that his stomach hurt, "What does your father being a murderer have to do with me?"

Tang Ren's vision was blurred by the water vapor, he smiled miserably, and asked very lightly, "Do you not mind?"

Li Che looked at him silently, his Adam's apple couldn't move, his eyes were swollen with tears.

"It's not that I mind, it's that you mind."

He withdrew his hand, and suddenly said calmly, "Tang Ren, are you going to give up on me for such a scumbag?"

Tang Ren froze, and heard Li Che continue: "Are you going to erase me from your life because of him?"

These two words were like an earth-shaking tsunami, instantly crushing Tang Ren's trembling defense line. He looked at Li Che, his hands and feet were instantly icy cold.

"We are going to separate because of him, and then you..." Li Che's voice trembled at the end, "move out of my house, change jobs, delete me from your phone, and be alone..." He swallowed the pain in his heart , Insist on finishing: "Continue to live the original life by yourself, right?"

"Nod your head now, and I'll fulfill you right away." As soon as the words fell, he couldn't help suppressing his appetite, and stared closely at the person in front of him.

Li Che brutally tore apart the ending he didn't dare to face, every word was cutting his sanity.

Tang Ren took a step forward, shook his head helplessly, reached out to grab Li Che's hand on his stomach, and cried, "I don't, I don't want to."

"elder brother."

With a short and simple word, Li Che's back immediately relaxed. He took Tang Ren's hand and put it on his chest, and smiled bitterly, "I love you so much, I put you here to protect you." , why can't you feel it?"

Tang Ren's body froze, like a child receiving a surprise, he carefully opened his eyes wide and repeated: "Do you love me?"

Li Che chuckled and kissed his hand: "I love you."

"You, you love me." Tang Ren could no longer pronounce the words smoothly, and confirmed Li Che's expression in disbelief.

Li Che cupped his cheek, pecked his moist lips lightly, and said again: "I love you."

"You love me..." Tang couldn't hold back his emotions, sobbed, and grabbed Li Che's clothes, holding back his crying and repeated: "You love me."

"I love you, Tang Ren." Li Che hugged Tang Ren and wearily ran down the hair on the back of his head, and said softly, "I have always loved you."

In the dead of night at the gate of the courtyard, apart from the beeping of the traffic lights, there were clearly sad low sobs and tireless coaxes echoing from all around.

"Don't be afraid."

"I'm always here, don't be afraid."

"elder brother."

"Well, here we are, don't be afraid."

……

Tang Ren left a bank card for Lin Shulan before leaving. Tang Zhehan and Tang Xiangrong were out of danger, and their injuries were much lighter than expected. Tang Xianghui was taken back to the police station after his knife wound was almost bandaged. There is a half-second contact.

In the car, Tang Ren cried until his head ached, leaning on the passenger seat and looking out the window at the dark highway.

Li Che was so tired that he didn't want to step on the gas pedal. This time, he didn't press the overspeed high voltage line, and only drove safely at the average speed.

He thought about Lin Shulan's terrified eyes when he looked at Tang Ren just now, but when he accepted the bank card, he put the card in his pocket without saying a word and didn't look at him again.

"Why didn't their family accept your transfer before?" Li Che swallowed a mouthful of lozenges after speaking.

Tang Ren was startled, and swept away the sugar ball with the tip of his tongue, "After Tang Xiangrong opened the auto repair shop, WeChat was linked to the receiving account, and his partner can see it."

As a good uncle who loves his nephew, he has never asked for anything in return, let alone accepting his nephew's hard-earned money.

Li Che crushed the hard candy in one bite, chewed a few mouthfuls with the coolness of his tongue, and swallowed the shattered wreckage directly.

Tang Ren's voice was dull, and he said in a low voice, "I don't want to come back in the future."

Li Che said softly: "Well, I won't be coming back."

The car returned to silence again, only the sound of the high-speed body colliding with the wind.

"elder brother."

"Ok?"

Tang Ren broke the silence and turned his head to look at him, and asked softly, "Can I stay by your side all the time?"

Li Che frowned, and said not very kindly: "You must always stay by my side."

Tang Ren's smile just climbed to the bottom of his eyes and before it deepened, Li Che said again: "Tang Ren, I really have a bad temper."

"Twice, and a third time, don't expect me to coax you like this."

Tang Ren was taken aback, and heard the person in the driver's seat grit his teeth coldly: "I'll lock you up at that time, don't learn from Xi, and don't have to go to class, I'll see when you can change this stinking bug."

He stared at Li Che intently, watching carefully, the nostalgia in his eyes wrapped around that figure, shining brightly.

"it is good."

"Are you okay?" Li Che raised his eyebrows, "Don't you think about it?"

Tang Ren: "I'm sorry."

The other party reflected too simply, but Li Che lost his anger. He couldn't hear Tang Ren's apology now, and his stomach started to hurt as soon as the three words were pronounced.

"Don't apologize." Li Che's expression softened, and he said softly, "You didn't do anything wrong, so don't apologize."

Tang Ren turned his head and looked out the window again. The wetness in his eyes that had finally subsided seemed to rise again. He swallowed his throat and replied in a low voice: "Yes."

A few hours ago, Li Ze sent a message saying that Li Yuan was staying at home, and the two of them didn't go home, so Li Che drove all the way to the new house.

The original plan was to start moving after the next year, and now there is almost no shortage of anything except kitchen supplies. After taking a shower, Tang Ren, wearing a freshly unpacked bathrobe, dug out a brand new four-piece bed set from the box, and put everything on carefully.

Li Che walked out of the bathroom wiping his hair, and seeing the child struggling to toss the quilt by himself, he put down the towel, "Let's go together."

He grabbed the two corners of Tang Ren's set, raised his arms and shook, and after confirming that the four corners were not dislocated, he bent down and closed the zipper.

Just as Tang Ren was about to turn around to pick up the pillow, his gaze swept over the collar of Li Che's loose bathrobe, and his pupils shrank suddenly.

"elder brother."

He let out a gritty cry, Li Che raised his head upon hearing the sound, followed his shocked gaze and looked down at his chest, smiling helplessly.

"I wanted to give you a surprise." As a result, I was not in the mood because of these messes.

Tang Ren walked up to him and carefully raised his hand, as if he wanted to touch it but didn't dare to touch it, Li Che directly grabbed him and pressed him up.

"Touch it if you want."

Tang Ren's eye sockets, which had finally calmed down, were colored again, and the fundus of his eyes quickly turned red. He traced the outline with his fingertips, and asked in a hoarse voice, "When did you get the tattoo?"

"Years ago."

Although Li Che doesn't like tattoos very much, if Tang Ren gets a tattoo on his body, he doesn't mind taking it into the incinerator, so he specially found a famous tattoo shop and asked the tattoo artist to design a tattoo for the little sugar man. mark.

Tang Ren touched that place bit by bit, Li Che chuckled, scraped off the accumulated water droplets on his chin in distress, and said softly, "Why are you crying?"

Tang Ren shook his head, didn't say anything more, leaned forward and kissed the other person's lips forcefully and stuck the tip of his tongue in, searching for every inch of love from the familiar place, and couldn't help but touch the place where he was engraved with his fingers.

There is a candy tattooed on Li Che's chest. That simple candy is wrapped in layers of alternately entangled blood vessels, like a hollow heart, containing the most treasured treasure.

——I put you here to protect you.

Li Che did what he said, he held Tang Ren to his chest, and responded to the addiction that melted into flesh and blood in the same way. He made up his mind to indulge in it for the rest of his life.