love too early

Fu Zhiheng walked to the door, glanced at the two bodyguards indifferently, and said, "I can't even look at a single person."

The two bodyguards lowered their heads and did not dare to speak, Fu Zhiheng frowned: "Are you still going?"

"Yes." The two finally came to their senses, let go of Shen Nanyu and ran away without saying a word.

The door of the ward was closed again, and Shen Nanyu stood up slowly supporting the floor. Just halfway up, Fu Zhiheng suddenly pulled him up by his collar, and pressed him against the wall with a bang.

"Zhiheng..."

I wanted to stop him, but Fu Zhiheng had already punched him out.

This fist hit Shen Nanyu's face firmly, and the muffled sound of flesh and blood hitting made my heart tighten.

Shen Nanyu gritted his teeth, and let out a painful groan, followed by a second punch, hitting his lower abdomen hard.

Fu Zhiheng seldom fights with others, let alone such a ruthless hand. Every time he punches out, I will tremble with conditioned reflex, and my heart beats faster and faster because of the fright.

"You still dare to come here, look at what the hell you have done!"

As Fu Zhiheng said, he punched out again.

Shen Nanyu didn't fight back from the beginning to the end, and let Fu Zhiheng beat him like a sandbag. I even suspected that he did it on purpose, deliberately using this way to let Fu Zhiheng help me vent my anger.

"You still say you love him, you still say you like him?!" Fu Zhiheng grabbed Shen Nanyu's neck and asked viciously, "You can't even cherish and love him, so why do you say love!"

"I...cough cough..." Shen Nanyu was having trouble breathing, his face and neck were flushed red, and tears welled up in his eyes.

He looked over Fu Zhiheng to look at me, suddenly his throat choked up, and a large tear rolled down.

"elder brother……"

Fu Zhiheng dragged him back and threw him on the ground, with a plop, he hit the corner of the bed when he fell.

"Nanyu," I instinctively reached out to help, looked up at Fu Zhiheng and said, "Okay, don't hit me anymore."

Fu Zhiheng glanced at me, his breathing was also unstable, as if he hadn't vented enough.

"I'm sorry..." Shen Nanyu touched my hand and grasped it tightly, supported the bed and slowly knelt up, moved to my side, and said inaudibly.

He looked extremely embarrassed, his face was bruised and purple, new and old wounds were added together, and he could not find a piece of intact skin.I have never seen such a scene in real life, and I couldn't help worrying for a while, seeing him speechless.

"Just now... I was outside, and I heard, I heard you say... that you liked me..." Shen Nanyu looked at me, tears welled up, and asked with a sob: "Is it true?"

I looked down at our handshake and didn't speak.

Shen Nanyu's expression was painful and confused, and his voice was also very difficult: "But why, if you like me, you still want to leave me..."

The question is not so difficult to answer, I said, "Because there is something more important."

Shen Nanyu looked back at Fu Zhiheng and asked, "Is that him?"

I shook my head, "Not exactly."

For me, whether I used to like Fu Zhiheng dimly, or because of Shen Nanyu's throbbing rekindled later, they are just a small part of my life, and it is not worth abandoning more important parts, such as freedom, such as self, such as An easy and stable life within my control.

But Shen Nanyu is obviously the kind of person who puts love first in life.

I looked up at Fu Zhiheng, our eyes met, and he quickly understood what I meant.

He clenched his fist, took a deep breath, and said, "Call me if you need anything."

When he left, I slowly took out the hand held by Shen Nanyu, and said calmly: "Zhiheng is sick."

Shen Nanyu was stunned, and asked in disbelief, "What disease?"

"Heart disease." I said, "Although it's not serious now, the doctor advised him to rest for a while."

Shen Nanyu seemed to finally understand what was going on, he looked at me blankly and asked, "So you..."

"Hmm." I nodded, "I've been thinking all this time, is it because he was worried about something happening to me that he accepted you and left me alone...but you,"

Thinking of this, I smiled lightly and asked Shen Nanyu: "What did you do?"

With Shen Nanyu's intelligence, he would not fail to understand how much burden this matter would bring to Fu Zhiheng's heart.

He lowered his eyes, as if in deep self-doubt, shook his head blankly and said, "I don't know...I'm sorry..."

"It's my fault for not telling you clearly. I'm responsible for making you so paranoid." I looked at Shen Nanyu and said, "I don't hate you, and I can't love you. As for what you heard The phrase like, to me, just means that this relationship has made me happy, nothing else."

Shen Nanyu froze all over, raised his head and looked at me without blinking, and asked, "You still...do you still want me?"

His eyes were very red, and he bit his lips tightly to prevent himself from crying, his eyes were full of grief and despair.I always feel sorry for him, sighed softly and said: "I can't bear such a heavy love, and I can't forgive what you did to me. Maybe you should also go see the outside world and meet some new people. People, try to start a new life for yourself. You are still young, don't waste your life on me."

"I do not!"

After listening to me, Shen Nanyu finally broke down and cried, "I don't want to know other people, and I don't want a new life. I know I'm wrong, please don't want me..."

He threw himself on me and hugged my waist tightly, tightly clutching the corner of my clothes, his tears bursting like a bank.

"Nanyu," I raised my hand in the air, hesitated for a long time, and patted him on the back, and said, "I'm just going abroad, not disappearing from the world. The relationship between us has been separated from me. This is not what I want, so separation is the best choice for both of us, I need a period of rest, and you need to calm down and look at your life more."

"I do not……"

Shen Nanyu seemed to have lost the ability to speak, but kept repeating his rejection and apology.

I think he also understood that when I said this, I had already made an irreversible decision, but at his age, it was difficult to accept the so-called abandonment for a while.

But when one year, two years, or ten years pass, time will dilute all of this. At that time, I will be just a name that he will smile lightly when he mentions it.

Shen Nanyu cried for a long time, leaving a large dark water stain on my body.

He didn't say anything before he left. I watched his back disappear behind the door. For some reason, I always felt that a relationship should not end in tears.

I should have smiled goodbye to him, but I didn't.

squeak.

Fu Zhiheng pushed the door open and came in.

He probably heard all this outside, but he didn't seem to be relieved, but his face was heavy.

"Have you figured it out yet?" he asked me.

"Do you want me to go back on my word?" I asked back.

Fu Zhiheng froze for a moment, then showed a sour smile, "Of course not."

"I just feel that this kid is taking advantage of me." He looked out the window with a hint of sadness in his tone, "You can remember his life in exchange for a tear."