love too early

In order to match the timbre of the violin, Shen Nanyu changed the original tune to be more melodious.I hugged his rabbit and sat on his small sofa. The rabbit was very good, and it nestled motionless in my arms, chewing a piece of alfalfa grass in its mouth.

In front of him, Shen Nanyu lowered his eyebrows and focused on playing the violin music. Even though the venue was simple, he was elegant and upright, like a young gentleman standing in the middle of a golden hall.

The night breeze, the rooftop, the sound of the piano, the dim light, the soft bunny, and the secret base that no one can discover.

and Shen Nanyu.

Indispensably formed tonight's special memory.

Later he invited me to dance, stepping on a simple melody, approaching each other instinctively under the night, spinning, dancing, the audience was only a light brown little lop-eared rabbit.

The kiss happened naturally, as tender as the moonlight tonight.I could clearly hear my heartbeat, as if a little rabbit had bumped into it.

"Shi Lu." Shen Nanyu's low breath brushed into my ears, "Your heart beats so fast. Is it because of me?"

I rested my forehead on his shoulder and hummed lightly.

No one can not be moved by sincere and passionate love, even if the love does not know where it came from.

Shen Nanyu still didn't tell me why he likes me, maybe it's his secret, maybe there are other reasons, or maybe it's just like what he said, "I only want you to be happy at this moment."

It was already late when I got home, Shen Nanyu took me downstairs, hugged me for a long time, and reluctantly left until it was approaching the access control time of University A.

I went upstairs by myself and was about to open the door when I found it unlocked.

Did I forget...

Pushing the door open, a small light was turned on at the entrance, and the faint smell of smoke drifted over.If I remember correctly, Fu Zhiheng never smoked at home.

I walked into the living room and saw a tall figure sitting on the carpet with his back against the sofa, as if he was asleep or in a daze, with an ashtray I found out from somewhere in his hand, and there was a crooked pile of Five or six cigarette butts, it seems like I have been waiting for a long time.

Hearing my voice, Fu Zhiheng turned his head and looked over. His hair was messy and his eyes were very red. He could tell he had drunk a lot of wine.He didn't speak, but followed me, staring at me blankly as I took off my coat and hung it up, went to the bar and poured two glasses of water, brought them back to the living room and put a glass in front of him.

He froze for a moment, lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry..."

The living room was not turned on, and the dim moonlight came in, making Fu Zhiheng's eyebrows look extraordinarily deep. "I know you don't like me smoking..."

I glanced down at the ashtray on the ground and said nothing.

"I... didn't plan to come back today." Perhaps because he was drunk, Fu Zhiheng spoke very slowly, "I don't know why I'm betting. I'm clearly the last person to be angry..."

He raised his head, looked at me for a long time, and said: "Maybe because I found out that I am not the only choice for you, never... You are willing to stay with me, it has nothing to do with me, it is only with me." Fu Zhiheng has something to do... right?"

"I thought this was our consensus." I don't know why he suddenly mentioned this, put down the water glass and said calmly, "If I wasn't Shi Lu, I wouldn't be the one who married you."

In the final analysis, it is nothing more than an alliance of two identities. I don't think there is any need to entangle with this point.

Fu Zhiheng looked at me, his eyes became even redder, "What about me, am I not special to you?"

"Zhiheng..." I sighed, "You drank too much."

A drunk person will always be immersed in his own logic. Even if I explain to him now that we have lived in peace for more than 20 years, not only because of the marriage contract, I am afraid he will continue to dig into the corner.

Seeing that I seemed to be leaving, Fu Zhiheng grabbed me and asked, "Where are you going?"

"Make a glass of honey water for you."

"No." With a force on his hand, he directly pulled me down on the carpet, hugged me and said, "I saw him hugging you just now..."

I froze for a moment, but didn't respond.

"I was upstairs and saw Shen Nanyu hugging you." Fu Zhiheng said, "It's so late, have you guys gone on a date?"

His voice was low, a little aggrieved, a little sad, a little incomprehensible and unwilling, "What's so good about him...why can he..."

"Where is it good..." I murmured the question unconsciously, thought for a while and said, "Everywhere is good."

Fu Zhiheng stopped talking again, and after a long time, he asked: "Then will you marry me?"

"Yes," I said, "we've always been engaged, no matter what."

Perhaps comforted by these words, his mood gradually calmed down, he hugged me for a long time, and muttered to himself: "But if he can do it, so can I."

"You can't." I sighed softly, "You know I like small animals, but because of your allergies, we have never raised them. Today Nanyu took me to see his little rabbits. It's such a simple matter. You can't."

"I..." Fu Zhiheng opened his mouth.

I turned to him and said, "I don't mean to risk you getting a cat, or a dog, or a rabbit, I just want to say that you are completely different people and don't need to compare."

"But I'm jealous," Fu Zhiheng lowered his eyes, "I don't like him talking to you, and I don't like him hugging you, I'm jealous."

He is rarely so frank. After drinking too much, he looks like a kindergarten kid who can't get enough sugar to make trouble for no reason.

But I am not a gentle and patient kindergarten teacher, I can only look at him quietly, unable to say words of comfort.

"...Forget it." After a while, he seemed to have figured it out, or was tired, "You don't care if I'm jealous or not. You must think I'm sick."

"I do not have."

"I drank too much, don't take my words seriously." He hugged me again and said, "Actually, I don't want much. I just want you to be with me forever. It doesn't matter if you don't like me. Anyway, you said that you don't like others... Shen Nanyu, he may be good, good-looking, and good-natured, if you feel happy with him, I..."

Fu Zhiheng didn't match his words, his words were in a mess, and then suddenly fell silent when he said the last sentence, "I" for a long time, but he couldn't say what "I" was.

Finally he said in a barely audible voice, "Anyway, don't leave me."

Through the moonlight outside the window, I saw that his eye sockets were getting redder and redder, and the tip of his nose was also redder.Before I could see clearly, he rubbed his face, stood up on the sofa unsteadily, and said, "I'm going to take a shower...you go to bed first."

"Hey," I wanted to say something, Fu Zhiheng waved his hand, and went into the bathroom by himself.

He still went to sleep in the guest room by himself tonight and didn't bother me anymore.Before going to bed, I was a little uneasy. I opened the door of the guest room and took a look. He was already asleep, with his back arched and a corner of the quilt in his arms, looking a little helpless.

The windows were left open, and the night wind came in, blowing the curtains high.I went to close the window and heard Fu Zhiheng muttering my name: "Shilu..."

Looking back, he still closed his eyes and frowned slightly, as if he was not at ease in his sleep.

"I……"

He said something, but I didn't catch it.