love too early

After a long and lingering kiss, Fu Zhiheng let go of me, still resting the back of my head in his palm, and slowly stroking my hair.

His eyes were not the same as usual, there were a lot of unknown things, sticky wrapped around me, like warm syrup melted by a winter fire.

"Why are you so obedient today?" He gently rubbed the tip of his nose against mine and said in a low voice.

I'm not used to him using that word, but I didn't say much.I was a little tired after playing for so long, I quietly leaned in his arms and was hugged by him to rest.

"Hey Xiaoshen, didn't I tell you to come out and find someone? Why do you..."

Zhou Hang's loud voice broke the silence. I heard the voice and turned my head to look over. I saw Shen Nanyu standing under the shadow of a tree not far away. And stop.

"Ah, that..."

I couldn't see Shen Nanyu's expression clearly, he stood there quietly, as if he was looking at me and at Fu Zhiheng.

The dim shadows of the trees fell upon him, hiding his face in the darkness.I don't know when he came. Alcohol and kisses made my senses sluggish. After looking at him for a few seconds, I looked away and looked at Fu Zhiheng again.

I don't know if it's an illusion, but Fu Zhiheng's hand around my waist tightened a bit, and his eyes were not as gentle as before.

But in just a few seconds, Shen Nanyu turned around and said to Zhou Hang, "Let's go back."

His tone was very light, and no emotion could be heard.Zhou Hang looked at him and then at me and Fu Zhiheng, scratching his head in a daze, "Oh... Zhiheng, come back quickly."

"Understood." Fu Zhiheng said.

After hugging me for a while, Fu Zhiheng let go of me and asked, "Go back?"

"Hmm." I nodded.

He held my hand, and when we went back, everyone's eyes were very meaningful. The director friend clicked his tongue and said, "The young couple are not tired enough at home, and they have to go on a secret date when they come out to play."

Fu Zhiheng glanced at him: "You just opened your mouth."

Their game is over, sitting and chatting in twos and threes.Because they are all members of the orchestra, Shen Nanyu's students spontaneously organized a lawn concert. Musicians with a background in classical music, guitar, bass, ukulele and other instruments also played very well.I saw Shen Nanyu and his pianist friend sitting together, chatting in a low voice without saying a word, as if nothing had happened, met my gaze inadvertently, and just nodded and smiled faintly.

Suddenly there was a commotion in the crowd. It turned out that the classmate who was going to confess came on the stage. They even brought a follow spot light and turned off all the other lights around them, leaving only some small golden lights and a follow spot light.

The atmosphere became romantic. Amidst the gentle sound of the guitar, Fu Zhiheng hugged me from behind, put his chin on my shoulder, and quietly listened to that classmate singing.

After a song was sung, the classmate took out the roses he had prepared in advance and walked towards the girl in the middle of the stage.I heard Fu Zhiheng say in a voice that only the two of us can hear: "Sometimes I feel that this is actually very good."

"What kind?" I asked.

"Acquaintance, pursuit, confession, together." He sighed, and then smiled with relief, "But if I chase you, I probably won't be able to catch up."

I haven't been chased before, and I can't agree or disagree with his point of view. He didn't seem to need me to say anything. He held my hand and pinched the ring on my middle finger, and said, "Baby."

"Ok?"

"I……"

"Zhiheng," Zhou Hang came again, "Do you still have your little fireworks? We want to play too."

"..." Fu Zhiheng choked for a moment, then sighed helplessly, "It's over there, go find it."

"Okay, thanks."

It was getting late, and those who were used to going to bed early were ready to go back to sleep, and the other night owls picked up a new movie to play, and it seemed that they were going to play all night.Fu Zhiheng asked me if I was sleepy, I couldn't help but yawned, nodded and said yes.

"I know you will get sleepy after drinking." He rubbed my hair, stood up and said, "I'm going to check the tent, you wait for me."

"Ah."

After he left, I rested my chin in a daze of boredom. After a while, someone in front of me blocked my view. I raised my head and saw Shen Nanyu coming in front of me, quietly looking down at me.

"Are you ready to go back?" I asked.

"No," he sat down, and pointed his gaze at the frolicking people not far away, "I'm still waiting for my classmates."

"Well."

"And you, are you tired?" he asked.

"Well, I usually go to bed early."

After a moment of silence, he suddenly asked without beginning or end: "Do you like Fu Zhiheng?"

I didn't react for a moment, turned my head to look at him, thought for a long time, and said, "We are getting married soon."

——Like, love, these things are more illusory to me than art in the mouth of businessmen.

"So do you really think that marriage and love can be separated?" Shen Nanyu looked into the distance and asked calmly.

us?I thought about it, and it was probably me and Fu Zhiheng.

"Maybe." I said, "You've known Fu Zhiheng for so long, you should be able to tell."

Under the dark night, the noise in the distance seemed to be blurred.My senses were still sluggish, and I looked at Shen Nanyu and said slowly: "It's good to have love, but it's okay if you don't."

In the literature class at the university, we talked about the poems of Rimbaud and Borges. Before that, we copied the paintings of Fragonard and Raphael, but after that, it seems that I haven’t talked about love with anyone for a long time So much so that when I said these two words, there was a strange and strange feeling.

Especially when it comes to Shen Nanyu, I don't know how to define the relationship between him and Fu Zhiheng, this kind of dialogue is a bit strange.

"So..." Shen Nanyu thought about it and asked, "Is it okay to cheat?"

I looked at him and asked back without any haste: "How do you define cheating? If you haven't promised each other that the other person is your only one, then does there still exist so-called cheating?"

Shen Nanyu was obviously taken aback for a moment, and opened his mouth to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything.

I stood up, stretched a little, looked down at him and said, "Actually, sometimes I feel that people will be more relaxed if they have a lower sense of morality."

Shen Nanyu raised his head and frowned slightly, as if he still couldn't understand.

"If what you're concerned about is the relationship between me and Fu Zhiheng, or the issue of cheating, there's no need, because I don't care." I said, "If it's okay, I'll go to bed first, and you should go to bed earlier, good night .”

After a long silence, Shen Nanyu looked away and lowered his eyes, "Well, good night."

I talked a lot today, on the way back I still thought it was funny, I actually tried to persuade Shen Nanyu who he wanted to be with, don't worry about me who was caught between him and Fu Zhiheng.Now that I think about it, those words about cheating are completely nonsense. A marriage contract is a kind of promise, otherwise the law would not protect the cheated party.Shen Nanyu is a Fa-student, so he might have been bluffed by me at the time, but he should figure it out by himself later.

Back in the tent, Fu Zhiheng had just finished making the air mattress and was laying out blankets.The small tent looks very warm, with soft plush carpets on the floor and warm-colored bronze lamps hanging above the head. Once inside, it looks like a hunter's cabin in a fairy tale.

"It's not packed yet," Fu Zhiheng looked back at me, "Sit there and wait, be good."

I sat down obediently, picked up the book he brought and turned a few pages.Recalling what I said to Shen Nanyu just now, I thought for a while and said, "Zhiheng."

"Ok?"

"Who was that boy who was with you that day near the square in the middle of the street?"

Fu Zhiheng's back froze for a moment, he turned around and said, "It was brought by someone else, no one."

After speaking, he walked up to me, knelt down and asked, "Are you unhappy?"

"Not really." I shook my head, thinking that someone else was unhappy.

A person like Fu Zhiheng is merciful on the surface, but in fact, like me, he doesn't love anyone, so he probably doesn't think about Shen Nanyu at all.

"You know that when you go out to socialize, this kind of thing is inevitable." He explained to me, "It's just a joke, don't worry about it."

I absent-mindedly hummed, Fu Zhiheng looked at me silently, and tentatively said, "Is it because I'm about to get married? Actually, I also thought about it. After all, it's different after all. If you don't like it, I'll avoid seeing them in the future." .”

Seeing that he seemed to have misunderstood something, I said, "It's okay, as long as it doesn't disturb me, it's fine."

As soon as the voice fell, my mobile phone next to me vibrated.Looking down, it was the rabbit who had been silent all day and sent me a message: "Brother, are you asleep?"

Fu Zhiheng also saw it, frowned, and asked, "Brother...? Who is it?"

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dbq I really didn't save the manuscript...