Diurnal

This is not the same as kissing, it is a new experience.

Closer and more out of control than ever.

The night glow generally shines on the ceiling, forming layers of mottled shadows like the Milky Way.A breeze caressed, blowing the half-covered curtains, the light blue curtains gradually became transparent under the moonlight, and even the shadows projected on the wall trembled and swayed accordingly.

Fang Ji's eyes were out of focus, unable to shed any more tears.

He considers himself strong, and since he left Li County, he hasn’t cried like this for a long time. It’s a completely uncontrollable way of crying. Tears automatically moisten his eyes and hang on his eyelashes. The itching and deepness came, and he couldn't help but raise his neck and close his eyes, the tears that filled his eyes scrambled to slide down his cheeks, and were kissed away by the warm lips.

"Sorry, I'm not very proficient." Ji Shizhou's voice was a little dull, and more kisses fell on Fang Ji's face and neck, more like seeking comfort than giving comfort.

Fang Ji thought that there was nothing more transcendent than kissing and touching, no matter how close a same-sex relationship can be, it can only go so far.

But he feels pain now, and he has to say how much it hurts. It's like a long time ago, just to play cool, he walked with his head closed and didn't look in front of his eyes, and finally bumped into the corner of the classroom table.

The dull pain a few grades higher than hitting the corner of the table made him feel that he would not be able to breathe in the next moment, so he could only open his mouth and pant more quickly.

But even so, he still stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around him tightly, as if it would not hurt a little, and it would reduce part of the pain. He still relied on Ji Shizhou and trusted him so much.

After a while, Ji Shizhou asked him in a hoarse voice if he was comfortable. Fang Ji really couldn't go against his will, so he let out a muffled groan as soon as he opened his mouth. The lying matter was temporarily put aside, so he could numb himself with peace of mind.

This burst of silence made Ji Shizhou also silent, and the swaying lines on the ceiling suddenly stopped, motionless.

"Is it uncomfortable?" Ji Shizhou's voice was very low, so hoarse that it pressed against his earlobe, almost like a complaint.

Where did Ji Shizhou ever talk to him like this, so weak and nervous.

Fang Ji quickly shook his head, regardless of what he was talking about, and said indiscriminately: "It's comfortable...do you like this?"

They are so closely connected, they hold each other in their arms like this, so lingering and suffocating.

Fang Ji couldn't think of any words to describe this incident. It was more extreme than that summer vacation, and it was even more unexplainable.

They are not friends, and the relationship between him and Ji Shizhou has always been more complicated.

It was five years ago.

At the moment when Ji Shizhou helped him get rid of Xu Hao with a thorny board, and stretched out the injured hand in front of him.

At that time, he thought, how could there be such a hypocritical person in the world, followed by a sentence, but he helped himself.

The first time he spoke to Ji Shizhou calmly, he asked him: "Shall I help you pick out the thorns?"

The boy smiled and raised his hands up, almost reaching his chin, "I want you to help me blow."

Xu Cheng suddenly sobbed loudly behind him.

He immediately turned his head, ignoring the person in front of him, and didn't see the smile on Ji Shizhou's mouth gradually fading.

"Thank you for today." Fang Ji said in a hurry, and was at a loss for his sister again.

"It's okay, I voluntarily." Ji Shizhou's tone was flat.

It has always been Ji Shizhou who pays and then gets no return.

He can't give Xiao Zhou anything, the only thing he can give is himself.

The water waves reflected on the wall suddenly surged again, flowing slowly from the beginning to turbulent at the back.

Fang Ji's already dazed mind became even more chaotic, he grabbed the opponent's arm tightly, and sweat and tears fell together as he shook his head: "No, Xiao Zhou..."

Ji Shizhou was also covered in sweat, so he hugged him tightly even if he was covered in sweat, so he kissed off the sweat on his forehead and tears from his eyelashes, and called Fang Ji vaguely "Brother".

Fang Ji couldn't bear it, he immediately softened his body in a daze, and answered everything.

Gradually, the pain subsided, followed by a wonderful feeling of swimming in the hot spring. The water flowing across the body was hot and hot, rushing to the apex of the heart.

The more comfortable Fang Ji was, the more free he was to think about other things. He thought vaguely that he would not be able to get up to make breakfast tomorrow.

Ji Shizhou noticed that he was distracted, and grabbed his neck again, without using much force, his thumb passed over his Adam's apple, "Fang Ji, look at me."

Fang Ji raised his eyes subconsciously, they were still so bright, and became clearer after crying. His dark pupils were always staring at one place, always staring at him.

If it was Yuanyuan, he would have already been rewarded as "obedient and good dog", but Fang Ji didn't need it, even if he wasn't praised, he was still loyal.

"I like it..." He answered Fang Ji's previous question, sighed, and then pressed his mouth to prevent him from speaking.

Ji Shizhou usually does not reveal his true thoughts, even when facing Fang Ji, he keeps a small part of his truth in his heart.

But tonight is different.

He got what he wanted tonight.

Fang Ji heard it, and his pupils dilated due to lack of concentration.

After everything was over, he said worriedly: "Xiao Zhou, do you like men?"

Ji Shizhou didn't seem to understand what he said, he stopped and looked at Fang Ji just after picking up half of the clothes on the floor.

At this point, he didn't want to answer this stupid question at all.

Fang Ji continued: "But this is abnormal..."

Before he finished speaking, Ji Shizhou lost his clothes again, put an arm around his shoulder, and hugged Fang Ji onto the bed.

"Isn't it normal?" He sneered, "If it's not normal, you still do it with me?"

"At first I thought I was just typing it out for you..." Fang Ji licked his lower lip again with a pure face. He was nervous and his eyes flickered, "This is wrong, we can't..."

"Stop licking your lips." With a cold face, Ji Shizhou pressed his thumb on his lips and probed in, "What can we do? We have done everything, brother."

This "brother" had a hint of sarcasm, and before Fang Ji could react, Ji Shizhou pressed him to be "abnormal" again.

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"Have you reconciled with Ji Shizhou?" In the bar, Yan Kai asked nervously holding a glass of lemonade.

Fang Ji took a step back and straightened his back almost immediately, "What does it have to do with you?"

"It's a big relationship." Yan Kai smiled flatteringly, "You two are reconciled, then Sister Yu..."

He only spoke half of what he said, hoping that Fang Ji could understand.

Fang Ji really didn't understand, "What happened to Yu Na?"

Yan Kai lost his face, "You don't need to introduce them to each other."

"... Oh." Fang Ji came to his senses, and just about to lick his lower lip, his tongue had already been stretched out but retracted.

Can't lick.

Xiao Zhou had already taught him enough lessons, and even thoughtfully asked for leave from the boss for him.But Fang Ji can't rest, once he is free, he will think about the explosion, and the bar headman just called him. The goddess in my heart hit up the conversation.

"Do you like Yu Na that much?" Fang Ji asked suddenly.

"Of course!" Yan Kai said loudly, afraid that Fang Ji would not take his words seriously, his eldest brother is good at everything, but he is too slow in emotional aspects, and the same is true for interpersonal communication.

Fang Ji wanted to purse his lips, but stopped in time, "Why do you like it so much?"

Yan Kai was stopped by the question, and after thinking about it, he said, "Sister Yu has such a good personality and is pretty, it's hard not to be liked, right?"

Fang Ji thought for a moment, then nodded, "Got it."

Xiao Zhou has a good personality and good looks, so it's hard not to be liked.

He also likes Xiao Zhou very much.

But Ji Shizhou likes men.

His heart constricted at the thought of this, and an inexplicable panic took root from his feet.

"Brother, have you been on fire lately?" Yan Kai asked enthusiastically, "I think your mouth is a little swollen."

Fang Ji's thinking was interrupted, and he turned his attention to Yan Kai: "Is it obvious?"

Yan Kai blinked, and blinked again: "It's not very obvious, it's hard to see from a distance..."

Fang Ji made up his mind.

Yan Kai's face changed, and he said tremblingly, "Brother Fang, Ji Shizhou probably..."

"No." Fang Ji retorted too quickly and hastily, "We didn't do anything..."

That does everything.

But Yan Kai didn't understand, he couldn't think of such a deep level, just like Fang Ji that day, naively thought it was just a kiss.

How serious can it be?

Fang Ji's ears were ringing, but he heard Yan Kai's heartbroken: "Brother! If you don't want to, just refuse! Can he still force you? Just tell him you don't like men!"

So on Friday night, when Ji Shizhou came to the apartment again, Fang Ji solemnly declared, "Xiao Zhou, we can't do those immoral things."

Ji Shizhou was calm: "Oh? Why?"

Fang Ji imitated: "Because I don't want to."

Ji Shizhou nodded, and approached him step by step. Fang Ji stepped back a little bit, and when he reached the edge of the sofa, he accidentally squeezed into Yuanyuan who was curled up sleeping on the ground. He was just about to look down, when Ji Shizhou's voice came to his head.

"What's the use of it if you don't want to?"

Fang Ji continued: "I don't like men..."

The living room was so quiet, and the puppy didn't move. Fang Ji wanted to lower his head to see if he had crushed it.

"You can go to bed if you don't like it." Ji Shizhou's voice was as cold as death, "There is no rule that you have to like each other before you can love each other."

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Fang Ji: I like Xiao Zhou!But Xiao Zhou can’t like men (つД`)

Day: pissed off