Gaya Street

The day of the school celebration was Saturday. I went to the unit early in the morning to work overtime for a while, and I didn’t return to school until almost noon.When I arrived, they seemed to be chatting almost, a group of people formed a circle, leaning against the desks and chairs in the classroom, no one talked, just smiling and looking at each other, without the warmth of old classmates reminiscing about the old days The atmosphere, only awkward.

I thought of my wife's teasing before going out, a group of middle-aged people who haven't seen each other for almost ten years, whoever remembers the high school, it's better not to see each other.

I didn't think so at the time.The wife and the younger sisters are also good friends when they were teenagers. At this age, those who are married are married, and those who are mothers are mothers. If they take a day to meet, they can still talk all day.Every time I drove to pick her up, I saw that each of them was carrying large and small shopping bags, the newly applied eyelashes flickered on the eyes, and the newly painted nails on the fingers were pointed, long and sparkling.

At that time, I still felt that she had no confidence in the friendship between our old classmates. When I arrived and looked at the scene before me, I suddenly felt that what she said was reasonable.

They saw me coming, as if they had seen a great savior, they surrounded me in twos and threes, one "squad leader" at a time, and then they praised and joked. As I listened, I always thought of the colleagues who returned to work after the long vacation, the kind who were obviously too lazy to talk to each other, But the appearance of having to exchange pleasantries also feels boring.

I looked around in the crowd, and the female students were all refined and matured a lot. The men and I shared the same illness and got fat at the same time. Each of them seemed to be swollen. What's more, there were not a few hairs left.I sighed in my heart, we have been devastated by social life for many years, and we have long since lost our youthful appearance, but if we think about it better, we can still recognize it anyway.At the farthest point of the crowd, stood two men who were out of tune with the others. They were thin and slender, but I couldn't recognize them.I looked carefully and saw that the slightly smaller person on the left was greeting me with his hands up, smiling very sincerely.I recognize him, this is Wu You, after graduation, the two of us can see each other almost every year.The man on the right is also tall and thin, with dark skin. I looked at him, and he looked at me. He didn't say hello, and even his expression was indifferent. No matter how I looked, I was familiar with it, but I just couldn't remember who it was.

I was busy remembering and forgot to say those warm-up nonsense. Seeing that the atmosphere was going to cool down again, I quickly took out the folder from my backpack.Before leaving home, I found my graduation photo from the corner of the bookcase. I thought it would be a good conversation piece, so I put it away in a clip and brought it with me.

The names of each of us are printed on the back of the graduation photo.I held the photo up, out of sight, to show them.My eyes fell on the list on the back, and I subconsciously looked slowly along each line, silently reading the names of my old classmates.It wasn't until I stopped at the word "Lin Jing" that I realized that the person standing next to Wu You just now was Lin Jing.

I haven't seen him for a long time.He is different from his good friend Wu You, Wu You attends every class reunion, but he never comes.

I couldn't help thinking that at that time, Wu You asked me if I had any contact with Lin Jing. I felt strange, thinking that Wu You was pretending to be stupid and playing tricks on me.Lin Jing and I haven't spoken a few words for three years. We both graduated, but he still contacts me for something.

But Wu You also reminded me that I know which university each of these students went to, and I know a few of them well, and even know where they will work after graduation, but Lin Jing is a blank here.I also became curious, and after a few rounds of inquiry, I found out that he had gone abroad to study. Finally, I asked the teacher of the year, and learned that Lin Jing went to Singapore after the college entrance examination, and never returned to China.

I don't know why, but when I got such a reply, I immediately passed it on to Wu You.I always feel that everyone, including me, shouldn't care too much about Lin Jing's whereabouts, Wu You is the only exception.

Graduation photos are a good topic. Everyone gathered around the photos, looking at those young faces and thinking about those hazy memories.Taking advantage of their focus on the photo, I quietly raised my eyes and looked at Lin Jing. Seeing his current complexion and physique, he looked like a man who was obsessed with sports or fitness. He was still tall and handsome as before.

He is indeed good-looking, and we are all convinced by this.When he was young, he was a famous spot in the class. Girls from other classes and even other grades came to see him, to see him and Wu You, and they were still stuck together every day. The girls would compare which one was more handsome, and I knew Those with richer imaginations will consider which one is better to be a boyfriend.I didn't understand them at the time, and I understand now. When I was a child, I also thought about whether Tsinghua University or Peking University was more suitable for me.

At that time, our class was very famous, and there were three male students who were very topical, Lin Jing and Wu You, and the third one was me. The three of us, from the front to the back, the degree of handsomeness gradually decreased, and the academic performance increased. It was a cliff to me. ups and downs.I personally feel that I am redundant in this high-ranking circle, but somehow I got in and was recognized inexplicably, no matter how I think about it, I can't understand it.

So many outsiders felt that the three of us were familiar with each other and used me as an entry point to pursue or get close to the two of them.I received some love letters at that time, many to Lin Jing, and even more to Wu You.I heard that it was because Lin Jing tore up all the love letters he had received from others and handed them over to Wu You, and threw them into the trash can in front of others. Later, no one wanted him to do it for him, and the firepower was naturally transferred to me. .The result of passing me was similar. At that time, Wu You looked at those pink envelopes. Although he was not as aggressive as Lin Jing for no reason, he was calm and did not express anything. I will return it again.The romantic plot that the girl and I imagined never happened to the two of them. From my perspective of watching the fun, it is quite a pity.

Recalling this, I wondered whether Wu You and Lin Jing had similar experiences. In short, I have never received love.I don't know if it's the two of them refusing to help, or my popularity is low. After thinking about it, it's probably because of the latter.

After the college entrance examination, the school committee and I were called back by the teacher to share our experience with the junior high school students at the next level because of our good grades. I remember that it was the end of August of that year. On the day we returned to school, the weather was stuffy, hot, and gloomy It must be blue, and later, there will be another heavy rain.

Sure enough, as soon as the school committee and I came out of school and were about to take the subway home together, it started to rain.I could go to the subway station by myself, but the school committee also took a lot of things from school, and when I arrived at the subway station, my whole body was soaked.We negotiated to sit in the milk tea shop at the door for a while, and wait for the rain to pass before leaving.

She sat next to me, neither of us spoke, quietly waiting for the rain to stop.I took a sip of milk tea, couldn't stand the boredom, and looked around.I noticed the transparent bag she was carrying, which was full of exercise books and papers. There was a small envelope in the front, light pink. After looking at it, the first character is still complete, which is the word "Wu".

I just remembered that when we had a party a few weeks ago, she was coaxed by us and kissed Wu You.It turned out that she had liked Wu You a long time ago, and our group of people made a fuss, and even gave her courage.

I somehow felt elated, and felt that I had done a very good deed.

"You like Wu You too." I couldn't help teasing her.

Only then did she react, and noticed that I was looking at the envelope, so she turned the handle of the small bag and hid the side that exposed the envelope.

I always play such a role, throwing out a gossip, and the reaction I receive is a shy smile and a flushed face.At this moment, she was different, she just lowered her head and smiled faintly.

"I don't like it anymore."

I was surprised, after that day, we all thought that she and Wu You were in a relationship, but we didn't expect that it actually ended like this.I suddenly felt very overwhelmed, and then I was embarrassed. I thought it was a marriage match, but now that I think about it, it seems to be just a scandal for self-entertainment.

After saying this, there was silence between us again, and the sound of the rain outside the window became quieter. I hope that the rain will stop soon, so that I, who is ashamed, can escape as soon as possible.

"You are familiar with him, you should be able to tell that he doesn't like me at all, right?"

I didn't expect her to speak again, I shook my head, thought about it, nodded lightly again, and finally denied it again, the trajectory of my jaw changed several times, as if in the air, I drew an "8" indiscriminately Character.I meant to say that I don't know Wu You very well, but after hearing the second half of the sentence, I thought she was right, but if I admitted it, it seemed like I was going to hurt her again, so I could only give an ambiguous answer.

"Actually, I haven't said a few words to him. At that time, when I was dragged to look at him, I thought he was good-looking, especially when I laughed," she continued, her voice mixed with the sound of rain, making me I also think of Wu You's appearance, "He came to apologize to me after that day, and I realized that I don't like him very much, what I like is not the way he faces me."

I didn't understand it at all. The picture I thought of was Wu You laughing and laughing every day. Lin Jing always stood beside him with a cold face. When I described them to others, I said they were the cartoon "No Mind". And the live-action version of "Unhappy".

The rain finally stopped, and I'm still glad that the rain stopped at the right time. If I say a few more words, the school committee may cry.But I didn't expect that when we came out of the milk tea shop, I looked at her, and I didn't look sad at all. The sad secret love story just now seemed to happen to someone else.

Instead, I couldn't understand what she said. On the way home by subway, I kept thinking about what she meant, and I couldn't understand it in the end.I can't imagine what Wu You looks like in her eyes, anyway, Wu You is not very cute in my eyes, what about others?Could it be that Lin Jing saw another person again?

I leaned against the inner wall of the subway car, and the car cabin shook during operation, which made my head buzz and my thoughts became chaotic.Maybe she likes Wu You who is facing Lin Jing, but is there any difference?I was so sleepy that I closed my eyes and dozed off, too lazy to think about it.

When we were in high school, Wu You and I were really not that close. The opportunity to get a little closer was the gathering about two or three years ago.

My old class leader always likes to organize these gatherings. At first we gathered every year, and then fewer and fewer people came. It happened that I graduated from graduate school and started working.Until the summer of that year, Wu You, whom I hadn’t contacted for a long time, sent me a message, asking me if there was any party this year.

It was almost ten o'clock in the evening that day. I just got off work and hailed a taxi. There were no people on the street, but many office buildings on both sides of the road were still brightly lit.During the period of being tortured by social life, I only think about work every day, and I don’t care about anything else. I think the same is true for other students except me. In the exhausted life, I can no longer squeeze out time for these lost youth and People who will no longer meet.

I heard that after graduating, Wu You went to work as a programmer in a big factory. He should be much busier than me. Why is he still thinking about us classmates? While I was curious, I also felt that he asked me like this. , or maybe I want to escape this busy and blind life like a headless fly, I replied to him: let's have a meal together on weekends.

I made an appointment for a private room, and sent an appointment message in the group, saying that students who have time are welcome to chat. Many people in the group replied, but on the appointed day, only Wu You and I came.

I haven't seen him for more than a year, that's what I said, but more than a year just sounds like a long time, but the fact is that the two of us see each other every year, and he comes to every party, just after he comes , always looking lonely and uninterested, as if very disappointed, no drinking, no chatting, just sitting there alone, eating quietly.

I don't know what's wrong with him. When he was in school, he was always like a robot with full battery. He talked a lot, joked a lot, noisy and mischievous. The strange thing is that every time I saw him after graduation, he was very preoccupied.

It was the same today, he walked into the private room and was not very happy when he saw me, he was completely different from him who was expecting me to organize a party at that time.After the appointed time, there were only the two of us, so I opened the menu and said to him, "Let's eat something casually."

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him sigh, as if his hope was lost again, "Order two beers, monitor." He said.

In the end, the two of us drank several bottles of beer, but he couldn't drink at all, his face was red and white, he was sleepy when he didn't speak for a while, and he talked endlessly for a long time.I have been in the social network for a long time, and after a few cups of yellow soup, I just got interested. I heard his nonsense, and I seemed to understand it, but I didn't understand it.

"Lin Jing has gone to Singapore." I repeated it again. This was the third time Wu You asked Lin Jing tonight. I saw that he was really unhappy, so I patiently answered him again.

I guess he may have lost his love, but the way he is holding on to Lin Jing, it looks like Lin Jing dumped him.I was amused by my own thoughts, and if anyone else had been around, this sentence would have caused a burst of laughter.

Wu You fell silent, propping his face with his hands, staring at the wine glass and plate in front of him in a daze, his expression was full of frustration and sadness that I didn't understand.I finally couldn't help asking him: "Are you broken in love?"

He shook his head and nodded again, I was even more confused, and my comforting words were vague: "Life must go on, Wu You."

"I want to find him," Wu You said, covering his face with his hands, rubbing his face regretfully, "I miss him so much."

I patted him on the shoulder, thinking that I guessed it right, I only thought that Wu You hadn't come out of the shadow of broken love.

I found out later that the truth I thought was just my guess, and the joke I thought was only one-sided truth.

After that, every now and then, I would have a small gathering with Wu You. I don't know how much he remembered about that meal, anyway, after that day, he never asked me about Lin Jing again.

In 2017, he sent me another message, saying that his company had issued two tickets for the Mayday concert, and asked me if I could go.I was a fan of Mayday when I was in high school, and I copied a book full of lyrics, and everyone in the class knew it.

I also had an argument with him. He liked Tao Zhe at that time, and he told me how powerful David Tao was and how pioneering he was. Let's not go in. After eight or ten years, maybe they will still be on the same stage. When the time comes, the two of you will look at yourselves as bored.

When I think of this paragraph, I find it even more funny. After graduating from high school for so many years, I am not so enthusiastic about these idols, but Wu You remembers my hobbies.I remembered him who drank too much that day, and remembered that I told him, "Life must continue", I suddenly thought, it seems that only our life continues. I don't know why, Wu You always seems to be addicted to those years time.We have been walking for so many years, and he still stops in the upper reaches of the river, holding on to the broken branches on the bank, being washed by the turbulence, and unwilling to move forward.

I don't know what to miss in those years, and I don't understand what Wu You is obsessed with.

He gave me the tickets, but unfortunately I broke up with my girlfriend at that time before the show started in August.In the end, it turned out that Wu You and I went to see it together.

Our position is too far away, and we can almost touch the canopy of the Bird's Nest Stadium when we reach out.I haven’t heard any of the new songs on the stage, and so did Wu You. We waved light sticks numbly and left the stage before the show was over. After a few rounds of encore, the lights dimmed and the stage ended, I was home by then. , Lying on the bed almost fell asleep.

Thanks to the school celebration, there are so many people at this party. Those old fritters who have experienced similar experiences to me brought wine and completely regarded this party as a banquet for drinking and expanding business.With half a push and half on the spot, I also got over my addiction to alcohol.

They were still talking nonsense, the wine was gone, and the cigarette was lit. Through the smoke, I looked at Wu You who was sitting on the other side of the round table, and Lin Jing who was beside him.

They didn't know what they were talking about, Wu You covered his mouth with his hand, Lin Jing looked at him, pushed his hand away, Wu You moved closer, the tip of his nose was almost touching Lin Jing's ear.After whispering, Lin Jing looked at Wu You with a shallow but affectionate smile.I actually used this word to describe him, but what surprised me even more was that this description was so apt.

At that moment, I was puzzled and surprised. It was the first time I saw Lin Jing like this. In my not deep memory of him, he was indifferent and reticent. The only picture I could think of was him tearing up the love letter to Wu You look.Until today, I didn't know that he could still laugh, and he smiled so sincerely and gently.

Wu You has also changed, he has become a lively ghost again, the Wu You that only I have seen, the low, lonely and lonely Wu You that I have never seen before, seems to be just a part of me field illusion.

I have some more ideas in my mind, but they haven't formed yet, or in other words, it's my hesitation that makes me unsure.

In the evening, I called a surrogate driver to take me home. I was so dizzy due to alcohol, I could only half lie on the back seat, squinting my eyes to rest.

I couldn't help but think of Wu You again. Sometimes it was him who was alive and kicking when he was a child, and sometimes he was just beside Lin Jing, that Wu You who had matured a lot but finally became happy. In the auditorium high up in the Bird's Nest, the experience of watching the concert was boring.

I connected the bluetooth of my mobile phone, inspired by my memory, and played Mayday, which I haven’t heard for a long time. I can sing every old song ten years ago, such as "Androgynous", such as "Rainbow", and now this song " The Shape of Love".

The song says that in the same body, there is the same feeling of loving and being loved.

When I was a sophomore in high school, I watched a movie called "Midsummer Light Year", of course it was also because of the fans' love.I didn't understand that movie at the time, but I more or less understand it now.I didn't understand those songs then, and I understand them now.

When I got home, I lay on the bed with a terrible headache and dizziness, and I couldn't sleep or wake up.Half asleep and half awake, I heard my wife's sarcasm, saying that I was socializing uselessly again, and it would be embarrassing to meet those old classmates. I was not convinced, so I talked about Wu You and Lin Jing. After so many years, they are still very close.My wife disdains it very much, saying that it is because he has a good relationship, how many of him and him are there in your class.

I wanted to refute, but felt unable to say a word.If she knows the twists and turns, she will feel that the two of them are rare, and my refutation will be even more untenable.

At the end of that year, my wife gave birth to a beautiful little princess. On New Year's Day of the second year, I accompanied her in confinement. I was so bored that I swiped my phone to watch entertainment news.The news said that Mayday and Tao Zhe were on the same stage for the first time. I was pleasantly surprised and remembered Wu You again.

I forwarded the news to him, and felt that it was strange that there was no beginning and no end, so I added: My daughter is born, come and have the full moon wine then!

Wu You quickly replied, the first sentence said congratulations, the second sentence was that they did not expect them to be on the same stage, and the last sentence said: "Squad leader, I finally found my lover, I have time to meet."

I wasn't surprised at all, I guessed about who his lover was.

I hugged my daughter, her eyes hadn’t opened yet, she opened them, and she couldn’t understand the words on the screen of the phone, otherwise the first story her father told her was about love, and she would have been enlightened too early .My wife scolded me with a smile and asked me what I saw that was interesting, and I didn't pay attention to coaxing the children.

I shook my head and answered her again: "I read a fairy tale for adults, and I have a chance to tell it to you."

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I want to write the story of the two of them in Kuala Lumpur. I want to write about a small black wild cat picked up by Lin Jing. I have already thought about the name of the cat, so I plan to write it like this: "Wu You looked at the black hair all over the kitten. There is only a little white on the forehead, which feels like a piece of rice ball with reversed color, so I named him rice ball.” “Lin Jing came back very late at night and got into the bed. Wu You fell asleep and thought it was a sticky kitten.” People, push Lin Jing, this oversized cat away.” I also want to write the story of Lin Jing, who has lived in the tropics for a long time, and came back to Beijing and caught a cold from the cold.I wanted to write all of the above, but they didn't come true. In the end, I wrote a side story from the perspective of a third person that was completely out of plan.

I've always felt that I didn't do a good enough job. I didn't make more people fall in love with the two of them. I also have a little regret. In addition, some time ago, because my work was almost on the verge of collapse. After writing this episode today, I feel more or less complete Some, but also calmed down a lot of sadness in life.Only then did I realize that this article was also a fairy tale written for myself, a sweet dream to hold on to for a while longer before I was defeated and exhausted.

I hope everyone will like "Gaya Street", thank you for liking "Gaya Street", we will see you again.