Gaya Street

Before the start of the trip, Lin Jing arrived at Wu You's hotel early. He made a voice call to Wu You, and it took a long time before he heard the tired and deep voice on the other end of the phone.

"Don't you want to get up?" Lin Jing sent Wu You a WeChat message the night before, and agreed to have breakfast together before departure the next day. The hotel's breakfast was nothing special, and lunch was included in the one-day itinerary, so there was no chance to eat it locally. Flavor, Lin Jing planned for him, get up an hour early, go to the teahouse on Gaya Street to drink a cup of coffee and eat a piece of freshly baked kaya toast.

Wu You was exhausted from the morning-to-night itinerary the day before. He didn’t expect that diving would look like a leisurely stroll on the bottom of the sea. After breaking away, his body, which seemed to be accustomed to buoyancy, lost half of its support, and his limbs were heavy and sore.The early morning alarm clock was turned off by Wu You, if it wasn't for Lin Jing's voice, he might have wasted a whole day in the hotel.

"I'm downstairs in your hotel."

Wu You didn't react until he heard this, he was drowsy, and remembered that when Lin Jing lived in his home when he was a child, he still had a grudge as a guest, and when he was still sleepy the next morning, he went with his mother Buy vegetables in the market and bring back breakfast for the three of us.Wu You was left to sleep until the sun was up, and Lin Jing couldn't wake him up, so he played childish tricks, either pinching his nose or rolling his eyelids.In his sleep, Wu You grabbed his troublesome hand, and managed to escape the attack of his left hand. Then he raised his right hand to move his hair and poke his cheek, waiting for Wu You to wake up.

Won't you get up, get up, you little lazy pig.Only when Lin Jing wakes up Wu You will his tone soften, but this trick is very useful for Wu You, his mother can't wake up the child who is always sleep-deprived, only Lin Jing can do it.

Wu You thought that he had returned to his small room in a dream, and Lin Jing lay on the bedside as he did when he was a child, waking him up.Breathing and gentle whispers fell on the broken hair on the sideburns, and there was an itchy warm feeling on the cheeks.

When the image in front of him focused on the old ceiling of the hotel, Wu You finally remembered that when he came to travel in a small town in Malaysia, Lin Jing was on the other side of the phone, saying good morning to himself after a long absence.He was half awake, washed and dressed in a hurry, trotted to the hotel lobby, saw Lin Jing from a distance, leaning against the flower bed at the door like the day before, saw him, raised his hand and waved to him.

"Morning."

Wu You walked up to him quickly, nodding in response to Lin Jing.

We met on the third day, and the embarrassment of being apart for ten years was gone, but thinking of the vague confession and response the day before, Wu You felt as if he had returned to the subtle feeling when he and Lin Jing reunited, and wanted to say something, It proves that they are still close to each other, but what they say or do is not natural.

Lin Jing saw his hesitation, "Let's go," he raised his chin at Wu You, then turned around and walked in front.

Wu You kept up with Lin Jing's pace, he hesitated for a moment, finally stretched out his right hand, and put it on Lin Jing's wrist loosely, as if nothing happened, he walked slowly with his head down. "Let's go." He repeated to Lin Jing again.

Lin Jing nodded, he broke free from Wu You's hand, spread his five fingers, and interlaced with Wu You's.Lin Jing had already held Wu You's hand before he thought about whether it was suitable.

Wu You's palm was soft, with a thin layer of sweat on it, holding his hand like a lover, this feeling was strange and familiar, Lin Jing felt that it came too late, as if it should have been like this long ago, as if he had gone An Old Testament ten years late.Thinking of the preciousness of time, he clenched his hand even tighter.

The tea restaurant is not close, and it takes about 10 minutes to get there along Gaya Street to the city center.Perhaps it was because Lin Jing knew the streets and alleys of this city well, Wu You followed him without feeling that the road was long, but when he reached his destination, he felt that time passed too fast.

The restaurant is much neater than the rest of the stores on Gaya Street, spacious and bright, the dark wood dining tables and chairs in the hall are neatly arranged, and the surface is shiny with oil wax.

On weekday mornings, not many people enjoy breakfast.The old man who waited in line for the meal looked very old and did not look old at all. He ordered a sandwich and black coffee, and when the bell rang to remind the meal to be ready, the old man leaned on crutches and walked slowly to the front desk to pick up meal.Wu You followed the trembling figure, stopped at the busy but orderly dining counter, and saw Lin Jing standing there with his upper body leaning on the counter, chatting freely with the barista.He changed into a floral shirt today, which was different from the previous one, but he couldn't tell what the difference was. They all looked like colorful patterns.

Lin Jing noticed Wu You's gaze, and turned to look at him without warning.His eyes are beautiful, and his eyelashes hang affectionately in front of his eyes, as if he always has a lot of things to say.When growing up together, Wu You only thought that he and Lin Jing were close friends. After parting and meeting again, Wu You became more and more aware that no matter whether it was his feelings for himself or himself for him, they obviously had more feelings than friends. some.

What's more, it's not hard to see, but Wu You is a bit evasive - it hasn't been too long since he was dumped by his ex, and the stress response is somewhat left, even if this The person is Lin Jing, but he still doesn't have the courage.Wu You felt like he had experienced typhoid fever in early spring. When he was troubled by the sequelae of runny nose and stuffy nose, the spring scenery outside the window was already warm and gorgeous, tempting people to explore. Wu You was afraid of the cold spring and hesitant too much. people.

"Try it." Lin Jing ordered a cup of coffee, a cup of teh tarik, and two servings of toast. "The coffee here is not bitter, so give it to me if you're not used to it."

When I was in high school, students from the International Department often went to the store to buy coffee and bring it to school. The mermaid logo and dark green straws almost became the standard equipment. Children Wu You saw their foreign style, so they followed suit and were eager to try coffee. I drank it a few times, and every time I took a sip, I felt sour and bitter, hard to swallow, and felt that it was a waste of pocket money. In the end, it all went into Lin Jing's stomach, causing him to lie in the dormitory, tortured by caffeine until late at night Can't sleep.

Lin Jing still remembers such details, but they all stayed at the node ten years ago. I don't know if the grown-up Wu You still tastes like a child.

The bread is baked, the surface is caramel-colored meringue, and the inside is probably filled with butter and jam. It tastes sweet and has a strong coconut fragrance. It is bitter and sweet when paired with cold black coffee. The greasy balance is just right.

Wu You couldn't help admiring this unique Nanyang delicacy, nodding his head approvingly while reminiscing, "It's really delicious."

There was kaya jam on his mouth, Lin Jing pointed to the corner of his mouth, Wu You's tongue swept over, and rolled the light green jam into his mouth.Lin Jing rested her chin in her hand, and tilted her head to look at Wu You. The breakfast in front of her hadn't been touched yet, but she felt satisfied in her heart.

“Next time I take you to Ipoh, try the white coffee from Old Town.”

"Okay, let's go together."

Wu You agreed casually, but Lin Jing was reminded by his own words without realizing the implication.Wu You's journey will not be too long, today is already the third day, but after a while, we will face another parting.

He remembered Wu You's words, "Give me a little more time", but time is running out, if we separate this time, when will we meet next time, will there be a next time.

Lin Jing sighed in his heart. He thought he could wait, but now he just wanted to slow down the time so that he could feel every moment with Wu You, and greedily hoped that the time would be faster, which made the reaction very slow The slow Wu You falls in love with himself in the next second, that's fine.

Shenshan is 100 kilometers northwest of the urban area, and the mountain road is difficult, and the drive takes two hours.

Wu You went out in a hurry in the morning, but when he was about to leave, he found that he forgot his passport in the room. He took the passport and went downstairs. The tour group's minibus had already stopped at the hotel entrance.

Lin Jing was waiting for him outside the car, and beside him stood a strange and beautiful girl, holding a booklet like a travel guide in her hand, pointing at the picture book, asking Lin Jing what she was doing.Lin Jing's expression was quite gentle, the girl was very close, he moved a little to the other side, the girl who was not interested in drinking came closer, Lin Jing backed away again.

The process of attacking and defending was seen by Wu You. He didn't find it strange, but thought it was a very familiar scene.Lin Jing was always admired by the stars in those campus activities such as ball games and rallies when he was in school. Wu You saw that he was being disturbed, so he forcibly separated the crowd and stood at the place closest to Lin Jing.At this moment, he is also the same, feeling some urgency that drives him to stand beside Lin Jing and drive away that beautiful crisis.

Wu You suddenly understood that he was not helping Lin Jing out of the siege in a considerate manner, but that he could not accept such a situation, that the person beside Lin Jing was not himself, it was like this now, and it was the same when he was a child.

So he walked to Lin Jing's side, unlike in memory, Wu You held Lin Jing's hand.Holding hands and walking all the way in the morning, the actions at this moment are also logical.The lens of the girl's sunglasses reflected Wu You's hostile eyes, so indifferent that even he was surprised, Wu You didn't expect to be so unfriendly, it was just the complex emotions of anger and fear, and kindness could not be disguised.

He pulled Lin Jing straight into the car, until he sat down in the seat, he still didn't want to separate his clenched hands.

Today's guide also has a Chinese face. He is not as smooth as Ajie. Halfway through the journey, he waited for the morning passengers to recover from sleepiness before picking up the microphone on the car and introducing the scenery and stories.

Mount Kinabalu in Sabah is the fifth highest peak in Southeast Asia, with beautiful scenery and rich natural resources. The promotional words of the tour guide are no different from other scenic spots in the world.

People who love each other can't stay together, and women climb to the top of Shenshan Mountain day and night, looking into the distance and waiting for their lover to return. This is a legend spread among Chinese people, so this mountain has a name of "Chinese Widow Mountain".Wu You remembered that when he first arrived in Kota Kinabalu, the Chinese story mentioned by the taxi driver probably referred to this.

Changing from the sacred mountain that is higher than the clouds to such a less festive name, Wu You thought about it, and the expectations for this place also fell from the mountain.

After the stylized introduction, the guide stopped talking. He took a stack of tickets in his hand and distributed them to passengers one by one from front to back.Wu You took it from the guide and handed it to Lin Jing. He watched Lin Jing put the ticket away.There was a small photo in the dark brown wallet in his hand, two boys were wearing light blue school uniforms, the one on the left was taller, the corners of their mouths curled into an inconspicuous arc, and their smiles were cool, The one on the right is so vivid that it almost pops out of the frame, eyes narrowed, and a wide smile.After that is the auditorium of the school. In my memory, it is the newly repaired facade, which looks very old in this photo with a worn surface.

Anyone can see that the two people in the photo are very close friends, but after many years, the protagonist is not sure.

"When was this filmed?" Wu You asked Lin Jing.

"The day of the graduation ceremony." He lowered his head and touched the photo with his fingers through the translucent plastic film. His movements were very natural, as if he had repeated them thousands of times.

Wu You didn't know how to answer the conversation.When he thought of Lin Jing later, it was only the last memory of that day, and he couldn't imagine what Lin Jing looked like later.Looking at Lin Jing now, he is also experiencing a similar feeling, unable to get out of the frozen past, wandering in a maze framed by a photo.

"Aren't you angry?"

He was immersed in his own thoughts, and didn't care to talk to Lin Jing who was next to him. Lin Jing suddenly opened his mouth tentatively, and Wu You was a little surprised by such a question again.

"Why am I angry?" He looked at Lin Jing. The latter's expression was a little apprehensive, but it was more appropriate to say that he was looking forward to it.

The hand being held felt lightly pinched, Wu You lowered his head, saw the hands of the two still holding each other, and then remembered the affair with Lin Jing before getting in the car.

He doesn't think he's angry, doesn't he wish he's jealous.Lin Jing, who is always cold and ruthless, would have such an idea. Wu You sighed in his heart, feeling that this difference is like a ethereal and majestic mountain becoming a vulgar widow mountain.

He suddenly realized that these fragile but vivid emotions of Lin Jing were always exposed in front of him, just like the day before on the cruise ship in the mangrove forest, Lin Jing asked him about the years he had spent and the people he had been with, the sound in his voice All trembling.

Wu You was suddenly struck by a strong sadness, the fleeting unwillingness and jealousy he experienced in the morning, perhaps Lin Jing has endured it for many years, just like the photo worn by time just now.Not only did he fail to keep the promise he made when he was young, he also failed Lin Jing's love.

"sorry."

"Suddenly say sorry, as long as you are not unhappy."

Wu You knew that he had misunderstood, thinking that his apology was still about his petty temper when he was accosted in the morning.He exhaled slowly, thinking about how to speak.Wu You felt that he and Lin Jing were like two small animals. When they saw the injured of the same kind, they wanted to leave their bloody wounds to each other, lick and caress each other, and the pain would stop when the scabs formed.Wu You wanted to share his pain with Lin Jing, and he wanted Lin Jing's gentle healing.

"I've only been in a very short relationship. He's going to get married now, and he's still with a girl from a good family," Wu You said slowly, as if talking about something that had nothing to do with him, "I don't How sad, but after being abandoned, I was a little scared."

Lin Jing listened quietly, it was raining outside the window, they were getting closer and closer to the sacred mountain, they could see the mountain peak was covered by clouds, and the dark green color of the mountain became hazy.His fingers stroked the back of Wu You's hand, waiting for him to continue.

"I think of you often, and I didn't say goodbye to you properly," Wu You stopped. He thought that a relationship that ended hastily was the most frustrating, but he realized that it was not worth mentioning when he said it. He mentioned the years that Lin Jinghe had missed , I felt the pain was severe, "Thinking of the end, I dare not face you anymore."

Lin Jing felt uncomfortable hearing that, so he squeezed Wu You's hand tightly, "Stop talking, Wu You."

Wu You stopped, he knew that even if he didn't say a lot, Lin Jing would understand, he just felt that he had wasted Lin Jing for many years, and then said sorry: "Just don't blame me."

Lin Jing didn't speak, thinking in her heart, how could I blame you, but you came too slowly, making me wait for you for so long in the future.

"How could I blame you, all the past is for the present and the future." Lin Jing felt that he had no position to comfort Wu You, so that he would not be entangled in the past, after all, he was the one who was most addicted to the past.

I obsessively remember everything about you, your appearance, demeanor, and tone of voice when you speak. I am afraid of forgetting any details, and I still can’t remember clearly in the end, but I have never forgotten you.I learned later that I only need to perceive myself, and I can remember you forever, because of you, I am what I am, with a heart of lava under the cold shell, my hot blood and tender tears It's for you.

He didn't know how to say these words in his heart, he turned sideways, approached Wu You's eyes, raised his hand and brushed Wu You's bangs hanging in front of his eyes.From Lin Jing's eyes, Wu You could see his own reflection, thinking of his young self and Lin Jing in a trance, and couldn't help but lament how good it is to be young. Being old always makes people feel regretful and cruel, and there is too much pain. Taste a little bit of sweetness and don't want to let it go.

But old age also makes people understand that past experiences are prologues, and those who meet again and again will also be treasures and true love. For example, some people get bored easily, and some people are happy because of their reunion.Some people abandon you for the future, and some people regard you as a bright future.

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"Some people abandon you for the future, and some people regard you as a bright future", this sentence is the beginning of everything in this article.