Gaya Street

In the evening, clouds gathered on the distant sea, forming a thick layer that blocked the sun, so we couldn't see the setting sun today.

Wu You was still having dinner in the restaurant. Beginners would be as hungry as him after diving. Lin Jing stayed with him for a while, then hid at the beach, staring at the scenery in a daze.He sat alone on the beach, and the waves rushed up, spreading to his feet from time to time, leaving a cold feeling on his toes.Lin Jing originally thought that sea tides were calming things, but now that he is alone with the waves, his heart is still in a mess.

At this time yesterday, he and Wu You were sitting on the beach in Tanjung Aru. The misunderstanding from ten years ago was over, and he thought it would take him some time to figure out how much he still liked Wu You; at this moment At the moment, he himself looked at the sea surface of Mermaid Island, and smiled, thinking how ridiculous the worries of the day before were. In less than a day, he realized that his feelings for Wu You hadn't diminished at all, and even fermented even more because of ten years of separation. full-bodied.

Lin Jing hoped that her reaction would be slower and her mind a little more stupid. It would be best not to think about her first love that died without a cause for the rest of her life. It would be better if she saw Wu You at the hotel entrance yesterday, or just treat him as a classmate she hasn't seen for a long time. Don't be encouraged to do all kinds of behaviors close to him, lest you realize this feeling now, and you don't have the confidence to ensure that it will be fulfilled.

But Lin Jing knew that this was an irresistible impulse, just like at this time, he was thinking about the past with Wu You when he was a child, like most of the past ten years, when the loneliness and pain in life broke out, thinking about those memories , it's not so uncomfortable, and the painkillers are as delicious as honey.

It's like choosing a video tape from your collection and pressing the play button. Even if the plot lines are memorized backwards, you still have to watch it from beginning to end.The video I picked out today is the experience of going to the suburbs of Beijing with Wu You after the college entrance examination.

Lin Jing, Wu You, Lin Jing also wrote the names of two people on the beach with his fingers. He remembered that Wu You also drew a symbol at that time. What was it?Lin Jing only thought it was a pattern expressing love, like a naive little boy, adding a carefully drawn but not very regular heart in the middle of the four characters.

What was he thinking at that time?What is Wu You thinking now?What does he take himself for?Does he really dislike himself?Even if it's just a little bit.

Thinking wildly like this, Lin Jing finally drew the pattern completely, and the impatient waves rushed up, smoothing away the traces on the sand at once.Lin Jing seemed unwilling, so he traced it again with his hands with great strength. The next wave was about to strike. He couldn't catch it in time, so he hurriedly wrote down Wu You's name. Love, when the waves hit, Lin Jing's name disappeared completely, leaving behind Wu You's name and the vague pattern, as if reminding him of Wu You's ambiguous attitude.

He was suddenly disgusted by this ruthless wave, and heard someone calling his name in the distance. Lin Jing raised his head and saw Wu You standing under the awning of the restaurant waving to him, so he stood up and went back to Wu You. around you.

Malaysia is divided into West Malaysia and East Malaysia by the South China Sea, with the Malay Peninsula to the west and Kalimantan Island to the east. Kota Kinabalu, the destination of Wu You's trip, is the capital of Sabah State in East Malaysia.

Many people are still accustomed to calling Kalimantan Island Borneo, which is its old name in ancient Chinese language. Lin Jing does not know the allusion to this name, but I heard that at least in Indian mythology, Borneo is a fierce and terrifying demon.

A dreamy and sentimental tropical island has such an inexplicable old name. Lin Jing has always believed that it was "dragged" by this dangerous and unknown primitive rainforest. There are countless species in it, and there were mysterious religions and tribes in the old days. Close, colorful and unpredictable.

But that is all in the past. Over the past few years, the tourism industry has allowed cruise ships to sail into the rainforest, walk through the shadowy jungle, watch proboscis monkeys during the day, and watch fireflies at night. The rainforest is noisy because of tourists, but it is also gentle and harmless. , has become a good place for leisure and sightseeing.

Such a slow-paced activity is really boring as a tourist project. Except for the children in the same boat, the young people on the cabin have long lost patience, chatting loudly, and even picking up their mobile phones to watch small videos.Lin Jing propped one hand on the handle of the seat, and looked sideways at Wu You who had calmed down.The schedule was too full for this day, and the diving took too much energy. He was not attracted by this entertainment at the moment, and fell asleep leaning against the porthole.The hull rose and fell with the waves, and his head followed the rhythm, nodding up and down.

Maybe when Wu You was sleeping, Lin Jing could not think about the boundary that was neither deep nor shallow, but existed all the time, and showed tenderness openly and squarely.He sat up straight on the back of the chair, raised his hand, carefully protected Wu You's head, and let him lean on his shoulder.The metal cabin was splashed with a layer of water droplets, which wet Wu You's hair.Lin Jing gently stroked his hair, smoothed out the bangs that were blown by the evening wind, and adjusted his sitting posture so that Wu You could lean more comfortably.

He didn't know what dream he had, and he muttered in his sleep.Lin Jing remembered that he also dreamed of Wu You during this time, and even dreamed of him after the reunion yesterday.The scenes in the dream were chaotic, Mingming and Wu You's memories only stopped at that summer in Beijing, and somehow extended to the tropical rainy season. In the dream, Wu You sometimes looked like a teenager, and sometimes changed to the grown-up photo. She has a more beautiful and thinner face, her waist is still slender, and her legs are slender and fair.In his dream, he behaved mischievously, like the scene of playing with him when he was a child, but it had more meaning than reality.Lin Jing pressed him on the bed and pressed him under her body, his wrist was caught by the jaws of the tiger. In the dream, Wu You was like a soulless doll, smiling innocently and looking at him, but Lin Jing dared not Look him straight in the eye.After having fun, he finally woke up in the haze, covered in sweat, as if soaked in water, he covered his eyes with his hands, and while blaming his own dirty thoughts, he reluctantly escaped from this sticky and beautiful scene. Dream.

Thinking of his unembarrassed position in Wu You's heart, this kind of fantasy made Lin Jing even more ashamed.

At this moment, Wu You woke up and interrupted Lin Jing's thoughts jumping between reality and imagination, "I actually fell asleep." He rubbed his eyes with his hands as he said.

Lin Jing suddenly became uneasy. While feeling guilty because of the bad idea just now, he always wanted more feedback from Wu You. He was afraid that his eye movements would be misunderstood as love, so he turned his head to hide it, and looked over the cruise ship. Go up the aisle to see the scenery on the other side.

Seeing that Lin Jing turned his head to ignore him, Wu You shook his legs and touched Lin Jing's knee with his knee. Lin Jing pretended not to notice and moved a little outside the seat.Seeing that he was still indifferent, Wu You felt puzzled, so he hugged Lin Jing's arm and shook it a few times. Seeing that Lin Jing seemed to sigh, he finally turned to look at himself.

"Are there really fireflies?" Being stared at like this, Wu You couldn't remember what to say to Lin Jing, but he wanted to talk to Lin Jing again, so he could only say such nonsense.

"Maybe, fireflies are not very bright, not very obvious."

"I've never seen a firefly before." Seeing that Lin Jing was going to be silent again after finishing speaking, Wu You answered in a hurry. He seemed to think of something suddenly when he said this. He took out his mobile phone, turned on the flash, and pressed his finger on the On it, it moved from time to time, and the light was blocked by his fingers, and it also flickered, "Look, Lin Jing, a firefly."

The cruise ship travels deep into the rainforest, and the speed is even as slow as walking.Lin Jing has been here many times, and at first he would be like a tourist, leaning half of his body out of the porthole, looking for clues of fireflies. After staring at them for a long time, he couldn’t tell whether his eyes were blurred or he could really see them. Weak fluorescence.When he came back later, Lin Jing lost interest. It was inevitable that he would think of Wu You holding a flashlight in his hands in the mountains on the outskirts of Beijing many years ago.

The picture in his memory overlapped with the reality in front of him. Lin Jing was stunned. For some reason, his nose suddenly felt a little sour, as if the video tape he had treasured for many years was incomplete, and today he finally found the missing other half, " Do you remember that too?" he asked.

"Remember, why don't you remember?"

He is so confusing again.What he remembers, he also remembers, it is hard for Lin Jing not to misunderstand, thinking about his liking for him, he also has the same feeling.The friendship between him and Wu You for so many years, no matter whether it is friendship or what, if it can accumulate into love, it would be great, just like gathering fireflies and fireflies together, they can also form a bright light.

Thinking of this, Lin Jing finally asked.

"Wu You," Lin Jing took a deep breath, and turned his face away to avoid Wu You's gaze, "Do you only consider me as a friend?"

After a while, he asked again: "Have you ever liked me?"

He should have asked Wu You this question yesterday, or he should have asked it ten years ago, but now that he said it, Lin Jing felt like it was a secret that had been hidden for too long, and it finally came to light today.He was looking forward to Wu You's answer, but when he said it, he felt a lot more relaxed.Lin Jing turned around and finally dared to look into Wu You's eyes.

"I, I don't know," Wu You said falteringly, his face was flushed, and the edges of his ears were stained with blood, "I like it."

His words seemed to be perfunctory, but also comforting, but it was not the response Lin Jing wanted.

"If you don't like it, you don't like it. Don't lie to me, and don't lie to yourself."

Wu You shook his head violently, grabbed Lin Jing's arm, opened and closed his mouth, eager to explain, but didn't say anything.

"I liked you when I was in high school. Until now, I miss you every day. Do you know Wu You?"

Wu You looked at him, there was obviously a lot of noise around him, but he felt that he had returned to the bottom of the sea again, his voice was blocked by the current, only Lin Jing could hear what he said.

"I can't help but think about how you've been living these years. Have you ever loved someone else? Did that person make you so sad when you came here to travel because of a broken relationship? I'm just for you to pass the time," he said more and more The more she trembled, the latter even had to stop and take a while to continue, "But this is the case, I still want to see you."

"Don't look at me anymore," Lin Jing lowered her head, laughing at herself inappropriately, "I still want to kiss you when you look at me like that."

"Wu You, what I want is this kind of liking, do you understand?"

The hand on Lin Jing's arm was released, Lin Jing looked at Wu You, the latter didn't say anything, but his eyes told Lin Jing: I understand.

Wu You couldn't remember whether he saw fireflies in the back or what interesting things there were in the mangrove forest.The two-hour journey back to Kota Kinabalu city, because the silence between each other seemed even longer.

The minibus stopped at the entrance of Wu You's hotel, Lin Jing followed Wu You to get off, and bid farewell to Ajie absent-mindedly.

The two stood facing each other, neither of them spoke first.Wu You rarely has any expression on his face, his always smiling face cools down, which is very suitable for saying some unfeeling words.Lin Jing couldn't tell whether he was sad or regretful, and it was time to say goodbye again. He knew that we would not see each other again tomorrow, and this time it was a real farewell.

"Have you brought your passport?" Lin Jing didn't say anything, but Wu You said first, "Use it for me."

Lin Jing didn't know why, Wu You asked so, he listened to him, found the passport from his bag and handed it to him.He didn't know what Wu You was going to do, but he silently read his passport number several times, paused, took out his phone, and took a picture of the front page.

He returned the passport to Lin Jing, raised his head again, and suddenly put on a bright expression, "Tomorrow we will go to Shenshan, and the day after tomorrow we can go to Blue Ring Island. I will make reservations for us later." He said naturally, It's as if the conversation just now never happened.

Lin Jing looked at him, only felt that he was teasing him, the unknown fire in his heart was burning again, he snorted coldly and said, "It's unnecessary."

"Lin Jing," Wu You's expression became serious again, as if he had made a silent decision, "I don't know if I like you or not."

Just to say this sentence, what is the need for those actions just now?Lin Jing felt uncomfortable, but still had extravagant hopes, wanting to wait for Wu You to finish speaking.

"But what I'm sure of is that I won't push you away again."

"So, please give me a little more time." Wu You didn't wait for Lin Jing's reply, and hurried to speak before he answered, as if realizing how embarrassing these words were.He repeated the secret signal between the two of them again: "See you tomorrow, Lin Jing."

After finishing speaking, he turned around and left, leaving Lin Jing in place, watching his back as he drifted away.

His confession was straightforward, and Wu You's response went round and round, but everything that should be said was said.Lin Jing heard it in her ears, she couldn't believe it at first, but it took a long time to realize it, like an annoying person who got a probation, and she was very happy because of the grace.

The night in Kota Kinabalu is not as busy as Kuala Lumpur. Lin Jing thought about Wu You's words, walked alone on the street, passed the famous landmark sailfish sculpture, and arrived at the beach.He propped his elbows on the railing, the sea in front of him was turbulent, the sea was submerged in the night, and only white waves could be seen.

When her fingers touched her lips, Lin Jing realized that the secret joy in her heart could not be hidden, and it turned into an uncontrollable smile.The sea breeze blowing on his face was very soft and comfortable. It was hard for Lin Jing not to believe what Wu You said sensibly. Would he really not push him away? No matter what, he should try kissing him just now.

Things that were impulsive ten years ago have not been reckless ten years later, but it is not a step backward.He finally regained a little bit of confidence about Wu You, about himself, and about this relationship. Maybe soon he will be able to kiss his lover without any concealment, not in his imagination, and without using sea water as a cover-up .

The sea breeze here is gentle, just like the alley under the sunset many years ago, the next opportunity is right, he wants to try Wu You's words, he wants to kiss Wu You here.

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