Can it be made public?

When the two went to the cafeteria, they were one step late, and the aunt who was cooking was already packing things behind the window.

After Ying Yunsheng communicated with his aunt, he learned that there was no room for change. Over there, Ji Li had already pushed open the security door in the stairwell: "Come here."

He was taken aback: "Where are you going?"

Ji Li: "Go eat."

"Isn't there no food to eat?"

"There's more on the fourth floor."

Changqiao’s cafeteria has four floors, and the bottom three floors are all ordinary windows, but each floor has its own special meals.The fourth floor is a special order window, because the price is expensive, and students rarely patronize it. A rough scan of the entire floor is mostly faculty and staff.

Ying Yunsheng was at a loss for what to do with the menu. The food was ordered by Ji Li, three dishes and one soup, and the rice was packed in a thermos bucket, and the grains were plump and crystal clear.

Ji Li filled a bowl of soup and left it to dry, when he looked up, he saw that the other party was playing with a shrimp.

It is too inconvenient to use chopsticks to remove the head and tail, and the shrimp slides back and forth in the bowl, always wearing that layer of coat firmly.

Ji Li couldn't help laughing, took off a pair of disposable gloves, fished out the braised prawns in his bowl, peeled them off and put them back.

Ying Yunsheng was taken aback.

Ji Li had finished peeling the second one, raised his head and said, "Don't you want to eat?"

Ying Yunsheng picked up the shrimp, the heat in his eyes covered by his eyelashes: "No."

Ji Li himself is not interested in seafood. He once ordered Ying Yunsheng when he was in Tingfeng Lane when he went to the town to play, but he found that Ying Yunsheng liked it very much.

No need to think about this dish now, it was specially ordered for him.

Ji Li peeled off a plate of prawns stewed in oil. After cleaning the shells of the prawns aside, he put the plate full of prawns in front of the other party before taking off his gloves.

The quality of the plastic gloves was not very good, oil still seeped through.

Ji Li stood up: "You eat first, I'll go wash your hands."

Ying Yunsheng: "Okay."

He finished eating the prawns on the plate, and as soon as he looked up, he put down a glass of drink in front of him.

Ying Yunsheng smelled the very faint scent of chocolate, and fainted in the air sweetly: "For me?"

Ji Li said "hmm": "I just passed by the bakery, and there was a new product launched there. Does your teacher allow you to bring food into the classroom?"

Ordinary students are of course not allowed.

It's a pity that Ying Yunsheng is not an ordinary student.

It is a student who won a gold medal for the school in a national competition a week ago.

Ji Li opened his chair and sat down: "Eat first, you can take the chocolate home and drink it during evening study."

"it is good."

After the cake that night when he went to the game, Ying Yunsheng's attitude towards him has gradually changed now. It does not mean that no matter what he gives, the first reaction is to reject it, but he has learned to accept it.

That's a good sign.

In the end, most of the meals were taken care of by Ying Yunsheng.

Ji Li put the plate in the recycling bin in the corner: "Have you checked your hand at the hospital?"

It has been more than a month since Ying Yunsheng's left hand was stabbed by a beer bottle, and now it is time for the doctor to order a review.During these days, Ying Yunsheng has been changing dressings and gauzes on time, and he never planned to go to the hospital to waste the money.

Ji Li didn't give him room to discuss this matter: "Since you don't want to go, then I will take you there this weekend."

Ying Yunsheng: "But I don't need to..."

Ji Li: "Be obedient."

"Uh……"

"Do you listen to me?"

Ying Yunsheng persisted for about three seconds, then surrendered: "Listen."

The two took a taxi together to go to the hospital last time on the weekend.

The re-examination process is not as complicated as a normal doctor's visit. When Ying Yunsheng entered the consultation room, Ji Li stayed in the waiting area outside and took a disposable cup to drink hot water.

Just after turning on the hot water switch of the water dispenser, a clear and clear voice suddenly sounded from behind: "Student."

When Ji Li turned his head, he saw a girl holding a thermos.

The girl is about the same age as him, and she was just passing by for a glimpse, but now she gets a closer look at the person, and this appearance is really based on her aesthetic point: "Can I add a WeChat?"

Ji Li turned off the water dispenser: "Sorry, I can't."

"Okay." The girl unscrewed the lid of the cup and tried to talk, "Do you want to see a doctor?"

Ji Li made room for her: "Come with others."

This big weekend, let's accompany my girlfriend.

The girl thought to herself, sure enough, there are people who are good-looking.

Ji Li was about to return to the consultation room with his cup in his hand, but when he turned around, he saw Ying Yunsheng coming out at some time, standing not far away and looking at him quietly.

He walked over: "What did the doctor say?"

"He's recovering well, and the stitches will probably be removed next month." Ying Yunsheng put away the medical records, deliberately not looking at the other person, "There's a weekly exam in the afternoon, let's go back."

The two passed through the hall when they left the hospital. Ji Li never took his eyes off the other's frowning, and finally said when he was about to leave the gate: "Ying Yunsheng."

"Ah."

"what happened to you?"

"nothing."

Ji Li simply pulled him back: "Unhappy?"

Ying Yunsheng denied: "No."

"So I made you angry?"

"nothing dealing with you."

"But you haven't looked at me since you came out of the consulting room."

The straightforwardness in such a sentence was like a needle, easily pricking a hole in his swollen emotions.

What was exposed after being torn apart was all unspeakable darkness.

Ji Li was still shouting, "Ying Yunsheng."

He suddenly raised his voice: "I said it has nothing to do with you, can you stop asking?"

The words are obviously heavy.

Ji Li stopped in his tracks.

The moment Ying Yunsheng said it, he regretted it, and turned around to apologize.

The other party's voice sounded earlier: "I'm sorry."

Ying Yunsheng was taken aback.

Ji Li said, "I won't fetch the water next time, and I will accompany you to the consultation room. Don't be angry, okay?"

"Uh..." That shouldn't be the case.

Obviously not his fault.

But he had to bear the anger that he shouldn't have to bear, and he had to apologize to the person who angered him when it was over.

Ying Yunsheng couldn't tell what the emotion suddenly surged up in his heart. On the one hand, it was because of guilt, and on the other hand, it was because he could be so pampered.

In the past, he would not have been so self-willed, especially when facing the person in front of him. Unfortunately, Ji Li has been too gentle with him during this time, which made him more and more used to the other party's preference, and even dared to lose his temper.

He didn't know if this situation could be called arrogance.

This is a very bad sign.

Once the barrier in his heart was broken, he suddenly felt that he was quite boring.

Including those hesitation, those uncertainties, and the panic about the bad ending, it's quite boring.

So what if you say it.

Ji Li hadn't heard him speak for a long time, so long that he thought that the other party hadn't heard at all and was about to ask again, but at this moment the other party suddenly asked slowly: "Did many people ask you for your contact information before? "

"Uh..." Ji Li said, "All I will add are classmates."

"Are there many girls in there who like you?"

"No."

"That means there are many boys who like you?"

"Uh..." Is this the brain circuit that a normal person should have?

Ji Li: "Apart from you, which boy would dare to confess his love to me?"

Ying Yunsheng directly missed the point: "So there are really other boys who like you, but they just dare not confess?"

"Uh..." Ji Li looked at him: "You saw me talking to someone in front of the water cooler before, so that's why you were upset?"

Ying Yunsheng remained silent.

Ji Li found that the man's cheeks were bulging into pufferfish again, and couldn't help laughing: "Are you jealous?"

Ying Yunsheng just wanted to nod his head to admit it, but when the words came to his lips, he suddenly realized something was wrong: "What did you just say?"

Ji Li subconsciously repeated: "Are you upset because you saw me talking to someone else?"

Ying Yunsheng: "One more sentence."

Ji Li: "..."

"No one dares to confess to you except me." Ying Yunsheng stared at him, "When did I confess to you?"

"Uh……"

"Did you hear what I said that day at the garbage dump?"

"Uh..." Ying Yunsheng took a deep breath, turned around and left.

This development completely exceeded Ji Li's expectations. As soon as he hesitated, the person in front of him walked out of the gate and disappeared.

Ji Li hurriedly chased him out, and as soon as he opened the curtain, he saw the front yard of the hospital where people were coming and going.

Pretending not to hear other people's confession is a joke at a light level, and hooliganism at a serious level.Especially when he heard that he neither agreed nor rejected, and even got along with others as before. This behavior itself is no different from those scumbags who deliberately hang others to keep a spare tire.

Ji Li searched around but couldn't find anyone, but Ying Yunsheng didn't use his cell phone yet, so he couldn't do anything even if he wanted to make a call, so he could only stop at the spot a little helplessly.

Two words popped into my mind.

It’s over.

Ying Yunsheng was really angry at first.

It's not that he is angry with the other party, but mainly with himself.

He was sure that no one but himself could understand the unfinished confession at the garbage dump, but the other party could still see his unfinished meaning. What does this mean?

It means that the other party knew his thoughts from the very beginning.

Obviously he should have noticed that Ji Li is so sensitive to other people's emotional perception, when dealing with interpersonal relationships, he can't wait to use a spiral micrometer to measure it. During this time, he will take care of him and occasionally say a few words His ambiguous jokes have long been beyond the scope of ordinary friends, how could it be a casual thread, it could only be intentional.

The other party has already seen it, but he doesn't make it clear, doesn't alienate him, and only occasionally teases a few words. He is tangled up and down like a fool, but the other party is still leisurely like watching a play.

Spread all your foolishness in front of your crush... Just thinking about it can make him want to disappear on the earth.

Half angry and half ashamed in his heart, he ran out of the hospital. When he rolled himself into a ball with aggrievedness and buried his face in his knees, he felt that this feeling might be the "community death" that Ji Li once told him.

When he got his mind together and was finally able to speak normally, he walked out of the shadow beside the hospital gate, and when he looked up, he saw the person he thought had left long ago.

The noon sun began to slant, Ji Li stood up while supporting the stone pillar in front of the hospital gate, his body shook suddenly.

In just a few seconds, there was a Taoist figure in front of him like a divine soldier.

Ying Yunsheng stood on a step lower than him, holding his arm: "What's the matter? Are you uncomfortable? Are you dizzy?"

"No." Ji Li said, "I just squatted for too long and my legs are numb. Just stand for a while and it will be fine."

Ying Yunsheng: "What are you doing here?"

Ji Li: "I'm afraid you won't find me when you come back."

"Uh..." Ying Yunsheng stood still for a few seconds, and his tone softened involuntarily when he spoke again: "You won't just sit and wait?"

Ji Li shook his head: "I'm admitting my mistake now, how can I sit still."

"What if I don't come back?"

"Then keep waiting."

Ying Yunsheng fell silent, but he didn't leave again, just standing beside him and supporting him.

Ji Li apologized to him: "I'm sorry."

Ying Yunsheng remained silent.

"I wanted to wait a little longer."

Ying Yunsheng didn't expect these words, turned his head subconsciously, and found that the other party's eyelashes were wet at some point, like crow feathers that had been drenched by rain.

Something in his heart seemed to be pricked by a needle, and he froze in place for an instant.

Ji Li's tone was still calm: "You are only 16 years old, you are still more than 700 days away from becoming an adult, and you are still more than a year away from the college entrance examination. Life has just begun, and there is still a long way to go. Decide on a relationship with someone now. too early."

Ying Yunsheng didn't expect to hear this from him at all.

He always thought that he was the only one who was cautious in this relationship, but it wasn't until now when he heard the other party's methodical analysis that he realized that he was never the only one who was walking on thin ice.

The other party is even more cautious, less confident, and more afraid of failure than him.

Ying Yunsheng heard his heartbeat slow down, and then speed up without warning.

"And I'm not a good choice," Ji Li paused for a moment, "after all, it's easy to die early."

In this case, he almost lowered his posture to the minimum.

Ying Yunsheng couldn't hear him say this: "It's up to you whether it's good or not."

"Okay." Ji Li changed his words politely, "Actually, I want to wait for you to grow up, especially when I fed you a 16-year-old birthday cake not long ago. It will make me feel like a three-year-old man. The guilt of starting."

"Uh..." Ying Yunsheng held back, but still couldn't hold back: "You are four months older than me."

"Okay, okay." Ji Li didn't argue with him, "So can you forgive me?"

The originally stagnant atmosphere was completely disturbed by the other party's astonishing words, Ying Yunsheng was silent for a while, and finally said: "You don't need my forgiveness, you should scold me."

For a while, Ji Li couldn't keep up with his jumping train of thought.

"I shouldn't be angry with you." Ying Yunsheng lowered his head, "I was too emotional at the time, I was completely angry at you, and I didn't consider your thoughts, and I..."

"Okay." Ji Li covered his mouth, and interrupted his self-criticism like crying and laughing, "How many more things do you want to say?"

Ying Yunsheng tilted his head back: "There is one more."

"what?"

"like you."

"Uh..." Ji Li slowly lowered his hand.

"I didn't finish the sentence at the garbage dump before." Ying Yunsheng paused, "Although talking about it in the hospital is no better than the garbage dump." He paused again, "It's even a little more unknown. "

He looked into the other person's eyes: "I wanted to tell you a long time ago, but I was afraid at first, but I am still afraid now, but I don't want to hide it now. I didn't say it because I heard your inner thoughts and pity you, but also I don’t want to comfort you not to always take yourself so lightly, and I don’t want to speak wild words to prove whether it is good or bad for me to choose you for my whole life when I have only lived for more than ten years. I just want to To tell you, to let you know."

The surrounding wind suddenly rose, and the shadows of the trees rolled violently in the gust of wind.

"No matter what you think of yourself in your heart, no matter what your life, your destiny, or your future looks like in your eyes, whether it is excellent or ordinary, whether it is open or rugged, whether it is climbing to the top or looking up at the foot of the mountain, whether it is long Whether you live a hundred years or something else, someone's eyes will always fall on you because they like you."

"It's not just me."

"But including me."

Ying Yunsheng looked at him: "Ji Li, I like you."

The author says:

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!