Slag Yi

Although it is very disappointing to hear that "the person I love told me that I am getting married, but the person is not me", but I am still very glad, at least, it was said by that person himself.At least he is willing to consider how I would feel if I learned about it from other sources.In this way, it is already very good.No matter what he is thinking about is the friendship he has been with for many years or the relationship he has been with for four years after changing the relationship.At least he will consider my feelings.

In fact, he and I can be said to be close friends. Although Ayi never took the initiative to disclose the family affairs, he still vaguely learned about it from others.At that time, when I was still young, I thought, Ai is such a good person, why is his father so stupid and doesn’t like him?

When I grew up, I gradually understood that love is really the most unreasonable thing in this world.Ayi doesn't believe in this kind of thing, because of Ayi's influence, I actually feel that love is not reliable.But when love does come, I have a weird sense of taking it for granted.

Originally, I always regarded Dushanyi as an iron buddy who talked about everything.Ayi doesn't like to talk, but he does things carefully and conscientiously.I may have always regarded him as a role model in my heart!

When I was young, I sometimes had grievances, complained to Ayi, and usually got a piece of comfort. Sometimes, Ayi would buy me a lollipop. In fact, I don’t like sweets, but Ayi gave me I ate very happily.When we are all grown up, Ayi will not be as quiet as he was when he was a child.We communicated a lot more, academic problems, trivial things in life, occasionally I told a joke I remembered for a long time to liven up the atmosphere, and then laughed like hell before Ayi finished listening, Ayi didn’t think too much of me If the speech is not good, they will laugh together, and Ayi smiles very nicely.

How good were we getting along at that time? !

It's because I'm obsessed with sex, who can't I fall in love with?Do you have to like your friend who doesn't believe in love?However, who would have thought that at that moment, Ayi turned to look at himself, then smiled casually, and turned back while smiling, leaving only a neat back.In that instant, the relationship soured.To use a cheesy phrase, at that moment Cupid's arrow hit my heart.Plop, plop, heartbeat so fast.I don't know what was left in my mind at that time, maybe there was nothing, it was empty, I only remembered that smile.I can only sigh: the most uncomfortable thing in my life is his smile at that moment.

Maybe it's because I have a ghost in my heart, and when I'm alone with Ayi, I always feel my heart beat faster, but I still have to restrain it.Gradually, he also learned to hide that blatant look.When we get along, it seems that nothing has changed, but in fact, everything is different for me.

Will be like a pervert, want to kiss Ai, want to be intimate with Ai, want to blend in with Ai, want Ai to look no longer calm and self-controlled, want Ai to be crazy for herself, want to To possess Ayi or be possessed by Ayi, no, let’s be possessed by Ayi, Ayi will not be willing to be possessed, and I don’t want Ayi to be possessed by anyone, even me.But, can't do it, can't do anything.

This sudden love taught me to hide.Sometimes I accidentally drank the same glass of water with Ayi, and then secretly kissed indirectly while Ayi was not paying attention, and then learned to cover up the heat with calmness.After secretly hiding Ayi's unwanted items, he concealed his guilt with calmness.For Ayi, I have learned a lot to make myself worthy of Ayi.

Ayi doesn't believe in love, so he spends his whole life by his side as a friend.How nice it is.

It's just that people's hearts are not easy to satisfy.After confirming that I have always been a special existence in Ayi's heart, I want to go further with Ayi, and go further.In the end, it was discovered by Ai.

Ayi is such a nice person, he politely rejected me when he found out.But, Ayi, your gentle refusal makes me more addicted.You are so good, I don't want you to be unhappy.

So, I am willing to really get along with you as a friend.However, the saying that people's hearts are changeable is not without reason.After knowing that you knew my feelings and rejected me, I still cling to you vainly, selfishly ruining our friendship, and forcibly using this friendship in exchange for an illusory relationship.

I regret it, but I don't regret it either.Such contradictory feelings are a true portrayal of my heart.

With you, four years.I am very happy.Even if you don't believe in love, you can't control all your emotions.I know that you still have a crush on me, as for whether it can be transformed into love, it will take time to witness.

But I never thought that time was too late.

So soon, before you even liked me, you were going to get married.

I'm sad, I experienced what people call heartbreak.But I still bless you.You look really nice and handsome in the groom's suit, but the person standing next to you is really not pleasing to my eyes. I really hope that person is me, but it's impossible.But luckily you didn't like me.So I won't experience the kind of sadness and despair that seems to be drowning in water, so that's good.

Many times, I wonder, do I love you?I can actually tolerate you marrying someone else, entering into someone else, merging with someone else, having children with someone else, and having a lifetime of happiness!However, just thinking about you smiling at your wife, I can't stand it anymore, I really want her to disappear far away.No, actually, what I want most is to kidnap you, take you to a place where no one knows, hide you, only I can see you, only I can touch you, only I can be with you .You can only belong to me, that's fine.can i do thisI can not.So I can only leave far away, don't bother you.

Ay, I love you.I don't want to cry, but the tears can't stop flowing down, I really don't look like a man.Ah, this postcard is polluted, please write a new one.This one is very beautiful, you will like it too.

I am now standing in the Aegean Sea in Greece, the blue sky, the blue sea, the blue mood, everything is blue.I always hope that one day, when your news comes, your wife finally died of dystocia, and finally died unexpectedly. At that time, I will come back to you, okay?I became so vicious and no longer like me, I would curse an innocent person to die... But, I am still the Shao Dengyun who loves you, your Ayun.

I don't ask you to like or even fall in love with me. I will love your child as my own. When the time comes, please remember, don't reject me, okay?

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Thoughts: It's really over now.In fact, this is the first book I wrote after I became an attacker. I can only say that I was very hard at the beginning, and I was also very hard at the end.In the middle... Maybe I like the new and dislike the old. At that time, I had a new idea, so I opened the next door article, so the middle part may not have been written with so much care. There were still a lot of plots, but I cut them off.

In fact, it can be seen from the piece of Ayi’s doting at the beginning that when I first wrote this article, it was not actually an offense. The more he controls offense, the less he likes to be favored by offense, so he changed to CP [So, in fact, the CP gentleman in this article at the beginning is Shen Nianjiang!After the result...youknow], after finishing this episode, you can treat it as an open ending, or as a BE. I don’t want to really write whether Ayun went back to find Ayi in the end, and whether Ayi accepted him. .

I love my family Ayi. In my heart, such a child will always have a knot in his heart. His family is torn apart because of the so-called love in his father's mouth. In fact, he hates it. The woman who covered up the fact of the mistress also hated that woman's family, which is also the mother's family, but he just used a relatively indifferent appearance to cover up his hatred. In the end, he chose to give up Ayun and choose to marry in order to get more power.I don't write about what he will do after he gets power, maybe revenge, maybe develop the company, who knows?

Ayun actually understood him, so although Ayun was sad and hopeless, he still let go.

Ayi is a responsible person. Although he has ambitions, what he really wants to do in his heart is not these things. He suppresses himself.He didn't believe in love, but did he really have no relationship with Ayun after four years of being lovers?He just gave himself a shackle and trapped himself.

Ah Yun will think about those vicious thoughts in his heart, and I understand him very well.He is barely the daughter-in-law of Ayi in my family. He is unwilling to do things that make Ayi unhappy, but he still does one thing—exchanging friendship for a slim chance of love.The only thing is to return the pure friendship in Ayi's heart, but why not give Ayi a chance to try love?

It's a pity that even if A Yi really liked A Yun, A Yi didn't say it out, maybe he had already noticed it, maybe he didn't.Ayun was really unlucky, and Ayi finally gave up on him.In fact, if they get along again, it's hard to say what the result will be.At least when my family Ayi didn’t believe in love, Ayun was the most special. After my family Ayi and Ayun got together, didn’t Ayi who doesn’t believe in love still plan to accompany Ayun until he is 30 years old?The best years are with you, even if I don't say I love you, can it really be said that there is no emotion?

So, in the end, I wrote very cryptic open endings.Perhaps, one day, Ayun couldn't bear it and ran back to pester Ayi?At that time, maybe Ayi could be with him! [Actually, to put it bluntly, for my family Ayi, you should pamper her to death until Ayi lets go of all the hatred in her heart and really start to enjoy life, and then I can’t do without you, idiot Ayun! ! ! ! ! ! 】

In fact, I want to write about the kind of feelings that flow slowly and naturally, but this article is really not suitable.Ayi's family situation is doomed that he does not need such a relationship, and of course, he does not need that kind of love that is as gorgeous as fireworks but fleeting.So, writing it like this is my current limit.Maybe on that day, I have experienced love, and I can let my children experience it too.

Finally, I am very grateful to those who collected and commented, thank you for your support, I am very happy for your existence!Although coding and writing are just my own business, it feels great to have you with me~

The author has something to say: This article is officially over!