those things

Sometimes He Nuo would think, if he hadn't told his father this secret, then the relationship between father and son would be different, right?

He told his dad that he was gay.

At that time, his father's expression was rare serious and serious, but he looked into his father's eyes without feeling scared at all.

His surroundings seemed to be suddenly covered with a cloud of white mist. It was so white that people didn't know what to do next. He had some vague expectations for his father in his heart, and he was counting on his father to be able to say Something, maybe something his father said could dispel the bewildering white mist around him, and then he would know how to face this problem in the future.

His dad asked him why he was watching these things, and he told his dad that he was gay.

His dad thinks what he said is ridiculous. He thinks his only problem is that he has made some bad friends that he shouldn't have. Under the influence of these bad friends, he will watch these messy things.

He Nuo wanted to say that he didn't make any bad friends, nor was he taught to watch these things.

But he didn't say it.

He suddenly realized that his father could not meet his expectations, and what he wanted to hear could not be heard from his father.

"...Thinking about it now, in fact, I shouldn't have such unrealistic expectations for him. He is a good father, but like everyone in his era, he couldn't accept this kind of thing in his heart," He Nuo said slowly, "But at that time, I was very disappointed."

He Nuo occasionally glanced at Qin Sang, and always found that he was listening quietly.

In fact, He Nuo was also a little strange, how could he suddenly say these things to this person... Maybe it was because these things had been kept in his heart for too long, and then suddenly there was such a person talking loudly about his past. , and he asked the exact same question as his father, and then awakened what he was saying from the bottom of his heart.

Some things always need someone to listen to, so that you will feel relaxed in your heart.

As for his matters, it is not easy to find the right person, the right opportunity, and most importantly, the right mood to talk about.

Moreover, he gradually discovered that Qin Sang was quite clear about things.

Furthermore, in a sense, he and Qin Sang are actually two strangers who have nothing to do with each other, and it is always easier to speak freely to strangers.

This is because I know in my heart that in the future life, this person will not have any intersection with me.

Therefore, some things are easier to say.

However, there is such a person who is willing to listen to him talk about these things, he should thank him, He Nuo looked at Qin Sang, Qin Sang also looked at him, then Qin Sang asked him softly:

"and then?"

"...Then my dad asked me to promise not to watch these things in the future, and I promised. After that, neither of us mentioned that day again. Later, I slowly discovered that every time a female classmate called home, I Dad will chat with them a few words..."

At that time, they were about to enter the third grade, and their schoolwork was gradually increasing, but the adolescent girls would always put some thoughts on things other than studying. Some people sweetly made their little girlfriends. Nuo always found another love letter in his desk.

From time to time, girls call in on the phone at home.

Although during that time, He Nuo almost subconsciously kept a certain distance from all the boys and girls.

In the past, when his father received this kind of call, he would call He Nuo to answer the phone immediately, but things changed slowly. His father began to chat with the girls who called him, and he would welcome them in a gentle tone. Talk to him more.

His father talks to the juniors with the demeanor of an elder while still being lively and cheerful. Even shy and shy girls will happily call "Uncle He" when they see him, and then their Uncle He is talking. He Nuo will make an appointment with someone to go outside to play.

At that time, the parents were afraid that their children would not focus on their studies, but He Nuo never let the family worry about their studies, so his father didn't have that concern.

Later, he was admitted to what is said to be the best medical school in Beijing. His father was very happy, but when he received the admission notice, his father talked about something else. He asked him to find a girl in the university to have a good relationship. He half-jokingly said that falling in love is a required credit in college.

On weekends, He Nuo would be called home by his mother, and his father would talk to him about school affairs, and his father would ask him about his studies, and whether there were any good girls in school.

Because he has already gone to college, when his father talks about this to him, his attitude will be very natural.His mother doesn't know anything, so she will feel proud and proud that his father is too anxious.

No one knew what He Nuo was thinking.

"...I can't say what exactly my dad did wrong. His intentions, everything he did, and his words and deeds before and after, all of them can't be faulted. I just want to find If you lose your temper, you can't..."

He couldn't vent it, so he had to keep it in his heart.

He was depressed during that time.

He has the happiest family, the best school, the most educated parents, and the most enviable years. He has the best everything in the world, and a bright future seems to be paved under his feet.

But he lived a very depressed life.

No one knows about it.

Later, he met Shen Yunchen. From Shen Yunchen's words and deeds, he could tell that Shen Yunchen also liked him. They started dating. During that time, they traveled to almost every corner of Beijing, and went to the restaurant after dinner. He never shied away from eating at the restaurants his father used to eat at.

"...I imagined being bumped into by my dad, but I wasn't afraid at all. Finally, my dad came to see me. I told him that I was in a relationship with a man, and then my dad slapped me. ..."

In his memory, it was the first time his father beat him like this.

The beating was so heavy that half of his face quickly swelled up.

He felt bad, but at the same time he felt light.

For the next two or three months, his father didn't say anything to him. During this period of time, he fell in love with filming again. When he told his father that he was going to drop out of school and enter the entertainment industry, he felt guilty. This thing is different from last time.

He has a clear conscience when he associates with Shen Yunchen.

He Nuo still remembers the first sentence his father said to him after hearing it very clearly.

"It's about your future, don't be angry with me."

At that time, his father said so.

Five years later, it still hurts to think about it.

For the next three years or so, his father didn't say a word to him. Occasionally He Nuo was called home by his mother, and his father saw him as if he didn't see him.

Later, his father somehow found out about his breakup with Shen Yunchen.

It was the Lantern Festival that day, he was called home by his mother, and his mother was called by the next door for a few minutes, it seemed that their daughter was going to hold a church wedding and wanted to ask his mother to play on the piano at the wedding What's the matter, there were only him and his father in the living room for a while, and He Nuo sat on the sofa, feeling uncomfortable all over.

If there was only one incident between him and his father, and that incident was that he dated Shen Yunchen, then He Nuo probably wouldn't be like this.

But this is not the case.

His father flipped through the medical magazine in his hand, but suddenly spoke.

"Have you broken up with that boyfriend of yours?" he said.

He Nuo was very surprised, firstly because his father took the initiative to talk to him, secondly because of the content of his father's words, and thirdly because of his father's tone of affirmation, he broke up with Shen Yunchen, his father Do you even know?

Then He Nuo almost had no time to think about anything, and heard his father go on to say:

"At the beginning, you didn't even go to school because of him. I thought there would be some kind of affection between you. He is famous now. How do you look at you now? Didn't you think of helping you? "

If you say this in another tone, it can be a question, or an anger.

When his father said this, his eyes did not move away from the magazine, but from the first word to the end of the last word, there was a hint of mockery in everything.

That's all his father wanted to say to him, the words were neither too long nor too short, and the sarcasm was just right. W, He Nuo's feelings for his father have always been very complicated, but now and the original is not a complicated way, it seems to have added a spoonful of vinegar to the original complicated, and then in the long time, Fermentation has become another kind of ignorance.