After the apprenticeship, I became a hater

"Late night..."

Luo Wuchen's eyes dimmed, and his outstretched hand was in mid-air

Stagnant.

"Are you afraid of me?"

There seemed to be a bit of disbelief in his voice.

My body trembled, and I curled up at the foot of the bed.

Hearing Luo Wuchen's voice, I raised my face and looked at Luo Wuchen timidly.

Luo Wuchen also looked at me.

He looked at me fixedly, and after a while, he walked towards me.

He took a step towards me, and I stepped back a little, wishing I could stick myself against the wall.

Soon, there was no turning back.

Luo Wuchen sat by my bed, propped the bed with one hand, held my lower back, and pulled me into his arms.

I put my hand on Luo Wuchen's chest in panic, but I was easily grabbed by the hand that rejected me.

The movement of resistance was restricted, and the range was reduced to the minimum.

Luo Wuchen put his arms around me and held my cool fingers in his palm.

"Your hands are cold."

I couldn't break free, looked at Luo Wuchen's stern side face, and became dazed, hearing his voice, I stared blankly at my hands that were being held by Luo Wuchen.

Ah, it is true.

my hands are cold...

I can't cover the heat.

Luo Wuchen held my hand, his movements seemed to be tender, like pity.

But my body seemed to still remember the pain and instinctive fear brought by him, and trembled slightly.

Luo Wuchen gently stroked my bony back, "Wanwan..."

I looked at Luo Wuchen with a slightly dazed look in my eyes.

"Don't be afraid of me." Luo Wuchen said.

When I heard him say that, I looked at Luo Wuchen with moist eyes in a little confusion.

His fingers unconsciously clenched Luo Wuchen's arm, and his fingertips pulled his meticulous robes into a mess.

"Before..." Luo Wuchen turned his head slightly so that I couldn't see the expression on his face clearly.

I don't know if it was my illusion, but Luo Wuchen's tone seemed a bit hesitant.

"Before, I misunderstood you..." Luo Wuchen kissed my forehead and said with difficulty: "I apologize to you."

He apologized to me.

very rare.

I stared blankly at Luo Wuchen's face, feeling unreal in my heart.

It seems that he is still immersed in some kind of unrealistic conjecture.

"Wanwan, it's my fault."

"You are wronged."

what……

My fingers tightened slowly, I blinked my eyes, it turned out that I didn't hear wrong.

He was really apologizing to me.

for previous misunderstandings.

"..."

My mouth opened and closed again.After all, I still couldn't say "I forgive you."

His thin body curled up in Luo Wuchen's arms.

Luo Wuchen showed a confused expression.

"I will treat you well in the future."

Luo Wuchen coaxed me patiently.

"If you really want a child, I can give you another one."

Different.

What is lost can never be regained.

A broken mirror, even if it is repaired, will have cracks that cannot be erased.

It's really weird...

Obviously I couldn't see a wound on my body, but I felt that I was in severe pain.

"We still have a long time, I can give you whatever you want."

He doesn't understand...

He didn't understand why I was sad.

I also don't understand what I want.

His apology to me was too light, and a piece of rubble couldn't plug the gap in the broken dike.

There is no empathy in the world, he will not know how much pain I have, there is...

How hopeless.

I shook my head in confusion, and tears ran out of my eyes suddenly.

Qin Qing said that I was not pregnant, but the despair of losing my child was so real, I couldn't even deceive myself if I wanted to.

Seeing me crying, Luo Wuchen kissed me awkwardly, "Don't cry."

Luo Wuchen's pupils are very light in color, and they are amber like gold in the sun. His deep eyebrows always give me an illusion of affection when he looks at me.

If he is willing to be gentle with me a little bit, he will be able to fascinate me even more.

When I first saw him, I wanted to be close to him.

Therefore, I accepted everything Qin Qing told me so easily, and believed the affection in his mouth.

But hidden under such a deceptive appearance is a heart as cold as renunciation and love.

Before I knew it, my face was covered with tears.

I took a quick breath, like a sob.

Obviously I have shed so many tears, I know tears are the most useless thing, but I still cry because of Luo Wuchen again and again.

What a loser.

So weak, so incompetent, so...

Incurably stupid.

Obviously he was treated so cruelly by Luo Wuchen, he just said a few nice words to me, and I picked out the meaning of distress from it, and I couldn't even bear to blame him.

I can only blame myself. I don’t understand anything. I mistakenly took the fake pregnancy as the real one. It was a misunderstanding caused by me, and I deserve to be punished.

so tired...

I buried my face in Luo Wuchen's neck tiredly, weeping silently.

Luo Wuchen gently stroked my hair one by one,

I was exhausted all over, and my heart seemed to be filled with obscure weights, pressing down heavily.

My body was hot and cold one after another, but after being hugged by Luo Wuchen for a while, a thin layer of cold sweat broke out on my back.

Luo Wuchen hugged me who was trembling, and stuffed me under the quilt.

Qin Qing said that my forced miscarriage this time did not leave any irreparable hidden wounds.

But I just slowly recovered from the previous weakness, and this accident made me lose my vitality again.

Sure enough, before midnight, I had a fever.

I was so hot that I was in a daze, tears kept flowing from the corners of my eyes, and the sweat on my body soaked into my clothes, as if trying to drain all the moisture in my body.

"water……"

I feel thirsty, whispering unconsciously in my mouth, longing for the rain to fall on the scorched earth.

A hot bitter liquid was brought to my mouth, Luo Wuchen held the back of my neck and fed me the medicine.

Even though I knew in my heart that drinking the medicine would be good for my body, I still spit out all the medicine Luo Wuchen fed into my mouth in the end.

No matter how much he feeds me, I vomit up and down, I vomit so hard that I even throw up the acid water in my stomach.

"Wan Wan, be good," Luo Wuchen grabbed my wrist with trembling hands, "Don't make me worry."

I raised my tear-wet eyelashes, my eyes full of confusion.

Be good...

I'm already very well behaved.

The original indifference on Luo Wuchen's face seemed to be broken by something, he looked...

A little restless?

Like wanting to be nice to me but not knowing how.

My mind went blank, I opened my mouth, subconsciously wanting to answer him.

It should be my fault.

I shouldn't have spit it all out.

But I really can't swallow it.

That medicine is so bitter, I'm afraid...

I nestled sleepily in Luo Wuchen's arms. When the spoon containing the medicine juice approached my mouth, I endured the inexplicable fear in my heart, opened my mouth softly, and swallowed the medicine juice one by one. to the stomach.

Really... so bitter.

It was so hard that I couldn't help crying again.

"Wanwan...very good." I unconsciously clenched Luo Wuchen's fingers, and pressed my cheek against his palm, "I...be good..."

Luo Wuchen's hands trembled as if they were scalded.

After a while, he supported my bony back, gently wiped away my tears, and stuffed me back into the quilt.

I was ill for two days in a daze. During this period, even if I tried to stay awake, I soon fell asleep again.

After all, it hurt my vitality, and after another three days, I still couldn't get out of bed.

When I woke up again, I only felt as if I had already died once.

Luo Wuchen spent more time with me, as if he wanted to make up for me, he wanted anything from me.

So be it.

Let the nightmarish past pass as a dream.

I say this to myself.

The long night will pass, and the winter will pass, and all things will recover, and the sun will rise.

Luo Wuchen and I still have a future.

In the past, let him pass.

But the snow will melt, and the dirt covered by the snow will be exposed to the sun.

It was meant to be.

It is destiny.

It was an ordinary day.

Ever since I had a miscarriage, I've been a little depressed, and Luo Wuchen took me down the mountain to relax.

When returning to Zetianzong, a disciple found her husband and said that the suzerain had something important to ask him.

Luo Wuchen originally wanted to send me back to Killing Peak first, but after picking up a sound-transmitting paper crane, my husband's face became a little dignified.

"Late night..."

The last thing I wanted was to embarrass him, so I took the initiative to say, "Husband, go do your work first, I'll just walk back by myself."

"I'm choosing Tianzong, so I won't be in any danger." Seeing that Luo Wuchen was still hesitant, I chuckled, "I'm not a child anymore, I won't get lost."

"I'll wait for you back at Killing Peak."

I said this to Luo Wuchen.

But I don't know, when I return to Killing Peak again, my mood will completely change.

I bid farewell to my husband, stayed in a daze for a while, politely persuaded the disciple who wanted to escort me to Kill Peak, and walked slowly towards Kill Peak.

But for some reason, I walked to Siguoya without knowing it.

previously--

That was before my fake pregnancy.

I planned to go there at that time, but it was too unfortunate, too many things happened one after another, and when I really had the opportunity to go to the Siguo Cliff, more than two months had passed.

Thinking about the lack of spiritual power on the cliff, the strong wind that blows all year round and cannot be completely resisted by spiritual power, but the cliff is empty, there is not even a tree, and there is no place to hide if you want to hide.

Even in the Zetian Sect with many rules, only disciples who have committed serious mistakes will be imprisoned to Siguo Cliff.

When I arrived at Siguo Cliff, a disciple was also coming this way. When he saw me, the disciple's eyes lit up and he ran all the way to me.

"Are you also here to see Senior Brother Mu?"

Seeing my confused expression, the disciple patted himself on the forehead, "Oh, I forgot, you don't remember anything now, Senior Brother Mu, Mu Li, is our Young Sect Master."

Mu Li...Young Sect Master...

My eyes moved when I heard the familiar words, "He..." What mistake did he make?

Is he really locked up here because he eloped with me?

The disciple lowered his head and took out an oiled paper bag from his sleeve, and stuffed it into my hand, "You can take this here by the way."

"Senior Brother Mu must be very happy to see you."

"By the way, hide from the wind, I'll go first."

The disciple finished explaining the words in one brain, and almost walked away in a bouncing manner.

I looked down at the oiled paper bag he stuffed into my hand, and was stunned.

After a while, I silently held the oil-paper bag that I didn't know what it contained, and continued to walk up the Siguo Cliff.

Since Siguo Cliff is called a cliff, it is naturally flat and has no peaks.

When I climbed to the highest point, I saw a huge stone with awe-inspiring sword intent engraved with the word "Thoughts".

A huge restriction covered the entire Siguo Cliff, and when I tried to touch the restriction, a knife-like pain came from my fingertips.

When Mu Li saw me, his eyes lit up, pressing on something, and then quickly turned off.

"How did you come?"

Although the cassock on his body is tattered and tattered, if you observe carefully, you can vaguely see the former luxury from it.

Before I could answer, Mu Li's expression changed again, "Are you still caught?"

"They..." For some reason, Mu Li spoke with some difficulty, "...Did Sword Master do anything to you?"

Sword Master... Did he mean Luo Wuchen?

I shook my head, my husband is very kind to me.I don't understand why he asked me this.

Mu Li was stunned, as if he was relieved, but also somewhat disappointed, and murmured: "That's good."

"Why are you locked up here?" I hesitated for a long time, but I still couldn't help but want to get an answer from the person involved.

To this day, I still can't remember what happened in the first place.

And even if the other party involved, Mu Li, is standing in front of me, it still can't bring me the slightest memory of the past.

But one thing I'm sure of, I don't have any feelings for Mu Li.

Regarding the elopement that the group of disciples said, I now feel more like they deliberately splashed dirty water.

Mu Li scratched his head with a dazed expression, "Isn't it because I took you away and got caught?"