After the apprenticeship, I became a hater

"Go back with me."

I looked up at the moon in the sky, obviously I was already standing on the top of the mountain, but the moon was still out of reach and untouchable.

Forget it, the moon is already in the sky, how could the moonlight ever shine on you, that moon is yours... It makes no sense.

I suddenly laughed, very lightly, just laughing at my wishful thinking.

"Wanwan." Luo Wuchen reached out and grabbed my wrist, frowning slightly.

His palm is very hot, but it seems that my hand is as cold as snow.

"Follow me back." Luo Wuchen repeated again, his tone was very low, as if he was a little impatient, and there was also a faint sullen feeling of disobedience.

In the past, I definitely didn't want to make him angry, even if he just frowned slightly, it would make me panic and listen to him in everything.

But now, I won't listen to you anymore.

I just shook my head, gently pushed Luo Wuchen away and took my hand.

The expression on Luo Wuchen's face became more and more cold.

I instinctively feel that Luo Wuchen is a little angry, yes, he must be angry.

Master Jian Zun, who said nothing in two ways, condescended to ask an ordinary disciple of humble status to follow him, but was rejected again and again.

Of course he would be angry if he was so ignorant of current affairs.

But what does that matter to me?

Luo Wuchen, I don't like you anymore.

"I won't go back with you," I looked into Luo Wuchen's eyes and said softly, "Just treat me as dead."

In the past seven years of bullying, I used the pain to grow spikes all over my body to protect myself. I clearly warned myself to be vigilant to everyone, not to fall into the same trap again, not to suffer the same hardship, but still In front of Luo Wuchen, the soft inner part was exposed, so that he was stabbed unsuspectingly, and the wound was dripping with blood.

Luo Wuchen's face obviously froze for a moment, he frowned, faintly suppressing his impatience: "Stop making trouble, come back with me."

trouble? .

In his eyes, my heart is disheartened and full of despair, just a fluffy word "trouble"?

I laughed softly, and raised the spikes on my body again: "Go back?"

"Then, are you waiting for my death?"

Luo Wuchen's pupils shrank for a moment, and he was briefly stunned as if he had been slapped suddenly.

"I, I will find your reincarnation," Luo Wuchen closed his eyes in pain, "I won't make you suffer any more."

The voice seemed to be restrained.

My eyes stayed on Luo Wuchen's face for a long time, for a long time, the absurdity rising in my heart made me forget even to laugh.

"Reincarnation?"

My voice trembled slightly.

"Then should I thank you?"

But the reincarnated me, is it still me?

What does it have to do with me who is suffering so much pain that I don't want to live now?

I have suffered and been wronged, why should I ask my reincarnation to receive compensation?

There is nothing so cheap.

"And then?" I asked him calmly, almost coldly, but my lips trembled slightly: "Will you tell my reincarnation that the reason you were nice to him was because you killed his previous life?"

Luo Wuchen's face was ugly.

"I won't kill you."

Yeah, you won't kill me with your own hands.

You are watching my lifespan come to an end bit by bit.

Obviously you can save me, but you choose to stand on the sidelines...

When I think about it, I was also at fault.

If I hadn't deluded myself, maybe I could have predicted the current situation earlier. When I think about it carefully, there are actually things that are wrong everywhere—the dark dreams, the uneasiness floating in my heart, and the weirdness of the people around me. manner……

It's just that I still have fantasies in my heart, thinking about what happens.

If I can really be told to wait until I can be treated with kindness even once, until there is a person who is willing to accept me who is not perfect.

Although I have been bruised and bruised, I still hope that someone can help me so that I will not be completely swallowed by the swamp of despair.

I really want to be loved.

So I don't want to wonder why Luo Wuchen is so kind to me after leaving customs, and I don't want to ponder why he never showed up during the seven years when I was bullied. To like him.

Knowing that people like me don't deserve to be treated tenderly, yet I am still bewildered by the illusory warmth, trapped in the misty illusion, and give my heart out of my own affection.

It was me who was wrong, not him.

I deserve it.

I admit it.

But I will still feel wronged after all.

Why is it so difficult to just want to live an ordinary life?

I don't understand it, I didn't understand it in the past, and I still don't understand it now.

However, after bumping into so many south walls, I still have some small gains.

In the past, I didn't know that some things could not be obtained by force.

now I know.

I don't ask for it.

I don't want anything.

I am going home.

The wind on the top of the mountain is strong, blowing on the body seems to be able to take away all the heat from the body.

so cold.

There was no warmth on my body, and my hair was messed up by the wind.

Luo Wuchen, I don't like you anymore.

I laughed silently, laughed, laughed, but the tears could not stop sliding down the corners of my eyes.

"Wanwan..." Luo Wuchen called me, as if he wanted to say something else.

But I don't want to hear it anymore, he always makes me sad, and I don't want to talk to him anymore.

I clenched my hands into fists in my sleeves and said slowly, "Let me go."

"Anyway, I won't live long," I smiled shortly, "There's no need to let me die in front of your eyes."

"It's absolutely impossible," probably because of the ruthless way, Luo Wuchen has never had any emotional fluctuations, this time I'm afraid I'm really angry, almost gnashing his teeth, he said: "Don't think about it."

"Let me go." I quietly watched him hold my hand, he held it tight, and I could clearly feel the pain coming from the wrist bone, which made me frowned slightly uncomfortably: " Let go and let me go."

Luo Wuchen didn't seem to hear what I was saying at all, he just grabbed my wrist tightly, making it impossible for me to break free, repeating his voice coldly.

"Go back with me."

I felt so stuffy in my heart, "Can't you let me go?"

"Go back with me."

Luo Wuchen just repeated, but his tone was low and serious.

But I don't want to go back.

He didn't understand at all.

In other words, Luo Wuchen didn't bother to understand.

Yes.

My will has never mattered.

Like I'm trying so hard to live.

But in their eyes, in Luo Wuchen's eyes, I only have the value of dying as Luo Wuchen's love.

I felt a little breathless, and my heart was stuffy and painful.

"Okay."

I looked at Luo Wuchen, nodded, without any warning, I broke my wrist from Luo Wuchen's hand, and pushed him towards Zhuxian Terrace.

Zhuxiantai is a good place.

It is said that it was used to execute the immortals and demons who caused chaos.

Even Sanxian can be trapped by the prohibition above, it is very strong.

look.

No matter how powerful Luo Wuchen is, he is still trapped inside by this restriction.

Like a nimble fox, I jumped onto Zhuxian Terrace, holding in my hand the key to activate the ban on Zhuxian Terrace.

At that moment, I did see an emotion similar to astonishment in Luo Wuchen's eyes.

How could he have imagined that I would still be able to trap him. Although I used the power of Zhuxiantai's restraint, I did trap him.

That moment seemed to be stretched very long, there was no sound, I looked at Luo Wuchen through the radiant restraint, and looked at him for a long time, after all, this was probably the last time I could look at him like this up...

"Xie Wan!" Luo Wuchen's eyes widened, and the eyes almost lit up when he looked at me, "What are you doing?!"

"I don't do anything."

"I just..." My voice was very soft, hiding the determination that only I knew: "I don't want you anymore."

I used to hope that someone could love me, that someone could treat me well...

Now I don't ask.

I don't want anything.

I pulled out the spirit sword and stabbed at the leg that was limped because of Su Lianyi and healed because of Luo Wuchen.

Luo Wuchen's eyes seemed to be red: "Xie Wan——!"

It's all deceptive.

The blade cut through my flesh, and I trembled with pain.

I don't want any more love.

The spirit sword hummed mournfully, breaking my muscles and bones.

I don't want anything "good".

"Back to you……"

"Thank you Wan!!!" Luo Wuchen's voice almost broke when he called me, as if he was furious.

"I don't owe you anything."

I threw away the spirit sword and staggered towards the end of Zhuxian Terrace.

I know very little about Zhuxiantai.

If this place hadn't happened to be mentioned in the book I borrowed from Zangshuge a few days ago, I would not have known that Zetianzong also had a Zhuxian Terrace, let alone activate the prohibition that traps gods and demons on the Zhuxian Terrace It was this unremarkable stone spoon.

So I don't know how long this restriction can trap Luo Wuchen.

"Xie Wan!—Stop! I order you to stop!"

Luo Wuchen drew his sword and slashed at the restriction.

He is worthy of being a sword master who can fight against several scattered immortals without losing the wind.

I saw the ban trembling in the sword light of Luo Wuchen's sword after sword, the flowing light dimmed visibly to the naked eye, as if it would be crushed by Luo Wuchen at any time.

It doesn't mean that this restriction can trap the true immortals, why does it look like it will be broken by Luo Wuchen soon?

Either it has fallen into disrepair and its effectiveness has diminished, or the people who wrote it have exaggerated.

I thought about it endlessly, step by step, step by step, green blood blooming every step, limping, I finally reached the edge of Zhuxiantai.

The moonlight is very bright, but it still cannot illuminate the bottom of the cliff.

I glanced down the cliff, only to see endless darkness.

Really high.

If I fall from here, I will definitely die.

May be smashed to pieces?

It happened that a gust of wet and cold wind blew up from the bottom of the cliff, cooling all the blood I bleed, and I shivered.

Hope it doesn't hurt too much.

I don't know how to control a sword, and I can't fly. I'm poor and white, and I'm stupid. The only way I can think of to get rid of Luo Wuchen completely without any worries is to die.

It's actually quite good.

All my life I've gone with the flow, and never once have I been in control of my own destiny.

When the country was ruined and the family was destroyed, I was not able to die with my parents...

This is the thing I regret the most.

If I had died together at that time, these things would not have happened now.

But it's not too late.

The cries of parents before death sounded in my ears.

[Wanwan, run! ]

[Live, must live——]

Dad, mother, I'm sorry, Wan Wan really worked hard.

night really...

I miss you so much.

I reached out to wipe my face, but forgot that there was still blood on my hands. Not only did I not wipe it clean, but it became even dirtier.

Forget it.

I put down my hand indifferently, and put the stone key to control the restriction on the ground.

Come alone, walk alone.

The only thing I can take away is my own life.

Before he died, he could still play around with the high and mighty Lord Jian Zun, it was not a loss.

"Xie Wan!" Luo Wuchen's eyes were as red as flames, as if he was in a hurry. I paused a little, and turned my head to look at him. Luo Wuchen's face turned pale, and his lips parted for a long time Squeeze out the words, "How dare you!"

I have nothing to dare.

I am not even afraid of death, what else is there not to dare?

I smiled softly, with a small, imperceptible little pride.

You want me to stay in Zetianzong and watch my own death approaching.

But I don't want to follow your wishes.

Luo Wuchen seemed to have finally come back to his senses, his face turned pale for some reason.

"I don't allow it! I don't allow you—" Luo Wuchen was still trapped in the restriction, attacking the restriction like a trapped beast.

I ignored Luo Wuchen's tearing cry.

You are not my master.

You are a bad person.

I will never listen to you again.

"I don't want you anymore." My tone was brisk, with a childish tone that brought back a victory.

I waved my hand at Luo Wuchen, and without hesitation, I jumped off the Zhuxian Terrace.