After the apprenticeship, I became a hater

How can it hurt so much?

It's like reliving everything that happened back then.

Even more unbearable than I remembered.

I was both dazed and afraid.

In addition to pain, there is also uncontrollable fear.

Under the influence of the drug, my consciousness should have been in a daze, and Hao Hao unconsciously let Qin Qing play with my lameness.

However, the strange thing is that I drank the medicine and lay on the bed, but I couldn't fall into a coma.

I can clearly feel the muscles and bones of my legs and feet being broken, the flesh being torn apart by a knife, and something sharp poking around in my flesh and blood...

The pain and fear made my body tremble uncontrollably, I was terrified.

But I didn't dare to struggle, and I didn't dare to howl, fearing that my lack of cooperation would affect Qin Qing's treatment, so I couldn't take it anymore, so I just opened my mouth and bit my finger.

The teeth were stuck in the flesh, which should have hurt, but I couldn't feel anything, and I bit harder, as hard as I wanted to bite off my own fingers.

Luo Wuchen pinched my jaw and forced me to open my mouth. He pulled my bitten finger out of my mouth: "Don't bite."

"Master... respect?" I blinked my eyes in confusion, and when I opened my mouth, there was a broken weeping sound, which made me bite my lip in fright, not wanting to let out any more sound.

At the same time, the tears that had already filled my eye sockets also bullied me, and ran out of my eye sockets, rustling endlessly like rain, wetting my whole face, even my temples, neck, and collar, and the more I In a panic, he gritted his teeth and tried hard to hold back the disappointing tears.

Luo Wuchen gently wiped away my tears, his voice was much softer than usual, as if coaxing, "Don't cry every night."

I nodded obediently holding back my tears.

Qin Qing seemed to have just discovered my situation, "Hey" said: "Why is he awake?"

Luo Wuchen frowned and looked at him, and said coldly, "What kind of medicine do you use?"

"Jianzun, please don't talk nonsense," Qin Qing said righteously and convincingly: "Since I have taken your spirit stone, I can't do dirty things that are shoddy. It is probably because your little disciple has a special physique and is sensitive to pain." Extremely sensitive."

Luo Wuchen looked down at me, and a dark light flickered quickly in his cold eyes.

Through the mist, I looked at Luo Wuchen, and vaguely saw pity in Luo Wuchen's eyes.

Then, Luo Wuchen raised his hand, and gently placed his fingers between my eyebrows.

I only felt a slight chill coming from between my brows, but before I could react, he withdrew his fingers.

"Don't be afraid," Luo Wuchen held my wrist with one hand, "Master is here."

"Master will accompany you."

I looked at Luo Wuchen stupidly, and slowly, I really didn't feel so much pain.

Not only did it not hurt so much, but I also vaguely felt that kind of belated sleepiness.

Huh?

very strange……

Why are you so sleepy all of a sudden?

I yawned a little, puzzled to think.

Luo Wuchen looked calm, but his eyes seemed to be gentle, and asked me lightly: "Sleepy?"

Qin Qing glanced at my face, and said: "Sleep if you want to sleep, when you wake up, you will be fine."

I suppressed my drowsiness and looked at Luo Wuchen, seeing Luo Wuchen nodding to me, my heart felt relieved.

Master is here.

Master is with me.

With Master around, I am not afraid of anything...

So, I fell asleep.

Before I completely lost consciousness and fell into a deep sleep, I heard Qin Qing and Luo Wuchen talking. Unfortunately, after I relaxed, the drowsiness came too fast. I was so sleepy that I couldn't hear what they said clearly. A few vague syllables with no clear meaning.

What is "decided?"

What "three years..."

What are they talking about?

I was a little curious, but after all, I couldn't resist the sleepiness, and fell into a deep sleep before I had time to guess.

In fact, I don't like sleeping very much, to be precise, I don't like being in a state of unconsciousness.

The darkness of the long night always scares me. After what happened that year, I had nightmares almost every night. I dreamed that Su Lianyi pushed me towards poisonous insects, dreamed that I was bitten by poisonous insects, abandon……

Time and time again, it almost drove me crazy, so I couldn't sleep.

But I can’t do without sleep. As an ordinary monk who has not yet left the world, I am in a trance during the day without sleep for a long time, and my temper is also unpredictable. Any disturbance can cut off my tense nerves.

Fortunately, I was born with a hard life, and I was troubled for three or two months. This problem suddenly healed without medicine, but some of my memories became blurred, and I couldn’t remember some things clearly. That memory also seemed to be covered with a layer of smoke, hazy, even if I accidentally turned it over, it wouldn't affect me too much.

If it wasn't for Su Lianyi who would come to me every now and then and try her best to consolidate my hatred for him over and over again, the memory that I deliberately downplayed would really become missing .

After going through the most difficult period, I will be able to handle it later. Whether it is despair, hatred, disappointment or resignation, all emotions are well controlled by me, and they will not be so strong that they will overwhelm me.

It’s just that the habit of hating falling asleep has remained until now. Although when it’s time to fall asleep, I wash up and go to bed like everyone else, and sleep with my eyes closed, but I have never had a good sleep.

Even when I fell asleep, my nerves were always tense, and when I woke up, I only felt heavy and exhausted.

When I was up and down in the dark, I had a dream.

In the dream, Luo Wuchen looked at me indifferently, and said that I was not worthy of practicing swords, and that what he held in his hand was my spirit sword.

My spirit sword was constantly struggling in Luo Wuchen's hands, but it was like a trapped animal unable to move an inch away.

In my sight, Luo Wuchen broke my spirit sword with his own hands.

My mind went blank.

"No! Don't—" I screamed and kept begging him, "Don't—"

"Master, don't—" Seeing that it was broken in two, I felt as if someone had strangled my throat, and I couldn't make any more sound.

But Luo Wuchen looked at me with such cold eyes, he threw my broken spirit sword on the ground, "Don't call me Master, you are not worthy to be my disciple." Then he turned and left.

I staggered and threw myself on the ground to pick up my broken sword, but my sword melted into fine sand and fell from my fingers. I wanted to chase the master again, and begged him not to abandon me, but my leg still Lame, I can't catch up.

I was like a bereaved dog, howling and howling.

When I woke up from the long dream, the first thing I smelled was the faint fragrance of medicine.

I opened my eyes in panic, just in time to meet Shang Luo Wuchen's gaze.

It is a gentleness that is completely different from the cold eyes in the dream.